THE HEARTACHE OF BECOMING A KING!!!! T^T
----------------------------------I might overthink-----------------------------------THIS IS A SPECIAL CASE! In Hira case, he put Kiyoi on a pedestal as if he's a god and seems cute cause we all knew Hira thinks that he got no chance. He do it all without any intention of wanting anything in return from Kiyoi.
I'm just afraid someone might copy this or see someone do this and feel happy.. cause,, its not always the case in real life.. we all love Hira cause we knew, he do all that without the intention of wanting Kiyoi's body through this action,, ok sorry, I hope I'm overthinking things..
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This is the first time I gave a drama 10 for all category!! It's that good!!!
I really LOOVEEEE the drama finale! (I may, or may not shed a tear)
THE DRAMAA! THE HEARTACHE!! THE ROMANCEEE!!! AAAAA
The drama got a really nice vibe! The character's personality are making this relationship complicated and I LOVE IT!
I recommend this! its a light story (which I love!) with enough drama to glue your mind into it!!
And u get those after rain feeling from this, like its raining but you know you gonna see a rainbow next hahah (idk haha) The fact that this drama show another side of the coin, as in the "king's" point of view of the relationship is really heartbreaking and exiting to see the outcome!
The way they narrated and use metaphoric visuals. it was beautiful.. its like they put you through the MC lens of world, all are dull except Kiyoi. It really set the mood and let the audience dive to the feeling of the MC. The words they choose, beautifully conveyed their feeling too
I love how they show Hira's heartache without forgetting that Kiyoi also try hard and hurt in the process as well.
You should try watching this! Nice flow in plot with the right amount of surprise, the proper use of possibilities! And killer OST.
I really like how they establish that Hira is madly in love with Kiyoi. But as the audience we know how Kiyoi and Hira feels through the actor's act. The actors did so well aaaaaa and I'm so happy that we got to see Kiyoi's point of view in the drama!
The finale really letting the actors to shine and it turns out soooooo great!!!!
Not only the face! They can even show it through their voice! Many actors conveyed well with eyes, but, its rare to see one who conveyed well with words! The way Kiyoi's voice just shakes as he talks, and Hira's hopelessness !!!
The actors, directors and staffs!!! Thank you for your hard work!
I FELL IN LOVE WITH THE OST THO!!!
The OST music they choose got this scrambled feeling of screaming, longing and desperation which really goes well with the MC's inner self which is far more complicated than his looks. It was a great choice for this drama. Without any unneeded sfx so people can dive fully tot he drama.
I do see this drama's previous review, which make me question myself, do I still wanna watch this or not..
AND IM GLAD I STILL WATCH THIS REGARDLESS!!
I don't think there's anything out of line from what Kiyoi do. And im not saying that bossing your friend to buy you drinks are right, I'm just saying that I personally can see this as cute, its not that complicated, I just like how Kiyoi still stand up for Hira and just overall things Kiyoi does just seems as a cute response of a tsundere character.
btw, we can finally see Kiyoi feeling after 4 episode of Hira's "one-sided love" hahaha
Btw, kudos to the staffs! The technique they use greatly conveyed the situation! the camera works and color hue they choose.
The blue hue for many sad and complicated part of their relationship and that scene in school... its blue, but the light shine through are beautiful.
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Kept me glued to Hira and Kiyoi’s story
Fascinating, different, intriguing, just a unique show. From the cinematography, the story, to the actors. The actors portrayed their roles so well. Kiyoi and Hira are both very distinctive characters.This drama is based off the first novel Utsukushii Kare. There are three novels. Utsukushii Kare, Nikurashii kare and Nayamashii Kare. I also heard there is fourth book with content the writer wrote of extra stuff that didn’t make the three novels. This drama only tells the very beginning of their story which is the first book. With only having six episodes I thought it told the beginning of their story well. The pacing was a mix of you wanting more to you being hooked on each scene in the average 20 minute episode if that makes sense lol. I also loved the music!!
You really have to watch it before judging off of others opinions. I actually think it’s a bit more complex and unique than your average popular boy meets shy quiet boy trope that you might be thinking. This drama is for mature audiences and not for everyone. It’s not suppose to be a portrayal of reality so don’t come into watching it thinking that. Though I do like that it showed that flawed people with certain traits do indeed also have the ability to like someone and the difficulties in forming a relationship. I like that it doesn’t hide away from that and is essentially what it is about.
This is a great example of there is more thats meets the eye. There are many different perspectives to this drama and I saw it from the perspective of a great story showing two complex flawed characters trying to figure out love. They heal through each other in a way and become better and happier together. I would just watch it and see for yourself how you feel. I enjoyed it!
