Lieyang, you have white clothes and white hair.[Meow meow], then it is reasonable for Xiaoyao to be drunk and cry while hugging you on the wedding day.



Hundreds of years later, A'Bo and Lie Yang returned to their hometown, Chaoyun Palace, and reunited with their old friend Bai Di at the wedding of A Heng's daughter. However, more of their old friends were gone. All kinds of tastes came to their hearts, and they drank like water.

Xiaotian also drank a lot with them. Even though she drank a lot, she was still dizzy. She seemed to hold his head and cry with Lieyang when she mentioned her mother.



Aheng climbed down from the white bird's back, smiled and said to the white bird, "Thank you Lieyang."

The white bird turned into a boy in white clothes, about eleven or twelve years old, with unusually beautiful and delicate facial features, green eyes,and waist-length hair, every strand of which is white.

This is what Tonghua herself said about Xiaoyao’s choice based on psychological shortcomings,Not because Love.


Translate : 


However, after writing more than 200,000 words, I felt that I had not thought clearly about what the story wanted to express. My attempt to express the theme of life and death is not an easy subject to express. My experience and thoughts are not up to par with my attempt, so I decided to shelve it.

I skipped the story of Pluto and started writing "Sauvignon Blanc", which took more than a year.

A decision was made in the middle. My parents were getting old, and even if they had enough time to travel, they would move back to their country to settle down. I had another minor illness and had a minor operation. It was expected to be cured in a week or two. In the end, I stayed in bed for two months.

I wrote while lying down recovering from my injuries.

Thanks to my friends who gave me a lot of advice. I am satisfied with my control of this story. The theme I want to express is also clearly expressed.

The heroine's choice has always been due to psychological deficiencies, and her psychology is closely related to the growth of childhood and teenagers, which is what is often called the original family in psychology today.

ABOUT LOVESICKNESS

 "YAOLIU"


When Xiaoyao was little she liked white and green, so her father provided clothes in those colors, and Xiaoyao's response was yeah now I like green too!!


< Emperor Jun said to Xiaoyao: "Gao Xin is still white. The royal family's clothes are mainly white, but you can wear them casually. I remember that you liked white and green when you were a child, so I ordered them to prepare a few more sets of green skirts for you. shirt." Xiaoyao smiled and said, "I also like green now.">

Xiaoyao originally liked white and green. but now, she really likes the color green.Do you still remember what color Xiangliu is?

<The white hair is as white as clouds, not tied up in a bun, and a jasper forehead is neatly tied behind the head. The white hair hangs naturally, the facial features are so handsome that it is so beautiful, and the whole person is so clean and tidy. >

This is Xiaoyao's description of Xiang Liu's appearance when she first met him. Xiang Liu has always been wearing white clothes and white hair. Because of his white body, the jasper on his forehead makes it appear greener and more eye-catching. 

Hey...you,xiaoyao....

It's hard not to say that Xiang Liu is very much in line with Xiao Yao's aesthetic preferences.


About "Xiang Liu raised the corners of his lips, raised his eyebrows and smiled, looking at Xiao Yao on the peach blossom boat, and said: "The person Xiao Yao misses most is Tu Shanjing.


Xiang Liu said that the person Xiao Tian longed for was Tu Shanjing. Who can tell me what was going on in his mind at that time?

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Let’s do a Chinese reading comprehension question:

When an old mother of a chicken baby talked about her child's academic performance, she raised the corners of her lips, raised her eyebrows, and said with a smile: "Hey, he is just a scumbag." What was her real thought in her heart?

A. Her child is really a scumbag, and she feels very painful, anxious and lost inside.

B. Her child is a top student, which makes her feel happy but embarrassed.

The answer is "B"

So the conclusion is that when Xiangliu said that the person Xiaoyao missed the most was Tsj, Xiangliu was making a joke, Xiangliu knew that what Xiaoyao missed was himself.

The key is : raised the corners of his lips, raised his eyebrows and smiled.


ABOUT LOVER'S GU


By: Yolo Su Ying


The clearest explanation of the Lover's Poison in "Shang Xiang Si" is in the dialogue between Xiaoyao and the Jiuli Witch King, Chapter 4 of the third book, "Love will always be with Qingshan Lao". Take it apart and write.

Xiaoyao glanced at Jing quickly and said with a guilty conscience: "When I cast the poison, I didn't know there was such a weird name."
Jing said with a half-smile, "It's just a name, why bother to explain?"
Xiaoyao hurriedly explained. Said: "Yes, yes! It's just a name."
The Witch King coughed and said solemnly: "The Lover's Gu, as the name suggests, there is a pair of male and female voodoos. The man and woman infected by the voodoo are connected in life and mind. If one person feels pain, the other person will also feel pain. It hurts, and if one person is hurt, the other person will be hurt too.”

At this time, the Witch King certainly believed that Xiaoyao's poison was planted with the man next to her, so when Xiaoyao said that the lover's poison had a strange name, the Witch King "coughed and said solemnly", indicating that it was not a strange name . , Lover's Gu is a real name, don't talk nonsense if you don't understand.


Xiaoyao said: "I know all this, what else?"
"In the eyes of outsiders, the poison technique is mysterious and vicious, but it is actually just the medical and self-defense skills accumulated by our Jiuli people from generation to generation. There are many poisonous insects, poisonous weeds, and miasma in Jiuli. In order to survive, generations of ancestors have been trying to understand them and control them. Poison is famous for its viciousness, but in fact, we use it more to save people. Lover's Poo connects the lives of two people, that is to say, even if one person is seriously injured , as long as the other person is vigorous, it can keep the seriously injured person alive , which is an excellent thing. Even if it is difficult to raise, there should be many people who want to raise it, but why are there so few people raising it?"

At this point, the reason why Xiang Liu was able to save Xiao Yao has been clearly explained. Xiaoyao is still a good student who listens humbly, because the Witch King is talking about the connection between lives, which is something that Xiaoyao knows has actually happened.


Xiaoyao asked: "Why?"
"If the yang does not grow, the yin does not grow. If everything is beneficial, it will be harmful. The greater the benefit, the greater the harm. The same is true for the Lover's Gu. It can make lovers connect with each other . , lifeline is connected , the lovely love vood is like a lover who falls in love, with changeable temper and very difficult to control. The voodoo can easily backfire. Once an attack occurs, both of them will die . Therefore, the lover vood has another name, heartbroken voodoo. . "
Jing looked at Xiaoyao in shock, and Xiaoyao hurriedly said : "How can it be as scary as he said? It's been seventy or eighty years , and I haven't always been fine?"
The Witch King changed his face in horror : "Isn't your Gu? Sow it to this young master?"
"No."

When the Witch King arrived here, he realized that Xiaoyao's poison was not planted by Jing, so he changed his color in horror and expressed shock. What is the reason for the creepy discoloration? ——If you gave your poison seed to one person first, but then fell in love with another person, shouldn't you still be alive?

Because the result of the lover's poison backlash is very direct, "both of them die . " Looking back from the Witch King's reaction, what is the reason why Gu insects are "very easy to bite back"? Just a change of heart. Death means backlash, and backlash comes from a change of heart. If you don't die, you haven't changed your mind.

As for what "mind-to-mind communication" is, from Thirty-Seven Years Under the Sea, it is a perception of emotions and feelings. It is not that you can completely understand what the other person thinks. In that case, what is the name of a lover's voodoo insect? It is a voodoo god.

When Xiang Liu came back every day, he would check Xiaoyao's body and felt that Xiaoyao had been silent these past few days. He looked the same as before, but his facial features seemed different.
Xiang Liu suddenly remembered how cunning and clever Xiao Yao had been in the past, always complaining that he was afraid of being lonely. He said to Xiao Yao, "Are you bored lying on the bottom of the sea?"


Thinking of this, Xiaoyao hated Gonggong a little, but felt that her hatred was so inexplicable that she could only sulk with herself.
Xiang Liu stroked her eyebrows: "Aren't you happy? Don't you like watching the snow? Then I will take you to play in the sea."
2-5 <But the farewell lasted for a long time>

The Witch King looked strange and asked Xiaoyao: "Can you let me take a look at your Gu worms?"
Xiaoyao nodded.
I didn't see any movement from the Witch King. I guess he was using the worms in his body to look around. The Witch King frowned and murmured : "It is indeed Lover's Gu! How is it possible? 'A lover raises a Lover's Gu, and a heartbroken person becomes a Heartbroken Gu' . The Lover's Gu is different from other Gu. A pair of lovers must be willing to do it." Planting Gu , if he is not your lover, how could you plant Lover Gu on him?"
Xiaoyao said: "You are far inferior to your ancestors, you are too rigid in the experience of your predecessors. Tigers are born in the mountains. The king of beasts, but if he grows up in a small room, he is just a bigger wild cat. Gu insects are not dead, so the voodoo technique is unpredictable." The
Witch King was puzzled at all times , but Xiaoyao's lover was obviously this man beside her . As a young master, there were some things he couldn't say anymore, so he had to say perfunctorily : "What the girl taught me is that the voodoo worms in the girl's body are indeed different from ordinary voodoo worms. I guess both the girl and that person have something special." Xiaoyao sighed
: "He is very special!" Since being poisoned, only Xiang Liu can feel her, but she has never felt him.

Xiaoyao listened to the lecture very humbly and asked questions at first, but when the Witch King mentioned that "a couple must be willing to grow poison," she lost her guard and began to retort: This is your problem, you are too rigid in the experience of previous generations. . Let’s get a feel for it. A student who barely knows anything about Lover’s Poison, but he is listening well to the lecture, suddenly starts to verbally attack an experienced master of the Poison. Why? Feeling guilty! The fiancé is right next to him, but it is revealed that he is in love with someone else. Who wouldn't feel guilty? This pot must be thrown away.

The key point is the reaction of the Witch King, "Some things are hard to say, so I have to say them perfunctorily . " The Witch King obviously did not agree with Xiaoyao's nonsense, but he did not say anything more because of the people around her.

Xiaoyao and Xiangliu planted the poison and never died of the poison, which proves that their hearts have never changed. But why can he have deep feelings for Jing at the same time? I have previously written an article on the difference between love and liking from a social psychology perspective , distinguishing it from three aspects: attachment , altruism , and intimacy . Love and liking are two concepts that are very, very, very easy to confuse.

Although Xiaoyao said in the book, "This is the first time for both of us to like someone," but really, really, we need to distinguish clearly. Love and liking are two different emotions. Love is not a special kind of liking. Form is not a degree of liking. After reading the whole book, I personally think that Tonghua must have understood a lot of psychological knowledge when writing this book, including the three-self model and defense mechanism that I wrote before , as well as the characteristics of love and the difference between love and liking. , she wrote it so clearly, I don’t believe she doesn’t know.

Xiaoyao and Xiangliu are in love. As written in the relationship diagram of "Zeng Promise", Xiangliu "loves Xiaoyao his whole life" and Xiaoyao "has feelings for Xiangliu" . Yao Jing's feelings are very complicated, but from the perspective of love and liking, they like each other. Just like what is written in the relationship diagram, Jing "likes" Xiao Yao and Xuanxuan " likes" Xiao Yao.

Therefore, the Gu planted by Xiaoyao and Xiangliu will not bite back. Because her love ownership has not changed.


Jing asked eagerly: "How to undo the poison?" The
Witch King's face wrinkled and said: " Either we live together, or we die apart. Once the lover's poison is planted, there is no way to undo it. I just wanted to say , which is why few people raise it. Only some stubborn women will raise it. Even if they do, it is difficult to find men who are willing to grow it." Jing was stunned, and after a long while, he slowly
asked : " If one person who has planted the lover's poison dies, what will happen to the other person?"
The Witch King sighed: "The song of our Jiuli people says, 'The parasol trees on the ground will grow old, the eagles in the sky will not fly alone, and the mandarin ducks in the water will both die.' "
Jing He looked at Xiaoyao blankly and grabbed her hand tightly.
Xiaoyao smiled and made a face at him : "Don't worry! Don't take everything the Witch King said seriously. The Witch King said that only lovers can plant Lover's Gu. Xiang Liu and I have nothing to do with each other, so we still planted Lover's Gu. The Witch King also said that once planted, the poison cannot be removed, but don't forget, I planted the poison on Zhuanxu first. Didn't Xiang Liu help Zhuanxu remove the poison?" Jing breathed a sigh of relief: "Yes! Zhuanxu's
poison It's solved!"
Xiaoyao smiled and shook Jing's hand : "Don't worry, there is no absolute thing in the world. The predecessors couldn't solve it, so I will solve it." She made a heroic look and said to the Witch King Said, "When I find a way to cure the poison, I will teach it to you, which will be considered as repaying the kindness of your ancestors for teaching me the poison." ... She turned around and ran out, showing Jing a big smile,
and
said cheerfully : "Went to the East China Sea to look for Xiaoxiao and Miao Pu."

The author has set up a fascination array here, and must arrange for Jing to observe the conversation between Xiaoyao and the Witch King. Thinking about it on the other hand, what if the author just lets Xiaoyao and the Witch King have a conversation? Then this Lover Gu made it very clear. Xiaoyao would not feel guilty, the Witch King had no scruples, and there would be no ambiguous effect at all.

But what about reality? Does Jing believe Xiaoyao's nonsense? Obviously not convinced. Judging from Jing's attitude at the time and his subsequent disappointment at not finding a solution for forty-two years, he knew very well that what the Witch King said was true.

Did Xiaoyao completely believe the nonsense that Xiaoyao said? nor. Xiaoyao's reactions throughout the whole process were "laughing" , "laughing" , "showing a big smile and saying cheerfully" , "playful smile" , which made it clear that I don't believe it, I don't care, what's the matter, just listen to his nonsense . But when she doesn’t need to comfort or fool anyone:

Xiaoyao approached Xiaoxiao with a playful smile : "Don't worry, if brother is angry, I will take care of it."
Xiaoxiao neither said thank you nor said no, but asked calmly : "Is the lady going back to Shennong Mountain? "
Xiao Yao looked at the blue sea, silently, and then said after a while : "I want to stay on the sea for one night."

She didn't need to explain anything to Xiaoxiao, so she put away her disguise.


At night, the waves crashed on the boat, and the sound of waves came one after another.
Xiaoyao tossed and turned , unable to fall asleep, so she simply got off the bed, put on her clothes and walked out of the cabin.
There was a gentle breeze, a bright full moon hung in the sky, and the sea surface was sparkling, very quiet and beautiful.
Just under this sea, she lay in the white seashell and slept for thirty-seven years. No one knew how Xiang Liu saved her, and no one knew the changes in her body. Every time Zhuan Xu asked, she said she had been sleeping and didn't know anything, but she knew clearly in her heart that the fluid inside her body was with his blood. Just like now, her body was filled with longing for the sea. In the past, she also loved water, but the feeling was completely different from the feeling now. Back then, the sea was the sea, and she was her. Now, she is the daughter of the sea. She can drive fish schools, understand the songs of mermaids, dive into the deepest seabed like a fish monster, and swim faster than dolphins.
With just one leap, you can jump into the sea and swim happily. But Xiaoyao just didn't want to. She clenched her fist tightly and competed with herself.
The singing of the sharks came from the end of the sea. Xiao Yao's heart moved . She stood on the bow of the boat and looked far away . Under the silver moonlight, she saw someone with white clothes and white hair coming on the sparkling waves.

After everything that needs to be done is done, why does the author still want to write that Xiaoyao wants to stay on the sea for a night?

