I'm sorry for all the other interesting and engaging parts of the plot/novel, but their scenes together are what most people actually look forward to, tbh. It's too intense and I for one can't seem to care for anything else. Maybe Cang Xuan, his arc is great too and his character is my second favourite, but the rest just makes me so bored.

Hi everyone!

I did a recap of the times the drama implies that XY loves XL and someone told me to post it here as well.

Episode 19, XY's father surprises her smiling in front of the mirror containing XL's memories. She tries to hide this from him, like a teenager caught in the act. The drama focuses on the king's astonishment that his daughter isn't pining for TSJ, the one she's supposed to love, but instead thinks of another man. XY explains she isn't a romantic and doesn't trust TSJ. If he keeps his promise, so much the better, if not, too bad. But after saying she's not a romantic, she glances embarrassed at her mirror. Which tells the audience XL is in her heart while TSJ is still just a suitor for her but hasn't won her full love & trust yet.
Later, she confesses to XL she is afraid of dreaming of him = falling in love with him (fear which is only possible if she already has romantic feelings for him).

Episode 20, she throws herself into TSJ's arms and even the latter realizes she doesn't do it out of love (= she tries to forget XL by clinging to TSJ).

Episode 22, she shows physical attraction for FFB when she first met him then when he was teaching her archery.

Episode 23, when he asked her to go wandering the world with him, she agreed on the condition he abandoned his responsability. She was sincere in her answer even though she said it with an arrogant tone since she knew he couldn't. There was a hidden bitterness.
Right before, she mentions XL as a possible husband to her grandfather, just like TSJ. Which indicates she considers the two men as potential future lovers.
Later, she touches FFB's heart, understanding he is probably XL and lets him hold and caress her hand. Her gaze screams "I have feelings for you".

Episode 25, XY has the look of a lover who languishes of her man when she unmasks the guy who has entered her room. And she seems to have hope it's XL when she asks him "are you...?" before being annoyed when she thinks it's only FFB.
Later, when she knows he is XL, she tenderly watches him sleep, thinking back to fond memories before hardening herself by remembering the pain he caused her. The lyrics of the song used at this time (which is the duet of XL & XY) literally explains her thoughts: she wishes she could be with him in a next life but in this one, she feels torn while being afraid of losing him.

Episode 27
, she calls him her soulmate and wishes he was only living as FFB and not XL, the enemy of her family. She then watches him leave with so much sadness and regret.

Episode 32, when she wakes up but XL refuses to see her, her attitude, her tears and the song used literally confess her love for him, a love that she can never express and that he never lets her express.

Episode 33, when XY tells her cousin she is going to wait for TSJ, CX is surprised because he has never seen her waiting for anyone and deduces that TSJ is really special for her. At that moment, the camera focuses on XY who is making a weird sad face because there is someone she keeps waiting for: XL. She waits for him to confess to her, she waits for him to come back, she says goodbye to him every time they see each other because she doesn't know if he won't die in battle etc... Almost all their scenes since she's the princess of Haoling are goodbyes.

Episode 34 screams XY loves XL. Her reaction when he calls her name at TSJ's house is that of a hurt lover, not a friend. Then, when XL mentions how the young slave was able to survive for 40 years, talking about following his heart, being patient and not giving up a faint hope, XY turns to him apprehensively, tremolos in her voice and a look that indicates she imagines XL is telling her not to give up hope they will ever be together.
Then the drama clearly shows that XY's desire to see the young slave won, her joy at his victory and her empathy afterwards are increased tenfold because she draws a parallel with XL and thinks of the latter. Which is shown when she tearfully tells him she wished she had saved him from the arena so he wouldn't owe anyone anything and could live a free life where he wouldn't be the enemy of her family and wouldn't have a losing battle as his destiny. When XL, moved, reaches out to caress her cheek, XY doesn't move and even has eyes filled with emotion. This scene alone proves they both love each other but cannot clearly express their love because of the political situation in which they are. They can only be best friends. Even TSJ is aware of this as XY lets go of his hand, lost in her thoughts/emotions towards XL.

