Girl don't lie to yourself you know that aint the only feeling that kiss gave you, haha!
Oh my love! I honestly swear it gave me butterflies, but like the sweetest honey dripping from their wings butterflies🥰... I felt soft, like a melting pot of butter. I might be hardcore, cause that smooch ain't giving me sexual vibes... I felt trust, tenderness, vulnerability, acceptance, understanding and affection, in other words LOVE💕
Umm, well the little tiny moments have been there in all episodes. Sean just did not know what he was feeling…
I don't think it's sexual attraction between them at this point, more of a heart to heart feeling, like slow gentle loving... White ignites Sean's will to live, he makes him want to be happy, to smile and to genuinely trust someone (probably in a long time)... I might be wrong but I feel like they are like two vulnerable people standing in the midst of a chaotic, broken world finding their way each other... Even the kiss didn't feel sexual to me, more it felt like mutual affection, a need to belong, a gradual anchoring of each other
The line on the rooftop where White says," Sean, what if we hadn't done these things?" It's almost like he is asking, "What if I hadn't come to your garage? What if I hadn't met you guys? What if you hadn't known me? Would you still trust me? Would we still be the same?" .....
Like he is telling Sean we can forget whatever is happening between us, you don't have to do this. And I think this comes from White's innate guilt that's eating him because he cares for Sean (most likely loves by now) and still believes that Sean thinks he is Black. White probably thinks he is betraying the trust again that Sean has placed in him, and I believe that's why we see the slight hesitation (played so so well by Gun)...
And Sean decidedly at that point, (at least I feel), knows that's not Black, but someone else who truly feels deeply for him even loves him. And kudos to Off's acting! You can see the conviction, the belief in his face when he realizes, that this not-Black is scared of the fact that he loves me, that he is giving me an out, that he is going to keep on acting that there is nothing between us... And so he steps forward, determined to make not-Black understand that he gets it, he understands and he wants this too. And the kiss itself is like poetry in motion: the song, the sunset, the slightly smoky sky, surrounded by metal containers, broken staircases, scratchy walls is so delicate, so soft, so peaceful....
PS: I don't know why but this kiss gave me a very soft almost gentle feeling, similar to what I felt while watching a beautiful kdrama called "Just Between Lovers"!!
Finally: I JUST AM SO INCREDIBLY IN LOVE WITH "NOT ME".
Genuine question, does anybody feel Sean gets more emotionally vulnerable whenever White is around?? Like he gets his nightmares and cries to sleep hugging White, but when he shared the bed with Namo they were so far apart and their conversation the next morning didn't seem like Sean got his nightmares with her around. I, personally get a feeling that Sean is affected way more by White than anybody else in his life, even more than he himself realizes. And the cool part I think is White doesn't even know that he is affecting Sean to a deeper level, tilting the guy off his axis day by day!
I feel like the Pride flag scene had so many beautiful layers in it to unpack. The moment of them under the rainbow 🌈 pallete felt like White was re-lighting the flames in Sean's heart, reigniting his sunken will, to live again, to be happy again...... Oh my the feels!!!!
I feel like all the mistakes they made in their missions so far, are actually exactly the mistakes I would expect of a naive, college gang of emotionally unstable boys purely driven by a tremendous sense of loss to commit. Like these guys are not trained group of vigilantes or even terrorists or any form of the actual organization. 'Training' as they call it is simply working in a garage, play fighting each other, and jumping off roofs purely from adrenaline. Are they stupid, emotional fools? Absolutely, a 100%. But that's what makes this so compelling. They are aware they can get caught, and what they are doing is bonkers, but they pursue nonetheless, which is what happens when people are driven to the edge; when people have nothing left to lose. I even feel they don't care if they get caught if it brings down Tawi's empire (in Sean's case at least). The interesting thing is Black has at some point got caught actually, I mean someone beat him to almost death, which means he definitely was caught by someone, doing something like this. And the gang has no idea because like I said they are not a group of organized vandals or anything like that. They are an emotionally recked group of broken boys with broken dreams, trying to hold on.
As for White, I think he understands finally no matter how hard he tries he can't really impersonate his brother, especially in such abnormal situations, so he kind of just stops. And given the fact, no one who looks exactly and identically similar to another human could be suspected to be a completely different person is what is getting him through from being found out. He is doing a piss poor job of being Black because he tried and he realized he can't really be his brother. Further White is not trained in acting or espionage. He himself is driven by a need to stay in this band of ragtag broken boys because he wants to protect his brother... and it's not like the others didn't notice. They did and they do suspect him, but since it's insane to think Black even has a sibling let alone a freaking twin coming from Russia, they don't really dig deep. I feel at the end of the day this series is more about empathizing with these characters and their decisions rather than rationalizing because I don't think anybody knows what mistakes we are capable of making when faced with grief and loss of such extent.
Black was growing too iin privilage house remember his mother is Judge? From ep 1 White discover are wrong...
True, but I feel Black probably either faced or maybe witnessed something grossly unjust while staying with his mother, or at some point in his life that made him question and grow so fiercely critical and antagonistic of the social administrative and judicial system....
