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 Extract:  Hou sat alone on the other side, opposite from Zhuan Xu.

The word "alone" emphasizes Hou's solitary position amidst the group, amplifying the sense of isolation and separation he experiences. It suggests that Hou feel disconnected from the others or excluded from their interactions, be it due to differences in status, personality, or agenda. This solitude symbolize his unique position /  perspective within the group dynamics, hinting at a potential divergence in goals or priorities compared to Zhuan Xu and the rest of the gathering. Furthermore, it foreshadow Hou's individualistic nature ,  his tendency to operate independently, indicating that he may not easily conform to group norms or expectations. Overall, the word "alone" deepens the characterization of Hou and sets the stage for further exploration of his role in the narrative. 

-  It's interesting to have some of Cang Xuan insight on Tushan Hou, he share with Xiao Yao:

Text extract: “Because my circumstances and his have some similarities. We are both being patient.  We are waiting for an opportunity to attack and kill the opponent in one go. We all want to prove ourselves to everyone.”

Xiao Yao's expression turned grave.

Cang Xuan) acknowledgment of this shared desire with Hou, highlights the underlying competition mindset , and  their self-assertion within the narrative. It implies that both character are striving to distinguish themselves, prove their capabilities, and leave their personnal marks in the world they inhabit.

The repeated use of "we" in Zhuan Xu's statement suggests that he sees a parallel between his own situation and that of Tushan Hou. Despite being on opposite sides or having conflicting interests, Zhuan Xu recognizes commonalities in their approaches and mindsets. By using "we," Zhuan Xu is drawing a connection between himself and Tushan Hou, acknowledging shared traits or strategies that they both employ.

The shared circumstances of patience, strategic waiting, and the desire to prove themselves indicate that Zhuan Xu sees a similarity in the challenges and goals that he and Tushan Hou face. This shared experience creates a sense of kinship or silent  understanding between them, despite their adversarial positions.

=> Zhuan Xu's fascination with Tushan Hou suggests a level of intrigue and admiration for him.

By framing their situations as parallel and emphasizing the commonalities in their approaches, Zhuan Xu is  highlighting the complexity and nuance of their relationship. It suggests that there is more to their dynamic than just opposition or conflict, and that there is a level of respect or recognition between them based on their shared experiences and strategies. 

Also:  he seems to have a somewhat cynical or detached perspective on the complex and  dangerous dynamics at play among the characters:

 @Winny Aye:Zhuan Xu smiled narrowly and said: “Or don't you feel that this is also a part of the fun?

For me : It's cynical (knowing how far this mindset will playout later on).

It gives him a certain enjoyement. He likes it obviously. A trill. Competitive and dangerous sens of who's the one who will leave behind him the strongest mark of himself...Tushan Hou makes him vibe in a way.

                                       TUSHAN HOU 's description through Xiao Yao's eyes:

She secretly observed Tushan Hou. She initially thought that although such a person would have an attractive face, his personality must have been low, but she didn't think that he was handsome beyond expectations, with his eyebrows and eyes. His and Jing had five to six similar parts. But he's stronger. It radiated a fierce and barbaric aura in many parts. The corner of the mouth had a thin line  of scar,making even when smile , there was still some hidden aggression.

Physical Description and Demeanor:

• Tushan Hou is described as handsome beyond expectations, with features reminiscent of Jing but appearing stronger and exuding a fierce and barbaric aura.

• The thin scar on the corner of his mouth adds a layer of intrigue to his character, suggesting a past marked by adversity or conflict.

• Despite his attractiveness, there's a hint of hidden aggression in Tushan Hou's demeanor, as implied by his scar and the description of his facial expression.

Personality Traits:

• Tushan Hou's demeanor suggests a complex personality, blending physical strength with a potentially turbulent inner world.

• His silence after encountering Xiao Yao and the change in atmosphere following his arrival hint at his commanding presence and the respect he commands from those around him.

Relationship with Other Characters:

• While Tushan Hou's interactions with Xiao Yao in this passage are limited, his presence triggers a shift in the atmosphere and prompts Xiao Yao to reflect on his differencies with Jing.

• The dynamic between Tushan Hou and other characters, particularly Xiao Yao and Jing, are hinted to evolve over the course of the novel, potentially leading to conflicts and revelations about their shared history.

Symbolism and Imagery:

• Tushan Hou's physical appearance and demeanor  carry symbolic weight, representing themes of strength, resilience, and hidden depths and power seaking within the narrative.

• The scar on his face serves as a visual cue that hints at Tushan Hou's past experiences or internal struggles, adding texture to his character and inviting readers to speculate about his backstory.

   there's a distinct contrast between Tushan Hou's aura and that of Jing, despite their physical similarities. Let's explore how their auras differ based on the details provided:

  Tushan Hou's Aura:

  • Tushan Hou's aura is described as exuding a fierce and barbaric quality, suggesting a sense of strength, intensity, and  even aggression.

  • His demeanor, characterized by a thin scar and a commanding presence, evokes an air of authority and resilience, hinting at a past marked by hardship and conflict.

• Jing's Aura:

  • In contrast, Jing's aura  based on previous interactions or descriptions, is inferred to possess qualities such as gentleness, warmth, and sincerity.

  • Jing's demeanor, as perceived by Xiao Yao and others,  is characterized by a sense of kindness, compassion, and emotional depth, contrasting with Tushan Hou's more rugged and assertive demeanor.

• Differences in Personality and Behavior:

  • Tushan Hou's aura reflects his inner strength and resilience, suggesting a character who is unafraid to confront challenges head-on and assert his authority when necessary.

  • Jing's aura, on the other hand, may be characterized by a sense of empathy, understanding, and emotional depth, reflecting a more introspective and compassionate personality.

Overall THou's Impact on Xiao Yao: his aggressive aura trigger a sense of caution and unease in her. 

Xiao Yao's reaction suggest that she is wary of Tushan Hou's influence on Zhuan Xu or that she perceives something unsettling about their interaction.  

extract: Xiao Yao's expression turned grave.

Zhuan Xu's apparent admiration for someone who has caused harm to someone she cares about deeply, Jing, turned her grave.

Xiao Yao's grave expression  reflect her internal conflict between loyalty to Zhuan Xu and her concern for Jing's well-being. She  feel torn between her allegiance to her brother Zhuan Xu and her empathy towards Jing, who has suffered so much previously at the hands of Tushan Hou.

Furthermore, Xiao Yao's reaction are also a sign of her heightened awareness of the potential dangers posed by Tushan Hou. Having witnessed Jing's suffering, she fear that Zhuan Xu's fascination with Tushan Hou could lead to unforeseen consequences ,foreshadowing potential conflicts to come. .

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Drama ep. 14 added scene:

His lover Fang Feng YY confront him - as she discovered he cheated on her, but he manage to make it up...

...telling her: It was just an act. No further comment.

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In chapter 14 -

The author, Tong Hua, has intentionally avoided direct interactions between Tushan Hou and Jing. This omission could serve several narrative purposes:

1. Suspense and Mystery: By not directly showing the interactions between Hou and Jing, Tong Hua keeps readers in suspense and creates an air of mystery surrounding their relationship. This can heighten curiosity and anticipation, driving readers to seek answers and continue reading to uncover the truth.

2. Emotional Impact: Instead of focusing on the explicit details of Jing's past torture by Hou, Tong Hua  choose to convey its emotional impact through Jing's reactions and the reactions of those around him, such as Xiao Yao's grave expression. This indirect approach invites readers to empathize with Jing's pain and suffering on a deeper level, enhancing the emotional resonance of the story. 

3. Character Development: By focusing on how characters like Jing and Xiao Yao respond to their past traumas and the people responsible for them, the author can delve deeper into their psyche, motivations, and growth throughout the story.

We also understand for Jing's overall safety, why Xiao Yao in her dialogue with Zhuan Xu (CX) doesn't share any information regarding FFYY and Tushan Hou. As it could potentially endanger Jing or complicate his situation further. 

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Boat scene ch14 - ep.20pics  -In DEPTH EXPLORATION-Analysis 

Despite being surrounded by friends and seemingly safe on the boat, Xiao Yao's traumatic experience continues to linger in her mind, casting a shadow over her ability to find solace or enjoyment in the present moment. 

Extract: 

"Zhuan Xu smiled a little, and walked slowly , and then resolutely jumped in after her without delay. Xiao Yao picked up cup of liquor, collapsed on the ship's side, smiling She drank another sip. If it weren't for last night, she was forced to be soaked in the sea for a whole night by Xiang Liu, the devil who deserved to die, she wanted to jump down as well."

 Xiao Yao's want to jump into the sea with  the group. They are fully enjoying themselves and she 'd like to swim with them. But she can't. It isolate her from the ongoing fun in water. She longs for the carefree enjoyment she used to experience while swimming. We see how, her traumatic experience with Xiang Liu has left her emotionally scarred, rendering her unable to face the water despite her usual affinity for it. This juxtaposition highlights the internal conflict within Xiao Yao as she grapples with her fresh past trauma (see ch 13 full covering) - and attempts to reconcile it with her desire for normalcy and enjoyment.
In this sentence we perceive in  insight  Xiao Yao's recollection of Xiang Liu's vile acts in Chapter 13 as having a negative impact on her psyche, to the extent that it prevents her from enjoying activities she previously loved: swimming. It fully reflects the profound trauma and distress caused by Xiang Liu's actions, which have left a lasting mark on Xiao Yao's mental and emotional well-being. The negative memories associated with Xiang Liu's behavior have created a barrier for Xiao Yao, preventing her from fully engaging in activities that would otherwise bring her joy .

 This emphasizes the significant impact of trauma on individuals and highlights the lasting effects it can have on their lives.

