I FEEL REALATED

For me, who is struggling with depression every day, I really feel very related to Jaewon and wish I had a Jihyun (unfortunately not :)))) the feeling that life has nothing nice, my family doesn't understand me, mental breakdown every day but still trying to pretend I'm fine, always wanting to help and comfort everyone. Laughing by day, crying at night. Day after day wearing a mask of happiness as if nothing happened, but also day by day emotions fell to death. Yesterday I watched the deleted scene of Jaewon's mental breakdown and I burst into tears. No matter how hard he tries, he still can't get rid of the regret, guilt from the past.

Someone asked, is avoiding Jaewon's way of protecting Jihyun? That's right! Falling in love with a depressed person is never easy for anyone, Jaewon is just trying not to let Jihyun fall into that hole. But I also like the way Jihyun always waits for him silently. Jihyun is a kid from a small town who went to seoul to go to college, he doesn't have the mischief of an 18-year-old kid, but he is more calm and deep. The boy started everything with Jaewon. Making new friends, join a surf club despite being afraid of water, eat ramyeon in the han river, love and be loved, travel without any preparation, sleep on the beach, kiss, and even make love, everything is with his hyung. Even though Jihyun was rejected by Jaewon, Jihyun still understood for him, understood his feelings. Jihyun didn't try to force Jaewon at all, just slowly waiting for his hyung to turn to look at him. No matter how hurt he is, he always looks at Jaewon.

The most regretful thing when I watch the movie is, there is no scene of Jaewon carrying Jihyun to the hospital, no scene of Jaewon breaking down when hearing the news that the patient lying next to Jihyun in the ICU room died, I really want to feel the pain of Jaewon at that time :((

All in all, this was a great experience, and I can't stop rewatching it. Looking forward to ss2 as good as this!!!!

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