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2021 FAVORITE!
This show managed to do in 6 episodes what others haven't done in seasons. The characters feel so realistic and lived-in and I love that they infer the plot's trajectory. With any other show it might have seemed boring, but our two main leads are such complex characters that it just works. The script and the acting are my favourite things about the show as they paint a beautiful image of the character's inner worlds.This is my favourite show that came out in 2021. Like, I got a gagaoolala subscription for it. But I do suggest watching the fansubbed version so you don't miss out on that beautiful script and character moments that the subs on gagaoolala tends to either overlook or just simply mistranslate.
I'm hoping for a second season, there's still so much character development and character dynamics to be discovered as they go through their university years and adulthood.
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Intense in the most beautiful way.
At first I wasn’t really checking for this drama as I thought it’d be another boy falls in love with his bully but it was far from it. This is my first ever review which should tell you how much I enjoyed this drama especially the final episode. Their romance was different…and intense and definitely not for everyone but for me it was the total package. I especially enjoyed how we were able to watch the story play out from one person’s perspective and then somewhat retold from another’s. The leads did a fantastic job bringing their characters to life. I’d definitely be rewatching this!Was this review helpful to you?
Oddly entertaining but boys need to learn how to communicate...
This drama is very short, I am willing to say too short and shows these two very opposite boys with one thing and one thing incommon only and that is that both completely lack communication skills.In a way the behaviour displayed by the beautiful boy is kind of the typical bad boy, ,r popular. king... or extremely insecure child testing his surroundings to see if people around him will stay or leave. So basically this guy is actually only crying out for love. Kind of sweet but not very good...
The other boy mr stutter is this super shy, obsessive fan who puts the beautiful boy on the pedestal catering to mr beautifuls desire to be loved. He is also driving by insecurity, and some times it does become kind of creepy and cross the line... However he is actually aware of this and admits to it which is what I do love about this drama.
They actually admit to the faults, they do not ignore the problematic behaviour and actually do show the story around it as well as the problems being put up or putting someone on a pedestal can create. They also show the problems with school hierkis and true friendship, whatever that may be power relations etc...
The second lead is the perfect second lead, he is sweet, kind, understanding and brings out the best in mr stutter.
To sum it up this way way to short but very entertaining and left me wanting more.
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Certain to satisfy fujoshis, will hardly appeal for the general public
A lot of people’s reaction to this drama was absolutely surprising. Most of the show's fans say that they relationship isn't abusive nor toxic, which is laughable. The story begins with Hira humiliating himself and allowing Kiyoi and his troup to use and abuse him to fullfill their needs, wheter it's to do their homework or to buy some drinks for them. When Kiyoi learns of Hira's feelings, he does seems to treat him better, but that doesn't stop him from pushing him to the ground and calling him "disgusting" at every opportunity. But that's what healthy couples do, no?I aggree that not every couple has to be healthy but it's impossible for me to like a show in which a relationship is focused on humilitation. But it may satisfy some people's kink, which may justify the rating that this show have.
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utsukare? lots of misplaced criticism
If I'm gonna write one review per year then utsukare is my choice for 2021I would have completely bypassed this drama if it wasn't for Yusei, but I was hooked from the first episode.
I have 0 knowledge of the novel so I'm judging this drama as it is. I think defending any criticism of the drama using the novel only devalues the drama production and its actors. A successful adaptation should be able to stand on its own. And this one does.
Is this drama for you?
- both protagonists are realistically flawed so if you prefer your characters to come out the gate perfect then this drama is not for you.
- writing is subtle so if you prefer to be spoon-fed then this drama is not for you.
regarding the 3 major points of contention among the (western) audience:
1. English translation of the Japanese expression kimoi/kimochi warui
Meaning changes based on context so it's not always "gross". But even in the infamous episode 1 regardless of the translation, Kiyoi saying it was valid because one should be allowed to express their discomfort at someone who's clearly acting out of pocket towards them.
2. hate boner for Kiyoi
Kiyoi is neither abusive nor a bully. You can call him bully-adjacent if you are pressed enough, for hanging around bullies and allowing some behaviour to happen, but Kiyoi who wants to keep his unbothered prince image, behaves subtly. Typical protagonist when witnessing bullying would jump into the fray with their chest puffed and full of self-righteous attitude. On the other hand, Kiyoi's behaviour is nonchalant but gets the job done, nonetheless. Making Hira be part of Kiyoi's clique is like having a pilot fish keep close to a shark because it offers protection from other predators.
Anyway, most of the story is told from Hira's POV and when it switches to Kiyoi we see that things are not as they seem although the clues were already there since the beginning.