It was precisely because Xiaoyao knew that what the Witch King said was right and that he was talking nonsense, that he wanted to stay on the sea for a night, unable to sleep, thinking about Xiang Liu. Why are you competing with yourself? It's just a game of reason and emotion. Hearing the truth about Lover's Gu, my heart was not without shock. Those thoughts that were almost extinguished by Xiang Liu and annihilated by myself surged up stubbornly. When I was finally alone, the voice in my heart shouted crazily: "He loves You! He loves you!" Emotions are infinitely inclined to Xiang Liu, but reason does not allow it.

She wanted to wait for him to come and ask clearly. If you don't love me, why can you plant the lover's poison with me? If you love me, why do you reject me again and again?

Xiaoyao's "heart moved" may have two reasons. One is that she feels Xiang Liu, and the other is that Xiang Liu makes her feel herself. No matter which one it is, "she never felt him" was overthrown again.


Xiaoyao laughed: "I just went to Jiuli. The Witch King explained to me in detail the poisons in our bodies . I can't remember anything else , but I remember one sentence very clearly. These two poisons are the same. We live and die together, your life and mine are connected . If I get into trouble, don't even think about escaping!"
Xiang Liu smiled and looked at Xiao Yao without the slightest surprise.
Xiaoyao reacted and said in surprise: "You knew what kind of Gu this was from the beginning, right?" "So what?" "The
Witch
King said that the lover's Gu is 'A bird in the sky does not fly alone, but a pair of mandarin ducks in the water will fly alone. "Death' , if I die, can you live? "

When it was discovered that Xiang Liu had known the truth about the lover's poison for a long time, Xiaoyao's expression changed from "the poison in our bodies" and "this pair of poison" to "the lover's poison" , from "we live and die together, you and I are connected in life" ” became “If a bird in the sky does not fly alone, a pair of mandarin ducks in the water will die together.” - Since you already knew this, I won’t pretend to be stupid and let’s show off my cards.

If I die, can you live?

If your answer is "no", does it mean that we who are infected with the lover's poison are "birds in the sky" and "mandarin ducks in the water" ? (The implication is, you love me too, right?)

Compare this with this:

Xiaoyao comforted him with a smile : "The mind-to-heart connection is not that 'close'. In fact, it's just Xiang Liu who can feel some of my pain. I can't feel him at all. This is not a mind-to-heart connection at all." In fact,
Jing is not. He cares about Xiaoyao and Xiang Liu's "connected minds", but what he is uneasy about is that they are "connected in life", but he has no way to tell Xiaoyao about this uneasiness, and can only let Xiaoyao misunderstand his "care".
3-5 <The enemy is so close that nothing can be done>

When Xiaoyao and Xiang Liu talked about Lover's Gu, they talked about "connected lives" and avoided "connected minds". When Xiaoyao and Jing talked about Lover Gu, they talked about "connection of hearts", but they were very arrogant about "connection of lifeblood".

She listened to the "detailed explanation" of the Witch King , and there was no "I can't remember anything else" at all . Facing Xiang Liu, she was more concerned about his life and death, "If I die, can you live?" rather than, if you die, can I live? Xiaoyao didn't care much about the possibility of dying together with Xiang Liu.


"Why don't you ask the other way around, if I die, can you live? "

Xiang Liu sees the trick: Guess~


Xiaoyao said angrily : "No matter who dies or lives, I don't know , so I have to ask you, tell me!"

This "good voice and good spirit" is really intriguing. Fangfeng Bei coaxed Xiaoyao, Xiaoyao coaxed Xiangliu, and within a few words, he returned to this pattern.

"I don't even know" - I don't know if we will both die, because I'm not sure if you planted the lover's poison with me because you love me. Please give me a definite answer!


The smile on Xiang Liu's face was very evil, and he seemed helpless and said: "How can I know? You have learned the art of voodoo after all, and this is my first time playing voodoo. But don't worry, wait until you and I die. , don’t you know the result?

"This is my first time to play Gu" - Xiang Liu gave her a hint: This is my first time to love someone.

"When you and I die, won't we know the result?" - If I die and you die, you will know that I do love you. So what? We were both dead knowing I loved you. If you die and I die, you will never know whether I love you or not. So why bother exploring the answer to this question?

Corresponding to the ending, Xiang Liu kills the Gu with his life, cutting off the last link with Xiao Yao. Xiao Yao will never know whether she and Xiang Liu will die together when the Gu is connected. This question will never be answered unless the truth about Xiang Liu's killing of Gu is known.


Xiao Yao was so angry that she almost jumped up and down : "If you can solve Zhuan Xu's poison, you must know how to solve the poison. Don't you want to solve the poison?"
Xiang Liu said with a smile: "No!"

When the Witch King told Xiaoyao about the lover's poison, she should have had a definite answer in her mind at that moment as to whether Xiaoyao and Xiangliu were "a couple of lovers" - she had feelings for Xiangliu, and she had indeed felt the love. Liu's love for her, and the truth about the Lover's Gu obtained from the Witch King simply proved the answer in her heart. What's more, Xiang Liu did save her life when she lost all her life. What the Witch King said was actually correct. The only thing that made her hesitate was that Xiang Liu had indeed removed the poison from Zhuan Xu. What was the reason?

"If you can solve Zhuan Xu's poison, you must know how to solve the poison." - How did you solve the poison? Is it because you have a special constitution or because you love me too?

On the surface, the topic changes before and after are quite dramatic. I was asking if both people would die, but suddenly the conversation changed to "removing the poison". In fact, the essence has not changed. Xiang Liu's extravagant efforts made Xiao Yao very angry: You didn't say it, right? If you don't tell me, then the poison will be removed! If you can get rid of the poison, I will believe that you are ruthless to me, and we will break up. It is very similar to the time when Xiaoyao and Fangfeng Bei were talking about how to cure poison outside the casino after getting engaged to Fenglong. They were angry and testing.

Xiang Liu: " I don't want to". A rare half-truth - I can't explain it, and I don't want to.


Xiao Yao asked helplessly: What do you want?"
Xiang Liu's body sank inch by inch into the sea: "Besides living with rare things, what else do you think I can do?" "
Hey! Don't leave!"
Xiao Yao She climbed over the railing and wanted to jump into the sea to chase Xiang Liu , but a pair of hands grabbed her back .
...
Seeing that Xiaoyao was going to chase Xiang Liu, Jing couldn't explain why , so she rushed out without thinking and held Xiaoyao, as if she was afraid that she would disappear.
...
Jing suddenly pulled Xiaoyao into her arms and hugged her tightly: "You are not allowed to be someone else's wife!"
Xiaoyao was stunned for a moment , then fell quietly into his arms.
Jing looked at the quiet and mysterious sea and said softly : "Xiaoyao, leave tomorrow. "
"Yes."

"What do you want?" - If you love me, why don't you admit it? If you don't love me, why can you plant Lover's Gu with me? If you don't love me, why do you still allow Lover's Gu to exist?

Jing heard and understood all the conversations between Xiaoyao and Xiang Liu. At that moment, he felt that Xiaoyao's heart was already biased and he was infinitely nervous that he would lose her. A love rival's intuition is often the most accurate.

"Leave" was a tacit understanding among the three of them.


This chapter is called "Love will always be with Qingshan Lao" . If you don't read the content, the first reaction to the literal meaning should be that Xiaoyao and Jing's relationship will last forever after they fall in love. But in the entire chapter, this "love" has nothing to do with Yao Jing.

The content of this chapter is that after Xiaoyao learned the story of his parents, he went to Jiuli to pay homage; it was in Jiuli that he learned the truth about the lover's poison. On the surface, he was relaxed and calm, but in fact, his heart was in turmoil. In order to seek a truth and Xiangliu, he went to the limit of the sea. Pulling; talking to my grandpa about my mother's death; talking to my brother about what would have happened if my parents hadn't died while "playing with a smoked ball in my hand... in the dark night, it was like seeing countless streams of light racing" Sample.

The story of my parents has been told in the previous chapter "Blooming Flowers and Farewell to Old Friend" . The memorial to parents only accounts for one-fifth of the entire chapter, and half of the chapter is about the lover's poison. It is self-evident to whom "affection" refers to.

"Love always stays with Qingshan." A pair of lovers cannot be together in reality, so they can only stay in Qingshan, and eventually grow old with Qingshan. But life is short and the mountains remain green. Green hills never grow old, and they are also the eternity of love.

White cranes were slowly flying around the mountains and rivers of Jiuli. Xiaoyao opened the bag, which contained soil from the peach blossom forest. Perhaps because it had been soaked with fallen flowers for hundreds of years, the soil was a crimson color.
Xiaoyao grabbed a handful, spread out his palms, and let the mountain wind blow away the soil .
The red soil drifted away in the wind, like drops of blood, falling into the mountains and rivers .
Many years later, in the mountains of Jiuli, there were red maples as red as blood , with straight shapes and bright colors, and ivy often growing on them . I don’t know which wizard said that the red maple is made of Chi You’s blood. From generation to generation, Jiuli people regard the red maple as a sacred tree.


The love between Chi You and Ah Heng burned passionately for four hundred years, and after another four hundred years, it finally turned into a red maple in the mountains, which often accompanies the mountains and rivers and lasts forever in the world. In "Once Promised", Aheng and Chiyou are "tangled with each other until death, and even if the vine grows with trees, they will be entangled with each other until life and death." In "Long Love", the first person to hear the lovesickness song sung by Xiaoyao is Xiang Liu, and there is also this line " You are like a tree in the mountains, and I am like a vine on a tree. We are together and dependent on each other." But the ending of Xiangliu and Xiaoyao is: "You are like a bird in the sky, and I am like a fish in the water. We forget each other and remember each other." "

Chi You and A Heng correspond to Xiang Liu and Xiao Yao.

The lover's Gu line has completely surfaced, Xiaoyao's love ownership is obvious , and the readers can see it clearly, but in the end they have different paths, and they have gone too far at the fork. So what if we learn the truth? The pair of trees and vines, Xiangliu and Xiaoyao, only have a brief relationship with each other in reality. In the end, their love is like that of Chi You and A Heng, which is placed in heaven and earth, seeking an eternity that is both empty and real.

There is a word in Hebrew called Mizpah, which by extension means the watch of the heart and represents eternal emotions. Much like Xiaoyao and Xiangliu who have planted the lover's poison, even though they are thousands of miles apart, their hearts are watching each other. The bonds and ties that span time and space are not another kind of eternity

Sauvignon Blanc

Yaoliu from a spectator’s perspective

(By:Yolo Su Ying)


In almost every relationship in the book, there are bystanders who jump out of the perspective of the person involved in the story to more clearly portray the full picture of the character or event from the side.

The bystanders of Yaoxuan are like Huangdi and Xinyue, the bystanders of Yaojing are like Huangdi, Zhuanxu, and Fenglong, and the bystanders of Xuannian are like Huangdi, Jundi, and Xiaoyao.

The bystanders in Yaoliu include Emperor Jun, Chishui Xian, Anian, Junjun and Zhuanxu, as well as Huangdi who sees everything (my grandfather is actually the biggest melon owner in the book).


Huangdi's line is the longest observer's perspective.

Since both Yaoxuan and Yaojing are on the bright side, Xiaoyao will not be secretive when talking about them, and onlookers will have clear understanding and judgment; while Yaoliu is on the dark side, and Xiaoyao rarely talks about it with others. .

Xiaoyao and Xiaoliu have a common characteristic when they speak: they keep their words to themselves and only tell the part of the truth that can be heard. If Xiao Yao really said everything, it would be impossible to keep the secret that Fang Feng Bei was Xiang Liu until the end. She hid Xiang Liu and Fang Feng Bei from her relatives and friends, just like she hid her origins and relationship with Xuan from Xiang Liu in Qingshui Town. The approach is exactly the same.

The Zhuyanhua no longer has the function of transformation. Xiaoyao's face corresponds to Xiaoyao's identity, and Xiaoyao's identity means that she is restricted in what she says and does. She is almost never in front of her relatives and friends. When it comes to his feelings for Xiang Liu, everyone except Huang Di.

Perhaps because he knew that his grandfather felt guilty about his grandmother and mother, and felt indebted to himself, he became more careless. Perhaps because she cared more about Xiang Liu being Zhuan Xu's enemy, and my grandfather had given up his power and abdicated, so Xiang Liu was not considered his enemy. Perhaps because she had talked about her husband before, she had expressed her feelings in a joking way, so she was not as wary of her grandfather. She may even find that her grandfather can understand her and see through her thoughts, and she secretly hopes that this wise old man can give her some guidance and help.

Grandpa is actually the only person in this story who Xiaoyao will take the initiative to reveal even a little bit of his feelings for Xiang Liu.


Before writing about Yaoliu from Grandpa’s perspective, let’s first write about Xiaoyao from Grandpa’s perspective:

When Xiaoyao just returned to Yunfeng, Huangdi said:

Huang Di stared at Xiao Yao for a while and sighed, "You actually have such a personality, completely opposite to your mother and your grandmother."
Xiao Yao giggled and made a face at Huang Di, "What's so good about being like them? ? It’s just an advantage for the man and a pain for myself!”
<1-15 Thinking about the past can easily lead to injury>

This is Huangdi's first impression of his granddaughter whom he has not seen for more than three hundred years. It is also the image Xiaoyao creates to the outside world. It is the way Xiaoyao lets himself show: I will not compromise my sincerity for a man.


But later, Huangdi often felt that Xiaoyao looked like her grandmother and mother.

After the marriage is decided, it is time to discuss the wedding date.
Jing thought the sooner the better...
Huang Di asked Xiaoyao what he thought about the wedding date.
Xiaoyao looked at the busy doctors outside the window, thought for a while , and said: "I want to wait until the compilation of medical books is settled before confirming the wedding date."
Huang Di said: " This is not a matter of two or three years . Are you sure? " "?"
Xiaoyao nodded: "The "Shen Nong's Materia Medica" has been in my hands for more than four hundred years. It has saved my life, but I have never done anything for it, or in other words, I want to do it for that person who has been everywhere. Emperor Yan who tasted hundreds of herbs and died of poisoning should do something. What he spent his whole life on should not become just a tool for a few doctors to exchange for money and fame." Huang Di sighed: "Xiao Yao, you keep saying that
you are not like Your mother, actually, you are very similar to your mother! "
Xiaoyao frowned: "I'm not like her!"
Huang Di smiled: "Okay, not like her, not like her!"
In the evening, when Zhuanxu came to Xiaoyueding, he heard that When Xiaoyao decided on the wedding date, she smiled and said: "Very good."
Perhaps because she was engaged to Jing, Xiaoyao began to realize that her days in Xiaoyue Ding were limited, and the time she spent with Zhuanxu was not infinite ; perhaps because Xuanyuan Although there were casualties in the war with Gao Xin, no one Xiaoyao knew died. If he didn't inquire carefully, he would hardly feel the war thousands of miles away. Xiaoyao no longer avoided Zhuanxu. The relationship between the two resumed . Every evening, Zhuanxu would come and spend some time talking and laughing with Xiaoyao.
<3-5 The enemy is so close that nothing can be done>

Judging from the content of the conversation , Huangdi said that Xiaoyao is like Aheng, which means that her act of compiling medical books for the world is like her mother. No matter what she says, she still has great love in her heart. Although Xiaoyao really has it in her heart, This point of great love is doubtful.

But from the writing point of view, it has another meaning.

Here we first use contrast : Jing desperately wants to get married, while Xiaoyao "thought about it for a while" and decided to compile medical books first.

Then the topic changed . After getting engaged to Jing, "the time spent with Zhuanxu is not unlimited" and "restored the previous relationship" with Zhuanxu .