There is also the fact she sent him poison every month, before discovering he was FFB and next to her, the fact she always walks around with poison for him etc... (which indicates he constantly occupies her thoughts).

 nathsketch:

@herazuli Hahah thank you! Felt like a whole essay 😹 You're making absolute sense and yes, I suppose TSJ probably wouldn't let her go, so people saying he has the "purest love" or is the most selfless just drives me absolutely insane. Thanks for your input!

Thank you as well! I've also been contemplating how Xiang Liu is a little bit like the little mermaid (Hans Christian Andersen's version) HAHAHAHA but the comparison to Phantom/Erik PoTO works just as well as a whole.

 herazuli:

Thank you as well! I've also been contemplating how Xiang Liu is a little bit like the little mermaid (Hans Christian Andersen's version) HAHAHAHA but the comparison to Phantom/Erik PoTO works just as well as a whole.

Hahahahah that's the funniest thing I've heard today. I'm illustrating a Little Mermaid book (the Disney version), so now one more reason for me to really not be able to forget this man hahah

Thank you  Mimi, for doing the Lord's work here

 nathsketch:

I'm sorry for all the other interesting and engaging parts of the plot/novel, but their scenes together are what most people actually look forward to, tbh. It's too intense and I for one can't seem to care for anything else. Maybe Cang Xuan, his arc is great too and his character is my second favourite, but the rest just makes me so bored.

XL is my fave as well. So if he isn't on screen, I focus on Xuan since he's also my second favorite. I love watching these two great actors. It's quite a shame they don't share much scenes together.

thank you Mimi0108!   you have so well described key scenes where the love between XY and XL was more evident!

I cannot confirm if all these feelings were also clearly expressed and described on the novel ( so please forgive my ignorance), but based on the drama itself the way the production has decided to picture the relationship between the two is strongly hinting of a reciprocated love between the two.

I cannot wait to see how the production will continue to describe their painful love for each other in Season 2.. 

Digging thru the cast list yet again and I discovered Invisible Gong Gong is actually listed!  He's called Hong Jiang, though.   I don't recall this guy, but if any of you are re-watching, keep your eyes out for this actor -- of course, I'm sure he'll look completely different than his pic.

https://mydramalist.com/people/28349-he-yong-sheng

Mimi amg thank you for the hard work! This is going to keep me up at night again- there's just so many things that point to XY feeling the same way as XL hddjkss

 Cora:

I can't remember the last time I rooted for a relationship as hard as I'm rooting for Xiao Yao and Xiang Liu. It's actually how crazy I'm invested in every one of their scenes together. I know they're not endgame, but each one of their interactions makes it seem like they're painfully in love, but neither are brave enough to act on that love. 

Xiao Yao cried when he wasn't there to greet her after taking care of her for 37 years. And every skill she learns in the show is a skill taught to her by Xiang Liu. Archery, swimming - he's really only ever wanted the best for her, despite his own inability to choose love over his duty. Every time Xiao Yao is feeling sad, he manages to show up and lift her spirits.

If they don't have a consensual kiss once in this show, I might put my head through the drywall out of sheer misery.

omg this is how i feeeeeel!

I feel in comparison to XiangLiu, XiaoYao expresses her love to 17 so openly (honestly can't understand why), I feel so bitter.

So it would be a little redemption for my XiangLiu heart. 

 Kokuto:

Digging thru the cast list yet again and I discovered Invisible Gong Gong is actually listed!  He's called Hong Jiang, though.   I don't recall this guy, but if any of you are re-watching, keep your eyes out for this actor -- of course, I'm sure he'll look completely different than his pic.

https://mydramalist.com/people/28349-he-yong-sheng

!! He has a face now!

 Kokuto:

OMG.

I can just see Jing counting the baby's nine fox tails, like humans count fingers ... "Waaaait a minute.  Those aren't tails." 

ROFL

 

I'm sorry.  But you guys wanted them to show XL feeling XY's joy...  On the plus side, as AH said, we've seen XL as FFB turning XY's unhappiness to fun many times.

No.  I think XL only lets himself feel close to tears with XY.  Otherwise, I think it's violent freak snow storms and decimated Xiyan camps.  Or lots of drinking. ;p

My moment of redemption.

Bahahahahaa

 AH :

!! He has a face now!

Ohh so that's the troublemaker 😂

AhRa I went to your profile page and was taken aback hahahah dang those are some fine pictures!!