=> Let's delve deeper into the development of Xiao Yao's character and her emotional state in this passage: 

Emotional Vulnerability: Xiao Yao's collapse on the ship's side and her choice to seek solace in drinking indicate her emotional vulnerability. Despite her usual strength and resilience, the traumatic experience with Xiang Liu has left her feeling overwhelmed and unable to cope effectively. This vulnerability humanizes Xiao Yao and underscores the profound impact of trauma on her psyche. 

Coping Mechanisms: Xiao Yao's resorting to drinking in this explicit context,  is a form of coping mechanism to numb her emotions and temporarily escape from her distressing thoughts. It reflects her struggle to find a sense of relief or distraction from the traumatic memories that continue to haunt her. This behavior highlights the complexity of her emotional response to trauma and the ways in which individuals may seek to cope with overwhelming feelings. 

Internal Conflict: Xiao Yao's contemplation of jumping into the sea reveals the depth of her internal conflict. Her hesitation suggests a conflicting desire to survive and confront her trauma. This internal struggle reflects the complex nature of trauma recovery and the challenges associated with overcoming traumatic experiences. 

Impact of Trauma: The passage underscores the lasting impact of trauma on Xiao Yao's emotional well-being. Despite her outward appearance of composure, she continues to grapple with the psychological effects of her ordeal. Her inability to engage in an activity she once found joy in, such as swimming, highlights the profound disruption that trauma can cause to one's sense of self and identity. 

Because of  this faced  series of terrifying ordeals at the hands of Xiang Liu, including being thrown into the sea and forced to swim for her life amidst treacherous conditions, forced to kiss if she want to breath, drowned, facing death as she refuse => She grappled with the fear of drowning, the uncertainty of survival, and the psychological torment inflicted by Xiang Liu's manipulations. Additionally, Xiao Yao's fear to encounter with  sea beast and her desperate struggle to reach safety, such as swimming a whole night alone ( in what the writer named "the vicious mass"-  all contributed to the intense trauma she endured.

As a result, in chapter 14, Xiao Yao's psyche is deeply scarred by these traumatic experiences. Despite being surrounded by friends and engaging in seemingly enjoyable activities, she is unable to shake off the lingering effects of her ordeal. Her mind remains preoccupied with memories of her harrowing night in the sea, and she finds it challenging to fully immerse herself in the present moment related to simple jumping in waters.
In conclusion:  this passage provides insight into Xiao Yao's ongoing struggle to navigate the aftermath of trauma and regain a sense of equilibrium in her life. It highlights the complexity of her emotional response and the profound impact that trauma can have on an individual's sense of self and well-being.

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Thankfully , as they jumped in the sea - There is one person who  stayed , one man is here for her. Cang Xuan will take full note of it by his expression, before being abruptly pushed in water by Xing Yue in the drama covering...

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Extract:"Jing walked quietly behind her. Xiao Yao turned over and slipped to sit down on the ship deck, and sarcastically said “Do you dare to come near to me now?”
Analysis: Xiao Yao's sarcastic remark, "Do you dare to come near to me now?" - indicates her awareness of Jing's need to maintain a certain facade or restraint in front of the group. Despite this understanding, her sarcasm suggests a hint of bitterness and frustration, implying that she  feel hurt  by Jing's perceived distance and  lack of overt affection in public settings. This remark reflects Xiao Yao's desire for more genuine and intimate interactions with Jing, even if it means confronting uncomfortable emotions or tensions between them.
Extract: 

- Jing picked up a small bag of herbs, pointed it at Xiao Yao's nose, giving her a sharp edge. Xiao Yao said. “You haven't forgotten what I taught you.”
 "Forever, never to be forgotten"
“You saw you are very good to me. Do you feel torture in your heart?
 He was silent for a moment. Then he said to her, "It's very painful."
 Xiao Yao laughed out. “I heard that you were suffering, it makes me feel very good.”
Analysis - By teasing Jing about his inner turmoil and expressing amusement at his suffering, Xiao Yao is subtly acknowledging the underlying tension and longing that exists between them. This playful banter serves as a means of communication between them, allowing them to navigate their complex emotions . Overall, Xiao Yao's words carry a hint of intimacy and vulnerability, inviting Jing to reflect on his feelings and desires in their relationship.

We perceive in this short extract how both of them - in COOPERATION - are understanding each other, and succesfully breaking each other discomfort.

 This very short  passage brilliantly  illustrates how simple gestures and shared memories can bring comfort and relaxation to Jing and Xiao Yao's relationship. 

Here's a breakdown of the elements contributing to their relaxation:

• The Herbal Sachet: The act of Jing picking up the small bag of herbs triggers a fond memory for both of them. It symbolizes their shared experiences and the bond they've formed over time. The scent of the herbs likely evokes pleasant emotions and reminds them of moments spent together, fostering a sense of ease and familiarity.

• Shared Memories: Jing's response, "Forever, never to be forgotten," reinforces the significance of their shared memories and highlights the enduring nature of their bond. It suggests that their connection is deep-rooted and holds special meaning for both of them.

• Emotional Vulnerability: Jing's admission of feeling pain in his heart reflects his willingness to be emotionally vulnerable with Xiao Yao. This openness strengthens their emotional connection and allows them to support each other through difficult moments.

• Humor and Laughter: Xiao Yao's playful response to Jing's pain demonstrates their ability to find humor even in challenging situations. Her laughter serves as a coping mechanism, easing the tension and creating a lighthearted atmosphere between them. His act of making a herbal sachet for her, a skill that Xiao Yao taught him when she was in her male form as Xiao Liu, holds significant emotional resonance for both characters. This shared experience serves as a powerful symbol of their bond and the intimacy they share. We see that his first respons is to lessen her discomfort.
  
  As Xiao Yao, witness  that Jing engaged in an activity that she taught him , it instantly evokes a sense of re- connection. It reminds her of their time together and the moments they shared as Xiao Liu and Yeshiqi.
  As she knows that for  Jing, making the herbal sachet evoke sweet memories and the time they spent freely together. It symbolizes their shared experiences. By engaging in this activity, Jing is expressing his appreciation for Xiao Yao's teachings and the impact she have on his life.
  This passage underscores the importance of shared experiences, emotional intimacy, and humor in fostering relaxation and strengthening the bond between Jing and Xiao Yao.

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Chapter 14 /ep.20- Xiao Yao and Jing scene on Boat-exploration continue :

Extract: "Xiao Yao suddenly hugged Jing's waist. Then she muttered, “This afternoon today, I actually went to see you. If you don't believe me, you can go back and ask the guard at the door. I went to look for you, but I couldn't find you, so I wandered around on the street."

Jing hugged Xiao Yao tightly. He pressed his forehead onto Xiao Yao's hair. "

Xiao Yao's actions and words tell us that she has been longing for Jing's presence and actively seeking him out. By revealing that she went to look for him but couldn't find him, she is expressing her desire to be near him and her efforts to connect with him.

Her decision to hug Jing tightly and share this information with him indicates her  willingness to open up to him about her feelings. It's a moment of emotional honesty and intimacy between them, as Xiao Yao expresses her longing for Jing's companionship and reassurance.It reveals Xiao Yao's desire to be with Jing and her vulnerability in expressing her feelings for him. By sharing this intimate moment and revealing her actions, Xiao Yao is opening up to Jing and allowing him to see the depth of her emotions for him.
This moment signifies a significant development in their relationship, as Xiao Yao takes a step towards being more open and honest about her feelings for Jing.Jing's response, hugging Xiao Yao tightly and pressing his forehead onto her hair, tells that he understands and appreciates her efforts to find him. It signifies his reciprocation of her feelings and his desire to comfort and support her in return. 

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Extract:

"Jing couldn't help but smile. He adjusted her position so that she was leaning on him in his arms.
The sea breeze blew gently. The sea waves caused the boat to roll back and forth a little. He looked at the full moon in the sky. All he thought was that he wanted to stay like this all night long.

Jing looked at the liquor jar at his side for a moment. He put one hand on the liquor jar, he saw white smoke rising from the liquor jar, slowly covering the whole boat. If looking from the outside,  It looked like the entire ship had been swallowed up by the sea and couldn't see anything anymore.

Jing lowered his head and looked at Xiao Yao who was fast asleep. His fingers gently traced the marks on her face. Then he used your fingertips to draw the outline of her face little by little, round and round again. Even if he had both eyes gouged out, he would still be able to see her clearly.
More than an hour has passed. "

Analysis : 

Jing's smile indicates his contentment and satisfaction with their current situation. By adjusting Xiao Yao's position so that she is leaning on him in his arms, Jing demonstrates his desire to protect and comfort her.
The gentle sea breeze and the rolling waves create a serene and tranquil atmosphere, enhancing the sense of intimacy between Jing and Xiao Yao. The imagery of the full moon in the sky adds to the romantic ambiance, echoing the timeless nature of the moment he created  and the sea waves caused the boat to roll back and forth a little- sound like a peacefull lullaby.
The symbolism of the ship being engulfed by the sea reinforces the idea of their intimacy and exclusivity in that moment.

- As Jing looks at Xiao Yao, who is fast asleep, his gentle touches and reverent demeanor reflect his deep affection for her. The act of tracing the marks on her face and drawing the outline of her features with his fingertips illustrates his profound admiration and love for her. It also tells  his desire to preserve and cherish every detail of her appearance.
Overall, this passage captures a poignant and intimate moment between Jing and Xiao Yao, emphasizing the depth of their connection and Jing's unwavering devotion to her. It highlights the tenderness and sincerity of their relationship, as well as their shared desire for closeness and intimacy.

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Extract:                                                 Xiao Yao and Jing's DIALOGUE

Xiao Yao slowly moved a little, muttering, “Shi Qi.” She was startled and opened her eyes. Jing smiled looking at her. Xiao Yao said. "I seem to have fallen asleep for a while."