Every time I watch a new episode of Not Me, I want to reiterate just how good this series is! Like the freaking message is so throw-in-your-face, and yet so subtle, that even I forget if what I'm rooting for is ethically right or wrong. 'Not Me' tells us that the social justice system, the governance have clearly failed Sean ( and most likely Yok, Gram, Black and Gumpha too in some way) so bad that all he is left with is seeking stone-cold revenge, even if it costs his life. While White has had a pretty cushy life, with no such problems probably because of this same justice system and social construct, allowing him to not be driven by such intense emotions during their mission. He clearly understands when the gang is crossing a line that can actually harm them. And the other crucial part is White has also started to care for the guys especially Sean. This show is not really telling us who is right and who is wrong between Sean and White, just showing how privilege, wealth, class, circumstances can affect people's motivations and decisions. And I think for the first time, I saw how cool, composed and level-headed White really is: he stuck to his morals and tried in his way to honestly, actually protect HIS gang, even if Sean feels White betrayed him. It's like now White is being more White in episode 6 than trying to emulate Black. He understands the gang now, he is starting to probably hate unfair privilege too but not in the same feral way as his brother (and the rest of the gang) does, but more like him, subdued, controlled, more constitutionally lawful but still trying to fight injustice. Really kudos to Off and Gun, for pulling off such complicated emotions with not too much dialogue... it's like their eyes are speaking and doing all the acting for them. And lastly, I'm honestly super happy with the make-up team too, for giving them a realistic skin texture and not caking the actors' faces trying to hide every acne and pore. So exited for the next episodes!!
The slow burn, the angst, the tension is soo freaking good! Between all the 3 would-be couples....
The moment when White sees Sean with another girl on the bed, the way he reacts, the tiny, angry/ jealous shove, the tussle, the simmering feelings breaking out on White's face when he finally pushes off Sean. Like he can't quite put a finger on what he feels at that moment. White wants to stay strong, objective and simply find his brother's enemy, but I feel like, his act falls apart whenever he is with Sean like he can't help himself, and seeing someone else in his place beside Sean, must have hurt him in a way he doesn't even understand. And Gram and Black/White, oh gosh! While Sean is intrigued, vaguely attracted to the new Black, Gram is starting to, maybe not like the new Black (White), because the one he likes/ fell in love with was the spit-fire, rebellious, Black (the original). The putting-his -face-so-close-to-White, like he was about to actually kiss White (I honestly wish they had kissed!) felt like he really just wanted to see if this Black, is his Black, the one loves. Because, like in the earlier episodes, he is the one most friendly, comfortable with White, and in this episode, he is the one who finally realizes something is not exactly right... And so the rasmalai, which was definitely a test, that most likely White spectacularly failed!! And Dan Yok; I am actually quite happy that they made Dan a cop like that adds a whole ton of spice to their already sizzling chemistry!! A delinquent and an underground graffiti artist/ cop, trying to change society while falling in love, this is what romantic dreams are made of!! I'm just in love with everything in this series. The acting is literally top-notch. The emotions, the dilemma, the frustration, the anger, the hopelessness, the joy is just on point. The cinematography, the script so far, the direction, the message they are trying to convey it's just sooo freaking good! And finally, I'm a sucker for slow-burn, angsty romance, that brews under the skin until it bursts open hurting so bad but feels amazing at the same time, and NOT ME is giving me everything I've craved, till now. So, fingers crossed the rest is going to be awesome as well!
PS: Gun's chemistry with everyone, is literally no joke!
I think it's a testament to how good this series is, that 45 mins honestly feels like only 5 mins. I'm really loving it so far; so different and unique from other BLs. The acting, direction, the plot, the message, it's just, really, really good. Can't wait for the next episodes.
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this is the song during the kiss, I believe.
Like he is telling Sean we can forget whatever is happening between us, you don't have to do this. And I think this comes from White's innate guilt that's eating him because he cares for Sean (most likely loves by now) and still believes that Sean thinks he is Black. White probably thinks he is betraying the trust again that Sean has placed in him, and I believe that's why we see the slight hesitation (played so so well by Gun)...
And Sean decidedly at that point, (at least I feel), knows that's not Black, but someone else who truly feels deeply for him even loves him. And kudos to Off's acting! You can see the conviction, the belief in his face when he realizes, that this not-Black is scared of the fact that he loves me, that he is giving me an out, that he is going to keep on acting that there is nothing between us... And so he steps forward, determined to make not-Black understand that he gets it, he understands and he wants this too.
And the kiss itself is like poetry in motion: the song, the sunset, the slightly smoky sky, surrounded by metal containers, broken staircases, scratchy walls is so delicate, so soft, so peaceful....
PS: I don't know why but this kiss gave me a very soft almost gentle feeling, similar to what I felt while watching a beautiful kdrama called "Just Between Lovers"!!
Finally: I JUST AM SO INCREDIBLY IN LOVE WITH "NOT ME".
