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ok maybe just me, but when the person in black…

ok maybe just me, but when the person in black stood up (after the syringe got thrown) given their build, i am 99% sure - it's a woman (1). 2ndly when Wasan's mother was found, people commented on her lack of strength but suddenly she did her hair. not saying that there aint men that can style a woman's hair, but how hers was done-up, reaffirms my assumption that it is a woman that "helped" her. & lastly (more of a question) i assumed that the terminal patient's wanted out & were asking for help & the medical professional just granted them their wish, but if twice now there was proof of a struggle, that means this person isn't motivated from pity, but is a psycho... no?!? ****************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************Kan "confession" was him getting out of a sticky situation, a misdirect. not that i doubt he is genuinely attracted to Wasan, but they haven't known each other long enough for 'like' to develop. & he needed whatever he & nurse Onanong r up too, to get exposed. i don't think they r killing patient's together, but they r up to something that isn't sanctioned by the hospital. will see if i aint wrong lol

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this was a good start, it was interesting…

this was a good start, it was interesting & loved the cinematography. hope this doesn't end up like Manner of Death which turned stupid pretty fast (yeah i am the odd one out, but it is what it is) that relied on the mains; their looks, their willingness to strip & their sexual chemistry, nothing else - that's why i dropped that ASAP. **********************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************for now, this was an interesting ep & i liked the intro to most of the character's. the medical assistance in death issue is more of a moral question, not just if the laws (of a certain country) allow this or not. so i aint gonna address that. but if Doc Kan & nurse Onanong r helping terminal patient's "pass on". Kan is acting too suspicious IMO, not to mention (get he is attracted to Wasan), dude's a Police Major who is investigating the deaths of the terminal patient's & here Kan is playing with fire, always seeking him out. play it cool & distance ur-self. or maybe he is thinking if he gets close, Wasan could give him inside info that would help him avoid getting caught - idk. ***********************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************side note: what is the Director's deal? it seemed like he has it in for Kan - am i wrong?!? ah & i hope the goat sacrificed at the start was CGI. that Uncle Som didn't even kill it, poor thing was still alive & kicking, that's just torture

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One Stars

well that was an exhilarating ending... am happy for Xiao Zhi that he got his man & am happy for Chen Li that he decided to stop running away from Xiao Zhi. but(!) given the fact that, they were still hiding at the end in the lychee orchards, means they still in the closet. which idk how i feel about. *********************************************************************************************now Xiao Zhi's roommate (that he moved in with), he looks at Xiao Zhi as more then a friend & he wasn't running away from being with Xiao Zhi - so personally think he would be a healthier fit for Xiao Zhi. **************************************************so if i don't think too much, then this was sweet & hot, am happy for the mains that they finally came together. but if start to think then..... oh well the end so never mind. *********************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************but this was well made & the plot (while hella short) was interesting, if frustrating. acting was good & i just loved the cinematography, there were scenes that were a picture come to life, it was so beautiful. enjoyed this short BL & surprised it came out of China. now just hope the actors (who i assume r newbies) here wont sufferer for any backlash, as they were way bolder then what we saw in Addicted...

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idk about others, but i genuinely need for…

idk about others, but i genuinely need for Xiao Zhi to move on & find someone that will love him back & not run away scared of his own shadow. i get Chen Li's fear & they r justified, but he is leaving crumbs for Xiao Zhi & the sec Xiao Zhi gets too close, he runs away. this isn't fair on Xiao Zhi. u messed in ur head, u deal with that - but keep ur distance from anyone that u could inadvertently hurt. ***********************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************i get Xiao Zhi isn't moving on cause he was ghosted & still holds their time together near & dear. he thinks that if he just tries he could at least be close to Chen Li (like in the past). even if he was dating someone else, isn't gay & can't return the same feelings, at least they could be as close as brother's - he just wants to be close to him. & this is why i need him to find someone new, that will make his stop going after a lost cause. at least while he isn't ready to face his own feelings - Chen Li is a lost cause.

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One Stars

why he have to stick around for Xiao Zhi's break down?!? he ran away when he could've chosen to either follow through, or break it off in a better way - then just up & disappear like he did. *******************************************************************even if Xiao Zhi's brother realize & tell him to FO, he is an adult & could've found a way to contact Xiao Zhi & say farewell, anything but ghosting him & then appearing in his life like nothing went on between them. ***************************************poor Xiao Zhi made to feel abnormal as if it was all in his head - that f*cked up! little wonder he broke down the way he did, considering treating him like nothing went on between them & he was treating him like he just the younger sibling of his friend - bleedin messed-up. *********************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************side note: that roommate calling him a "faggot" if anyone talked to me like that i would ask them if that was wishful thinking cause they got the hots for me. that would shut anyone up. & if it caused a fight - so?!? there were asking for it. u don't back down from bullies....