Analysis of this passage:
  One might wonder why not calling him Jing. The answer is simple : the context :) An hour ago she deeply struggled with memories  that stemed from the realization of the depth of her feelings for Jing,starting back than while as Xiao Liu, she was checking anxiously his pulse, making her realise his importance into her life and the importance to not loose him , be it for FFYY.  The  referencing "Shi Qi" in this context invokes memories of a time when Xiao Yao and Jing were carefree and less burdened by the complexities of their both current situation. "Shi Qi" represents a period of innocence and joy in their relationship, before they were forcibly separated and  facing the challenges they now encounter.

By calling out "Shi Qi" in her semi-conscious state, Xiao is yearning for a return to that simpler time, where their connection was pure and unencumbered by external forces. It reflects her subconscious desire to recapture the happiness and comfort they once shared, before the weight of their  responsibilities as Xiao Yao the Elder Princess and Tushan Jing intervened.

Extract: 

Jing said to Xiao Yao: “I don't have feelings for Yi Ying. Yi Ying definitely doesn't have kindness for me. This time after getting back, I will talk to Grandma to cancel it. I will talk to her to break marriage contract."she slowly replied. “How do you know? She is so gentle and pleasing you so much..."
Jing cut off her words and said, “Xiao Yao, I have seen many women who have feelings for me. So I know clearly that when a woman truly has feelings for a man, how she will look at the man, with what kind of eyes? No matter how Yi Ying's actions gentle and pleasing, but she never looked at me with those eyes. Besides, right now I..." Jing stroked the sideburns of Xiao Yao, gently, “I know the feeling of wanting someone so intensely. I am surely not wrong in telling the difference!”

Insight into Jing's Perception: 

Jing's assertion that he knows how a woman looks at a man when she truly has feelings for him reveals his emotional intelligence and self-awareness. He draws on his past experiences with women to discern Yi Ying's true feelings for him. This insight suggests that Jing is not only observant but also introspective, capable of analyzing subtle cues and nuances in human behavior.

Xiao Yao's Response: Xiao Yao's initial disbelief and subsequent acceptance of Jing's assessment demonstrate her trust in his judgment and perspective. Despite her initial confusion, Xiao Yao ultimately defers to Jing's understanding of interpersonal dynamics. This reflects the level of intimacy and mutual understanding between them, where Xiao Yao values Jing's insights and opinions.

Yi Ying's True Feelings: Jing's revelation about Yi Ying's true feelings, coupled with Xiao Yao's acknowledgment of his perception, raises questions about Yi Ying's intentions and motivations. While Yi Ying may outwardly display kindness and affection toward Jing, Jing's discernment suggests that her feelings do not run as deeply as they appear. This ambiguity adds layers to Yi Ying's character and underscores the theme of hidden emotions and motivations within the narrative.

Jing's Sadness: Jing's sadness upon realizing that Xiao Yao does not fully grasp Yi Ying's true feelings reflects his vulnerability and longing for understanding and validation from Xiao Yao. His disappointment stems from the gap between his perception of Yi Ying's feelings and Xiao Yao's understanding of the situation. This emotional complexity adds depth to Jing's character and highlights the intricacies of his relationship with Xiao Yao.
By drawing on his past experiences with other women who have had feelings for him, Jing suggests that he can discern genuine affection and longing in Xiao Yao's behavior and demeanor.

This insight into Xiao Yao's feelings for him adds another layer of complexity to their relationship. It suggests that Jing is not only perceptive of others' emotions but also attuned to Xiao Yao's feelings specifically. It indicates a level of intimacy and emotional connection between them, where Jing is not only aware of Xiao Yao's emotions but also confident in his understanding of them.He's understanding of them show his emotional intelligence.

Further extract -Xiao Yao and Jing's dialogue :

Xiao Yao suddenly thought of something, so she sat up happily and said, “Since she doesn't need you, You can come back and be my Shi Qi!” Her eyes shone brightly. “At that time, you were worried that if you didn't go back, that crazed Tushan Hou is going to hurt me, Luo Mu and other, weren't you? But Wen Xiao Liu had already disappeared. Now that I am princess of Gao Xing,  Tushan Hou cannot harm me. You can be with me as Shi Qi at my side.”

Jing watched Xiao Yao quietly and did not speak. In his eyes there was sadness and sorrow. Xiao Yao, who had gradually calmed down, sarcastically said to herself: “I said something stupid again, right?” Jing had disappeared once before. If it happened again, it wouldn't be only Hou, but the Madam of Tushan clan, definitely wouldn't give up until the corpse was found.  
Jing said in a low voice. “You didn't say anything stupid. Only some things have changed. After I had gone back, I discovered that the elder brother was leading the family Tushan going into danger. If I leave like this I'm afraid that he will destroy the entire Tushan family. Xiao Yao, can give me a little time? Let me think of a way to put everything in the right state.”

The truth was that it was not only the survival of the entire family. But there were some things that he couldn't say. If the person in front of him was still Wen Xiao Liu, then he could be Ye Shi Qi. That was enough. They could hid and lived in a small village. They could live together for a lifetime. But she was Gao Xin's princess. When he saw the grand worshipig ceremony, he immediately understood. They couldn't go back to the way they were before. An eligible man to protect Xiao Yao by his side would definitely not be a shrink. If he wanted to be beside Xiao Yao for the rest of his life, he must cancel the marriage contract. He needed to be using Tushan's status walking majestically to Xiao Yao's side.

Xiao Yao smiled slightly and said in a soft voice: “You have fifteen years, Jing, how do you plan to handle it?”

“I don't know, but I know that I will definitely return to your side. Because I had promised to listen to you words for the rest of my life, so…” 

Xiao Yao's Proposal: Xiao Yao's suggestion that Jing return to her as Shi Qi reflects her longing for their past connection and the comfort she finds in their bond. It shows her desire to have Jing by her side in a familiar role, where she feels safe and protected. Her happiness and excitement at the prospect are evident in her bright eyes and enthusiastic tone. 

Jing's Response: Jing's silence and the sadness in his eyes indicate his internal struggle and the weight of his responsibilities. He recognizes Xiao Yao's longing but is burdened by the realization that their circumstances have changed. His concern extends beyond just their safety to the welfare of his family and the Tushan clan, adding layers to his decision-making process. He want to honor her
as stated: "He needed to be using Tushan's status walking majestically to Xiao Yao's side."
Notice also :

By using his status within the Tushan clan, Jing also aims to rectify the chaos caused by Hou's actions. Hou's reckless behavior has put not only Xiao Yao but also the entire Tushan family in jeopardy. Therefore, Jing recognizes the importance of addressing and resolving the consequences of Hou's mistakes.
As a member of the Tushan clan, Jing holds a certain level of authority and influence that can be instrumental in restoring stability and order within the clan. By leveraging his position, Jing can take steps to mitigate the damage caused by Hou's actions, protect the interests of the Tushan family, and ensure that they remain strong and respected within their community.

Furthermore, Jing's efforts to clean up the mess left by Hou also reflect his sense of duty and responsibility to his family and his commitment to upholding their honor and reputation. By taking decisive action to address the challenges facing the Tushan clan, Jing demonstrates his leadership qualities and his determination to safeguard the well-being of those under his care.

His concern as Tushan Jing and Hou's driving the clan in danger is not a small mather:

Political Instability: Hou's erratic behavior and potential involvement in dangerous schemes create political instability within the Tushan clan and the broader realm. His misactions are highly probable  lead to internal conflicts, power struggles, and a loss of trust among clan members. This instability not only weakens the Tushan clan's influence but also undermines its ability to govern effectively and maintain stability in the region.

Reputation Damage: The Tushan family's reputation suffer as a result of Hou's actions. His  reckless behavior reflects poorly on the clan's leadership and integrity, potentially tarnishing its standing in the eyes of other noble families, allies, and the general population. This damage to the Tushan family's reputation have far-reaching consequences, including a loss of respect, trust, and support from allies and subjects.

Economic Consequences: Hou's actions  have economic repercussions for the Tushan family and its affiliated territories. Instability and conflict can disrupt trade routes, agricultural production, and other economic activities vital to the clan's prosperity. This disruption could lead to financial losses, impoverishment, and hardships for the Tushan family and all the communities under its jurisdiction.

In short = Jing's intention to use his status within the Tushan clan to clear up the mess left by Hou underscores his sense of responsibility and his dedication to protecting both Xiao Yao and his family's legacy. The drama added these lines, that perfectly alignes with his rightousness and her expressed will.

These are just few exemples to give a clearer perception of Jing's duties, cleaning Hou's mess as ruler.

Jing's Dilemma: Jing's inner conflict becomes apparent as he grapples with the tension between his personal desires and his obligations to his family and clan. He acknowledges that while he wishes more than everything to be with Xiao Yao, he also recognizes the larger implications of his actions. His desire to protect Xiao Yao is evident, but he also understands the sacrifices and challenges they may face in pursuing a life together.

Xiao Yao's Understanding: Xiao Yao's acceptance of Jing's need for time reflects her maturity and understanding of their situation. Despite her initial excitement, she recognizes the complexity of their circumstances and respects Jing's need to find a solution that balances their personal desires with external pressures.

Promise of Reunion: Jing's assurance that he will return to Xiao Yao's side reaffirms their deep bond and commitment to each other. His promise to listen to her for the rest of his life highlights the strength of their connection and his unwavering dedication to her well-being.

Xiao Yao's proposal for Jing to return to her as Shi Qi reflects not only her longing for their past connection but also her yearning for a sense of security and happyness that she associates with him. Throughout their shared history, Jing has been a steadfast presence in her life, offering protection, companionship, support, and most imoprtant- the loving care. In her eyes, Jing embodies the role of Shi Qi.

