You're not alone in this fight.

I just finished watching Tomorrow after doing my exam. This drama showed various stories and characters that represents different people in life who is suffering but don't have the courage to say anything. They put on a face they are okay and that is what people see but inside they are full of concerns just like anybody else. They feel sad, depressed, confused, and questions their existence -- and this thoughts and feelings make people decide some bad decisions. But they never knew that their are others too who knows what they feel but fought through it.

I, too have had gone through depression, thinking of what will happen after I am gone, if my decision is the right thing or not when I see my loved ones looking at me as if they are disappointed in me. And in the process of being depressed, thinking no one understood me, I heard that one of my classmate commit suicide. My initial thought was why?, I knew her and she always look so happy and great at her studies unlike me, why all of a sudden did she do that? That is what I thought and when her close friends that were also my close friend said she was never the kind to do that to herself I don't know how to react maybe because I was having my own problem that I had a hard time to empathize. Then one day I said to one of my friend that I feel so tired, that I don't want to do anything anymore and I can't help but want to close my eyes most of the day because I feel tired even though I have done nothing, then that friend said she feels the same way and said thought of stopping. Then this rushed of scenes come to my mind. I felt the need to stop her and even though I feel so depressed at that time I talked to her that we can do this together, we should never give up that one day we'll get though this. There were so many friends that felt the same thing that I do and talking to them made me remember all the hardships that I have faced to get where I am and the friends and family who are doing their best to cheer me up even though I am so pessimist.

The moral is talk even though you don't want to talk. Say the things that make your heart full of pain because there is always someone who can hear you and be able to understand what you feel. It may be a long shot but at least you tried. That is what helped me get through all of the bad thoughts. Yes I still feel like I am fighting on my own fight but at least I have someone I can share it. It is embarrassing at first but it is life.

The drama Tomorrow really helped me understand my mind and also the mind of other people. It made me cry because I do know how they feel. It made me laugh because I see those friends that in the characters in the drama who are trying hard to cheer me up. And made me so envious of the fashion of Koo Ryeon hhahahha...

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