After this paragraph, the timeline is quickly drawn :

Winter comes and summer comes, and the peaceful days pass extremely quickly. Before I know it, eight years have passed.
<3-5 The enemy is so close that nothing can be done>


Next : Xiaoyao meets a man in brocade clothes on the road, chasing after chasing after catching Xiang Liu along the way.

According to the normal development of romance, if the author wants to highlight the love between two people, he must write about the interactions between them and their alone time together.

But what is the author doing? First, it compares how Jing was anxious after getting engaged while Xiao Yao was not anxious, and then writes about how the brother and sister get along, and then writes about Xiao Yao running into her ex-boyfriend and chasing her all the way, and a long paragraph about Xiao Yao recognizing Xiang Liu based on intuition alone. A plot that drives the plot forward. What exactly do you want to highlight?

You taste it, you taste it carefully.


Can’t medical books be revised in Qingqiu? Even when he married Fenglong, Fenglong said that he had arrived in Chishui:

If you like to learn medical skills, you can continue to learn. Even if you want to practice medicine in the future, I will definitely support it.
<2-14 Chasing the past makes me miserable>

So why can’t I study medical books after getting married? Qingqiu has no table or house? Isn’t the home of the richest man in Dahuang not big enough? Taking ten thousand steps back, Qingqiu just can't study medical books. After getting married, Xiaoyao will live in Xiaoyue Ding and continue to study medical books. Jing will never object even a word, right?

But the author just wanted to write. She said she wanted to study medicine first and then get married.

Very subtle.


Compare this to the last time Xiaoyao was about to marry Fenglong , she first sent an ice crystal ball to Xiang Liu, and then went to Qingqiu. What is this doing? Just like undoing poison and not making poison, if you really get married, you have to say goodbye to the past. Clean up the previous relationships.

Obviously, although Xiaoyao and Jing were engaged, she was not ready to get married. It is really necessary to study the medical books, but you must complete the medical books before getting married. It is very much like an excuse to delay marriage. Why delay? It's nothing more than that I am still thinking about someone in my heart and need to give myself time to let go and forget.

So much so that it took forty-two years for the medical book to be completed:

Back at Shennong Mountain, Xiaoyao suddenly found that there was nothing to do. She couldn't adapt, so she
discussed with Jing: "Do you think I should go to Zezhou City to open a medical clinic?" "
But Zezhou is close, and Qingqiu City is far away. It's inconvenient to go back and forth every day!"
"If you live in Qingqiu, Qingqiu City must be more convenient."
"Huh? I live in Qingqiu?" Xiaoyao still didn't react for a moment.
Jing said with a smile: "The Tushan Mansion in Qingqiu has already been packed and arranged, and the wedding can be held at any time."
<3-8 Passionate but always ruthless>


It can be seen almost clearly from this conversation that Xiaoyao wants companionship. Once she has adapted and got used to this companionship, it will not matter whether she gets married or not. Anyway, this person has been locked in.

Huangdi was happy to see the marriage between Xiaoyao and Jing. One of the reasons was naturally that he discovered that Zhuanxu had unusual feelings for Xiaoyao and wanted to end his thoughts about him quickly, otherwise he would become an infatuated emperor. What to do. He was different from Emperor Jun. Emperor Jun advised Xiaoyao to stay away from Xiang Liu because he wanted to protect Xiaoyao, while Emperor Huang wanted to protect his heir.

What about other reasons? Let me guess the old man's heart privately: Zhuanxu, you don't know, your sister has fallen in love with the devil Xiang Liu. If she doesn’t get married quickly, there’s no telling how many things will happen in the future!

Putting it this way, it feels like Huangdi is actually more anxious than Jing to get Xiaoyao to get married soon.

Therefore, when Huangdi said: "You and your mother are very similar" , another meaning is: you and your mother have the same vision, and they both fall in love with the person you shouldn't love.

Xiaoyao said she was afraid of men like Huangdi, Jundi and her brother, but in fact the type she loved was exactly the same as the one her mother and grandmother loved. It's hard to say what would have happened to Xiaoyao and her cousin if her cousin hadn't needed to use her power to push her to Jing and Fenglong at the beginning.

You don’t know it, but genes are really amazing, and their visions are all the same.


But besides Huangdi initially saying that Xiaoyao looked a bit like Alei, when he thought of Alei through Xiaoyao, it was mostly because of the state of Xiaoyao and Jing:

Huang Di didn't know whether it was because he was getting old, or because Xiaoyao with her eyes closed looked too much like the young girl in his memory , Huang Di felt that his eyes were a little sore. He made countless people happy in his life, but most of his relatives were unhappy. Just like the sun, its radiance shines on the earth and makes all things grow, but those who are really close to the sun will be burned. He is already old, and his past cannot be traced back. But now, he hopes that the warmth of embracing each other under the locust tree can really last forever.
<3-1 The east wind is evil and happiness is thin>
Xiaoyao with lowered eyes looks so much like her! Huang Di seemed to see Xiao Yao in front of him guarding a lonely room and growing old quickly. His hair was stained with flying frost, and his flower-like face was withered. The old and lonely figure in Chaoyun Palace overlapped with Xiao Yao in front of him. Huang Di couldn't bear to look at it anymore. , suddenly closed his eyes.
<3-9 Hun Meng An Neng Ding>

Through Huangdi's perspective, we saw the peaceful years of Xiaoyao and Jing, and also saw the heavy blow that Jing's "death" brought to Xiaoyao. I saw that Jing could give Xiaoyao the stable life she wanted, and I also saw the overwhelming sadness after the huge hope was shattered.

But after reading "Zeng Xunuo", you will know what kind of relationship between Huangdi and Alei. Alei liked Huangdi, but Huangdi's feelings for her were not pure. But they have been together through thick and thin, and they have built the Xuanyuan Kingdom together. Even if it is not love, after all, the husband and wife still have a deep and complicated friendship when they work together.

Huang Di seemed to have guessed what Xiao Yao was thinking, and said: "Your grandmother was once as young as you. Her beauty and talent were famous all over the country. Many good men wanted to marry her, but unfortunately, she chose the wrong person . "
<1-15 Thinking about the past can easily lead to injury>


Huang Di believed that Ah Le had "chosen the wrong person" when she chose him , and he ended up feeling haggard and unhappy in his life. He hopes that Xiaoyao will get what Alei didn't get; there are too many factors mixed up between Alei and himself, and there is no true eternal life, he hopes that Xiaoyao and Jing can "really" last forever; Xiaoyao loses Jing, so that he I think of Ah Lei after she broke up with him, her hair stained with frost and her face withered.

Huangdi and Alei, like Zhuanxu and A Nian, do not directly correspond to Yaojing, but to some extent it shows that there are some similarities in their emotions, and some supplementary explanations are provided through the perspective of a third party. Therefore, Xuan Nian will remind Xiao Yao of Jing, and Yao Jing will remind Huang Di of A Le, and the similarities arouse empathy. On the other hand, if Huangdi saw Xiaoyao and Xiangliu, he probably wouldn't think of himself and Alei. He might think of his daughter and Chiyou, like Shaohao.


Let’s look at Yaoliu from the grandpa’s perspective . First, there are several connected plots:

Yaoliu swims together at the bottom of the sea.

The Yellow Emperor inspected the Central Plains.

Zhuan Xu and Feng Long met, and Xiao Yao met Jing Jing for the first time after her marriage.

Zhuanxu took the initiative to ask Xiaoyao how he felt after seeing Jing, and Xiaoyao said that she was actually a little happy to see him feel uncomfortable.

Xiaoyao had insomnia at night and took medicine to fall asleep.

I dreamed of Jing...
Fangfeng Bei appeared on the sea. He sat on the white seashells and looked at her with a smile. His dark hair was fluttering in the sea breeze. Xiaoyao swam towards him, but suddenly, his hair suddenly Bits and pieces turned white, and he turned into Xiangliu, looking at her indifferently. The white shells and white Xiangliu were like icebergs floating on the sea.
He with black hair, him with white hair, suddenly near and far away...
Xiaoyao suddenly turned around and swam towards the land, paddling with tears streaming down his face ... Xiaoyao woke up from her dream, and there was cold wetness beside her pillow. Unexpectedly, when I touched my cheek, I realized that it was actually full of tears.
2-10<Let the calm ground make waves>

At this point, it can be clearly seen that Xiaoyao can no longer avoid her feelings for Xiang Liu in her heart. But Zhuanxu's crisis was right in front of her, and she had no time to take care of herself.

Until Xiaoyao and Fenglong got engaged and Zhuanxu came to the throne, Xiaoyao suddenly relaxed and began to be in a daze for a long time.


Grandpa recalled Ah Le and sighed that he could have descendants like Cheng Huan one day. He said:

"When I was young, I was always full of energy and refused to give in for some things that I thought were very important. When things happened, I realized that I was wrong, but it was already too late." Huang Di looked at Xiao Yao and said sincerely, " Xiao Yao , you must also remember that sometimes, taking a step back may not mean losing."
Xiaoyao lay on the window, silent.
2-12<The smoke and water are vast, the meaning is unforgettable>

Grandpa's words may have meant that Xiaoyao wanted to accept Fenglong from the bottom of his heart, but in fact, Xiaoyao was thinking of Xiang Liu and Jing through these words.

What is the persistence that you have always thought is very important? Always hope that the other party will take the initiative instead of taking the initiative yourself, and insist that the other party pay first instead of yourself.

Things change. Jing, who she had placed her hope on, left, acquiescing to Xiang Liu's rejection and not fighting for it again. Intention and powerless, strong and no intention, only Fenglong is willing to give himself a harbor to dock.

wrong. But it was already too late. Xiang Liu pretended not to understand the hint that he wanted to travel around the world together. Before she could express her feelings, she agreed to marry Feng Long. The one who loves him has married and has children, but the one he loves has quietly moved away.


Later Huangdi asked her to learn from A-Nian:

Xiao Yao said calmly: "It's because of you and Zhuan Xu that I don't dare to be willful and indulgent. My bloodline is bound to restrain me, so why should I deceive myself? If I say, now I go to play with Xiang Liu , will you agree?"
Huang Di was silent. , with a very complicated expression on his face, said after a while: "I won't agree. Zhuanxu will fight him to the death sooner or later. I don't want you to suffer in the future , but I will do my best to meet your other requests." "
...I know, you want to What I owe my mother, eldest uncle, second uncle, and fourth uncle are all my fault, but no matter how powerful I am , they can't guarantee my happiness. What's more, what you owe them is what you owe them. You can never make up for it, and I don't want it either!... ”
2-12<The smoke and water are vast, the meaning is unforgettable>

The most important things in this passage are "My bloodline is destined to be bound" , "If I were to go and play with Xiang Liu now, would you agree?" , and "No matter how powerful I am, I can't guarantee my happiness . " At this time, Xiaoyao seemed to show his sincerity, but he also said very clearly that "the reason why I am not with Xiang Liu is my bloodline" rather than "I don't want to be with him." On the surface, it is a rational attitude, but hidden is the emotional belonging.

And Huangdi also completely understood. "Go and play with Xiang Liu" is not a simple playmate at all. If it is just a playmate, there will be no "pain later" .

Huang Di could see clearly that the person his granddaughter had always cared about most was Xiang Liu. Decades ago, when I asked myself on Chaoyun Peak of Xuanyuan Mountain, "Is it okay if I am your enemy?" I was also referring to Xiang Liu. After all, apart from the Shennong Rebels who refused to surrender, there were no enemies for him in the world. Thinking about it again, Xiaoyao was retrieved from Qingshui Town and whose territory Qingshui Town belongs to. This enemy cannot be Old Man Gonggong, it must be the nine-headed demon.

Decades have passed, and this little girl is still thinking about the Nine-Life Xiangliu. Huang Di persuaded and helped his granddaughter think of a way to ask Zhuan Xu to try to recruit Prime Minister Liu.


" See if there is any way to recruit Xiang Liu to surrender. I know it is very difficult . Over the past hundreds of years, Qing, Hou Tu, Cang Lin, and Xiao Zhu Rong have all tried, but they were all rejected by Xiang Liu . But I still hope you will come again. Give it a try."
"Okay." Zhuanxu hesitated for a moment and asked, "Why does grandpa pay attention to Xiang Liu?"
Huang Di said: "It's just a little guilt from a bad old man ."
2-12 <The smoke is blurred, the meaning is unforgettable>

What are you feeling guilty about? "Zeng Promise" tells the story of the role Huang Di played in the tragedies of his daughters Aheng and Chiyou. He never thought about sacrificing his daughter, but he did promote the tragedy, and it did indirectly cause Xiaoyao to lose her parents and be sent to Yushan. After experiencing all kinds of things in the future, she has the current personality and psychological trauma. .

Based on this guilt, he hoped that his granddaughter would not repeat the fate of his mother. Faced with this problem, the shrewd and wise Huangdi, the only way he could think of was to eliminate the obstacle between Xiaoyao and Xiangliu - stance.

He could see clearly that Xiaoyao loved Xiangliu; but the tragedy of Xiaoyao's parents was due to this natural chasm.


Behind him is Shennong; behind me is Xuanyuan. He cannot abandon Shennong; I cannot abandon Xuanyuan.
<3-3 Flowers bloom and farewell to old friends>

Aheng's words completely fit Xiaoyao and Xiangliu.


But no matter how much Xiaoyao kept thinking about it, she was already engaged to Fenglong. When we met again, at Old Man Li Rong's tavern, on the way Bei sent her back to Xiaozhurong Mansion, no matter how much she thought or didn't want to, she already understood Xiang Liu, understood Xiang Liu, and understood his choice.

Xiaoyao stopped practicing archery , perhaps because after Zhuanxu ascended the throne, Xiaoyao felt that the crisis was over and was no longer as self-disciplined as before. The whole person became very lazy, as if he had no interest in anything and didn't want to do anything. He just liked to sleep every day. When I wake up from a lazy sleep, it is often already noon. After dinner, I went to see Huangdi and sat in Huangdi's palace, listlessly in a daze.
2-12<The smoke and water are vast, the meaning is unforgettable>

When Zhuanxu's crisis was lifted and a string in Xiaoyao's mind relaxed, and nothing could occupy her thoughts, the long-suppressed emotions swept over like a flood, and Xiaoyao's heart exploded silently.

Xiaoyao no longer practices archery, which is a hint.

Archery is undeniably a close connection between Yao and Liu, but after Xiang Liu expressed his attitude, Xiao Yao seemed even more confused about the future. Giving up practicing archery was like breaking a connection with Xiang Liu. On the other hand, if she kept practicing archery, she might think of Xiang Liu from time to time. But she didn't want to think of him anymore. I wonder if she would often recall that Xiang Liu asked her "Are you leaving" under the lilac tree ? But when she hinted that she "really wanted to see it" , she remained "silent" . Lilac, the pain of first love, a love destined to be hopeless.


Zhuanxu came to her and asked her:

"Xiaoyao, how are you doing? Are you happy?"
...
Xiaoyao said: " No, you didn't do anything wrong. It was me who made the mistake. "
"Xiaoyao, tell me."
Xiaoyao remained silent. .
Zhuan Xu sat next to Xiao Yao and whispered: "Xiao Yao, what can't you tell me?"
Xiao Yao finally said : "After I separated from Jing, I felt bad and couldn't sleep well, but I I thought it was nothing, it had always been normal, but after you came to the throne, I didn’t know why, but I suddenly felt very tired and felt that nothing was interesting to watch. Without the pressure of having to get up and work hard the next day, I couldn’t sleep well at night. I often thought of and During the days when Jing was in Qingshui Town , she often thought of the days when we were young in Chaoyundian. I like those times, but I don’t like that I always recall the past. No matter how beautiful the past is, the past is the past . I don’t understand why I am so It's useless to be weak, I don't like myself now..."
2-12 <The smoke and water are blurred, the meaning is unforgettable>

This is what Xiaoyao told Zhuanxu.