Her joy and excitement stem from the prospect of having Jing back in her life in a role that she holds dear. The idea of Jing returning to her as Shi Qi evokes feelings of warmth and reassurance, offering her a sense of stability and belonging that she may have been missing in his absence. Xiao Yao's bright eyes and enthusiastic tone convey her eagerness to reconnect with Jing and to recapture the free lifestyle that their relationship once experienced.

Xiao Yao's proposal reflects her deep emotional attachment to Jing and her desire to preserve their bond despite the challenges they face. In suggesting that Jing return to her as Shi Qi, she is not only expressing her longing for his presence but also affirming the significance of their relationship in her life. For Xiao Yao, Jing represents more than just a protector; he is a cherished companion and confidant, someone with whom she shares a profound connection.

Furthermore - Xiao Yao's desire to have Jing by her sidespeaks to the depth of their relationship and the importance of their emotional connection to each other. Her happiness and excitement underscore the significance of Jing's presence in her life.
She seek the free of burdains Jing, yet she is not free herself as Princess, she is not Xiao Liu anymore either.And she understand.
Her desire for Jing to return to her as Shi Qi reflects a longing for the freedom and intimacy they once shared, a time when they were both unencumbered by societal expectations and roles. As Princess of Gao Xing, Xiao Yao is bound too by the responsibilities and constraints of her position and family, unable to fully embrace the carefree existence she experienced with Jing in their past.

While Xiao Yao may not be able to return to her former identity as Xiao Liu, she still seeks a sense of liberation and authenticity in her relationship with Jing. By inviting Jing to reclaim his role as Shi Qi, she is expressing a desire to recapture the closeness and companionship they once enjoyed, unencumbered by the expectations and obligations that come with their current circumstances.However, Xiao Yao's recognition of the changes that have occurred underscores her awareness of the complexities of their situation. She understands that their past dynamic may no longer be feasible given their altered circumstances and the responsibilities they now bear. Despite this awareness, her longing for Jing's presence remains strong, prompting her to seek a compromise that allows for the preservation of their connection in a meaningful way.
Xiao Yao smiled slightly and said in a soft voice: “You have fifteen years, Jing, how do you plan to handle it?”Despite the uncertainties and obstacles they  encounter, Xiao Yao expresses her readiness to stand by Jing's side and support him throughout his journey. This willingness to wait reflects her deep affection and trust in Jing, as well as her belief in their ability to overcome any challenges together.
Her soft tone  of voice suggests by itself a sense of intimacy and closeness between them, as she openly discusses their future with Jing. It indicates that their bond goes beyond mere companionship and encompasses a shared vision for their lives together.
Overall, Xiao Yao's words convey her patience, loyalty, and enduring love for Jing, reaffirming her commitment to their relationship and her willingness to wait for him

In essence, Xiao Yao's invitation for Jing to return to her as Shi Qi represents a yearning for the simplicity and authenticity of their past relationship, even as she acknowledges the impossibility of fully returning to that time. It reflects her desire to find a balance between her present reality and her longing for the emotional connection and freedom she associates with Jing.@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@

                                                                    Last Scenes of ch14/ep.20 Exploration:

Tushan Hou makes a remarquable entrance back on the boat. He captured the Fish Red Crystal.
Introduction of  the Fish Red Crystal by Hou: The passage begins with the dramatic entrance of Hou, who rides a large fish while holding a blood-red gem. This scene not only showcases Hou's formidable abilities but also introduces the mysterious Fish Red Crystal, which captures everyone's attention. His goal is achieved.

Symbolism of the Fish Red Crystal: The Fish Red Crystal symbolizes rare and valuable treasures that hold both practical and symbolic significance. It represents the allure of the unknown and the potential for discovery, as well as the desire for wealth and power. Additionally, the crystal's association with the deep sea suggests hidden depths and mysteries waiting to be explored-found.nteraction Among Characters: The interaction between Hou, Xing Yue, and Feng Long reveals insights into their personalities and relationships. Xing Yue's desire to acquire the crystal reflects her longing for material wealth, while Feng Long's explanation adds depth to the significance of the gem in their world.

Subtle Connection Between Xiao Yao and Jing: Despite the bustling activity around them, a quiet moment shared between Xiao Yao and Jing reveals their deep connection and unspoken understanding. Through subtle gestures and exchanged glances, they convey a sense of closeness and mutual affection, despite the obstacles that may prevent them from openly expressing their feelings.

Let's delve into how each character perceives the rare treasure:

Hou: For Hou, the Fish Red Crystal represents both a valuable resource and a symbol of his prowess and dominance. He displays it proudly, showcasing his strength and ability to harness powerful forces from the deep sea. To him, the crystal is likely seen as a tool for furthering his ambitions and asserting his authority. He manifestibly enjoy being related ,himself, to the rare object that he proudly exhibit to his surrounding.

Xing Yue: Xing Yue views the Fish Red Crystal as an object of desire, representing wealth and status. Her desire to possess it reflects her materialistic tendencies and her longing for luxury and extravagance. She sees the crystal as a potential accessory or ornament that could enhance her appearance and elevate her social standing.

Feng Long: Feng Long approaches the Fish Red Crystal with a practical mindset, recognizing its value as a rare and useful item. He offers insights into its properties and potential applications, treating it as a valuable commodity that could serve various purposes, from jewelry-making to medicinal use.

Xiao Yao: Xiao Yao's interest in the Fish Red Crystal is driven by curiosity and a sense of adventure. She sees it as an intriguing object that holds secrets and possibilities  with her crafting skills. Her fascination with the crystal reflects her desire for exploration and discovery, as well as her openness to new experiences and knowledge.

Jing: While Jing's perception of the Fish Red Crystal is not explicitly stated in the passage, he likely sees it through a lens of practicality and pragmatism. Also,  as we can read, Jing's explanation provides Xiao Yao a comprehensive understanding of the Fish Red Crystal, emphasizing its rarity, versatility, and significance within their world. It showcases Jing's knowledge and expertise, as well as his ability to impart valuable information to Xiao Yao, further solidifying their mutual respect.Extract :- "Xiao Yao had a hood covering her face, so she secretly peaked over Jing. He quickly sensed it and closed his eyes, smiling. Xiao Yao also smiled.
  Although  a single sentence could not be uttered, and still unable to stand close together. However, they could felt that their hearts could communicate with each other, extremely close."
This passage beautifully depicts the deep connection and unspoken understanding between Xiao Yao and Jing, despite the physical distance and inability to verbally express their feelings. Here's a breakdown of their interaction:

Xiao Yao's Stealthy Glance: Despite having her face covered by a hood, Xiao Yao steals a glance at Jing, indicating her desire to connect with him even in moments of subtlety.

Jing's Sensitivity: Jing quickly senses Xiao Yao's gaze upon him, demonstrating his heightened awareness of her presence and emotions. His response of closing his eyes and smiling suggests his receptiveness to her attention and his own affection for her.

Mutual Smiles: Both Xiao Yao and Jing respond with smiles, indicating a shared sense of warmth and affection between them. Despite the inability to exchange words, their smiles serve as a form of silent communication, expressing their mutual understanding and connection.

Heartfelt Connection: The passage emphasizes that despite their physical separation and inability to stand close together, Xiao Yao and Jing share a deep emotional bond. Their hearts communicate with each other, transcending verbal language and physical proximity. This profound connection underscores the strength of their relationship and their ability to remain close despite external challenges.

Overall, this passage illustrates the depth of Xiao Yao and Jing's relationship, portraying their ability to connect on a profound level even in moments of silence and separation.

Furthermore, Xiao Yao's act of peeking at Jing despite having her face covered symbolizes their unspoken understanding and closeness. Despite the physical distance and barriers between them, they are still able to communicate and connect with each other on an emotional level.

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The Farewells -
Jing's silent gaze as Xiao Yao stands on the shore signifies his reluctance to part ways with her. His presence near the boat railing, watching her closely, reflects his desire to prolong the moment and fetch her image into his memory. This silent farewell speaks volumes about the unspoken bond between them and the emotions they both feel.

Xiao Yao, on the other hand, remains still, her veil blown close to her face by the sea breeze. The image of her facial structure revealed in the dawn light symbolizes her vulnerability and the beauty of her inner self. Despite her outward composure, her silence and the lingering gaze exchanged with Jing betray the depth of her feelings for him.

The gradual disappearance of Xiao Yao into the horizon marks the physical distance between them, yet their connection transcends space and time. As, Jing closing eyes represent his desire to hold onto the memory of her presence, even as she becomes increasingly distant physically. Closing his eyes serve as a symbolic way for Jing to preserve the image of Xiao Yao in his mind's eye, carrying her with him in memory as they go their separate ways.Just before:

                                                       "Jing and Xiao Yao were silent."

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   ZHUAN XU (CX) and XIAO YAO chapter 14 ending exchange. ON SINCERITY.

Extract:
Xiao Yao asked curiously. “How do men like you distinguish between women who are sincere or fake? Even if it's sincere, how can you know what kind of sincerity this is? You must know that sincerity can be divided into many types. Some sincerity must not have obstacles at all. Some sincerities can pass eighty obstacles. But by the eighty one time, she had given up and couldn't continue. Some sincerities can only share in suffering. Some sincerity can only be shared in happiness. Some sincerities are normally invisible, but when there is danger, they show clearly. Some sincerity in normal times can be respected and protected. But when danger comes, everyone is different. In this world there are many men and women who live together until old age. The truth may not be that they love each other with one heart... A love that cannot be broken but just haven't found any proof."

