When we talk about the novel title (not drama one) , Eternally Missing You or Eternally Yearning You is used.Normally many fans think it either implied to Cang Xuan or Xiang Liu. But I think it also implies to Xiao Yao missing or yearning for Jing when he disappeared a month before their wedding date. I think that if he didn't come back , she will eternally yearn for him forever and a part of her will be dead.
Chapter 42
Xiao Yao said “Likely because I didn’t see it with my own eyes, everything doesn’t seem real. I feel like he will suddenly appear. How could someone just vanish like that? How come he didn’t say goodbye to me? I would rather he died in my arms, that we could say our last words to each other. But what’s this? One day I get his letter telling me to sleep early and not read late into the night, and the night day everyone says he’s gone. How’s that possible, I don’t believe it! Why didn’t he tell me anything? I hate him!” Xiao Yao screamed at the moon “Tu Shan Jing, I hate you!”
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If the price to pay to not hurt is to forget you, then I would rather be in pain always so that you can live in my heart, until my life reaches its conclusion.
I’ve already put on my wedding dress and said my vows to the moon. From tonight forward, I am your wife!
Chapter 43
“If I don’t see his body then in my memory he will always be on the back of his crane smiling at me while pointing to the moon to say “At the next full moon, no matter if the moon is bright or dark, if people gather or part, I will be with you forever, never apart.” I likely am very stupid and very weak, I can’t believe that he’s dead and feel that he may come back at the next full moon.”
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Xiang Liu said “The price is for you to stay alive! Even if Tu Shan Jing is really dead, you have to stay alive!”
Xiao Yao stared dumbstruck at Xiang Liu before her eyes went beyond him to stare at the limitless ocean horizon. A life that was long, a longing that had no end in sight……if she didn’t give up and stayed alive, what would that feel like? Probably like a dark night with no sunrise.
Chapter 44
Left Ear placed on in Xiao Yao’s hand and she said “When the weather is nice I’ll wash your hair, and you can wash my hair, Jing. Don’t forget to pluck the leaves in the morning dew.”
Xiao Yao smiled at the flower as the sun gradually set. Xiao Yao suddenly started crying “Jing, the flower is gone! I can’t see you anymore!” Her eyes were about to close and Left Ear suddenly felt that he could not let Xiao Yao sleep no matter what, otherwise she would never wake up again.
Xiao Yao’s eyes were staring into the distance and she said with a smile “Jing, you’re finally back!”
Zhuan Xu carried Xiao Yao onto the cloud carriage. Her body couldn’t move but her face was tightly pressed to his chest “Jing, I miss you so much, so much……..Don’t leave………don’t leave……..”
Xiao Yao listened to his firm beating heart and finally felt comforted. Jing was here! Jing was right beside her.
Chapter 49
Xiao Yao stared at the peach blossom forest and remembered when Jing proposed to her. It was on Cao Ao Peak on Sheng Nong Mountain, which didn’t have any peach blossom trees, but Jing knew her parents pledged their love under peach blossom trees so he used his power to conjure up thousands of miles of peach blossoms and as the petals rained down he nervously asked “Tu Shan Jing wishes for Xi Ling Jiu Yao’s hand in marriage.”
Xiao Yao reached out her hand and caught a few peach blossoms and smiled.
Yes she missed him till the end when she decided to become royal mother the last person she thought about was still Jing. And this song Long love sickness sang by Yisa Yu represents her feelings for him during those times so well. Of course this song can apply to other characters as well. but for me at the moment , it applies to XY missing Jing the most and her despair during those times.
Do you agree?
I took the lyrics from Peachey Blossoms channel. love how she put WXL and YSQ pic on the cover although comments are about others . lol
Long Love Sickness by Yisa Yu
I break the riddle of fate and look at the displacement of the world.
The fate of love follows suit and its hard to escape from.
I am outside of the world, lowering my eyesbrows and look only at my heart.
I don't listen or look, I guard my love and care about you.
Every night in the lonely moonlight,
The past rises like beacon smoke, and the memories are full of you.
I gather unruly uninhibited between heaven and earth.
In every moment of loneliness, missing it fills up, there is only you in the world.
Exchange pride and hold your hand for lifetime.
I send a heart farewell and want a return date; leave those endless date to time.
I send someone on a journey and I want to meet; I wait for a rain in those places where love sickness is endless.