On the surface, Xiaoyao was talking about Jing, which also aroused Zhuanxu's thoughts about Jing. Losing Jing was a big blow to Xiaoyao. Understanding from Zhuanxu’s perspective:

Xiaoyao seems to be free and uninhibited, but because of her childhood experience, in fact, Xiaoyao longs for a stable family more than anyone else , otherwise she wouldn't have been able to find a home for herself as Wen did in Xiaoliu.
Xiaoyao put all her expectations on Jing. Jing's departure became the straw that broke the camel's back . Xiaoyao couldn't bear it anymore. It was clear that she could no longer bear it, but at that time, the battle for the crown prince in Xuanyuan was at its most dangerous. For Zhuanxu, Xiaoyao still turned a blind eye to the hurt in her heart. She didn't collapse until Zhuanxu was safe.
Zhuanxu felt sad and hated Jing for the first time. Xiaoyao's trust and expectation required unimaginable courage and effort. That was building a house on numerous wounds, but Jing shattered Xiaoyao's trust and expectations.
2-12<The smoke and water are vast, the meaning is unforgettable>


But if that's all it is, then the plot before and after is very incoherent. Read it carefully. The first part is a silent farewell to Fangfeng Bei. The second part is about Zhuanxu marrying Xinyue three years later. A Nian persuades Xiaoyao to return to Wushen Mountain. She once wrote to Xiang Liu and proposed to cure the poison, and then stayed in Wushen Mountain. Thirteen months later, he was captured by Zhuanxu.

It can be said that this passage neither inherits the past nor initiates the future, it is very jumpy. Although we did see Xiaoyao's sadness and depression, she only told part of the reasons.

Xiaoyao said, "I made the mistake myself . " What went wrong?

Later, I said that I don’t like myself now, and I often think of the days when I was with Jing in Qingshui Town. But we know that Jing is not alone in Qingshui Town. Those colorful memories of the days in Qingshui Town, those brilliance that can be engraved into life, the person that I want to find with high specificity when I feel lonely, is Xiang Liu.

Combined with the previous article in this chapter, "It was only when things changed that I realized I was wrong." She knew she was wrong and had been passively waiting to be chosen, which led to today's situation. Those who have no intention, and those who have no intention, all leave her. One wrong step after another made her unhappy. She lived like an ostrich in her memories, but she knew she couldn't live like this forever.

But Xiaoyao could never talk about Xiang Liu in front of Zhuan Xu.

So we see, "Xiao Yao remained silent" and "Xiao Yao finally spoke . That was her dearest and most trusted brother, but she couldn't say it, and she couldn't deceive him, so just like Wen Xiaoliu, she thought about it for a long time and only selectively said something that could be said. Even though her brother thought she was only sad because of Jing, he didn't reveal any secrets related to Xiang Liu.


After Zhuanxu married Xinyue, Xiaoyao felt that Zhuanxu had been taken away by Xinyue, and she was further away from Zhuanxu.

Xiaoyao's problem of not sleeping well at night still persists . She usually doesn't get up until noon. After eating, she goes to Yiqing Garden to stay. She doesn't swim either . She sits alone by the water and stares blankly at the water.
One time, Emperor Jun walked into Yiqing Garden. It was already dark, but Xiaoyao was still sitting by the water . With her spiritual power, she probably couldn't see the night as day.
Emperor Jun asked: "You have been meditating by the water every day for several months. What have you come up with?"
2-13 <Wish to Return to the Path Without a Cause>

Xiaoyao said the five gods mountain has no memories, What? The 15 year promise is not important, right?

no wonder jing had to send 15 bottles of wine...LOL


Swimming can bring happiness to Xiaoyao, but Xiaoyao no longer swims.

In the past, Xiaoyao was always in a state of offense and defense, so he studied poisons tirelessly and practiced archery unremittingly. Since losing Jing and Zhuan Xu ascended the throne, with nothing to lose and nothing to protect, Xiao Yao suddenly became discouraged and completely gave up on archery . Apart from making poison for Xiang Liu, she no longer studied poison techniques .
2-13 <There is no reason to return to the path>

I gave up archery in the front, and stopped thinking about poison in the back.

She had always wanted to use her own abilities to protect Zhuanxu, but when Zhuanxu came to the throne, she had nothing to protect, and she was not even willing to put in the effort to protect herself. I remember when she first returned to the Five Gods Mountain, after being pushed by A Nian, she became alert and "cannot slack off" and continued to study poisons.

At this time, is Xiaoyao really just losing Jing and Zhuanxu?


What we all know is that archery, poison, and swimming all point directly at Xiang Liu. Why didn't the author write that Xiaoyao no longer chewed chicken feet and duck necks, no longer drank green plum wine, and no longer drank mulberry wine?

On the bright line is the depression caused by losing Jing and Zhuan Xu. The dark line is the sadness that the love between himself and Xiang Liu has never come to fruition. When Xiang Liu said, "In fact, for a general, the best ending is to die on the battlefield," she understood his choice, but what about the heart? How to control the heart?


The days on top of Xiaoyue are very free and relaxing.
Zhuanxu said that Shennong Mountain is the same as the Five Gods Mountains, but that is not true. The Five Gods Mountains have no memory, but Shennong Mountain, Zezhou, and Zhiyi all have too many memories of the past. No matter where I go, I can remember the past.
Xiaoyao didn't know whether she didn't want to face the past or was really lazy. Anyway, she didn't want to go anywhere. Zhuanxu suggested that she open a medical clinic in Zhiyi like she did in Wushen Mountain, but Xiaoyao was not willing.
Every day, Xiaoyao only gets up after the middle of the day. After getting up, she flipped through medical books one after another. She felt a little more energetic only when she was refining the poison.
Huang Di saw that she was really depressed, so he kindly suggested: "That boy from the Fangfeng family is called Fangfeng Bei, right? I think you guys are playing well, but why haven't you played together in the past few years? You can ask him to accompany you around." " Huang Di didn't say it was okay, but when he did, Xiaoyao became even more depressed. He didn't even want to take poison , and sat on the porch all day long in a daze.
2-14<Chasing the past makes me miserable>


There is a hint here, Zezhou .

The most important moment of Zezhou in the story is when the Yellow Emperor went to Zezhou for inspection, Zhuanxu was assassinated by two uncles, and Xiaoyao protected him with his archery skills. Is this the past that I don’t want to recall? Obviously not. I'm just afraid that when I think about it, it's still the highlight moment in my past experience.

Shennong Mountain and Zhiyi both have memories of Zhuanxu, Jing, and Fangfengbei, but Zezhou only has memories of Fangfengbei.

Every few days, she would go to Fangfeng Bei to learn archery and go to Zhiyi and Zezhou together . Fangfeng Bei is indeed a libertine who has been eating, drinking and having fun for four hundred years. He is still very familiar with Zhiyi and Zezhou . He can find out what delicious and interesting things are in every corner. The two of them work together and enjoy the trivial and simple joys in life.
Zhiyi and Zezhou are far away from Wushen Mountain and Xuanyuan Mountain. Both Emperor Jun and Emperor Huang seem a bit far away. Very few people have seen Xiaoyao's true appearance. As long as he puts on the clothes of the Central Plains and smudges his skin color to look dull Some, and then used makeup to cover up the peach blossom birthmark, and she became an ordinary girl with pretty good looks.
2-2 <Wind Dew Stands at Midnight>

So we can almost be very clear about what memories Xiaoyao doesn’t want to face. She missed him, but didn't dare to think about him. There were memories related to him in every corner.


So when Huangdi suggested that she go to Bei, she "didn't even want to do the poison . " Making poison for Xiang Liu has almost become a daily habit. Later, when he didn't study poison techniques, he still made poison for him, but now he doesn't make poison anymore.

She once tested Xiang Liu and said that she would not give you poison after marriage, because giving poison after marriage is almost equivalent to spiritual cheating.

But when Huangdi said that she was even more depressed and unwilling to do the poison.

Fangfengbei? Fangfengbei is Xiangliu! It has been four years. He has never looked for me again. I have not replied to the letters I sent him. I tried to stimulate him by removing the lover's poison, but he has not responded. All my thoughts and hints have fallen into stone. Every poison in the past is a thought of mine, happy or unhappy. I always want to tell him and listen to him. But now, he doesn't pay attention to me at all. Who should listen to these thoughts of mine?

Obviously, four years ago, he already told me his choice.


Because Xiaoyao avoided talking to Xiang Liu, Zhuanxu had always thought that all of Xiaoyao's problems were due to Jing. So when Xiaoyao began to concentrate on studying medicine and slept better than before, Zhuanxu's perspective was " Xiaoyao Yao's illness was caused by Jing. Although she never mentions Jing now, it is obvious that after so many years, she still has not forgotten Jing."


But from an outsider’s perspective, is this really the case?

Because Zhuanxu liked Xiaoyao, he was in the middle of the situation and the authorities were obsessed with him. He wanted to have the right to be with Xiaoyao for the rest of his life, so he would keep an eye on whoever had this right. How could he possibly think of Xiang Liu? All he saw all the time was Xiaoyao and Jing, and it was Jing who he talked to Xiaoyao. As for Xiang Liu, he knew clearly that she was his enemy and Xiaoyao was his sister. It was impossible for him to abandon him or have too many entanglements with his enemy.

But Huangdi was an outsider. What Zhuan Xu couldn't see, he could see clearly.

When Zhuanxu regretted that he had pushed Xiaoyao to Jing and Fenglong again and again, and when he felt miserable because he was not qualified to possess Xiaoyao, Huang Di clearly knew what Xiaoyao had been feeling in his heart these years. miss who.

On the day Xiaoyao agreed to marry Fenglong , Huangdi didn't mention Jing or even Fangfengbei to him. Huangdi told Xiaoyao that Xiang Liu refused to surrender.

Huang Di had already left, but turned around and came back. He saw Xiao Yao leaning against the window, staring at the end of the night, in a daze.
Huangdi coughed slightly, and Xiaoyao woke up as if from a dream : "Grandpa, you haven't gone to bed yet?"
Huangdi said, " I asked Zhuanxu to try to surrender the Nine Life Prime Minister Liu. "
Xiaoyao couldn't help but stand up straight , Staring at Huangdi.
Huang Di said: "In these years, I have tried all the strategies and methods, but he has rejected them all."
Xiaoyao looked towards the end of the night, his expression neither happy nor worried.
"Zhuan Xu listed the Liangwang Peak in the northernmost part of Shennong Mountain as a forbidden area. The people guarding the peak are all Zhuan Xu's confidants. You should know why he did this. Although Xiang Liu saved your life, you don't owe him anything
.Yao smiled and said, "I know."
Huangdi said, "You should rest early."
2-14 <Chasing the past, Kong Meng is sad>


Huang Di: "You should know why he did this. Although Xiang Liu saved your life, you don't owe him a single thing." - I know why Xiang Liu saved you because he only needed a mountain peak that he might not be able to get. He is setting boundaries with you and doesn't want you to feel indebted. I also know that you care about him and who you have been thinking about all these years, but Xiang Liu has already made his choice. He did not choose you, so give up.

Xiaoyao: "I know." - I understand what you mean and what he thinks.


In the four years after the separation in front of Xiaozhurong Mansion, Yaobei never saw each other again.

After getting married to Tu Shanjing, her first love who she had been in a serious relationship with and had made a promise to, Xiaoyao was miserable for a year. However, Zhuanxu's crisis was still unresolved. Xiaoyao could still keep her spirits up and wait until Xiang Liu took her with her. After playing at the bottom of the sea for two days and one night, my insomnia immediately disappeared and my dreams were all sweet.

As for Xiang Liu, he never made it clear about his relationship with her, and time and time again put his affection in the name of transaction. However, Xiao Yao lived an extremely decadent life after the last separation - no longer practicing archery, no longer swimming, no longer He studied poisoning techniques and even stopped making poisons. He was in a daze every day.


So what exactly has she been doing during these four years?

She is quitting Xiang Liu. Remove the art of archery, the desire for water, and the art of poison one by one from your life.

She made poison for Xiang Liu, and she was also poisoned by Xiang Liu.

But it’s so hard to quit him! It was so difficult that she almost exhausted all her strength and mental energy. It was so difficult that she couldn't even rationally pretend to be nonchalant and live her life as normal.

Even though she hadn't seen him for four years, she still went to great lengths to send an ice crystal ball to Xiang Liu before they got married.


Huang Di was stunned for a moment when he saw what Xiao Yao had made. He walked into the room and looked at it carefully for a while. He didn't ask anything, but just sighed: "You are the only one who is willing to waste things like this!" Xiao Yao stared at the ice crystal ball
. , said: "The last time."
2-14 <Chasing the past, empty and sad>

Huang Di understood it completely. The sea, the male and female mermaids, and the outstretched hand could not be more obvious. Because Huang Di knew from the beginning that Xiao Yao had feelings for Xiang Liu, he would not think that Xiao Yao was just a work of art like Zhuan Xu did when he saw the picture of koi playing with lotus. He just watched this young and passionate heart bloom. The outcome was ultimately a matter between Xiaoyao and Xiang Liu.


"the last time". But I still want to try it one last time.

For the last time, I will use the rare treasures I collected to make a poison for you. I once thought that if I could let go of you, this poison would never be given out again. But after four years of hard work, I still can’t let go.

Then for the last time, ask what you think. For the last time, put the choice in your hands.

I can't quit you, please help me. Let me marry Honglong and quit you completely. Or, take me away.


There are other bystander perspectives:

Emperor Jun saw through Xiao Yao's girlish heart through the 狌狌 mirror, and after seeing the tragedies of Aheng and Chiyou, he did not want his daughter to make the same mistakes again.

Chishui Xian only saw an ice crystal ball. As a woman, she almost immediately understood the sincerity hidden in this ice crystal ball that cost countless efforts.

It was not until the end that A-Nian helped Xiang Liu rescue Xiao Yao, and perhaps he guessed who her sister was waiting for on the rocks outside the Dragon Bone Prison. The gossip about the wilderness that she heard was not completely fabricated.

After Xiangjun witnessed Xiang Liu erase Xuan Xunjing's memory and kill Gu with his own eyes, he may have really understood why Xiang Liu raised the corners of his lips and raised his eyebrows when he said, "The person Xiaoyao misses most is Tushan Jing." Smile" instead of showing regret and helplessness.

It wasn't until Xiaoyao wanted to beg him for Xiangliu for the only and last time before they got married that Zhuanxu figured out that Fangfeng Bei, who had been with Xiaoyao touring Xuanyuan City and the Central Plains, was Xiangliu, and that the person who taught Xiaoyao the peerless archery skills was Xiangliu. Liu, Xiang Liu rushed to Shennong Mountain to save Xiao Yao not really because of a mountain that he might not be able to get at all. Xiao Yao disappeared with Fang Feng Bei for a few days, but in fact he was with Xiang Liu. His sister was sad and heartbroken in those years. There is also a reason for Xiangliu to be decadent. It was also Xiangliu who took away Xiaoyao at Xiaoyao and Fenglong's wedding. It turned out that Xiaoyao said that Fangfeng Bei died and it was Xiangliu who made this identity disappear... His sister is worthy of being her. My sister, her behavior is exactly the same as mine, hiding and protecting what she really cares about. It turns out that I have been following the wrong person all these years.

They just passed by the world that belonged to Xiang Liu and Xiao Yao. Without seeing the whole picture, they were already moved by the true love of having you in their eyes, in their hearts, and with blood splashing on their hearts. This is a silent but deafening love that has a beginning, an end, a contract, a vow, a token, and witnesses.