Zhuan Xu laughed, "Your long words are hurting my brain. You ask me how to make specific distinctions. There's nothing to tell. It's just a feeling. A cold heart. A pair of cold eyes. When you've had a lot of experience, you'll see. It's clearly visible.”
Xiao Yao asked. “What if it is wrong? If it looked at it wrong, there is the sincerity of being able to overcome obstacles only eighty-one times. It's sincerity that over a hundred obstacles, remains unchangable. Thousands of dangers cannot ties?”
Zhuan Xu said gently. “How to guarantee that you will definitely not go wrong, you already know. That is one cold heart.”
Xiao Yao smiled and wrinkled her nose. “I still think you have a better way!”
“I don't have one, and I think even that our grandfather, who are so coldly intelligent and scared people of ours doesn't have the means to truly see people's hearts.”

This dialogue between Xiao Yao and Zhuan Xu delves into the complexities and the difficulty in discerning true sincerity. Xiao Yao's question reflects her contemplative nature and her understanding that sincerity is not a monolithic concept but can manifest in various forms. She elucidates the nuances of sincerity, describing how it can be tested by obstacles, revealed in moments of danger, or remain steadfast despite adversity.

Zhuan Xu's response, though somewhat dismissive of Xiao Yao's complexity, underscores the intuitive nature of discerning sincerity. He suggests that experience and intuition play a crucial role in gauging the authenticity of someone's intentions. Zhuan Xu's mention of a "cold heart" as a safeguard against being misled emphasizes the importance of emotional detachment and critical judgment in navigating relationships.

Xiao Yao's insistence on finding a more concrete method for discernment reflects her desire for certainty and security in her interactions with others. However, Zhuan Xu's admission that even the wise and perceptive Yellow Emperor may not possess such insight highlights the inherent ambiguity and subjectivity of human emotions and motivations.

The mention of the ancestors' graves and the impending anniversary of Uncle's death adds a poignant layer to the conversation, highlighting the weight of familial obligations and the passage of time. Xiao Yao's tears suggest a deep emotional connection to her family and a sense of longing for the past.

This dialogue between CX and XY - on sincerity and love: is  echoing ep 14 dialogue in DragonBone Prison - between Jing and Xiao Yao :" I am a cruel person, I am cruel to others and even more cruel to myself." And  Jing showed how he really knows her:" I know you won't give you hope, you won't trust first, you won't invest first, Sang Tian'er is willing to gamble her whole life with false feelings, but Even if you are sincere, if the other person doesn't cherish it, you will give it up. I'm willing to wait for you to want it
I know you won't give yourself hope, you won't trust first, you won't invest first."


Xiao Yao's inquiry delves into the intricate nature of sincerity within relationships, particularly from a male perspective. The passage highlights the complexity of deciphering sincerity in women and the various forms it can take. 

Here's an analysis of the key points raised:
Distinguishing between sincerity and fakeness: Xiao Yao questions how men can differentiate between genuine sincerity and pretense in women. This suggests a concern about authenticity and the challenges of discerning true intentions in relationships.

Types of sincerity: The passage illustrates that sincerity is not a monolithic concept but can manifest in diverse ways. It mentions sincerity without obstacles, sincerity enduring through challenges, sincerity shared in suffering or happiness, and even hidden sincerity that emerges in times of danger.

Variability in sincerity: The text suggests that sincerity can vary in strength and endurance. While some forms of sincerity may falter after numerous obstacles, others persist despite adversity. This highlights the resilience and fragility of different types of sincerity.

Evolution of sincerity: The passage implies that sincerity can evolve over time or under different circumstances. Sincerity that is evident in normal situations may transform or become more pronounced in times of danger or crisis, revealing hidden depths in relationships.

Complexity of love: Xiao Yao contemplates the notion that enduring love might not always be visibly apparent or easily proven. The passage hints at the idea that true love may not necessarily be a constant, unwavering force but rather a nuanced and evolving connection that withstands the test of time and challenges.

Overall, the passage prompts reflection on the multifaceted nature of sincerity in relationships, the challenges of recognizing genuine intentions, and the complexities of love that transcend surface appearances.

Xiao Yao's thoughts on sincerity and love suggest that she values authenticity, resilience, and depth in relationships. She seems to appreciate the complexities and nuances within human connections, emphasizing the need to navigate through obstacles and challenges to truly understand the sincerity and depth of love.
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By contemplating the various dimensions of sincerity and love that Xiao Yao discusses, one can connect with Jing's introspective nature and her understanding of the complexities within human connections. This can lead to a deeper exploration of one's own values, feelings, and experiences in relationships, fostering empathy and insight into the intricacies of love and sincerity.
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The fact that  Jing expresses his true feelings and intentions openly and honestly in their relationship: aligns with Xiao Yao's reflections on sincerity, suggesting that Jing embodies the qualities of authenticity and transparency that Xiao Yao values in relationships. Jing's sincerity resonate with Xiao Yao's thoughts on the different types of sincerity and the challenges of discerning genuine love.
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By testing Jing over and over ,  and seeking reassurance, she is likely trying to confirm the sincerity and depth of Jing's love for her. This behavior  stem from a desire for security, trust, and emotional validation in their relationship.
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The extract  above on sincerity - provides insight into Xiao Yao's contemplation on sincerity and love, emphasizing the complexities and nuances within relationships.  The extract delves into the challenges of discerning genuine love and the importance of navigating obstacles to understand the sincerity and depth of relationships. It offers a reflective and introspective exploration of the intricacies of human connections and the significance of sincerity in love.
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=>Personnal take:  I feel like  it's like writers explanation of XiaoJing.
As the extract does  resemble a writer's explanation of the dynamics and complexities within a main couple in a story or novel. It delves into the nuances of sincerity, love, and relationship dynamics, offering a reflective and introspective perspective on the intricacies of human connections. This type of exploration can add depth and richness to the portrayal of the main couple, enhancing the reader's understanding of their interactions and emotions.
Sincerity and Authenticity: Xiao Yao's inquiry into how men distinguish between sincere and fake expressions of love reflects her desire for authenticity in relationships. She recognizes that sincerity can take various forms and is influenced by individual experiences and perceptions. This demonstrates her introspective nature and her willingness to contemplate the complexities of human emotions.

Complexity of Love: Through Xiao Yao's musings, the passage explores the multifaceted nature of love. She acknowledges that love can endure through challenges and obstacles, but also highlights its varied manifestations, from shared suffering to hidden depths revealed in moments of danger. This complexity adds depth to the portrayal of relationships in the narrative, emphasizing that true love is nuanced and evolving.

Navigating Obstacles: Xiao Yao's discussion of sincerity passing through obstacles resonates with the challenges faced by characters in the story. Just as sincerity is tested by adversity, relationships are often strengthened or strained by external factors. This theme underscores the importance of resilience and perseverance in overcoming obstacles to maintain genuine connections.

Seeking Reassurance: Xiao Yao's curiosity about discerning sincerity may stem from her own experiences and uncertainties in relationships. Her inquiry into Zhuan Xu reflects a desire for reassurance and validation, indicating her vulnerability and need for emotional security. This highlight her introspection and quest for understanding in matters of the heart.

Jing's Sincerity: Jing's openness and honesty in expressing his feelings align with Xiao Yao's contemplations on sincerity. His willingness to wait for her and his genuine intentions mirror the qualities of authenticity and transparency valued by Xiao Yao. This creates a sense of alignment between the characters' perspectives on love and underscores the depth of their emotional connection.

Overall, the extract offers a profound exploration of sincerity, love, and relationship dynamics within the narrative. Through Xiao Yao's introspection and interactions with Jing, the passage delves into the complexities of human emotions and the intricacies of genuine connections. It adds depth and richness to the portrayal of the main couple, enhancing the reader's engagement with their journey and the thematic exploration of love and authenticity.

This alignment between Jing's actions and Xiao Yao's ideals fosters a sense of mutual understanding and trust between the characters. Jing's willingness to be vulnerable and express his true feelings resonates with Xiao Yao's desire for authenticity and transparency in relationships. This creates a strong foundation for their bond, built on mutual respect and emotional honesty.

Moreover, Jing's sincerity in expressing his feelings contrasts with the superficiality and insincerity that Xiao Yao observes in other relationships. His genuine intentions and unwavering commitment stand out amidst the complexities of human connections, reinforcing the depth and authenticity of their love.
Overall,their mutual understanding and alignment in values underscore the depth of their emotional connection and highlight the importance of sincerity in fostering meaningful relationships.

- Jing's introspective nature and sincerity resonate with Xiao Yao's contemplative demeanor and appreciation for authenticity. His willingness to express his true feelings openly aligns with Xiao Yao's desire for transparency and emotional honesty in relationships. Moreover, Jing's patience and understanding complement Xiao Yao's independent spirit and strong sense of self. Their ability to respect each other's individuality while also sharing a deep emotional connection fosters a sense of balance and harmony.
Respect for Independence:
Jing respects Xiao Yao's independence and autonomy, allowing her the freedom to make her own choices and pursue her own goals. Despite his deep affection for her, he never tries to impose his will or control her actions. For example, when Xiao Yao expresses her desire to explore the world and find her own path, Jing supports her wholeheartedly, recognizing the importance of her personal journey.

Emotional Support:
Jing provides unwavering emotional support to Xiao Yao, offering comfort and reassurance during difficult times. He listens attentively to her concerns, validates her feelings, and offers words of encouragement when she faces challenges. For instance, when Xiao Yao grapples with doubts or insecurities, Jing patiently listens to her and offers words of wisdom that help her gain clarity and perspective.

Balanced Partnership:
Jing and Xiao Yao's relationship is characterized by a balanced partnership, where both individuals contributeequally to their shared experiences. While Xiao Yao's independence allows her to assert herself confidently, Jing's understanding nature ensures that their dynamic remains harmonious and mutually supportive. They complement each other's strengths and weaknesses, creating a synergistic bond that enhances their connection.