3. they are toxic together
They are unconventional together, but they are not toxic. Being in a toxic relationship/friendship/whatever makes one or both parties deteriorate, mentally and in other ways. I wish people would stop assigning terms like that to whatever doesn't fit their ideal.
There is a power imbalance (created by Hira) but Kiyoi does not take advantage of Hira's willingness to do absolutely everything for him, beyond basic errands. Ultimately, they don't have a negative effect on one another, and they are not worse off together than they would be separately/with other people. Hero worship and subpar communication skills are their biggest obstacles and it's something they must overcome to be together.
I think both are multifaceted and interesting characters. A couple of young messy teenagers who are insecure, lonely and bad at expressing themselves and deal with those issues differently.
Kiyoi who keeps people at arm's length and hides his weaknesses behind a harsh exterior meets Hira and wants to open up to him. However, Hira, bullied since childhood which made him shut off from the world, tends to live inside his own head so it's hard to get through to him.
Performance wise, Riku and Yusei did a stellar job. Riku balanced the awkward and the disturbing well, while Yusei has very expressive eyes and knows how to use them like a weapon. Their acting in the final episode was especially good. I fully expected Riku to nail his scenes but Yusei surprised me. As a certified JrExile fan I have watched other projects with him like Mannequin Night Fever and Back to the Memories, but Kiyoi's character was complex, and Yusei rose to the occasion.
Rewatch value is high because for a drama as subtle as this the devil is in the details.
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A Complex BL Masterpiece (And the Actors Are the Main Reason Why)
This BL might be the only awkward, puzzling yet oddly beautiful BL series there is. If not, it would be very hard to compete against this.Story:
First of all, the show highlights and puts a huge emphasis on great characterization. It is the icing on the cake.
The lead characters are well thought-out; unhealthy, imperfect and strange in their own ways. They have dark layers just like humans in the real world. What if the point is that the main characters in this show aren't just 'toxic/problematic,' but are humans who make mistakes and misunderstand situations?
The flaws of the characters also make sense because they connect to their personalities and behaviors, giving it a realistic quality. Most BLs just give a character a flaw, but doesn't know why or where it stems from, and sometimes the flaws go way over the top that it makes it incongruent to the fundamentals of the character, or even worse, they just add it to make the story 'interesting' even if it makes no sense to the plot.
Hira and Kiyoi also have relationship dynamics that are severely misunderstood.
At first, the lead characters are deceivingly different in personalities, like polar opposites, but as the story progresses, it's clearer they are equally obsessed with and desperate for each other because of how lonely and deprived they are from affection and trust. How they actually view each other is very similar.
This is why I think even if they're different on the outside, the reason why they're attracted to each other is because they possibly sense they share the same problems and they both match each other to fulfill their needs and desires, but both of them keep hurting each other because no one wanted to admit it or take action.
Honestly, this story is just excellent. I can write endless essays on it, and I don't even know how others and I are able to keep doing it. It's like you notice something new when you watch or rewatch an episode.
Also, an interesting thing I want to point out is that people might think that My Beautiful Man is only how Hira views Kiyoi, but that's how Kiyoi views Hira too. That's why in the main poster, they are symmetrical to each other. It's also clearly hinted from Kiyoi's point of view in the series. I don't know, I just find it to be a cool detail. It makes me think that the show might be implying everything about them (their love/frustration/misunderstanding) is precisely equal. I could be wrong and just assuming though.
Acting:
Hagiwara Riku is terrifyingly convincing. He seems to thoroughly understand the specific nuances his character possesses, and it is even more impressive that he knows how to act them out properly. From hand movements, posture, etc. It seems he views his character in an analytical way.
A character like Hira is very difficult to act out because he is distinct. Even if he is that 'stereotypical' nerd nobody likes, he has additional qualities that are uncommon, making the body language and expressions almost impossible to act out unless you've done research or have experienced seeing others/yourself go through the same. I even doubt an acting coach alone can make him this good.
Yagi Yusei is magical here. I can sense his patient and profound approach. Being physically beautiful is one thing, but to embody a 'beautiful' aura/vibe? Not everybody knows how that works, but Yagi Yusei knows how. He also knows how to make his eyes expressive, and you get an idea on what he feels depending on what/who he looks at. His emotions and intentions build up in every episode, and I must say, his performance in episode 6 is raw, outstanding, and quite unexpected. The way he acts frustration is natural, you can see how pent-up his character was. He did a great job.
