There r two more times she will hurt him on heart. First in current mortal life and secondly the wedding they will hold with her sect members present where he completely disappears it will be last.
just finished eps 18. why do I feel that this entire Songhe town is something she created to punish him.
I think it is all her experience she went through losing the child, being accused of adultery with meng guy,seeing close one die infront of her and being accused of being demon. It is same as BJS is going through.