Mutual Growth:
Through their interactions, Jing and Xiao Yao experience mutual growth and development, both individually and as a couple. Jing's patience and understanding encourage Xiao Yao to explore new facets of herself and overcome obstacles with resilience and determination. Similarly, Xiao Yao's independent spirit inspires Jing to embrace his own strengths and pursue his passions with confidence.

Overall, Jing and Xiao Yao's relationship exemplifies a healthy balance of independence and interdependence, where each partner respects and supports the other's individuality while fostering a deep emotional connection built on trust, understanding, and mutual respect. This dynamic allows them to navigate life's challenges together while celebrating each other's unique qualities and contributions.

Further reading on the subject:

The dialogue between Xiao Yao and Zhuan Xu delves into philosophical themes surrounding human relationships, sincerity, and the complexities of understanding others' true intentions. Their conversation touches upon several philosophical concepts, including epistemology, ethics, and existentialism.

1. Epistemology: The discussion revolves around the question of how one can truly know and understand the sincerity of others. This reflects epistemological inquiries into the nature of knowledge and how it is acquired. Xiao Yao's exploration of different types of sincerity and Zhuan Xu's emphasis on intuition and experience highlight the challenges inherent in gaining true insight into the hearts and minds of others.

2. Ethics: The conversation also raises ethical considerations regarding sincerity and authenticity in interpersonal relationships. Xiao Yao's contemplation of the different forms of sincerity suggests a concern with moral integrity and genuine intentions. Zhuan Xu's acknowledgment of the difficulty in discerning true sincerity speaks to the ethical complexities of trust and betrayal in human interactions.

3. Existentialism: The dialogue touches upon existentialist themes of authenticity and existential dread. Xiao Yao's search for a concrete method of discerning sincerity reflects a desire for certainty and meaning in a world characterized by ambiguity and uncertainty. Zhuan Xu's recognition of the limitations of human perception and understanding echoes existentialist notions of the inherent unknowability of the human condition.

Overall, the dialogue between Xiao Yao and Zhuan Xu engages with philosophical inquiries into the nature of truth, authenticity, and human relationships. It invites contemplation on the complexities of interpersonal dynamics and the challenges of navigating the moral and existential dilemmas inherent in human existence.

Chapter 15: Recapturing About The Past Is Really Painful (Thai version translated by me) Part 1

When the spring wind blew across the land of Zhong Yuan,The Grand Princess of Gao Xing sent a message to Huang Di(Yellow Emperor) requesting that she desire to go to Xuan Yuan to pay respects her mother, who was buried as far away as Mount Xuan Yuan. To express gratitude on the anniversary of her mother's death, and also wished to be at Haung Di's (Yellow Emperor) side, as to show her fulfilling gratitude instead of her mother, even if it was just a little.

The Princess's message was written by her own hand. Personal seal of the princess was stamped on. Sun Di (Grand Emperor) sent a special envoy to deliver it to Huang Di(Yellow Emperor).

After Huang Di(Yellow Emperor) read the message. Then he had his servant read the message in front of all the officials. According to the principles of kindness and reason, no one could object to a daughter's request to come pay homage to her mother and meet her grandfather. Therefore, all the nobles could only discuss one thing: how to welcome Princess of Gao Xing. If she were only Gao Xing's princess? Returning is not difficult to manage.

But she didn't. just being Gao Xing's princess. She is also Huang Di's (Yellow Emperor) granddaughter.

Her mother also fought and sacrificed herself for Xuan Yuan.
As a result, the greater the arrangement, the better, though without exceeding the limits of the regulations. When the peach blossoms bloomed throughout the land of Zhong Yuan (Middle Plains), Xiao Yao departed from the Five Gods Mountains. Zhuan Xu, as Xiao Yao's cousin. Under her request, he accompanied her and traveled to Mount Xuan Yuan together.

On the twenty-third day of the second month of spring Xiao Yao arrived to Xuan Yuan City. Xiao Yao's two uncles, Xuan Yuan Qing Lin and Xuan Yuan Yuyang brought Xiao Yao's five subordinates and all the nobles to welcome her after a long commotion, Qing Lin said to Xiao Yao:

"The ambassadors had to be welcomed at the Tang Yuan Throne Hall. But father was old and had difficulty in moving. For many years, he was tired of meeting people, Your Uncle 7 will organize a reception for the ambassadors. Father will not meet them. He will just waiting to meet you at Zhao Yun Palace.”

Xiao Yao smiled and said, “Fine, then Uncle please take me to pay respects to Grandpa.”

 Qing Lin said, “Princess, come!”
Many of Lin's servants kept Zhuan Xu outside as if it's inadvertently showing that no one saw that Zhuan Xu should also go to Mount Xuan Yuan. Xiao Yao stood in front of the cloud carriageand asked, “Brother Zhuan Xu, aren't you going together?”

Qing Lin smiled kindly and said, “Father didn't call to see Zhuan Xu. We have already prepared a place to stay for Zhuan Xu. Princess, don't worry.”
One of his subordinates, whose name Xiao Yao couldn't remember, smiled and said. “Sister, trust me. We will accompany big brother.”

Xiao Yao smiled a bit. Then she walked towards Zhuan Xu. Xuan Yuan soldiers thought of blocking her. Xiao Yao smiled as she stared at them as if she was asking, "You guys dare to block me?”

As for the Gao Xing guards who followed Xiao Yao, were holding weapons at hands already. While everyone was hesitating Xiao Yao walked to the front of Zhuan Xu, holding Zhuan Xu's hand. Then she looked up and said to Cang Lin, “When I was at Chao Yun Peak, I only had Brother Zhuan Xu as my friend. If my brother doesn't go with me, then I won't go!”

At that Lin smiled and said. “It's not that Uncle wants to prevent you, but because, Father, his majesty had not called him. We don't dare make arbitrary decisions.”
 “If Grandpa is going to punish you. I must be responsible. Uncle, don't worry!” Xiao Yao pulled Zhuan Xu towards the cloud carriage. Two of Xuan Yuan soldiers  blocked them, preventing Xiao Yao from getting into the carriagre. Xiao Yao stared at Cang Lin. “Brother Zhuan Xu really can't go?”

Cang Lin said. “Princess, please forgive me!” Xiao Yao's expression immediately became serious. She gave a loud command to all of Gao Xing's soldiers: “Since Xuan Yuan doesn't welcome me, Then let's go back to Gao Xing now!” With that, she dragged Zhuan Xu and walked over.

Gao Xing's guard hurriedly cleared the way, lining up the procession neatly. She was really thinking of going back to Gaoxin right away. Cang Lin saw that Xiao Yao did not look like she was pretending. He became agitated and said, “Princess, don't be so nonsense!”

Xiao Yao was enraged. She raised her voice and shouted loudly, “Am I on a nonsensical rampage? Would someone be willing to travel tens of thousands of miles to do nonsense? I am Gao Xin's eldest princess. What things can't be done at Gao Xin? My mother went to war and sacrificed her life for the Xuan Yuan people. I traveled ten thousand miles to pay homage to my mother. I sincerely wanted to come and pay my respects to my grandfather.

I just want the older brother I've known since childhood to be my company. The Xuan Yuan soldiers blocked me from getting into the carriage instead. I want people throughout the world to see and decide decide whether I'm a reckless mess. Or does Xuan Yuan have some manners?”

Who would have thought that Xiao Yao's personality would be this hot tempered? To the point of shouting loudly like a village woman at a market stall. If Xiao Yao were to leave today like this, then travel and spread the word. He must be cursed by the people. His father would definitely be angry.  Cang Lin could only restrained and said comfortingly, “Princess has misunderstood. I guarantee that no one will dare to block the princess from getting into the carriage.”

 Xuan Yuan soldiers all retreated to the side. Xiao Yao saw that she had achieved her desired goal, so stopped. She dragged Zhuan Xu onto the cloud carriage. She waited until the cloud carriagr soared up into the clouds, then Xiao Yao looked towards Zhuan Xu. Zhuan Xu held her hand tightly, his lips pressed together. Two hundred years ago, he was at a young age under the pressure of four great uncles. He had to leave Xuan Yuan Mountain alone. At that time he stood at the bow of the ship, turning to look at Chao Yun Peak, which was slowly disappearing from view. He swore in his heart that "I must come back!"

The cloud carriage stopped. The maids invited the princess to get out of the carriage.

Zhuan Xu and Xiao Yao got out of the carriage and looked up at the tagging on the residence  with the three large letters on it. "Chao Yun Residence" It was Grandma's handwriting. He couldn't help but spoke as he looked up at the sign in front ," Grandma, Father, I've returned! I've been wandering and wandering. I was in foreign land for more than two hundred years. I have returned! I've made you all wait a long time!"

Xiao Yao looked up at the sign. More than three hundred years ago in this palace, it used to be filled with happy laughter from her and her close relatives. On today's return, only her and Zhuan Xu were left.

Zhuan Xu's eyes flashed for a moment. The two walked together, stepping through the palace door.

Xiao Yao's face was expressionless and walked very slowly. Zhuan Xu followed behind her. He himself walked slowly. Xiao Yao walked into the front palace. There was a thin old man. His face was full of wrinkles. A man with a white beard and white hair leaned on a stand. He was closing his eyes and sleeping like he was very tired. Hearing Xiao Yao's footsteps, he opened his eyes, looking towards Xiao Yao with eyes that are still as sharp as before.

Xiao Yao and Zhuan Xu didn't know why. They recalled the time when Grandma was sick and close to death. In their hearts, they suddenly felt sad. They knelt down. Unexpectedly, they both said together, “Granddaughter and grandson have returned.”
Haung Di (Yellow Emperor) raised his hand slightly. “Come here.”

After Xiao Yao and Zhuan Xu bowed three times, slowly they got up and walked to Huang Di's stand. Xiao Yao was easy going as she was accustomed to. So she sat down on his stand. Zhuan Xu, on the other hand, stood humbly.