Needless to say, the two of them are extremely good actors. People who love this series need to put emphasis on this more. Their acting is the reason why the characters are so good and intricate. Even if the writing is good, if you have bad actors, it would never work out because they don't have the ability to show visual details. They approached this very artistically and psychologically rather than just for the sake of being on a show to gain popularity. These qualities are rare, and even rarer that TWO actors accomplished it together, usually you only see one actor succeeding in such endeavors.
I desperately want to see them with each other again, or at least in equally complex series or films where they can showcase their talents.
Rewatch Value:
Obviously high, but I have to be honest here and say that this drama might only attract specific types of people, so I will reconsider.
The story and characters aren't simple at all, and you might want to rewatch to catch some details and further examine the nuances of the characters and the meaning behind the things they do or why they act in such ways.
In my opinion, it's not that much rewatchable if you're not into that kind of stuff and get headaches from confusing stories and subtle characters, because the story is heavily about people longing for each other, but keep misunderstanding each other because they both have personality and communication issues.
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CHEF'S KISS
When I read the synopsis, Hira being a loner who will be pushed around by Kiyoi, I thought this is going to be a toxic relationship. I was a little adamant to watch this at first. But when I finally did, I was hooked.There was the voice over of Hara for the first half of the story. I asked why is it necessary to have voice overs? But I guess it fit the story. We can clearly see things from his perspective, how he became a loner, how he views the world, or how he perceives his peers, especially Kiyoi. For him, Kiyoi is something far above him, a person likened to a God. So no matter how deep his feelings for Kiyoi, he just can't imagine of Kiyoi reciprocating his feelings, or even just look at him like equals. So he just never considered the possibility of being with Kiyoi.
For the second half of the story, we will be given a glimpse of Kiyoi's perspective. Oh, my! I was so happy that we finally get to understand what was happening the entire time! It's not like he wants to bully Hira. He just thought keeping Hira near him would give him a clue of what's going on in his mind. I mean, yes, it makes sense since Hira is always by himself. He doesn't talk much and just lives everyday like an invisible man. Kiyoi, it appears, has been waiting for Hira all along. He was just waiting for Hira to confess his feelings which never happened during the first half of the story. He ends up waiting in vain.
The story is not toxic. I just don't know why people would call their relationship toxic. All along I felt okay and not bothered all throughout the series. I can say this because I've read so many novels, Mangas, and webtoon that feature toxic relationships. So for me, in my gauge/ meter of toxicity, this drama is 1 out of 10. Heck, can I say 0 over 10 instead?
Acting: Not over the top. It was a good performance from the main actors.
Rewatch value: OMG, yes! I am rewatching it after writing this review. I just love how they end up confirming their feelings.
Final words: Don't be scared to start watching this. This will be worth of your time. Keep safe!
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(May contain spoiler?) LOVED IT
I think this is currently my number one japanese BL. It's just so good. The acting was perfect, the plot and synopsis were super interesting and not cliche or over-used. I've rewatched the last episode a hundred times and still cry when I watch it. The emotions through out the show are just so pure to me. Even though many have said their dynamic is toxic, I'd have to disagree. I think this BL is very different and more real than some others out there. Hira's character is really intersting and I think even Kiyoi was a surprise. I didn't have much expectations for this BL but they definitely delivered.100 % recommend watching it :)
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Fav BL of the year (in my opinion)
This review is not going to be long because im not usually type in english.At first I never expecting this series is gonna be this good. I only watch this series because I wanna fill my time at first. But suddenly its getting better especially at episode 3.
What I like from this series:
- Good acting by the actors.
- I like the way how the story arranged. From toxic looking until sweet af. (but I like Kiyoi since tsundere is my type)
- Also, even this series is only 6 episodes. I feel like I watched a many episodes drama. Maybe because of the time skip, character development, setting changed, etc.
- Cinematic really good~ especially when Hira & Kiyoi playing with water (?) >0< ?
- Music also really good. My fav one is the piano rhythm when Hira & Kiyoi riding bike at episode 2. LOVE THAT MUSIC
- As an art student, I really love interpretation. Maybe thats why I love this series so much. Because I always imagine about their life & what they think of each other.
-Confession scene is perfect af. Kiyoi emotional expression just too amazing. I like the way he said "Ore wa.. Kamisama jane yo." uwaaa I'm tearing af.
BTW, rewatch value for this series is seriously is a must. The more you watch, the more you feel. Like the more you can interpret. Such as the scenes where we can see Kiyoi s actually cares for Hira. (in my interpretation atleast)
I think thats all. I cant say so much since I'm introvert af. I love this seriessss.
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An intimate POV love story; one of my new all-time favorite BLs
Snapshot Impressions of Each Episode: [[SPOILERS!]]1. The writing is introspective, honest, and beautiful. I like the POV format and the window into Hira's mind.