"Deep love is a tragedy, and one must die to read it."

Swimming can bring happiness to Xiaoyao, but Xiaoyao no longer swims.

In the past, Xiaoyao was always in a state of offense and defense, so he studied poisons tirelessly and practiced archery unremittingly. Since losing Jing and Zhuan Xu ascended the throne, with nothing to lose and nothing to protect, Xiao Yao suddenly became discouraged and completely gave up on archery . Apart from making poison for Xiang Liu, she no longer studied poison techniques .
2-13 <There is no reason to return to the path>

I gave up archery in the front, and stopped thinking about poison in the back.

She had always wanted to use her own abilities to protect Zhuanxu, but when Zhuanxu came to the throne, she had nothing to protect, and she was not even willing to put in the effort to protect herself. I remember when she first returned to the Five Gods Mountain, after being pushed by A Nian, she became alert and "cannot slack off" and continued to study poisons.

At this time, is Xiaoyao really just losing Jing and Zhuanxu?


What we all know is that archery, poison, and swimming all point directly at Xiang Liu. Why didn't the author write that Xiaoyao no longer chewed chicken feet and duck necks, no longer drank green plum wine, and no longer drank mulberry wine?

On the bright line is the depression caused by losing Jing and Zhuan Xu. The dark line is the sadness that the love between himself and Xiang Liu has never come to fruition. When Xiang Liu said, "In fact, for a general, the best ending is to die on the battlefield," she understood his choice, but what about the heart? How to control the heart?


The days on top of Xiaoyue are very free and relaxing.
Zhuanxu said that Shennong Mountain is the same as the Five Gods Mountains, but that is not true. The Five Gods Mountains have no memory, but Shennong Mountain, Zezhou, and Zhiyi all have too many memories of the past. No matter where I go, I can remember the past.
Xiaoyao didn't know whether she didn't want to face the past or was really lazy. Anyway, she didn't want to go anywhere. Zhuanxu suggested that she open a medical clinic in Zhiyi like she did in Wushen Mountain, but Xiaoyao was not willing.
Every day, Xiaoyao only gets up after the middle of the day. After getting up, she flipped through medical books one after another. She felt a little more energetic only when she was refining the poison.
Huang Di saw that she was really depressed, so he kindly suggested: "That boy from the Fangfeng family is called Fangfeng Bei, right? I think you guys are playing well, but why haven't you played together in the past few years? You can ask him to accompany you around." " Huang Di didn't say it was okay, but when he did, Xiaoyao became even more depressed. He didn't even want to take poison , and sat on the porch all day long in a daze.
2-14<Chasing the past makes me miserable>


There is a hint here, Zezhou .

The most important moment of Zezhou in the story is when the Yellow Emperor went to Zezhou for inspection, Zhuanxu was assassinated by two uncles, and Xiaoyao protected him with his archery skills. Is this the past that I don’t want to recall? Obviously not. I'm just afraid that when I think about it, it's still the highlight moment in my past experience.

Shennong Mountain and Zhiyi both have memories of Zhuanxu, Jing, and Fangfengbei, but Zezhou only has memories of Fangfengbei.

Every few days, she would go to Fangfeng Bei to learn archery and go to Zhiyi and Zezhou together . Fangfeng Bei is indeed a libertine who has been eating, drinking and having fun for four hundred years. He is still very familiar with Zhiyi and Zezhou . He can find out what delicious and interesting things are in every corner. The two of them work together and enjoy the trivial and simple joys in life.
Zhiyi and Zezhou are far away from Wushen Mountain and Xuanyuan Mountain. Both Emperor Jun and Emperor Huang seem a bit far away. Very few people have seen Xiaoyao's true appearance. As long as he puts on the clothes of the Central Plains and smudges his skin color to look dull Some, and then used makeup to cover up the peach blossom birthmark, and she became an ordinary girl with pretty good looks.
2-2 <Wind Dew Stands at Midnight>

So we can almost be very clear about what memories Xiaoyao doesn’t want to face. She missed him, but didn't dare to think about him. There were memories related to him in every corner.


So when Huangdi suggested that she go to Bei, she "didn't even want to do the poison . " Making poison for Xiang Liu has almost become a daily habit. Later, when he didn't study poison techniques, he still made poison for him, but now he doesn't make poison anymore.

She once tested Xiang Liu and said that she would not give you poison after marriage, because giving poison after marriage is almost equivalent to spiritual cheating.

But when Huangdi said that she was even more depressed and unwilling to do the poison.

Fangfengbei? Fangfengbei is Xiangliu! It has been four years. He has never looked for me again. I have not replied to the letters I sent him. I tried to stimulate him by removing the lover's poison, but he has not responded. All my thoughts and hints have fallen into stone. Every poison in the past is a thought of mine, happy or unhappy. I always want to tell him and listen to him. But now, he doesn't pay attention to me at all. Who should listen to these thoughts of mine?

Obviously, four years ago, he already told me his choice.


Because Xiaoyao avoided talking to Xiang Liu, Zhuanxu had always thought that all of Xiaoyao's problems were due to Jing. So when Xiaoyao began to concentrate on studying medicine and slept better than before, Zhuanxu's perspective was " Xiaoyao Yao's illness was caused by Jing. Although she never mentions Jing now, it is obvious that after so many years, she still has not forgotten Jing."


But from an outsider’s perspective, is this really the case?

Because Zhuanxu liked Xiaoyao, he was in the middle of the situation and the authorities were obsessed with him. He wanted to have the right to be with Xiaoyao for the rest of his life, so he would keep an eye on whoever had this right. How could he possibly think of Xiang Liu? All he saw all the time was Xiaoyao and Jing, and it was Jing who he talked to Xiaoyao. As for Xiang Liu, he knew clearly that she was his enemy and Xiaoyao was his sister. It was impossible for him to abandon him or have too many entanglements with his enemy.

But Huangdi was an outsider. What Zhuan Xu couldn't see, he could see clearly.

When Zhuanxu regretted that he had pushed Xiaoyao to Jing and Fenglong again and again, and when he felt miserable because he was not qualified to possess Xiaoyao, Huang Di clearly knew what Xiaoyao had been feeling in his heart these years. miss who.

On the day Xiaoyao agreed to marry Fenglong , Huangdi didn't mention Jing or even Fangfengbei to him. Huangdi told Xiaoyao that Xiang Liu refused to surrender.

Huang Di had already left, but turned around and came back. He saw Xiao Yao leaning against the window, staring at the end of the night, in a daze.
Huangdi coughed slightly, and Xiaoyao woke up as if from a dream : "Grandpa, you haven't gone to bed yet?"
Huangdi said, " I asked Zhuanxu to try to surrender the Nine Life Prime Minister Liu. "
Xiaoyao couldn't help but stand up straight , Staring at Huangdi.
Huang Di said: "In these years, I have tried all the strategies and methods, but he has rejected them all."
Xiaoyao looked towards the end of the night, his expression neither happy nor worried.
"Zhuan Xu listed the Liangwang Peak in the northernmost part of Shennong Mountain as a forbidden area. The people guarding the peak are all Zhuan Xu's confidants. You should know why he did this. Although Xiang Liu saved your life, you don't owe him anything
.Yao smiled and said, "I know."
Huangdi said, "You should rest early."
2-14 <Chasing the past, Kong Meng is sad>


Huang Di: "You should know why he did this. Although Xiang Liu saved your life, you don't owe him a single thing." - I know why Xiang Liu saved you because he only needed a mountain peak that he might not be able to get. He is setting boundaries with you and doesn't want you to feel indebted. I also know that you care about him and who you have been thinking about all these years, but Xiang Liu has already made his choice. He did not choose you, so give up.

Xiaoyao: "I know." - I understand what you mean and what he thinks.


In the four years after the separation in front of Xiaozhurong Mansion, Yaobei never saw each other again.

After getting married to Tu Shanjing, her first love who she had been in a serious relationship with and had made a promise to, Xiaoyao was miserable for a year. However, Zhuanxu's crisis was still unresolved. Xiaoyao could still keep her spirits up and wait until Xiang Liu took her with her. After playing at the bottom of the sea for two days and one night, my insomnia immediately disappeared and my dreams were all sweet.

As for Xiang Liu, he never made it clear about his relationship with her, and time and time again put his affection in the name of transaction. However, Xiao Yao lived an extremely decadent life after the last separation - no longer practicing archery, no longer swimming, no longer He studied poisoning techniques and even stopped making poisons. He was in a daze every day.


So what exactly has she been doing during these four years?

She is quitting Xiang Liu. Remove the art of archery, the desire for water, and the art of poison one by one from your life.

She made poison for Xiang Liu, and she was also poisoned by Xiang Liu.

But it’s so hard to quit him! It was so difficult that she almost exhausted all her strength and mental energy. It was so difficult that she couldn't even rationally pretend to be nonchalant and live her life as normal.

Even though she hadn't seen him for four years, she still went to great lengths to send an ice crystal ball to Xiang Liu before they got married.


Huang Di was stunned for a moment when he saw what Xiao Yao had made. He walked into the room and looked at it carefully for a while. He didn't ask anything, but just sighed: "You are the only one who is willing to waste things like this!" Xiao Yao stared at the ice crystal ball
. , said: "The last time."
2-14 <Chasing the past, empty and sad>

Huang Di understood it completely. The sea, the male and female mermaids, and the outstretched hand could not be more obvious. Because Huang Di knew from the beginning that Xiao Yao had feelings for Xiang Liu, he would not think that Xiao Yao was just a work of art like Zhuan Xu did when he saw the picture of koi playing with lotus. He just watched this young and passionate heart bloom. The outcome was ultimately a matter between Xiaoyao and Xiang Liu.


"the last time". But I still want to try it one last time.

For the last time, I will use the rare treasures I collected to make a poison for you. I once thought that if I could let go of you, this poison would never be given out again. But after four years of hard work, I still can’t let go.

Then for the last time, ask what you think. For the last time, put the choice in your hands.

I can't quit you, please help me. Let me marry Honglong and quit you completely. Or, take me away.


There are other bystander perspectives:

Emperor Jun saw through Xiao Yao's girlish heart through the 狌狌 mirror, and after seeing the tragedies of Aheng and Chiyou, he did not want his daughter to make the same mistakes again.

Chishui Xian only saw an ice crystal ball. As a woman, she almost immediately understood the sincerity hidden in this ice crystal ball that cost countless efforts.

It was not until the end that A-Nian helped Xiang Liu rescue Xiao Yao, and perhaps he guessed who her sister was waiting for on the rocks outside the Dragon Bone Prison. The gossip about the wilderness that she heard was not completely fabricated.

After Xiangjun witnessed Xiang Liu erase Xuan Xunjing's memory and kill Gu with his own eyes, he may have really understood why Xiang Liu raised the corners of his lips and raised his eyebrows when he said, "The person Xiaoyao misses most is Tushan Jing." Smile" instead of showing regret and helplessness.

It wasn't until Xiaoyao wanted to beg him for Xiangliu for the only and last time before they got married that Zhuanxu figured out that Fangfeng Bei, who had been with Xiaoyao touring Xuanyuan City and the Central Plains, was Xiangliu, and that the person who taught Xiaoyao the peerless archery skills was Xiangliu. Liu, Xiang Liu rushed to Shennong Mountain to save Xiao Yao not really because of a mountain that he might not be able to get at all. Xiao Yao disappeared with Fang Feng Bei for a few days, but in fact he was with Xiang Liu. His sister was sad and heartbroken in those years. There is also a reason for Xiangliu to be decadent. It was also Xiangliu who took away Xiaoyao at Xiaoyao and Fenglong's wedding. It turned out that Xiaoyao said that Fangfeng Bei died and it was Xiangliu who made this identity disappear... His sister is worthy of being her. My sister, her behavior is exactly the same as mine, hiding and protecting what she really cares about. It turns out that I have been following the wrong person all these years.

They just passed by the world that belonged to Xiang Liu and Xiao Yao. Without seeing the whole picture, they were already moved by the true love of having you in their eyes, in their hearts, and with blood splashing on their hearts. This is a silent but deafening love that has a beginning, an end, a contract, a vow, a token, and witnesses.


"Deep love is a tragedy, and one must die to read it."

Sauvignon Blanc

Self-control max Xiang Liu’s forehead kiss

(by Yolo Su Ying)


Master Xiang Liu relied on the lover's Gu to locate his position. Thirty-seven years later, he was able to avoid Xiao Yao so quickly that he could move his hand back even if it touched his face. He was kissed by girls from the bottom of the sea and was able to avoid it at the last moment. He pretended to be under the sea with a heartbeat. I don’t know, Xiaoyao hinted that they wanted to travel around the world together without answering... With such incredible self-control, why could he not resist kissing Xiaoyao’s forehead after letting him go completely?

Because... I finally made sense!


Xiaoyao was silent for a while and suddenly asked: " Xiang Liu, why did you choose Gonggong? Is it just because he is your adoptive father? "

I just realized there was something wrong with that statement. Xiaoyao asked why he "chooses" Gonggong, not "follows" Gonggong. Because of "following" Gonggong, when they were at the bottom of the sea, Xiang Liu told half of the story, and Xiao Yao guessed the other half. When they met for the last time before the wedding, Xiao Yao also understood Xiang Liu's choice.

It's just that Xiaoyao only accepted Xiang Liu's decision in the past, and accepted the fact that even though he felt that Xiang Liu loved him, he would not choose himself no matter what. Finally at this moment, when there was almost no way out between them, she couldn't help but ask him, wanting to hear him tell her himself: Why?

Why choose Gonggong? The question is not at all the reason for following Gonggong, but: Why not choose me?

Although you gave up on me and I accepted it, at least let me know your heart!


"Not only for my adoptive father, but also for Pao Ze who fought side by side and lived and died together. We drank together, fought together, and collected the bones of our comrades together..." Xiang Liu looked at the memorial tablet on the case, "For hundreds of years, Can you imagine how many corpses of Pao Ze I have burned with my own hands?"
Xiao Yao couldn't imagine it, but she could understand what Xiang Liu meant, just like the fourth uncle, who could escape and loved his fourth aunt and Zhuan Xu deeply, but chose to Go to death with Pao Ze. There is some love in this world that you cannot give up even if you give up your life.
Xiang Liu smiled and pointed to his heart: "I can't count them, but they are all here."

Xiang Liu answered her, I can't cross the sea of blood of hundreds of years of corpses, I can't cross the undead souls that can't be dispersed, I can't cross the love of life and death, no matter what, I will accompany them to complete this journey. So I can't go to you, and I can't accept you.


Xiaoyao buried her head on her knees and remained silent. She felt her heart was filled with panic, but she couldn't tell whether it was for Xiang Liu or herself.
"What are you thinking about?"
"As Chi You's daughter, the world is huge, but there is nowhere to go."

Is Xiaoyao really just thinking about "the world is so big, but there is nowhere to go"? This sentence is not connected with the previous text.

"I don't know whether it's for Xiang Liu or for himself." Xiang Liu once said that Gonggong was "a pathetic fool, leading a group of fools, doing pathetic things." However, he himself was trapped in responsibility and friendship, and he disdained While doing this sad thing.

Xiaoyao saw the gap between them from Xiang Liu's words: So that's it, I finally understand what's between us, it's not whether the relationship is deep enough, but that you are "like my fourth uncle, you can escape, you can escape" I love my fourth uncle and Zhuanxu deeply, but I chose to die with Pao Ze." You obviously love me, but you chose the same path as my fourth uncle.

"My heart was filled with panic" because I finally understood that the reason why I was given up was unchangeable and insurmountable. Although I understood it, it was difficult to accept it and there was nothing I could do about it.