Huang Di (yellow emperor) looked at Xiao Yao and said. “Your face is nothing like your mother, except for the facial structure. The mouth and chin are like Grandma's. It's exactly the same as when I met her.”
 In Xiao Yao's memories, Grandma's face was dry. full of wrinkles So he won't know if it's the same or not. She only smiled a bit.
Huang Di (Yellow Emperor) seemed to take Xiao Yao's thoughts away and said, “Your grandma was once a young woman just like you. Her beauty and abilities were once a sensation throughout Da Huang. Many excellent young men thought of asking for her hand in marriage. It's a pity that she chose the wrong person.”


Xiao Yao froze. She didn't know what should be said. She couldn't say that Grandma really married wrongly. Moreover, she didn't want to say that Grandma didn't marry wrongly. Because she also felt that Grandma and Grandpa probably didn't get along for many years before Grandma died. Grandfather never came to see Grandma. Or to say it correctly, except for the time Grandpa held a sword and thought about killing mother at that time, Xiao Yao had never seen her grandfather at Chao Yun Residence before. Until after Grandma passed away Grandpa was seriously injured and moved to Chao Yun Residence. Xiao Yao's silence was like accepting Huang Di's words, but Huang Di(Yellow Emperor) didn't care, still smiling softly, looking at Xiao Yao.

Huang Di (Yellow Emperor) looked at Juan Su and the smile faded. It wss not as gentle and kind as when looking at Xiao Yao. Instead, a stern look appeared. Zhuan Xu didn't lower his head. He just close his eyes slightly, letting Huang Di(Yellow Emperor) explored the look as he liked. After a long  while, Haung Di (Yellow Emperor) said: “I still think you were so enchanted by Gao Xing's beauty that you forgot how to return.”

Zhuan Xu knelt down and said, “I (Grandson), made Grandpa wait a long time.”
“For what reason did you come back?”
Just as Zhuan Xu was about to answer, Huang Di (Yellow Emperor) said: “Think carefully and then answer me. I want to hear the words hidden in your heart.”

Zhuan Xu was silent for a moment. He looked into Huang Di's (Yellow Emperor) eyes, and then openly said “I want Mount Xuan Yuan. And there is another reason. Maybe Grandpa doesn't believe it. But I really want to see Grandpa.”

“I know.”

Huang Di (Yellow) lowered his eyes slightly and said, “Don't blame me for being mean. If you don't rely on your abilities to get it. Even if I give it to you, you won't be keep it.”
" I (your grandchild) understands"

Huang Di (Yellow Emperor) continued: “You guys go get some rest. I live in the room that Grandma lived in before. The remaining rooms were all empty. Wherever you want to be, you take it. I don't like the noisy sound of people. There were very few maids in the palace. If you guys are not used to it..."

Xiao Yao interjected. “There's nothing I'm not used to. When Grandma was still alive There were only a few maids. I remember that the grass behind the palace was about as tall as I was. My brother and I also like to play hide and seek there.”
While closing his eyes smiling, he waved at them to leave.

Xiao Yao and Zhuan Xu retreated quietly from the main palace. The two walked along the red balcony, detour past the front palace. They arrived at the palace next to where they used to live. In the middle of the wide courtyard, there is a tall guppies tree. The shoots break off and fall together. Blossoms were red like flames. Everything was similar to that time. But the swing that got the tree had disappeared without a trace.

Xiao Yao's expression drifted, walking as she was being in a dream. A wave of hair came. The rain of flowers falls Xiao Yao stretched out her hand and got a flower. She pulled out the pollen and put it in her mouth to suck the nectar.

She smiled as she turned around and spoke to Zhuan Su. “Brother, it is just as sweet as before.” She handed a flower to Zhuan Xu. Zhuan Xu took a bite and put it in his mouth. Behind them were two maids following. One was Shan Hu who had followed Xiao Yao to Xuan Yuan. Another person wa assumed that he had received an order to serve Zhuan Xu. His name was San Sen (Mullberry).

Shan Hu asked, “Princess, are you staying here?”
“Get it here.” Xiao Yao pointed. “I will stay in this room. My brother will stay in that room." Shan Hu went in to look around once and said, “Although the decorations are very simple, But there must always be someone coming to clean it up, so it's very clean. All blankets are all new. There were some dirty areas inside the courtyard. Wait for me (servant) to sweep up these fallen flowers. It will look cleaner."

Xiao Yao said. “No need to sweep! When I was young it will take four or five days to sweep once. Those fallen flowers are not swept away. Grandma would make a pile at the base of the tree. Let them gradually rotted into the ground.” Xiao Yao and Zhuan Xu sat under the balcony. They were silent and did not speak, just looking at the guppies in silence.

Shan Hu knew the princess' personality well. So she didn't mess with her again. I myself was in chaos. Shan Hu is a bold and sweet-tongued person. Soon she was chatting pleasantly with San Sen. With San Sen's guidance both of them had prepared bathing water for their master.

Xiao Yao and Zhuan Xu were already accustomed to taking care of themselves. So he didn't let them serve him. They took  shower and changed their own clothes, After, waiting until both of them are finished showering, Shan Hu and San Sen brought dinner. Xiao Yao and Zhuan Xu then sat and ate dinner under the balcony. After finishing eating Xiao Yao sent Shan Hu and San Sen to rest.

As for her and Zhuan Xu, they walked along the small path behind the mountains. The mulberry forest behind the mountain was still as fertile as before, just like when Grandma was still alive. Xiao Yao looked up at the mulberry tree and said, “After a time, you can eat the mulberries.”

“Aunt liked to eat frozen mulberries. At that time they were still at Five Gods Mountain. I have never met Uncle and you before. But when Grandma saw the mulberry, she muttered, “Your aunt liked to eat frozen mulberries the most. Five Gods Mountain probably won't have any good mulberries. Wheb we're done, I'll have someone take it and deliver it to your aunt.” I also helped Grandma pick the mulberries, and make frozen mulberry together"

Xiao Yao smiled sweetly and said, “Every year, someone sends mother frozen mulberries. Mother was worry that she did not dare to eat much. Every day just pick it up eat one small plate. Because it has a cool, sweet, and sour taste. The weather was hot. So I like to eat too. Every time I had to compete with my mother to eat. I feel like I don't have enough to eat. So she sent her maid to pick mulberries and make frozen mulberries. But no matter what we did, it didn't taste like what Grandma sent us."

Zhuan Xu smiled softly and said. “Wait until the mulberries are able to eat this year, I will make for you eat. I guaranteed the taste will be just like grandma made."
 Xiao Yao smiled and nodded. They both knew that they would never be the same. But what had been lost was lost. They were not people who like to be stuck in the past.

The two walked slowly together. Most of the time, they were all silent for a long time until they thought of something. When they did speak, it was all happy things. It's a memory that them smile. It was until the middle of the night, when they returned to their room. Everyone goes to rest. Xiao Yao thought that she might not be able to sleep. But it's not like that.  Sleeping on the bed where she slept when she was a child, she fell asleep quickly. She also slept very soundedly.

The next day, the sky was bright, so she got up. Shan Hu said that Zhuan Xu had left. Before leaving, he said that he was going to meet Haung Di(Yellow Emperor). Xiao Yao was in no hurry. She cleansed her body and ate slowly. After she finished eating, she walked out of the room. She could see the swing and the guppies tree. Shan Hu borrowed and said: “I don't know what the Prince was thinking, in the middle of the night, he did not sleep, but got up to make a swing.”

Xiao Yao framed the door, laughing, her nose feeling slightly congested. Shan Hu asked, “Princess, will you  swing?” Xiao Yao shook her head. She walked slowly. She also did not specifically go to see Zhuan Xu and Huang Di (Yellow Emperor). She just wandered around. Without realizing it, she walked to the palace residence where Grandma had slept in the past.

In front of the door stood several guards. When they saw her, neither of them made a sound to report(warning) and did not do any objections.

Chapter 15: Recapturing About The Past Is Really Painful (Thai version translated by me) Part 3

Upon arriving at Xuan Yuan City, Zhuan Xu made the driver wait outside the city. He and Xiao Yao walked into the city. Zhuan Xu took Xiao Yao to a dance hall. Zhuan Xu rewarded the slave who led the way with a jade pawn. The slave's face was full of joy and took Zhuan Xu into a room decorated like a noblewoman's bedroom. Only in the middle of the room was a large empty space. I thought it was for the convenience of dancing. Zhuan Xu ordered that “I want to see Jin Xuan.”
The slave had a troubled expression on his face and said, “Miss Jin Xuan…” Juan Su gave him another jade pawn. “You just go and invite her, and whether she comes or not is up to her. The money is yours." The slave hurried away happily. Xiao Yao put on a hood to cover her face. She curled upright on the stand, watching in amazement. Zhuan Xu sat in front of the harp(zither). After trying out the sound of the harp(zither), He began to play the harp(zither). The voice is like flowing water. Suddenly, a sound like the sound of a clear fountain reverberated in the middle of the valley. Immediately, it sounded like the sound of a waterfall splashing from a cliff. The water shattered like flakes of jade.

