@Romans_Revenge
Even TH knows that after revisiting the story, there were many weaknesses, she knew what she could’ve added regarding specific characters if she had stopped focusing on giving her fav character lot of “godlike attributes”, but what’s done is done ??♀️. Again she has identified Jing as XY’s lover, end of discussion…if you don’t like it, go & fight TH ?. I’ve emphasized many times that XY just wants a normal life & someone who’ll be with her all the way, all that war & running away with an enemy is just NOT for her. She’s already been through a lot & has reached at a point where she just wants to be happy with her husband & kids not being on the run & ending up as a tragedy.
Actually the novel was really good. I am just surprise how much a lot of fans are inclined towards XL as perfect romantic hero for XY. It's not untrue. But Jing is her perfect romantic life partner. I dont really mind XL being many people favorite character. However, I still dont accept XY loves XL most. ? When I havent finished reading book, I was watching a youtube channel saying XY loves XL more than Jing. Her early vids not so bias but later more bias and bias. I guess it had to do with Jing's getting more popular than expected ? Her argument were love bugs connection and also XL destroying memories from XY's mirror, because if XY really don't have any feelings for XL, why XL would worry if XY will grow feelings for him or not ? I do not have the exact answer yet. I will reread whole thing again. But what I get so far is that XL is sometimes extreme in handling things like he's not afraid to die on battle at all sometimes even if theres no chance of winning. I know he had reason. And he wanted to cut all ties with XY. Im sure he knew her affection for him. But I am not sure if he's cutting ties all for her or for himself too! Because he should know that her heart is not fully his. Her purpose not inclined with his. lol
I do answer to her another argument "XY kept XL deep bottom inside her heart!"
I dare say it's not true. Because if she's keeping him deep bottom inside her heart , she might probably not keep memory like that on any physical object that he could also open it to see it. Both of the times she took those memory she did out of fun. Yep not gonna lie she had attraction towards him a woman to a man. I am sure of it. For me what she felt for Jing in that area is much deeper though. And I am sure her wanting Jing is from deep bottom her heart to full surface. I am telling this from witnessing her despair after Jing disappeared. I am sure she will forever yearn for him if he never came back. I don't think she can ever love another like that again. Because it is Jing what represents Life to her.
Chapter 44
When XY thought she lost Jing. XL is presented.
Xiang Liu said “The price is for you to stay alive! Even if Tu Shan Jing is really dead, you have to stay alive!”
Xiao Yao stared dumbstruck at Xiang Liu before her eyes went beyond him to stare at the limitless ocean horizon. A life that was long, a longing that had no end in sight……if she didn’t give up and stayed alive, what would that feel like? Probably like a dark night with no sunrise.
Chapter 51
When XY knew she lost XL. Jing is presented.
Xiao Yao kept talking and crying until gradually her words trailed off and she curled tightly into Jing's arms and stared at the tall Phoenix Flower Tree. Blooms of red fell to the ground carried by the wind as if each memory passing by, no matter how beautiful it would all pass the wind.
Remark: XL death to XY was a devasted surprise Shock to XY with words piercing dagger through her heart. If I havent read XY heart was pierced like that before ,. I did not remember where yet., ohh shes too broken.. but I think her despair for Jing was stronger as life itself. So yep...thats my answer. And I also want to add whom XY fell in love partly depends on her as a person and what she desire for life too. But it doesnt have to do with all with those losses she experienced before. Because everyone has purpose in life. I mean if she just enjoyed advanture more and was into deep raw romance, she may long for XL type for sure. If she's ambitious. I mean if she saw power as important to protect to those around she may fall for CX. Even if she 'd never experience all those trauma , she may just still crave that simple life deep down even if she like roaming at times. So yep. Thats my take on XY character.
I wrote long again ..?