Xiaoyao gently touched his white hair and said, "It's not advisable to stay here for a long time. Leave after paying homage to old friends!"

Touching hair is such an intimate gesture! I can’t pretend anymore at this moment, I can’t help but love, and I can’t escape my fate. She obviously couldn't let him go, but she still cared about his safety. I didn't want him to leave, but I had to say goodbye.


Because she had just cried, Xiaoyao's eyes were exceptionally clear, and Xiang Liu could clearly see himself in her eyes. He reached out and touched her eyes and closed her eyes : "I'm leaving!"
Xiaoyao only felt a soft coolness on her forehead. With a slight touch, it disappeared immediately. Xiaoyao suddenly covered her forehead and opened her eyes to see what was in front of her. It was empty.

All things are without light, only your eyes are bright, and there is only me in your eyes. If you can't look at it anymore, you will feel reluctant and distressed. A little more indulgence and a little more affection will turn into harm to the other party.

In front of him is clearly the woman whom he deeply loves and who loves him deeply, but so close is the end of the world. A kiss on the forehead was a farewell kiss, and I finally said, yes, I love you, but you and I will never be destined for each other in this life.

Sauvignon Blanc

Self-control max Xiang Liu’s forehead kiss

(by Yolo Su Ying)


Master Xiang Liu relied on the lover's Gu to locate his position. Thirty-seven years later, he was able to avoid Xiao Yao so quickly that he could move his hand back even if it touched his face. He was kissed by girls from the bottom of the sea and was able to avoid it at the last moment. He pretended to be under the sea with a heartbeat. I don’t know, Xiaoyao hinted that they wanted to travel around the world together without answering... With such incredible self-control, why could he not resist kissing Xiaoyao’s forehead after letting him go completely?

Because... I finally made sense!


Xiaoyao was silent for a while and suddenly asked: " Xiang Liu, why did you choose Gonggong? Is it just because he is your adoptive father? "

I just realized there was something wrong with that statement. Xiaoyao asked why he "chooses" Gonggong, not "follows" Gonggong. Because of "following" Gonggong, when they were at the bottom of the sea, Xiang Liu told half of the story, and Xiao Yao guessed the other half. When they met for the last time before the wedding, Xiao Yao also understood Xiang Liu's choice.

It's just that Xiaoyao only accepted Xiang Liu's decision in the past, and accepted the fact that even though he felt that Xiang Liu loved him, he would not choose himself no matter what. Finally at this moment, when there was almost no way out between them, she couldn't help but ask him, wanting to hear him tell her himself: Why?

Why choose Gonggong? The question is not at all the reason for following Gonggong, but: Why not choose me?

Although you gave up on me and I accepted it, at least let me know your heart!


"Not only for my adoptive father, but also for Pao Ze who fought side by side and lived and died together. We drank together, fought together, and collected the bones of our comrades together..." Xiang Liu looked at the memorial tablet on the case, "For hundreds of years, Can you imagine how many corpses of Pao Ze I have burned with my own hands?"
Xiao Yao couldn't imagine it, but she could understand what Xiang Liu meant, just like the fourth uncle, who could escape and loved his fourth aunt and Zhuan Xu deeply, but chose to Go to death with Pao Ze. There is some love in this world that you cannot give up even if you give up your life.
Xiang Liu smiled and pointed to his heart: "I can't count them, but they are all here."

Xiang Liu answered her, I can't cross the sea of blood of hundreds of years of corpses, I can't cross the undead souls that can't be dispersed, I can't cross the love of life and death, no matter what, I will accompany them to complete this journey. So I can't go to you, and I can't accept you.


Xiaoyao buried her head on her knees and remained silent. She felt her heart was filled with panic, but she couldn't tell whether it was for Xiang Liu or herself.
"What are you thinking about?"
"As Chi You's daughter, the world is huge, but there is nowhere to go."

Is Xiaoyao really just thinking about "the world is so big, but there is nowhere to go"? This sentence is not connected with the previous text.

"I don't know whether it's for Xiang Liu or for himself." Xiang Liu once said that Gonggong was "a pathetic fool, leading a group of fools, doing pathetic things." However, he himself was trapped in responsibility and friendship, and he disdained While doing this sad thing.

Xiaoyao saw the gap between them from Xiang Liu's words: So that's it, I finally understand what's between us, it's not whether the relationship is deep enough, but that you are "like my fourth uncle, you can escape, you can escape" I love my fourth uncle and Zhuanxu deeply, but I chose to die with Pao Ze." You obviously love me, but you chose the same path as my fourth uncle.

"My heart was filled with panic" because I finally understood that the reason why I was given up was unchangeable and insurmountable. Although I understood it, it was difficult to accept it and there was nothing I could do about it.


Xiaoyao gently touched his white hair and said, "It's not advisable to stay here for a long time. Leave after paying homage to old friends!"

Touching hair is such an intimate gesture! I can’t pretend anymore at this moment, I can’t help but love, and I can’t escape my fate. She obviously couldn't let him go, but she still cared about his safety. I didn't want him to leave, but I had to say goodbye.


Because she had just cried, Xiaoyao's eyes were exceptionally clear, and Xiang Liu could clearly see himself in her eyes. He reached out and touched her eyes and closed her eyes : "I'm leaving!"
Xiaoyao only felt a soft coolness on her forehead. With a slight touch, it disappeared immediately. Xiaoyao suddenly covered her forehead and opened her eyes to see what was in front of her. It was empty.

All things are without light, only your eyes are bright, and there is only me in your eyes. If you can't look at it anymore, you will feel reluctant and distressed. A little more indulgence and a little more affection will turn into harm to the other party.

In front of him is clearly the woman whom he deeply loves and who loves him deeply, but so close is the end of the world. A kiss on the forehead was a farewell kiss, and I finally said, yes, I love you, but you and I will never be destined for each other in this life.

Why did Xiaoyao turn a blind eye to Xiang Liu's love, but was willing to be Tu Shanjing's mistress?


This analysis is based on what the tonghua says about the reasons for the heroine's choice:

Tonghua Say : The heroine's choice has always been due to psychological deficiencies, and her psychology is closely related to the growth of childhood and teenagers, which is what is often called the original family in psychology today.


Xiaoyao mental disorder, psychological analysis1 month ago · From the column Analysis of Sauvignon Blanc

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Xiaoyao's "Quotes on Sobriety" make people feel very unhappy and depressed. Xiaoyao suffered too much in her growth, and she created a hard shell for herself to resist harm. She has completely given up on herself and ignored her true feelings. She seems to be "protecting" herself and "strong", but in fact she has been hurting herself .

Behind her seemingly cold temperament is a heart that is riddled with holes and extremely fragile, fearing loss, loneliness, isolation, and separation .

The alienation and abuse from relatives in Xiaoyao's childhood caused personality disorder and lack of character. As a result, in the future, he avoided feelings, was not confident, did not believe, and could not recognize them clearly. One of the characteristics of Xiaoyao's psychological problems is that he doesn't know himself, doesn't control himself, and doesn't heal himself .

In other words, people with mental illness who are often referred to as never think they are sick;

At present, she has her own fixed way of thinking and behavior, and she has no ability to control it;

Unless professional psychological intervention is provided, it is almost impossible for him to recover on his own.

Xiaoyao has type C AvPD avoidant personality, DPD dependent personality disorder, compensatory psychology, smiling depression, and post-traumatic syndrome. Let’s talk about personality disorders caused by childhood trauma:

First, avoidant personality disorder

Usually, patients who have been subjected to "suppressive education" for a long time in their original family, or experienced ridicule early in life , will internalize the humiliating experience and form a negative self-image. They do not believe that others are well-intentionednor do they believe that they are worthy of love .


  • Xiaoyao's childhood experiences include rumors, beatings, and insults when she was imprisoned by a fox, which caused great psychological pressure and eventually internalized it, forming a psychological disorder.

Patients with avoidant personality disorder are often accompanied by social phobia, are extremely sensitive to negative evaluations, are afraid of being rejected and abandoned, and will reject and abandon others first.


  • I said to myself at the party: I am lazy and not sociable.
  • Determined to spend time in the sea, fearful as a dream, it is actually the fear of being tied to the person you love, thinking that the other person will eventually abandon him (because he will not accept her; he thinks that the other person has never loved her).
  • Xiang Liu took off his waistcoat and lay on the bed. He first said something harsh and said he wouldn't see her again, then turned around and went to get the medicine. Those who say no before wanting to do something will not be hurt.

The picture below is from Zhihu, Avpd avoidant personality disorder manifestations,


Corresponding to some of Xiaoyao’s quotations, here are some examples:

Social Inhibition:

  • Talking to A-Nian: "In relationships between people, one person must take the first step... I have always been selfish and will never be the one to take the first step."

Excessive sense of risk:

  • No matter how much hope I have today, there will be much harm in the future. Instead of doing this, I might as well rely on myself.


  • There are thousands of people who make promises, but it’s hard to find those who keep their promises.


  • Even if I fall, the only one who can catch me is myself.

Avoiding intimacy:

  • No one in this world will wait for anyone forever. When they are tired, they will leave naturally!
  • The time of harmony is always short-lived, just like the happiness in the world is always momentary. When the flowers bloom, they wither, and when the moon is full, it wanes, but this is the case with all the beautiful things in the world.

Second, dependent personality disorder


It usually comes from the doting and over-protection of the family of origin, and it can also occur in families that are extremely lacking in love .


  • Xiaoyao lost the protection of her parents when she was a child and lived alone in the wilderness. She was without the warmth of family at a very young age.


Dependent personalities find it difficult to be alone and independent. Without support, they will fall into a sense of fear, emptiness and worthlessness. All the actions and sacrifices we make are for the purpose of "not being ignored" and "seeking attention".


  • I took the initiative to find monkeys, played with snakes, and built trust with foxes; I took in Lao Mu, adopted Mazi, and Chuanzi, and took care of their lives; if we don’t have a long-term dependence on each other, we have to be with each other for a short time.


Dependent personalities have no self-awareness and are overly obedient to the will of others. When an intimate relationship ends, they will feel abandoned and may have thoughts of suicide.

Dependent personalities are difficult to get along with because of excessive dependence. After repeated setbacks in dependent behavior , they usually experience collapse and spontaneous treatment and are relieved, or some severe cases go to destruction.


Give up yourself and seek perfection:

  • As long as you live in this world, you must swallow your anger no matter how unfair it is, and you must take a step back no matter how unwilling you are.
  • After drinking very bitter medicine and eating two pieces of sweet preserves, you won’t feel the bitterness anymore. As long as you think more about happy things, you won’t feel the pain anymore.
  • Even if you cry, you have to walk your own path. After all, you can't escape. Instead of shedding tears, it's better to keep your eyes open and see the road ahead clearly.

self sacrifice

  • It’s not because of how good or worthy she is, but because of my father and Xuanxuan, I am willing to pay for A-Nian first for my father and Xuanxuan.
  • Grandma told us before she died that we should support each other. If you are living a good life now, I can ignore everything, but with your current situation, I can't feel at ease even if I go far away.
  • My little abacus is very good! Now I let you lean on me a little, but I plan to rely on you completely in the future!
  • During my conversations with Xuanxuan, I expressed my need for each other many times, that we would accompany each other, and that we would stand in front of my brother when his life was in danger.

Fear of being alone and feeling helpless


Feeling helpless

  • Unable to protect themselves, with nowhere to go and no one to rely on.

恐惧被抛弃

  • People think I have a kind heart, but in fact, it is just because I am weak. I feel at ease when I am with the weak. I feel that I am in control of everything, that I am relied on, and will not be given up.

Third, compensatory psychology

Blind compensation without a clear understanding of one's own shortcomings and defects often leads to overcompensation, resulting in abnormal development in certain aspects , destroying the coordination and unity of personality, and in turn aggravating psychological conflicts, causing adaptation difficulties and poor interpersonal relationships.

Many people also have a similar compensatory psychology: when they encounter setbacks, losses, or difficulties, they turn their needs for one object to other objects. The specific ways of expression are displacement and sublimation, striving to get rid of them . The mood of doom is particularly strong and urgent .

As mentioned above, Xiaoyao has a dependent personality disorder. When her dependent behavior is repeatedly frustrated in relationships, she will have an emotional breakdown, which will induce her "self-treatment" to be relieved, or go to the other extreme, or even lead to destruction.

Every time Xiaoyao gets sad at Xiang Liu's place, her progress with Jing will improve by leaps and bounds. This is a frustration of "dependence" and induces a compensatory psychological mechanism. For example, Wang Ji and Xiang Liu quarreled at the beach, swam in the sea all night, and then had their first kiss in the Dragon Bone Prison. After the fish played with lotus leaves and expressed their love sweetly, Fangfeng Bei left decisively, followed by a fireworks kiss, love singing and dancing.

  • After drinking very bitter medicine, you won't feel the bitterness after eating two pieces of sweet preserves. As long as you think more about happy things, you won't feel the pain anymore.



Xiaoyao’s compensation characteristics:

1. Unconscious

In order to relieve the psychological sadness and pain, unconsciously choose another person to release love and relieve the heartache. (Jing replaces Xiang Liu)

2. Will sublimate

Use more intense expression methods to achieve better healing effects. (A more passionate and real kiss; singing and dancing instead of songs to seduce Zhao and the Siren)

3. It will not really cure

It cannot replace the original pain, nor can it cover up the true love. The effect is always temporary. In other words, her love for Xiang Liu has never diminished because of her emotional entanglement with Jing.

4. There must have been emotional frustration before.

Fourthpost-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) severe depression

Merlin tortured and killed Xiaoyao, who suffered a fatal violent attack on her body, and psychologically the most painful memory of her childhood was once again revealed.


Xiaoyao's description in Seaberry is very similar to the feelings of a severely depressed patient. Wrapped up in layers, sinking in darkness, immersed in the abyss, unconscious, unwilling to think, without motivation, and the body is not one's own.

Xiang Liu spent 37 years covering this cold heart with the warmth of his heart's blood, bringing it back to life bit by bit. The number 37 means "affectionate", and it is also the antidote for Xiang Liu to heal Xiao Yao.

After a major trauma, the unconscious self weakens and falls into a feeling of abandonment. It produces feelings of being helpless and lonely , and falling deeply into loneliness, depression, and helplessness.


After waking up, Xiaoyao did not see Xiang Liu, and then developed a deep identification and dependence on Jing, who sacrificed her love for her and was also dying. This so-called "emotion" is still a mental illness. The impact of this unhealthy emotional dependence on Xiaoyao:

1. Too humble

2. Overindulgence

3. Complete loss of initiative and self-worth.

4. There is no way to leave or end the relationship.

5. The alienation of the other party will bring great pain .

Xiaoyao's attitude towards Jing changed from being dispensable to being dependent on each other; after Jing got married and gave birth to a child, Xiaoyao felt that she had lost her only "reliance" and suffered every night; later, in order to help Jing solve household chores, she did not hesitate to show off her lustful appearance, which attracted the attention of Jing. Houhe Fangfengyi reveals flaws.


Psychological stress factors are increasing day by day, common mental disorders and psychological behavioral problems such as anxiety and depression are increasing year by year, and cases of psychological stress events and accidents caused by patients with mental disorders are increasing

so who is the confidant? now I'm fine if Yangzi says XL is the confidant


Yeah...tonghua always hides Yaoliu very well!!


Behind the poem of chapter 32,souvignon blanc
"A Shadow Headed in Which Direction"

Seeing a wild goose die in love

Huan Haowen "Mo Yu'er·Yanqiu Ci"

"Ask the world, what is love? Direct teaching of life and death. How many times has the old wing been cold and hot? Happy and fun, parting is hard, and there are even more idiots. Jun Yingyou said: There are thousands of miles of clouds, thousands of mountains and twilight snow, who is the only shadow going for?