"I want to keep these near me forever. I've never felt this way before. A cruel and glorious imprint. Beautiful like a spring storm. Overwhelming in its power."
"What a nuisance. Just take your time. I'll wait."
2. I really, really liked this episode. It reminded me of my years in high school when I felt disassociated from those around me, even though they inhabited my space and held my time hostage. Bonus @13:44 when Kiyoi startled the pants off Hira on his bike, LOL. I also thought it was especially poignant when Hira mentally envisioned Kiyoi's expression after having called him a "strange guy" while on the bike, and we as the viewer could see Kiyoi was, in fact, gently smiling. I thought that was beautiful.
"I live here, but I want to go home."
"Because I want to be invisible. When I look through the viewfinder, I feel like I'm cropped out from the rest of the world. No one can bother me. I'm in a place where I can be alone."
"I am yanked again by hope and despair I have no right to feel...."
3. The writing continues to move me. The shifting dynamic between Kiyoi and Hira is mesmerizing. The visual of Hira and the symbolic image of his shadow walking upstairs toward confrontation was * p o w e r f u l *. Finding a voice in action.
"The apex of the pyramid began to waver and change."
"Ever since childhood, I floated along in filthy water...Thanks to Kiyoi, I want to move forward despite the stagnant air."
"There you go again." - the affection slowly lilting into his voice when he says that now, is really precious.
4. OOf. The time passage. The desperate yearning behind eyes that hadn't met in years. The hurt.
I'm eating every moment; every in-between stolen glance, with eagerness.
"University life is pleasant. I have friends who understand me and yet, so easily and abruptly...like a flash storm. Kiyoi wreaks havoc in my life just as it was starting to come together."
"For several insipid years, all I did was grow up."
5. Oh. my. goodness. The sudden switch to Kiyoi's POV. To be able to see behind those pensive eyes. It was thrilling.
I've always known there was a level of complexity behind his throwaway barbs and indecisive micro-expressions. He is a man. Thinking and feeling and deserving of the right to own his emotions, like anyone else. He is not just a face to be idolized and doted on. His vulnerability, insecurity, and heart-rendering yearning were indescribably beautiful. All this time he's been more than the face Hira has relentlessly stared at. The miscommunication between their unspoken words is truly heartbreaking, especially because their souls and thoughts are more in synch than either of them realize.
"I want to be stared at with those eyes again. My heart pounds with that hope...I didn't know what that feeling was called. I love you."
"I wanted to know the feelings behind the look in his eyes."
"There's no best way to describe my relationship with him. But...because of Hira, I want to move forward despite the stagnant air."
"I want to see him again. I never want to see him again."
6. It's hard to put this final episode into words. A whole different side comes out of Hira when he's with Kiyoi in these later years; it's sensual and almost preying in its intensity and I admittedly watched the finger scene an unhealthy amount of times, lol. Even despite Kiyoi's obvious desire to be understood and footed to the ground with Hira, the high pedestal on which Hira has placed Kiyoi keeps them both unobtainable from the other. The climax between them when Kiyoi *f i n a l l y* let out his true feelings gave me total body chills. His voice was so raw and pure and full of pain. It's also unfathomable how sad it is that Hira simply can't imagine being the object of Kiyoi's affection. That Kiyoi is literally screaming out his frustration and his feelings to Hira, but Hira can only assume he's referring to someone else. The bike ride at the end and the synchronicity in which their communication lines up spoke more than additional scenes needed to say (although I admittedly wanted to see more of the lovey-dovey part of their relationship because their chemistry was insannnne). I'm thankful for the way it ended; they make a beautiful couple and the journey it took warrants a happy ending.
"I wish I could spend the rest of my life being the light shining on Kiyoi."
"I don't care if you chase your ideal of me... but leave the real me alone. I don't think you'll ever understand my feelings."
"I'm not the 'King.' Screw you!"
"Makes me wonder why I fell in love with a creepy guy like you."
Overall Takeaway:
This is likely my new, all-time favorite BL. At the very least, my favorite Japanese love story.
We're looking through the viewfinder into their intimate thoughts and insecurities; they're two dots, never overlapping, but always yearning for the other. How they find their way to each other was both heartbreaking and beautiful; the climax burns intensely. I've already rewatched my favorite scenes and each time, I have butterflies and am mesmerized by its beauty.
My only negative is the theme song- it's very...jarring? Loud? Overly peppy? I hope they release a movie version of this series so I don't have to skip through the theme song with each episode because it's always kind of grating. I wish they'd used something more pretty at the end scene with them together and not the theme - it takes me out of an otherwise gorgeous shot.
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