Ok so, I’m honestly very stuck on how to feel about this BL, don't get me wrong I loved it, I feel like a lot of us loved it until the end. But even with the ending I want to have an open mind on how it ended and try not to bring down this show because of it. I know some people on the reviews and comments have said how it’s not necessary to have such a sad ending and kill off the ML and I agree, but maybe because a lot of the BL I’ve watched have happy endings and I barely watch on purpose or come across a sad ending do I feel like having a sad ending once in a while is refreshing. It sucks and it's not what the majority of watchers like but it's more... realistic? Life is not always happy and life doesn't always have happy endings. So I feel like this story having this ending is in a way refreshing regardless of how depressing it was. Since we have no other ending it’s good to just accept it as it is and try to look at it in a different perspective and maybe that way we can enjoy the show more. I know I sound like a dumbass making this deeper than it is but I like to see things on a deeper level most of the times. And this show was honestly really good, the tension the main couple had and chemistry was unmatched, I haven't felt this way about a BL in a while, the way it made me feel was something I haven't felt in so long with BL since these days BL's are all pretty much the same. But this one was different. And it does hurt a lot that we didn't get that happy ending, and god Xi Gu deserved that happy ending. But I guess that's just how life is for some of us, unfair. And I like that realism. It's beautiful, it's real, it's unique. And yeah. As for the second couple, I hated it, it was so cringe and bad and the age gap................... normally I wouldn't mind age gaps but like you gotta have good chemistry for that to slide with me, these 2 were like so weird. I didn't feel anything with them and at times I felt disgusted. If I could choose, I would make the second couple go through what the main couple went through instead of them. Cause seriously every frame those 2 were in, made me wanna ball my eyes out. Horrible chemistry. IDEK why Zhi Gang even likes Bo Xiang, like? A lot wasn't established and a lot of details were missed. But whatever. Overall good show, wish it had a different ending but that's all we get so might as well make peace with it. I feel like this might be impossible, but I’m hoping for more BL shows In the future with Wayne Song and Huang Chun Chih as leads, and if it does happen, pls... happy ending.