Tearjerker

This is storyline told at its purest, it’s so simple yet so complicated with the intricate feelings and the complexity of the human mind. Nothing is every black and white in life and this drama shows that life is hard and complicated the choices we make pave ours life. But we also have should have ability to move forward instead of letting our past dictate the rest of our life, we can see what vengeance can do to one’s life. Wallace’s acting stands out and continues to amaze me. His acting is so haunting and just simply a masterpiece. He is so good at what he does. Supporting cast of his father who did an amazing job as a complicated misunderstood father. The adorable son Ping Ping, who is much wiser than his age, breaks your heart, he played it so wonderfully. The vibrant and beautiful Vicky who added much needed sunshine in the series. Her character with ML is a joy to watch, totally shipped these two together in the series.

I wished they have shown us more that NYS had the strength to move forward without Tang Jing, you can see glimpses of this towards the end. But so many things unfolded and than they were back together in the end. The first half of this drama made sense to me why she couldn’t be with him. But after ML found out about his son after FL kept it a secret for 7 years plus . Plus all of the past history and misunderstandings that had lead to breakup . It was just cruel the way he was repeatedly getting abused by the FL. So many people in Tang Jings life was affected by her selfish decisions, which she claims were selfless. But to me were really decision based on her own self worth and pride. She hurt so many people along the way. She had a very strong case of victim mentality and this really took away from this drama.
Not only did she take away the ML chance of being in his sons life for the first seven years of his life, she took away ML relationship with his own father that really never got salvage. She really took away every possible relationship he had with anyone away, with herself, his dad and his own son. She took away his self worth, not because she broke up with him. But for her lack of trust in him, the way she treated him . Her pride was always an obstacle in the relationship right from the beginning of their relationship. One of his quotes was “I’m I that unworthy of love that I can’t be trusted”. He even told her (in the younger years) that he questions, if she truly loves him. Cause people who love each other never think of their pride first.

ML became a shell of his former self. The happy go lucky confident young man, became someone who always question his self worth. I’m glad that drama realistically portrayed that those years took a big toll on him. Even with her being back in his life, he never really was his former self again. Experiences changes you, time is not always kind.

She also literally squeezed the life out of the second lead the fake husband Sun. She let him be the “father” and “husband”and she let it dragged on for all those years without giving him any sort of commitment, communication, love or kindness. If you can commit you shouldn’t be selfish for your own needs and let him continue to be with you. He was also a happy, confident man when they were younger. The years he spent with her really took all of his confidence away.

Her sons life was in danger multiple times. Your pride shouldn’t be confused with the life of your son, you shouldnt be playing games with someone’s life. Nor should you be able to decide a father and sons relationship and than continue to do so when he found out he was the son. She felt like she had suffered all these years and the world owes her for all her suffering or in this case NYS and his family. Her hatred and thirst for revenge was never founded as his father never had anything to do with her fathers death. Let’s say that he had anything do his death, the fact was that her fathers death was an ACCIDENT to begin with. That’s all it was, she can perhaps blame him for the cover up but not the actual death. Throughout the drama, it is mentioned she never ever had any solid evidence,it was just an assumption that she made. But that assumption ruled her life and really affected so many people in the process.

Many many viewers in China were unhappy with the middle of plot with so much dog blood coming from FL. You know what would have made a lot of viewers happier despite all the wrong decisions Tan Jing made? An apology to those around her or at least an acknowledgement of some guilt that she felt.

1. An apology to NYS for robbing him of 6 years with his child. An apology for wavering so many times and choosing to trust anyone but him
2. An apology to NDS for believing he was behind her dad’s death without any solid proof. An apology for driving a wedge between him and his son. An apology for robbing him of 6 years and robbing him once again when she ran off with the child knowing that the grandfather also loved him. Only a blind person can’t see that he loved his grandson and the feelings were mutual
3. An apology to her son for depriving him of his father. An apology for delaying his surgery because of her selfish means to keep him by her side when his life is on a string.
4. An apology to Sun for depriving him of the warmth he deserved. Knowing she could not return his feelings she should have never had him commit his lifetime to her. As soon as NYS walked back into her life, she just tossed Sun to the sidelines because she no longer needed him.
5. An apology to Vicky because she walked into their lives and ruined what could have been a better relationship than her own with NYS. Also knowing that Vicky and NYS were together and offering up her body to NYS. What decent person does this?

She took the money NDS offered then cried victim. She tried to prostitute herself to NYS for money to cover the surgery instead of telling him that Ping ping is his son. People make mistakes but Tan Jing never once regretted how many she hurt along the way or felt any remorse for those she hurt. She thinks she’s so selfless yet she was always so selfish using everyone around her.

Though it was a happy ending and they got back together. I wished that instead that the ML, NYS found his own happy ending without her. That his life and self worth isn’t define by her. That he is worthy enough for love, worthy enough to live his life to its fullest. The love that they had was beautiful, but it’s in past and nothing could salvage all the damaged it had caused. Happy memories can remain that and he can create his own happy memories with someone else . I really had hope that we would have seen some of redemption of the FL at the end or seen more closure of all the problems and loose ends .

Overall beautiful beautiful cinematography throughout the drama, many scenes you wouldn’t think you would cry, you did. It was an excellent high quality drama, worthy to watch to the end . A heartbreaking drama that hooked me from the beginning.

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