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One Stars

the cinematography & landscape shots r really really pretty. but the subs being ant size & changing at a rapid pace is making it hard to understand what is going on, as worried if i missed something important. *************************************************the fact the siblings r like oil & water - welcome to the sibling experience, even when there isn't a huge age gap, the older sibling thinks their younger sibling is a baby & they to old to hag out with babies. they suffer them at best when they need to & they will be there if someone is bullying them, but more then that is asking too much. ******************************************** ****************************************************************************************************************************************in comes the older brothers bff that doesn't see the younger sibling like an annoying child that's stuck to his older sibling. but as an individual he is attracted to. otherwise he would've have brought up his name when looking for addition help at the camp. cute 1st ep but very short.

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i would be lying if i said i am happy that…

i would be lying if i said i am happy that Ju Yeong ended up with Do Hoe. yeah in this ep he finally apologized & thanked both Ju Yeong & Hyeon Ho - which was a long time coming. so that is progress, but given how long these 2 have done so much out of love for him & he basically took everything for granted, the fact that after 12 yrs he finally said sorry & thankful doesn't cut it.****************************************************************************************************************************************but it is what it is, this was an interesting plot if very sad & depressing, the romance wasn't healthy either. yeah there were some great moments between the leads, but that doesn't a healthy relationship make. it was toxic & i think Ju Yeong should learn to value himself more & want to be with someone who values him & shows it with actions, not just words. ****************but it is what it is - idk if i would rewatch this, considering the abuse which was too much for me, or rather once was more then enough & as the romance was pretty one sided, so think this a one off.

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said this in the past & will repeat myself,…

said this in the past & will repeat myself, Ju Yeong deserves better, he has NO reason to apologize so many times. he Didn't destroy Do Hoe life, not now & not 12 yrs ago. if anything Do Hoe is the one that destroyed Ju Yeong life, not just 12yrs ago but for 12 yrs he guilted him into thinking, he was at fault for what happened that day - basically victim blaming... **************knowing full well that Ju Yeong was suffering while he was living with them - he ignored his abuse cause he wanted him to stay there. like Ju Yeong suffered the abuse in silence, cause he wanted to be close to Do Hoe. who made the bigger sacrifice?!? ****& then hearing Ju Yeong getting beaten (on that fateful night) what does Do Hoe do. walks away & calls the cops, knowing full well that the chief in that town was close to his father - so who would be backed?!? who would be made into the bad-guy?!? **** ****************************************************************************************************************************************then he bombed the entrance exam not once but multiple times & after 12 yrs when he finally met Ju Yeong, did he act repentant? felt sorry for what he did & was doing? nope - he acted like the aggrieved party, treating Ju Yeong coldly like they strangers. all cause he couldn't face the fact that he had amounted to nothing?? that he was sitting on a throne of lies?!??? **********************************************************************************************************************************************but Ju Yeong needs to keep saying sorry - why? cause Do Hoe so fragile, facing reality will make him shatter?! not enough dude had Hyeon Ho enabling him & helping cover his ass, even introducing him to rich connected people so he would succeed for over a decade? & now it's Ju Yeong turn??? **********************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************sorry but Do Hoe has done nothing to be worthy of Ju Yeong he hasn't apologized, if anything he has manipulated & gaslit him at every turn, & the sec Ju Yeong stands his ground Do Hoe wants to break-up & runs the other way, acting like Ju Yeong was the unreasonable on in the equation - dude toxic & NOT worth the headache.

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i am sorry but i really need Ju Yeong to give…

i am sorry but i really need Ju Yeong to give up on Do Hoe, why is he apologizing & running after him?!? he not worth the headache, he's pompous & reticent, the only thing he wants from Ju Yeong & can offer him is a superficial relationship that is based on sex. what does that offer anyone in the long run?!? *********************************************************************** Ju Yeong should be running in the other direction, not jumping into bed with Do Hoe, not agreeing to a shallow relationship were u talk about the weather - never have a real conversation, just gloss over what is really important & basically be a prolonged one-nightstand. *********************************************************************************************************** no one that's waited for over a decade can be happy in the long run with a relationship like this - what Ju Yeong is agreeing too is pure torture. ***************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************it is infuriating to me that Do Hoe's acting like he is the only one that had a tough childhood. what happy childhood did Ju Yeong experience, given he was an orphan?!? dude throwing himself a pity party & if that's not enough he is gaslighting Ju Yeong into taking all the blame (for something he has no hand in), this toxic as sh*t & Do Hoe needs to go back to his therapist so he can adjust his medication dosage or give him something new. ********************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************the parents of Gwang Mo need to be thrown into jail for what they r doing to their child!!! & i don't give a sh*t if this is what actually happens in Korea or any other country - this is ABUSE!

