August Challenge Day 15 ~
Who is your ULT Bias? ~ Some reflection
You know, reading American Fan's bias post, it's just occurred to me that I don't like to get to close to knowing an actor because I'm always then left to feel like I'm walking on a line, waiting for a scandal, a dating rumor, stalkers etc etc so I've learned to just enjoy someone's work.
But having looked at Boun and Fluke's instagrams, there's a good chance that we would only be casual friends as our tastes and likes are very different.........Also, I'm the Mad Hatter's daughter so LOL
I preferred Fluke's instagram. He seems a little more adventurous. I got a very glamourised feeling from Boun.
Cheng Yi, ma man is wise enough to stay the Fk off social media because chinese SM is a drug lord's piranha tank and he seems too hard working to let anyone take him down LOL There's a good chance we could be very similar people but he keeps that wall up and I fully support that. I'd rather he not get cancelled and banned for something so ridiculous.
So far, the only BL actor that I've had an emotional connection to has been Apo Nattawin. I feel like we're very alike personally and even though I hated Kinnporsche, I finished it for him. I even have that in my rage fueled review LOL I still hate BOC. I still have to watch Mansuang but perhaps recently, I'm softening, and realising that I kind of miss of him. Maybe I'm opening up to watching him again.
So perhaps on that reflection, I should change my BL bias. Boun and Fluke are lovely to look at and their shows are my favourite BL's so far but a bias? It's a very shallow reason to title them my bias.
If I'm being brutally honest with myself, I'm a sensitive wee soul and I protect my heart. So when Apo came along and I got swept away in the KP hype, I think I brushed Apo aside as part of the negative experience. But he is a talented actor and much to my pleasure, in a similar manner that I enjoy Cheng Yi.
For me a bias is going to mean a connection of some sort other than just being pretty. I would generally love to listen to some Bach and have coffee (I'll have tea) with Apo. He's also pushed me on some level internally as well. He did inspire me. He did kick start something in me, even if the rest of the experience wasn't very pleasant.
So with that said, my real ult BL bias is Apo Nattawin.