Hengfen Road, lonely in those days with the flute and drums, the barren smoke is still calm. Conjuring up the soul, He Yiji, the mountain ghosts cry from the wind and rain. Heaven is also jealous, Untrustworthy, Ying'er and Yanzi are all loess. For thousands of years, in order to keep the Sao people, they sang and drank wildly, and visited Yanqiu."

Seeing a wild goose die in love

" Yuan Haowen was a famous writer in the late Jin Dynasty and early Yuan Dynasty. When he was 16 years old, he went to Bingzhou (in Taiyuan today) to take an exam. On the road, he met a man who hunted wild geese and heard him tell a strange story: that morning. After capturing a wild goose and killing it, another wild goose that escaped from the catching net hovered in the air, wailing, refused to leave, and finally hit the ground quickly and died.

Legend has it that the wild geese are very loyal. They are truly consciously monogamous. If one of a pair of wild geese dies unfortunately, the other will never find a partner for life. Therefore, there are always descriptions of lone geese in ancient Poems.

Someone in Dangkou Town, Wuxi caught a wild goose and was about to slaughter it for cooking. When a scholar saw it, he felt compassion for him, so he spent money to buy the wild goose and take it home as a pet. He was worried that the wild goose would escape, so he tied up its two wings with a string so that the wild goose could not fly. The scholar raises it among chickens, ducks and poultry, and it is usually docile, but as soon as he hears the chirping of geese in the air, he keeps his head up and crying. One day, a group of wild geese flew over the sky, and the wild geese screamed loudly. Suddenly a wild geese flew down from the sky and stopped on the eaves. The two wild geese cried relative to each other, flapping their wings as if they had known each other. The wild goose on the ground wants to let the one on the eaves come down, and the wild goose on the eaves wants to bring the one on the ground up. The scholar saw this and understood that these two wild geese must be their former partners, so he cut the thread on the wings of the wild geese on the ground and let them fly away. But this big goose's wings had been tied for too long and could no longer fly. It fluttered its wings, but it just flopped and fell off. It failed repeatedly. The big geese on the eaves guarded it there until it was getting dark, and suddenly flew down from the eaves, and mourned each other beside the geese who were unable to fly. The scholar went to look again the next day, and the two wild geese were already dead.

Moyu'er·Yanqiu Ci" is a lyrical poem. On the surface, it is a metaphor for human love by describing the love of a pair of geese, but in fact it is not just about love. Behind this poem, it also reflects Yuan Haowen's longing for his soul mate and life confident.

How much joy, how much pain, or infatuation like children in the world. The wild goose who sacrificed for love thought to himself at that time: That evening, I crossed thousands of miles of clouds and overlooked the earth, thousands of mountains, all covered by thick snow. It's freezing cold, and the future is uncertain. Now in this world, I am the only one left. Who can come and walk with me? Without a partner, why should I move on?
The relationship between this pair of geese, I am afraid that even the gods will be jealous. Such an infatuated wild goose, I don't believe that after it dies, it will turn into a handful of loess just like those ordinary warblers and swallows. Therefore, when Yuan Haowen became an adult, when he recalled the incident of the death of a geese in love, what he saw in his eyes was no longer a simple relationship between a man and a woman. This kind of feeling is a feeling of longing for "confidant" on a larger scale, including the love between men and women.

A person is actually very afraid of loneliness. But it is very regrettable that most of the time in one's life, one has to face loneliness.We all want to find a soul mate who shares the same aspirations as ourselves, because only in this way can we support us through this lonely and lonely life.No matter if the road ahead is Qianshan Muxue or Huohai Daoshan. As long as there is such a soul mate who is willing to come and walk with us, then we have nothing to fear . On the contrary, we may even lose the confidence to live.

The ancients often said: A scholar dies for a confidant. At the beginning of this poem, a question sentence has been passed to point out the theme of the poem. That is - what kind of feelings can make a person make a contract with another person without fear of life and death?

Everyone is afraid of death. Why do some people not only do not fear death, but actively ask for death after losing their soulmate? Could it be that all of this stems only from the instinctive impulse of animals? Obviously not so.

In fact, the goose who sacrificed for love in the poem did not die for "love", but for the sake of "a thousand mountains and twilight snow, only to whom the shadow goes"! Yuan Haowen obviously felt that it was very difficult to find a soul mate who was willing to die for each other. So he wants to build a grave for Dayan, and then write this poem, so that the literati through the ages will take this opportunity to drink and cry because the confidant is hard to find.

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From the perspective of the female protagonist's growth line, there is no male protagonist at all!



Some people say that it is Tu Shanjing who saves Xiao Yao. I just want to say how shameless Tu Shan Jing is. Not to mention saving Xiao Yao, Tu Shan Jing is simply the biggest stumbling block on Xiao Yao's growth! Some people say that it was Xiang Liu who redeemed Xiao Yao. Xiang Liu only fulfilled Xiao Yao's needs, but she herself was the one who truly redeemed Xiao Yao!

What is true salvation? Redemption is not that you lacked maternal love when you were a child and I gave you a boyfriend who is a mother. It is not that you have been abandoned before, so l will find you someone who will never leave you for the rest of your life. It is not that you were unable to protect yourself before, so l kept you in captivity and gave you heavy protection.

The redemption is that I want you to understand that there is no long-term dependence in this world, and that you can truly accept the departure of your loved ones; the redemption is that I want you to understand that only you can protect yourself, and don' t try to rely on others. The human dodder flower Will always keep your sobriety and your ability to improve yourself.

Redemption is that one day you will understand that there was once someone in this world who loved you beyond life. This love is enough to heal all the pain in your heart, rebuild your complete personality, and embrace real life, even if that person is no longer there. Yes, you have to follow your own path.

Xiaoyao's growth line in this book is different from what many people expected. From Qingshui Town, Xiaoyao has been polished to a slippery loach. She knows everything and has perseverance that is different from ordinary people. The only weakness she has is that she cannot get out of the shadow of her original family. She has a heart problem. After leaving Qingshui Town, it is the beginning of her mental suffering.She was hurt by Zhuan Xu and Tu Shanjing "in the name of love". Down the road, she had been lost and in pain, but with the guidance and help of Xiang Liu, she did not give up searching for herself, and finally cured her heart disease and became a butterfly.

Xiaoyao's real growth and breakthrough begins with the ending.


Tonghuatonghua :

To all strong people: Sufferings become sufferin
gs only because those who encounter them are defeated. And we defeated the sufferings, trampled them to pieces, kneaded them into our own bodies, and turned them into our own strength. Therefore, we never regard sufferings as sufferings - "Sauvignon Blanc"

This Weibo post by Tong Hua points out the purpose of this book's growth line:

If you are suffering from the pain caused by the shadow of your original family, if you are suffering from the hardships of life, don't be like Xiaoyao, longing for someone to save you. Look, Xiaoyao has been going around in circles for half his life. Didn't you finally come out on your own? Therefore, believe in yourself. Suffering is suffering only because you are defeated by it. If you transform suffering into your own strength, then no suffering can defeat you. There is no long-term dependence in this world. Whether it is parents, lovers, relatives and friends, you are born alone and will die alone. Don't be obsessed with long- term dependence. Even if your loved ones leave, you will still be together. Live your life well.


Why did Xiang Liu use the pseudonym "Baozhu" in the small courtyard in Qingshui Town? Does this name mean anything?


1. The original meaning of "Baozhu"

Baozhu is the string post of ancient plucked instruments such as zither, qin and harp .

Liu Yuxi of the Tang Dynasty wrote in "The Journey of Hurt Qin Shu": " The red gold spring with green oxen and the rose pillar are flying geese in autumn."

Wen Tingyun of the Tang Dynasty wrote in " Hunting and Riding Ci ": "The treasure pillar is reluctant to leave the string, and it flows into Huangbei Chi County."

Yin E of the Five Dynasties wrote a poem in " Jiangchengzi ": "The Baozhu Qin Zheng plays towards the evening, and the strings stimulate the geese, making them think more."

Zhang Zhu of the Yuan Dynasty wrote "A Hundred Rhymes of Yushan Poems to Gu Zhongying": "The strings are loose and the treasure pillars are tuned, and the sheng throat is burned with silver springs."

Xiang Liu named himself "Baozhu". Maybe he thought that Yao Liu and Yao Liu could have harmoniously played the harp and harp , but now Xiang Liu was left alone in Qingshui Town to express his love for him and spend the rest of his life composing a magnificent and majestic song. A song of forbearing lovesickness and secret love . And this song is like the song of a mermaid , which cannot be heard by ordinary people, only sea creatures can hear it. And Xiang Liu's song is also hidden between heaven and earth, unknown to anyone. Only Xiao Yao can hear it, but Xiao Yao has no chance to listen. It's so pitiful and pitiable! The pillar moves the heaven and the earth with its music, but no one comes to break my heart!

Xiang Liu took Xiao Yao to listen to the shark's singing, and he also used the shark's singing to convey the strong and forbearing lovesickness of Xiang Liu, Fang Feng Bei and Baozhu.

2. From the perspective of text dismantling.

First level of interpretation. Bao means knowing, like there are shells and jade in the house, which means there are treasures hidden in the home. "Zhu" means "pillar" in shape, from the main sound of "wood", and its original meaning is "house pillar". So, Xiaoyao is a "treasure", which means that Xiangliu regards Xiaoyao as a treasure;

The second level of interpretation is that Xiaoyao's original name is " Jiu Yao ", and both characters in her name include "王". The first "王" plus "DOT" turns it into jade. Keeping the jade at home is regarded as "treasure" . The second "king" is added with "dian" to become "lord", and "lord" is combined with the word "wood" in "Xiangliu" to become "pillar". Therefore, "treasure pillar" implies that Xiaoyao is Xiangliu's treasure and also Xiangliu's mistress. Oh my god, it’s so doting, so earthy and sweet.

3. From the perspective of homophony.

it may have two meanings. One is "baozhu" (pampering, so sour), and the other is "baozhu" (sense of responsibility).

Homophone 1: Baozhu

"Baozhu" obviously means that precious treasures live here, and this "Bao" refers to Xiaoyao (Little Liu). Because if Xiaoyao does not regain her identity, she will always be Wen Xiaoliu . In Xiang Liu's original plan, he planned to walk hand in hand with Wen Xiaoliu and stay together for the rest of his life.

Before Xiaoliu left Qingshui Town, all the information he released to Xiangliu made Xiangliu think that Xiaoliu could stay with him, so after falling in love with Xiaoliu, he agreed to plant a gu and give his only heart to Xiaoliu. six. Xiang Liu is thoughtful (he has led the Chenrong Rebel Army for hundreds of years), he keeps his word (loyalty to Hong Jiang Paoze), and he is extremely capable of execution. Therefore, "growing lover's poison" is definitely not a whim, it must be After repeated research, you have made up your mind and are ready to put it into practice.

Under the circumstances and current situation at that time, Xiang Liu's judgment was that he could stay with Xiao Liu forever .

Let’s talk about Xiang Liu Xiaoliu first. When Xiao Liu met Xiang Liu for the first time and was suspected of his identity, Xiao Liu said, "As long as you are willing, I can just be Wen Xiao Liu for the rest of my life." Even if Xiang Liu knows that she is a woman and may regain her true form in the future, no matter how special her identity is, she may be an unappreciated child abandoned by a noble family, or even more likely the enemy's son of Xi Yan or Haoling (the same is true for Cang Xuan ) suspected). Otherwise, how could Xiaoliu have suffered so much in the past 300 years, being imprisoned and hiding his gender, and finally wandered to Qingshui Town to have fun with the human race. Xiang Liu must have guessed her life experience through the information released by Xiao Liu. Referring to her first appearance in the Chenrong Rebel Army camp, Xiang Liu sent someone to investigate Wen Xiaoliu and confirmed that her identity was not a threat. Then Xiang Liu After discovering that I have feelings for Xiaoliu, I must have speculated about Xiaoliu's life experience. It is very normal for us to be curious about people we have a crush on. In addition, Xiang Liu had already rescued Fangfeng Bei at that time and knew that some children of aristocratic families were not valued by the family. Therefore, Xiao Liu, a protoss with excellent medical skills, might be a child who was neglected by a certain aristocratic family and used the family's expertise to make a living. Xiao Liu is more likely to be the enemy's son of Xi Yan or Hao Ling. So Xiao Liu's true identity may be a neutral party, and he may be in the same camp as Xiang Liu. Who would have guessed that Xiaoliu was Xi Yan's granddaughter? The probability was less than one in ten thousand.

Based on the above reasons, Xiang Liu speculates that Xiaoliu's identity is safe and not antagonistic. This is the first condition for a long-term relationship besides falling in love.

The second condition is that since the Lover Gu can be planted, Xiao Liu also has feelings for Xiang Liu. Although Xiao Liu has not realized his feelings yet, it will be a matter of time. The future is long and the heart will not lie. Therefore, being in love between two people is the second condition for staying together for a long time.

Based on the above two points, after Xiang Liu fell in love with Xiao Liu and planted the poison, he planned their future life and planned to build a home belonging to Xiang Liu and Xiao Liu next to Huichun Hall .

Some would say that given the unstable current situation, such companionship is likely to be short-lived. No, during the period of Qingshui Town, there was no Queen Haoling in the world. Cang Xuan did not even go back to Xiyan, let alone become the king of Xiyan. The unification of the wilderness was even more impossible. Under this current situation, the future direction of Chenrong's rebel army is still unclear. It is possible that they will survive for hundreds of years or even longer, or even make a comeback and separat one side again. So let’s analyze the current situation and background of why Xiang Liu thinks he can stay with Xiao Yao forever.

Xiang Liu serves as the military advisor and general of Chenrong's rebel army. The analysis of the world's pattern must be thorough and clear to the heart. Xiyan and Haoling divided and conquered them , while Chenrong's rebel army lived in a corner and lingered. It seems that Chenrong's rebel army has no country to protect, no land to defend, and no people to protect. But in fact, the Chenrong Rebel Army has a big chance of turning around in the future, and may even be able to make a comeback.

The first reason is that there is a crisis of civil strife in Xiyan . The Yellow Emperor is old and old, and abdication, rebellion, or death are all possible. The crown prince of Xiyan is undecided, with five kings and seven kings eyeing him. His grandson Cangxuan is serving as a hostage in Haoling, and he has almost no foundation in Xiyan. Moreover, Cangxuan has always been a well-traveled favorite, and has never shown any signs of great talent. . For the Chen Rong Rebels, there are two guesses. One is that Cang Xuan is indeed a mediocre person, so even if he succeeds by chance, he will not be able to pose a fatal threat to the Chen Rong Rebels. Second, Cang Xuan is a hidden genius in governing the country. He is forbearing and firm, and is good at disguise. Xiang Liu had never dealt with Cang Xuan before. After fighting Cang Xuan in Qingshui Town, he found that Cang Xuan belonged to the latter group. Therefore, he must be eradicated as soon as possible. If the tiger is allowed to return to the mountain, it will definitely become a serious problem . Cang Xuan was an uncertain factor for Chen Rong's rebel army, so Xiang Liu wanted to kill Cang Xuan several times. If Xiao Liu hadn't repeatedly broken the situation to save Cang Xuan, Cang Xuan would have died at least three times. As long as Cang Xuan, the most unstable factor, is eradicated, the probability of Chen Rong's rebel army being wiped out will be greatly reduced, and defeat can even be turned into victory.