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so the reason Do Hoe ghosted Ju Yeong was…

so the reason Do Hoe ghosted Ju Yeong was out of guilty?!? cause he didn't stop the beatings & he called the cops basically destroying Ju Yeong's life?!? the fact Ju Yeong is blaming himself, is cause he loves Do Hoe - *************************************Do Hoe is justified in feeling guilty & not only that, the way he treated Ju Yeong like dirt was safeguarding himself, even after a decade as a mature man he didn't want to confront the reality of what he had done, he didn't want to apologize. ********************************************************************************************************************************************************as much as i know this wont happen, Ju Yeong deserves better(!), he has dedicate over a decade of his life to unworthy people; both the coach & his son. *************************************************************************************************************get it's his inferiority complex, cause he is an orphan that was abandoned more then once - he is all alone, so he thinks it is ok to treat him this way. that he doesn't deserve better - that the few crumbs Do Hoe's throws his way (like that kiss) is more then enough for the likes of him & this is devastating to me. nobody deserves to be treated like Do Hoe is treating Ju Yeong. *************************************************************************************************************************************************& i am 99% sure Do Hoe was in a sexual relationship with Hyeon Ho, one that he (=Hyeon Ho) didn't want to commit to, but he can't let go of Do Hoe cause he is gay. & they have this weird relationship where they not in a relationship, but they also r. & then u get the messed-up scenes, we got in this ep. where the one who gets hurt time & time again ironically is Ju Yeong. it genuinely feels like Do Hoe is toying with him, just cause he can. & i donno if i like this anymore - i need Ju Yeong to cut ties & find someone that will not only love him back wholeheartedly, but someone that wont play sadistic mind games with him & his heart! alas that not gonna happen.

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this ep left me heartbroken, confused &…

this ep left me heartbroken, confused & angry. i don't know WTH is going on with Do Hoe, so i can't judge... at 1st i though like i assumed in the pervious ep, Ju Yeong shouldn't have antagonized the coach, suffered though whatever so everything would happen as they planned & then they could leave together. & cause of what happened Do Hoe almost lost it, stabbing his own father. maybe that angered him so much, that he ended up blaming Ju Yeong. *****************************************************but him being with Hyeon Ho, felt like a slap in the face. his ghosting Ju Yeong for over 12 yrs was more abuse & i don't get why he's acting the way he is. the way he looks at Ju Yeong, when Ju Yeong isn't looking it's obvious that he hasn't gotten over him - then why keep pushing him away?!? why not talk - now after a decade & clear things, either make-up or break-up. but keeping Ju Yeong on hold like this is cold-blooded, merciless & even sadistic. if u love someone u don't hurt them like this. *******************************************************************************************************************************************************Ju Yeong on the other hand has kept this candle burning for over a decade. i don't think he forgave to coach - he just knew that, that was Do Hoe's home & even if he didn't come back at some point, it was where he could feel the most connected to him. even his relationship with the coach was cause that was Do Hoe's father & thus he was a part of Do Hoe - that is why this is so heartbreaking. as i pointed out in the past, both guys had a traumatic childhood, they were all alone even though surrounded by people/parents - they grew up alone & were alone even when they had friends - the sec they met, they found home & family all wrapped up in one. so what Do Hoe did to Ju Yeong was really cruel punishment, u wouldn't do to ur enemy.

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the sec both guys were happy - too happy,…

the sec both guys were happy - too happy, i knew sh*t was gonna go down by the end of the ep. they can't catch a break, all their plans went up in smoke. what i don't get is why Ju Yeong had to antagonize Do Hoe's father (& NO i aint victim blaming) but Ju Yeong knows 1st hand how volatile & abusive he is. so why - when he/they had to put up with that place for a bit longer & after Do Hoe's entrance exam they could leave, like they planned. why not bite ur tough & just suffer through whatever... OMG but that was worrying. given how scary Do Hoe's father is, i was terrified that siren was an ambulance & genuinely didn't know if i wanted/worried Ju Yeong or Do Hoe's father was severely injured or dead (& not cause i give two sh*ts about Do Hoe's father). ****************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************the adults in this r just despicable, i feel bad for both guys cause of their family's & what they were put through (each for another reason). Ju Yeong's parents as abusive as Do Hoe's father, just cause they don't beat him doesn't mean they don't abuse him - they just use words & others in authoritative positions to get him beaten-up. little wonder both guys connected - they the only home & safe haven the other has. now idk how much time has passed & if / when they will reconnect. *****************************************************************************************************************************************************btw what is Hyeon Ho's deal, what does he want from Do Hoe?!? he decided to cut ties & now he is back - why? cause he noticed that Do Hoe has gotten close to Ju Yeong & he can sense that their relationship isn't platonic & he is jealous? or is there something else???

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2nd ep & we already got not 1 but 2 kisses,…

2nd ep & we already got not 1 but 2 kisses, i am a happy camper... they adorable !!! but the violence is infuriating. if anyone needs a ass kicking, it's Do Hoe's father. of course he's also a drunk - duh the cliché's just write themselves. *************************************************************************************************************************************************************found it so ironic that group of guys beat Do Hoe up cause of his father, as if he isn't getting abused at home too. who he gonna beat-up?!? but i have a feeling Ju Yeong is suffering Do Hoe's fathers abuse, cause he doesn't want to inform his parents & leave - thus having to be parted from Do Hoe. which is beyond heartwarming & adorable... but also scary, cause the sec anyone of the adults in that town catch them, they dead meat - literally. so i am very VERY WORRIED & hope this doesn't turn dark by the end. i need a happy ending for they boys! *******************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************btw was right about Hyeon Ho, he attracted to Do Hoe & it was mutual, maybe that is the reason he started to distance himself from Do Hoe cause he doesn't want to face the facts about his sexuality. just hope this moron doesn't target either guy cause he is frustrated

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