I, personally get a feeling that Sean is affected way more by White than anybody else in his life, even more than he himself realizes. And the cool part I think is White doesn't even know that he is affecting Sean to a deeper level, tilting the guy off his axis day by day!
Like these guys are not trained group of vigilantes or even terrorists or any form of the actual organization. 'Training' as they call it is simply working in a garage, play fighting each other, and jumping off roofs purely from adrenaline.
Are they stupid, emotional fools? Absolutely, a 100%.
But that's what makes this so compelling.
They are aware they can get caught, and what they are doing is bonkers, but they pursue nonetheless, which is what happens when people are driven to the edge; when people have nothing left to lose.
I even feel they don't care if they get caught if it brings down Tawi's empire (in Sean's case at least).
The interesting thing is Black has at some point got caught actually, I mean someone beat him to almost death, which means he definitely was caught by someone, doing something like this. And the gang has no idea because like I said they are not a group of organized vandals or anything like that. They are an emotionally recked group of broken boys with broken dreams, trying to hold on.
As for White, I think he understands finally no matter how hard he tries he can't really impersonate his brother, especially in such abnormal situations, so he kind of just stops.
And given the fact, no one who looks exactly and identically similar to another human could be suspected to be a completely different person is what is getting him through from being found out. He is doing a piss poor job of being Black because he tried and he realized he can't really be his brother.
Further White is not trained in acting or espionage. He himself is driven by a need to stay in this band of ragtag broken boys because he wants to protect his brother... and it's not like the others didn't notice. They did and they do suspect him, but since it's insane to think Black even has a sibling let alone a freaking twin coming from Russia, they don't really dig deep.
I feel at the end of the day this series is more about empathizing with these characters and their decisions rather than rationalizing because I don't think anybody knows what mistakes we are capable of making when faced with grief and loss of such extent.
Like the freaking message is so throw-in-your-face, and yet so subtle, that even I forget if what I'm rooting for is ethically right or wrong.
'Not Me' tells us that the social justice system, the governance have clearly failed Sean ( and most likely Yok, Gram, Black and Gumpha too in some way) so bad that all he is left with is seeking stone-cold revenge, even if it costs his life.
While White has had a pretty cushy life, with no such problems probably because of this same justice system and social construct, allowing him to not be driven by such intense emotions during their mission.
He clearly understands when the gang is crossing a line that can actually harm them. And the other crucial part is White has also started to care for the guys especially Sean.
This show is not really telling us who is right and who is wrong between Sean and White, just showing how privilege, wealth, class, circumstances can affect people's motivations and decisions.
And I think for the first time, I saw how cool, composed and level-headed White really is: he stuck to his morals and tried in his way to honestly, actually protect HIS gang, even if Sean feels White betrayed him. It's like now White is being more White in episode 6 than trying to emulate Black. He understands the gang now, he is starting to probably hate unfair privilege too but not in the same feral way as his brother (and the rest of the gang) does, but more like him, subdued, controlled, more constitutionally lawful but still trying to fight injustice.
Really kudos to Off and Gun, for pulling off such complicated emotions with not too much dialogue... it's like their eyes are speaking and doing all the acting for them.
And lastly, I'm honestly super happy with the make-up team too, for giving them a realistic skin texture and not caking the actors' faces trying to hide every acne and pore.
So exited for the next episodes!!
The moment when White sees Sean with another girl on the bed, the way he reacts, the tiny, angry/ jealous shove, the tussle, the simmering feelings breaking out on White's face when he finally pushes off Sean. Like he can't quite put a finger on what he feels at that moment. White wants to stay strong, objective and simply find his brother's enemy, but I feel like, his act falls apart whenever he is with Sean like he can't help himself, and seeing someone else in his place beside Sean, must have hurt him in a way he doesn't even understand.
And Gram and Black/White, oh gosh! While Sean is intrigued, vaguely attracted to the new Black, Gram is starting to, maybe not like the new Black (White), because the one he likes/ fell in love with was the spit-fire, rebellious, Black (the original). The putting-his -face-so-close-to-White, like he was about to actually kiss White (I honestly wish they had kissed!) felt like he really just wanted to see if this Black, is his Black, the one loves. Because, like in the earlier episodes, he is the one most friendly, comfortable with White, and in this episode, he is the one who finally realizes something is not exactly right... And so the rasmalai, which was definitely a test, that most likely White spectacularly failed!!
And Dan Yok; I am actually quite happy that they made Dan a cop like that adds a whole ton of spice to their already sizzling chemistry!! A delinquent and an underground graffiti artist/ cop, trying to change society while falling in love, this is what romantic dreams are made of!!
I'm just in love with everything in this series. The acting is literally top-notch. The emotions, the dilemma, the frustration, the anger, the hopelessness, the joy is just on point. The cinematography, the script so far, the direction, the message they are trying to convey it's just sooo freaking good!
And finally, I'm a sucker for slow-burn, angsty romance, that brews under the skin until it bursts open hurting so bad but feels amazing at the same time, and NOT ME is giving me everything I've craved, till now. So, fingers crossed the rest is going to be awesome as well!
PS: Gun's chemistry with everyone, is literally no joke!