The door was pushed open. A woman walked in sloe. She wore a yellow dress, very beautiful, and when people saw her they forgot their troubles. She sat down quietly. Listen to the sound of the harp(zither), waiting until Zhuan Xu finished playing, he said, “Pure white-furred horse. Popping back and forth like lightning. Before it should be a principle for the country. Why are you worried about happiness and not taking care of it? Travelling around, don't soil the soil. Keeping oneself hidden is a pity. Sir, you have finally returned.”
Zhuan Xu said. “I have returned.” Xiao Yao said to Zhuan Xu, “Brother, I will go out for a walk.”
Zhuan Xu nodded his head at one time. Xiao Yao opened the door and walked out. Among the thin curtains on the ground floor, a dance was being performed. Xiao Yao smiled, standing in front of the balcony railing and watching. Even the Xuan Yuan Dance Hall had both male and female guests. But in such joyful place, most of the guests are men. Even if there are women, most of them were dressed as men. Xiao Yao instead was in women's clothes, wearing a hood, making people eye-catching a lot. But now she didn't care. Others looked at her. She was looking at the beautiful woman, a dancer dancing to the music, small waist, soft neck, soft like a water snake, seducing people to the point of wanting to embrace her for a moment.
Two men opened the curtains and walked in from outside. One of them suddenly and immediately embraced the dancer. He caressed her waist once. Then he pushed her into the chest of another man. “Tonight, . let this small waist lady serve you!" This dance hall is only a place to sell the art of dancing. The dancers were all beautiful and delicate. One could look at them, but one could not spend the night with them.
In fact, the dancer's expression had turned cold. But as soon as she saw the man's face, even though she had gotten used to dealing with men and women, she still felt her face heat up and her heart beat so hard that she could no longer express her anger. She agreed to follow him.

The man smiled and hugged the dancer's waist, and took her to walk upstairs. Xiao Yao felt familiar. But because of the curtains and the corner causing her to see his face not clearly. It was until he reached the next  floor. Xiao Yao could see his face clearly. In the blink of an eye, her mouth dropped open. His face was unmistakably similar to Xiang Liu's.
But he wore a silk covering his jade hair. His hair was completely black with ink. His eyebrows and eyes all concealed a lazy smile. The whole atmosphere was completely different from the cold Xiang Liu. Xiao Yao remained silent, staring at him intently the entire time. Instead, he just glanced at her coldly. His eyes didn't stop looking at her for a moment.
The other man smiled and looked at Xiao Yao. Then he stretched out his hand and opened the hood that covered her face. “Little Miss, if you had a pretty face, Tonight I will let you stay. Be my friend.” At the side, a woman blocked him, smiling sweetly, he said “This young lady is a guest here. Young Master, don't make us suffer.” The man saw that the woman who was pulling him was unusually beautiful, so he didn't speak anymore and followed her into the room.

Jin Xuan opened the door and smiled at Xiao Yao friendlyly, “Go in, I will have someone send you all out.”

 The slave sent Zhuan Xu and Xiao Yao on a quiet path out of the dance hall in the city. Zhuan Xu took Xiao Yao to walk around for a moment. Then they went to a famous restaurant. After finished eating dinner, the two then left the city, they took the cloud carriage back to Xuan Yuan Mountain.
Upon arriving at Chao Yun Residence, Xiao Yao sat down on the swing. Zhuan Xu sat leaning against a tree.
Xiao Yao's heart was filled with doubts if that person was Xiang Liu? Or not Xiang Liu?
Xiao Yao asked, “Brother, have you ever seen Xiang Liu’s true face?”
“Never, every time I see him. He was all wearing mask."
Xiaoyao asked curiously. “Xuan Yuan has been posting notices to capture Xiang Liu for hundreds of years. Why do I only see no drawings on his placards? Or has it been all these years that no one has ever seen his true face?”
“There must be those who have seen his true face. But Xiang Liu was a nine-headed demon. It is rumored that he has nine true faces and eighty-one morphs. People who have seen them give conflicting information. One time someone drew a picture of his face,  it was exactly like His Majesty, the sixth uncle without anymore.”
Or was the Xiang Liu she saw just one of his transformed forms? Xiao Yao felt like she was relieved, but also felt lonely as losing.
Zhuan Xu said curiously. “But it's strange! Since Xiang Liu's transformed body, even the magical items couldn't distinguish between real and fake. So why does he still have to wear a mask? After all, he can change his face at any time!” Xiao Yao said softly, “Perhaps he is like me. Thinking only of wanting your true self, so he doesn't care about the transformation."
Zhuan Xu asked, “Why did you suddenly mention Xiang Liu?” Xiao Yao said. "I just....thought of him." Xiao Yao didn't want to lie to Juan Su. So it tells half the truth. There was a hint of gloom in her voice, which made Zhuan Xu felt some pain, and he said in a soft voice: “You are no longer Wen Xiao Liu of Qing Shui District.”

Xiao Yao smiled slightly, “I know.” Zhuan Xu changed the topic, saying, “At the dance hall, the person who thought of uncovering your hood was your youngest son, Shi Jun. The only son of Cang Lin"
 "Who is the person next to him?"
 “I don't know, but he doesn't use the transfiguration technique. But....since I met you and Jing I no longer dared to be fully convinced. Because in this world there is a skill that can make fake things come true.”
Xiao Yao asked. “Is that lady Jin xuan your person?”
 “I hope so. When eldest Uncle was still alive, he used to establish a large and strong news gathering organization with aunt Zhu Yu  as the control caretaker. After eldest Uncle passed away, this organization also works for you. After uncle died, even though Aunt Zhu Yu was still here, because of her personality, someone must give orders in order for it to work. When there was no one giving orders, she completely didn't know what to do. This organization therefore began to disappear. A hundred years ago, Aunt Zhu Yu took Jin Xuan and came to find me at Gao Xing. Follow the orders that Uncle gave you before going to battle. Hand over this organization to me. Jin Xuan was also a wood demon. If I were in eldest uncle position, Jin Xuan was in the same position as aunt Zhu Yu. But will she be as loyal to me as Aunt Zhu Yu is to  Eldest Uncle? I don't know. Let's just take a look slowy and see!”
“No matter what. This is the strength that belongs to you.” Xiao Yao rolled her eyes at Zhuan Xu and laughed with a mischievous expression, “Also, I am confident in your skills in dealing with women." Zhuan Xu covered her mouth with his fist, coughed softly twice, and glared at Xiao Yao. Joyfully, Yao hurriedly kept her expression, ans seriously said “Originally, I was still worried that you When you come back you will be single-minded and without strength. Now I can count on it being somewhat reliable.”

Zhuan Xu said, “Our elderly relatives have left us for a long time. But they have always protected me. Eldest Uncle was a very talented person. He not only  left this organization for me, within court, actually there are still his people. Even though there are very few people, everyone of them is great. Father, even though he left me so quickly, But I know that if there is a day when I am able control the army, the soldiers must agree to follow me. Because at that time Father truthfully was able to escape and survive, but he chose to stand in front of all the soldiers, waiting to welcome death. Lady Mother has left me with the extremely loyal Ruo Shui Clan, including aunt....”
Xiao Yao blinked and asked curiously. “Is there anything mother left for you?”
Zhuan Xu smiled and flicked one of the guppy flowers in front of Xiao Yao's face, "You, aunt left you for me." Xiao Yao kicked the guppy flowers on the ground until it flew towards Zhuan Su.
“You even dare to make fun of me!”
Zhuan Xu laughed loudly. Xiao Yao said. “But I'm afraid this won't be enough.”
Zhuan Xu said, “It is still far away. Including the secret guards I trained in Gao Xing. It is just enough to maintain life to the fullest. Now it's almost everywhere. The entire court thought that His Majesty, royal uncle might be the successor to the throne. His Majesty, royal uncle  had helped Grandpa conquer the land of Zhong Yuan, have good deeds on the battlefield,the army had soldiers who would live and die with him. He had prepared a plan. Hundreds of years ago From Zhong Yuan to Xi Pei (Northwest) Everyone has their own people. And there must be many large families like the Fang Feng Family, who had allegiance to His Royal Highness. Now what can I do? The only thing is to preserve one's life first and slowly think about the next move." Xiao Yao asked. “Do you want me to help you with something?”

Zhuan Xu laughed. “You don't know that I've been taking advantage of you all this time?” Xiao Yao said. “Try to speak in details. Let's look there's something I don't know.”

Zhuan Xu held onto the rope of the swing. “Let me think about it. There is no need to talk about the matter that the outer shell can see. In a secret way like Tu Shan Jing, he thinks about getting close to you, I give. chances so that he can get close to you. He needed to help me. If it weren't for him, how could I easily enter Feng Long's circle? Moreover, in front of Feng Long and Xing Yue. I have let them know that I have a great influence on you. When they have to evaluate me , it is necessary to count the weight of your position too. These matters seem trivial. But I was able to make the weight of the scale tilt towards me. Next, there will be more of these things, so much so that you yourself don't even feel like you've been taken advantage by me.”

Xiao Yao said. "It's still felt like I didn't do anything.”
 “You have already done it. You see me as the most important person. I can take advantage of you without fear. Tu Shan Jing is not a stupid person. Situation at the moment, it was clear that His Majesty, royal uncle had an advantage. Helping me is of no use to the Tushan Family. But he knows that I am very important to you, so he doesn't  hesitate to stand beside me.”
Zhuan Xu held Xiao Yao's hand. “And although I know you don't care that your hands are to be stained with blood, I do. I don't want you to be stained with blood because of me. You just stood by my side. It is the greatest help for me.”
Xiao Yao smiled and nodded his head, “Understood.”
Because he had Xiao Yao as a friend, he didn't feel gloomy or cold at all. Zhuan Xu gently pushed the swing. He felt like the path he had to walk through was fishy and bloody. Just like this time, the two walked, enjoying the evening breeze, talking softly warmly and very relieved. In fact, he was accustomed to being cautious, and be prepared at all times. No matter whatever it was, they are all closed in the heart. But with Xiao Yao, he felt that there were no words that could not said. There was nothing that cannot be revealed. To preserve A Nian's feelings He would be a little more deliberate in being nice to A Nian, in front of Xiao Yao. Xiao Yao would not be jealous of  Xing Yue, so he could speak openly. Xiao Yao would not be surprised whether his plan was just or evil, he could say it.
Xiao Yao would not feel that he was inferior, Xiao Yao could accept all that it was him.