Double Helix Episode 11

One Stars

even before watching this ep, i knew when it aired that i wouldn't like anything i saw & that's why i put off watching the last couple of eps for so long. *************************************************************************************************************i feel sad & sorry for LuFeng - he has been made into the main bad-guy that viewer's & character's alike curse out & dump all the wrongs of the world on. while he is the only one that has truly suffered through this BL, from start to finish even when he should have had peace & happiness, he never really had it. if it wasn't his father & family it was the surrounding or worse the person he loved. in this ep we see clearly who Xiao Chen really is at heart; he is a passive, self-involved moron that rather throw himself a pity party then assert himself verbally or physically. his f*ckin younger brother came in like a wrecking ball, manhandling him & what does Xiao Chen do??? let him & his bf dictate what is going to be?!??? not opening his mouth even once - why???? ************************************************************************************************************************but LuFeng is the big-bad-wolf that Xiao Chen gotta avoid - really??? who is playing whom? who is hurting whom??? at least Xiao Chen has always known where he stood with Lufeng - was that ever the case for LuFeng??? even after Xiao Chen realized he didn't want to part ways & got out of the car, did he then (as an adult would) have a conversation with LuFeng? talk about the issues between them, so it can be solved / resolved & they can decide how to move forward as a couple??? ****************** Nope, he needed to wait until LuFeng confessed again? LuFeng has laid his soul bare so many time only to get his heart crushed under Xiao Chen & his families feet & somehow i don't think the hell LuFeng has been put through is over... one last ep to go - guess in others eyes he hasn't repented enough or paid a high enough price to be worthy of Xiao Chen - talk about a bad joke - as IMO Xiao Chen is the one unworthy of LuFeng.

Read More

Bawling my eyes

Dmnnn I'm so happy I'm literally crying 😭😭😭 The moment Yi Chen came running back to his MANNNN huuuuu fhdkdjdjdjdj. After everything they've been through, that scene hit me so hard. And can we talk about Lu Feng's character development??? I mean, after all the things he did before, of course there had to be some character development somewhere 😭.

What I love is that it's not the dramatic kind. It's in the small things. The careful words, the way he acts around Yi Chen, how he tries not to pressure him, and how willing he is to let Yi Chen adjust at his own pace. That alone shows how much Lu Feng still loves him. And the fact that they remained friends first before getting back together is what makes it even better for me (as someone who still hasn't read the novel yet 😭).

However, despite all the happiness this episode gave me, I don't think Lu Feng has fully regained his sense of assurance yet.And Ayden... DAMN. The way he portrays that lingering anxiety is so good. Even when Lu Feng is smiling and happy, you can still feel that fear underneath. Like he's still worried that one day Yi Chen might change his mind.I just hope Yi Chen realizes that his man is still anxious and scared. That after losing him so many times, a part of Lu Feng is probably still wondering if Yi Chen will one day choose to leave again. Especially when it comes to his brother. I just hope Yi Chen continues to show Lu Feng that this time, he's choosing him. Not because he has to, but because he wants to.

And now I think I finally understand why Yi Chen's brother and his partner were able to be happy together while Yi Chen and Lu Feng spent years suffering. At first, I kept wondering why one couple seemed so stable while these two were constantly going through pain after pain 😭.

But I think the difference is commitment. Yi Chen's brother chose to fully commit to his relationship despite everything. He made a choice and stood by it. Meanwhile, Yi Chen has always loved Lu Feng, but he was afraid of what that commitment would mean. Afraid of hurting his family. Afraid of disappointing people. Afraid of choosing himself.

And because he's the older one, I feel like he carried even more responsibility and guilt on his shoulders. That's why Lu Feng was always the one chasing, waiting, yearning, and fighting for them. Huuuu, when you really think about it, Lu Feng spent years proving that he wanted Yi Chen.The question was whether Yi Chen could finally choose Lu Feng the same way Lu Feng had always chosen him.

And seeing Yi Chen run back to him??? That wasn't just a reunion scene for me. That was Yi Chen finally making a choice. Not his family's choice.
Not society's choice. Not his brother's choice.

His own. And maybe that's why this episode made me cry so much 😭✋.

Read More

Younger's brother perspectives

So many people are hating Yi Chen's brother, but there are always two sides to every story.
Put yourself in his shoes. If someone hurt your family, caused your mother to end up in the hospital, pushed you down the stairs and left you crippled, how would you feel? He spent years in rehabilitation just to get back to normal. Then he suddenly lost contact with his older brother, and years later he found out that Lu Feng was the one who kidnapped and imprisoned him, and that his brother almost lost his life.

Yes, the younger brother is a hypocrite in some ways. He is gay himself, yet he hid the text messages and interfered with his brother's relationship. He is also in a happy relationship with his own partner. I know many people will say, "If he can be happy, why can't he let his brother be happy too?"

But how many times did Lu Feng hurt his brother? From the younger brother's perspective, Lu Feng was never someone he could trust. Everything he did came from wanting to protect his brother, even if he went about it the wrong way.

At the end of the day, he still let his brother go and accepted his relationship with Lu Feng. I'm not defending all of his actions, but I can understand why he acted the way he did.

I honestly don't know why so many people keep hating on the brother. He is a flawed character, but that's what makes him interesting. Without him, this series wouldn't be nearly as good as it is. Just enjoy the show and appreciate the different perspectives.

Read More