Besides, Xi Yan has another candidate for succession, the Five Kings. Whether as a rebel strategist or as Fangfeng Bei, Xiang Liu had conflicts or transactions with the five kings, and he knew the talents, character, and behavior of the five kings well. As the saying goes, if you know yourself and the enemy, you can fight a hundred battles without danger. Therefore, the succession of the Five Kings to the throne is not a bad thing for Chenrong Yijun. The Five Kings want to succeed to the throne because they are pursuing and infatuating with power and status. His governance ideas are good if they can protect Xiyan, but they cannot truly convince the Central Plains family. Once they become disloyal, it will give Chenrong's rebel army a chance to come back. . Because at this time, the Central Plains families did not surrender from the heart, and many families were in a wait-and-see state. Those who understood the current affairs were heroes . Xi Yan, under the governance of the Five Kings, eventually declined and split. When Huang Di later asked Cang Xuan and the five kings about their future governance, Xiang Liu's speculation was already verified.

Therefore, Xiang Liu, who transformed into Fang Feng Bei, supported the Five Kings, which was the most advantageous strategy for Chen Rong's rebel army. Why the Fangfeng family supported the Five Kings, when or how they supported it, may not only be a coincidence, but may also have the guidance and planning of Hong Jiang and Xiang Liu.

Both Xiang Liu and Fang Feng Bei were determined to kill Cang Xuan in order to avoid future troubles and give Chen Rong's rebel army a chance to survive.

The second reason is that there is no one to succeed to the throne in Haoling Kingdom, and Haoling has no grudges against Chenrong's rebel army and will not take the initiative to destroy the rebel army. King Haoling only has two daughters . The eldest King Ji has been missing for many years and has not been heard from. The second daughter is spoiled and overbearing and has no intention of governing the country. King Haoling was not looking for a talented person to marry into his wife, so the successor to the throne was still undecided. Fortunately, King Haoling is still young, so he can slowly plan his succession. In addition, everyone knows that Cangxuan loves his sister. If Cangxuan cannot return to Xiyan to inherit the throne, the relationship between King Haoling and Cangxuan's master and apprentice is like a teacher and a father. If Cangxuan and Anian have been in love for a long time, they will be in love with each other. Yue, it is possible for Cangxuan to marry Anian and marry Haoling. By then, Xi Yan will be succeeded by the Five Kings, and Hao Ling will be succeeded by Cang Xuan. These two people are incompatible with each other, and it is impossible for them to cooperate to destroy Chenrong's rebel army. By then, a war between the two countries is about to break out. Chenrong 's rebel army can just watch the fire from across the bank , and there will be peace for a few years.

Reason three is that the Tushan people remain neutral. The Chenrong Rebel Army has been doing business with the Tushan clan for decades. The Tushan clan's rule is never to participate in politics, so the Chenrong Rebel Army's military aircraft and food problem can be solved. And without Tushan Fox mediating in politics, this factor would have little impact on the political situation.

The fourth reason is that the Central Plains is the buffer zone for the Chenrong Rebel Army. If Xi Yan wants to break through this buffer zone, it will still take a few years. If the new leaders (such as the Five Kings) make improper decisions, they may even lose the support of the Central Plains. At that time, the Rongyi Army will be able to regain the Central Plains.

Therefore, based on the above four points, under the current situation, there is a very high probability that the Chenrong Rebel Army will exist forever or even make a comeback, so Xiang Liu never slacks off in training and waits for opportunities.

Therefore, Xiang Liu had no intention of living toward death at that time. He had a strong desire and ability to live. At the same time, he also believed that he could protect Xiao Liuyi from death. According to Xiang Liu's calculations, it is absolutely feasible to stay with Xiao Liu for a lifetime, regardless of subjective conditions or objective circumstances. Therefore, it makes sense to give the two of them a home in Qingshui Town.

But Xiang Liu never expected that the biggest variable in the entire current situation would be King Haoling, Wen Xiaoliu, who wanted to stay with him for the rest of his life. Wen Xiaoliu left, and King Haoling returned to her throne. A game of chess can change the situation in an instant . From the moment Xiaoyao chose to restore her identity, she revived Cangxuan's dead end and forced Xiangliu and Chenrong's rebel army to a dead end. She also planted the lover's poison on Xiang Liu. For Xiang Liu, she really loved the wrong person, paid her heart to the wrong person, and could not take it back. If he continues to express his sincerity, Chenrong's rebel army will die. If he takes back his heart, the love poison will bite him back, and there will be no way out left and right. It's really a trick to Xiang Liu.

At the same time, Xiaoyao also gained her loyal fan Tu Shanjing , who helped Cangxuan rise to power. Through Fenglong's plan, Cangxuan skipped consolidating the Xiyan forces and directly attracted the Central Plains clan. This move made Chenrong's rebel army even more powerful. Impossible. Tu Shanjing is worthy of being the best chess player in Dahuang. One move can determine the outcome, and the abacus can jingle. Tu Shanjing killed four birds with one stone, helping Cangxuan's career (getting acquainted with the Central Plains clan, sending Fenglong's big treasure, and offering superior strategies), helped Fenglong's career, improved his relationship with Xiaoyao, and also attacked his own The thorn in the side (love rival) Xiang Liu. Tu Shanjing is definitely the first person to pretend to be a pig and eat a tiger ! ! !

Xiaoyao returned to his throne, Cangxuan returned to Xiyan, Tushanjing helped Cangxuan, the Central Plains family Fenglong became Cangxuan's strategic partner, Cangxuan entered the Central Plains, this combination of punches has wiped out all the hopes that Chenrong's rebel army had. broken. A comeback is unlikely.

The abdication of King Xiyan, the marriage of Cangxuan, and the abdication of King Haoling are another combination of punches. All political crises have been resolved peacefully. Chenrong's rebel army did not wait for an opportunity to act, but waited for an opportunity. The pace of great unification . Unification means that the main contradiction of the current situation becomes "the annihilation of the Chenrong Rebel Army", which all accelerates the death of the Chenrong Rebel Army.

Think about it, from the current situation in Qingshui Town to the annihilation of Chen Rong’s rebel army 80 years later. The situation changed too quickly. No matter how Xiang Liu calculated, he could not predict how small the probability of this event would be. Mathematically, this is even considered an impossible event! The probability is 0! ! !

I couldn't help but want to ask Xiang Liu, "You're just kidding me!"

Combined with the angry scene when Xiang Liu heard that Xiao Liu was Gao Xin Jiu Yao , he drank and threw a glass, you can experience it firsthand. Why is Xiang Liu so angry? Because this is not only being deceived emotionally, but also ruining all Xiang Liu’s plans for himself, his lover, and the rebels! Destroying life!

Before Xiaoyao realized that she had feelings for Xiang Liu, she chose Cang Xuan rashly. In order for Cang Xuan to regain his identity, he actually pushed Xiang Liu into the abyss. If Xiaoyao thinks about the causes and consequences of these things after the novel ends, how can she feel at ease?

Therefore, the novel " Sauvignon Blanc " seems to have a happy ending for Xiaoyao, but in fact, the endings of everyone in it are very sad. Especially Xiang Liu Xiaoyao!

Homophone 2: Keep

"Keeping it" was probably Xiang Liu's last compromise. Many people said that in Xiang Liu's heart, Chen Rong's rebel army came first, and Xiao Yao was not Xiang Liu's first choice. I think it was Xiaoyao's choice that triggered Xiang Liu's ending and triggered Xiang Liu's repeated compromises. Xiang Liu made the biggest compromise for Xiao Yao. He put Xiao Yao in the first place and killed Cang Xuan before he could. The first time he killed Cangxuan, it was Xiang Liu who gave up on himself). Xiang Liu gave up the hope of giving Chen Rong's rebel army a chance of survival for Xiao Yao. Therefore, Xiang Liu believed that it would be a betrayal if he did not kill Cang Xuan, and it would be an even greater betrayal if he stayed with Xiaoyao. Therefore, he could not live an ignoble life, but could only die to clarify his ambition.

Finally, although the name "Baozhu" is very down-to-earth, it is very consistent with the naming style of Qingshui Town. It goes well with names such as Lao Mu, Mazi, and Chuanzi, and is not obtrusive at all. Being able to have such a name may be the common wish of Xiang Liu and Xiao Yao. They have similar destinies. What they long for most in their hearts is to live a free life. They can use the most ordinary name and the most ordinary identity to hide in the world and live in ordinary happiness. Perhaps only Xiang Liu himself knows the deep meaning of "Baozhu".

To sum up, the name Tong Hua chose is earthy, cultural and profound, which is great

There are three emotional turning points for Yao Jing :


The first one is that Xiaoliu ran to test Jing to see if he was willing to fight against King Gao Xin for her in order to escape Xuanxuan's capture . As a result, Jing followed her without hesitation. She was touched. So she agreed to Jing's fifteen-year agreement in Dragon Bone Prison .

The second one is that Merlin tortured and killed Tushanjing for love, and Xiaoyao woke up in 37 years under the sea and went to see Tushanjing. Xiaoyao knew that Jing would rather die with her than abandon her. It was at this time that Xiaoyao confirmed that Jing was the person she had always wanted and would never abandon her no matter what. Later, Yao Jing began to confirm the relationship, and Jing returned to Qingqiu to start breaking off the engagement.

"Xiao Yao felt the shell around his heart shatter completely, all the threads she had been trying to cut during that time finally intertwined into a web in the end."

In both incidents, the author wrote that Xiaoyao wanted to cut off all threads, but because of Jing's persistence, she never cut it off and even spun it into a web. The key point is why Xiaoyao wants to cut off this attachment again and again?
If she really likes her, she will subconsciously want to get closer. Referring to her attitude towards Xiangliu, even if Xiangliu pushes her away time and time again, she will still do it. Trying desperately to hold on to the only trace of connection. What was that trace of longing? It was just a little companionship that Xiaoyao coveted. She needed confirmation again and again that Jing would not abandon her and that Jing would put her first.


The third turning point was that after the marriage robbery incident, Xiang Liu placed her next to the Huichun Hall in Qingshui Town , where she met the elderly Sang Tian'er . She saw Sang Tian'er's ending. Although Sang Tian'er didn't love Chuanzi at first , Sang Tian'er gave first and exchanged false love for a life together. At the end of her life, Sang Tian'er felt that her life was worth it.Xiaoyao realized at this time that since it was impossible to be with Xiang Liu, he would have to live his own life. Even if Sang Tian'er doesn't like Chuanzi, she can live her life with him, and her life seems to be going well.So after Xiaoyao returned, he began to actively solve Jing's dilemma and found evidence of Hou and Yiying's affair. You must know that in the beginning, Xiaoyao has always been a cold observer to the difficulties faced by Jing. If she really loves Jing, she will work hard to solve the problem. Only if you don't love this person will you stand on the sidelines. Until it was no longer possible to be with Xiang Liu, and he saw his future from Sang Tian'er (even if you don't love this person, you can support each other and work hand in hand with him for the rest of your life).


These three events were basically the turning points of Yao Jing's relationship. They progressed step by step, and finally the two of them successfully got engaged.

But what's wrong? What's wrong is too clear in this line.Real love is not like this. There is a saying that goes, " You don't know where love starts from, but it grows deeper as time goes by ." You don't know when you fell in love with this person. You just gradually fall in love with him as you get along with him again and again. Rather than like this, after this incident, I care about you three points. After another thing, I care about you 70%, and after another thing, I care about you very much. The progress bar is full, I love you. Do you think this is love? If you can explain it clearly, it is not love. Love cannot be explained clearly.

King Gao Xin took Xiaoyao and Jing to the Chishui Desert to meet Aheng . Aheng asked Xiaoyao why he chose Jing, and Xiaoyao said that only Jing would not give up on him. When someone asks you why you chose your husband, you say because he is rich, because he is tall, because he is good to you, but you just don’t answer because you love him. Isn’t this obvious?Then Ah Heng seemed to smile. Was she laughing at herself for abandoning Xiao Yao in the first place, or did she disagree with Xiao Yao's view of love , or was she heartbroken that her daughter was so insecure.

After Xiaoyao and Jing got engaged, when they decided on the wedding date, Jing thought the sooner the better, but Xiaoyao postponed the wedding for more than 40 years on the grounds of compiling medical books. Jing's reaction is a normal reaction for liking someone. If you really love someone , shouldn't you want to marry him?It has been delayed for more than forty years.

In the end, Xiang Liu died, and Xiao Yao told Jing that he wanted to live on an island because Xiang Liu said there were many beautiful islands in the sea. I really can’t see Xiaoyao having the slightest love for Jing here. Would you tell your husband that you want to live in your ex-boyfriend’s hometown? If you really love him, would you not care about his feelings? Will you always talk about another man in front of your husband?

As for Xiaoyao blushing when she kisses Jing, I really don’t want to talk about it. She is a big girl after all. How can she kiss a man without blushing? When she first rescued Qi Qi, she even blushed while giving Qi Qi a bath. Can you say that Xiao Liu now likes the beggar version of Qi Qi?

And Jing died, Xiaoyao was very sad. At this time, Yao Jing is about to get married, and the companionship that Xiao Yao has always pursued and will never abandon is within reach, but everything has come to nothing overnight, can you not be sad? What's more, Jing has been with her for so long, so even if she doesn't like her, she still has other feelings.I don’t deny Xiaoyao’s feelings for Jing. Xiaoyao must have very deep feelings for Jing. But this is not love. Love is heartbeat. It’s the unknowing desire to get closer. It’s when you endure it even though you know it’s impossible. You can't help but be tempted. Even if that person doesn't respond to you at all, you still want to wander around the world with him.On the other hand, Xiaoyao calculated every step towards Jing very clearly. She was always analyzing the pros and cons, weighing the gains and losses. In her relationship with Jing, she was too rational.


To understand the relationship between Yao Liu and Yao Jing, you must first understand Xiao Yao.

Here I would like to say that Xiaoyao’s biggest characteristic is that she is inconsistent and good at self-brainwashing.

Have you noticed that Xiaoyao is very conflicted? She keeps saying that she is hard-hearted and unwilling to take the initiative to give. But does she actually do this? No, she took the initiative to save Ye Shiqi, she took the initiative to show her kindness to Anian, and she took the initiative to help Xuanxuan rise to power. She is not what she says at all, but she keeps saying it to everyone, to Xiang Liu, to Shi Qi, and to her cousin. Is she saying this to make others pity her? No, She wants to brainwash herself into believing that this is who she is.
The most important proving event is that when Merlin was tortured and killed, he had breathed his last, and he had to deny that she was Chichen's daughter.But does she really believe that she has nothing to do with Chi Chen? She probably knows the truth deep down.

But she was afraid of this fact, so she repeatedly brainwashed herself: My father (Shaohao) loves me very much, and I must be his daughter. Even until she dies, she will tell Mu Fei that he killed the wrong person. She was already dying at this time, and she still told Mu Fei what she was doing. Was it because she was trying to let his conscience go and let her go? She just continued to brainwash herself. Even if she was going to die, she didn't dare to face the fear in her heart.After analyzing Xiaoyao's character, and then looking at her attitude towards Jing and Xiang Liu, it is easy to explain.The consequences of falling in love with Xiang Liu have already been learned. Her parents, two people who loved each other, were not blessed by relatives and friends and had to fight on the battlefield. Even their children were hurt because of their parental love.The consequences were too tragic and Xiaoyao couldn't bear it, so she started to think differently and brainwashed herself: I love Jing, Jing will never abandon me, and we will be blessed by everyone when we are together.Did you find that when she is afraid of something, she will find another person to divert her attention.

She used Shaohao to deny the fact that she was Chichen's daughter, and Jing to deny the fact that she loved Xiang Liu.