Jenny

Oh...you are right I guess. I didn't think it like that. Thanks.

So in this series sang zhi and jiaxu still talks with eachother when she is preparing for college entrance exam when in hidden love she didn't talk to him until entering the college and meeting him by chance due to being angry with him so which version is the real one? I mean the original one in the novel?

I know that he was feeling guilty and that's why I'm saying that it was a ridiculous reason.

Actually the only thing I found more disappointing is fuji's reason for keeping himself away from sei. He restrained himself for so many years for such a reason that I find it really ridiculous whenever I think about it. He visibly kept hurting sei for so long until sei had a breakdown in the name of 'protecting him' and 'not wanting to make him feel sad'. I know he felt guilty but why did he not feel guilty when he saw sei suffering because of him? Mehn wasting so many years when he could have just opened up to sei long ago and be in relationship with him happily. It's really frustrating.
But the way you said that you wished fuji and hagi hooked up🤣. I mean I would have liked to see that too as I can't deny that both of them are really good looking.

Finally we got to know the real reason behind fuji not wanting to have sex with sei but it's just such a ridiculous reason that I don't know what to feel about it.

Okay we just have different opinions on his character.

I know that he is a victim and a few days ago I too was among those who defended him because he is a victim. I'm not saying that I'm angry cause he isn't breaking up his relationship with fuji, I'm angry cause the way he puts a brave front, cause of the way he doesn't express his sadness and pain. Even if he is controlled he is a human and how can a human who is going through so much not burst out with emotions? It's not that I want him to cry infront of fuji or hagi but they should atleast show that he has suffered atleast a bit due to being forced but all they have shown is that sei is okay with fuji forcing him and the way he spoke to hagi as if nothing has happened, so nonchalant. It makes me think that he really is okay with fuji forcing him.

That's a cliche in every drama afterall it's a made up story but yeah those marks shouldn't be the only evidence to come onto a conclusion.

I don't think fujisawa is homophobic cause he wouldn't have suggested the idea of them living together at all. If someone is homophobic then they won't even want to care about a man the way fuji cared (and controlled). They would just avoid such a lifestyle of living with a man if they are homophobic. Also about kaori too I saw pure disgust in her eyes but yeah our opinions are different and that's okay.

On his wrist there were marks of being gripped tightly and wrist is only gripped tightly when the someone don't want the person they are facing to resist using their hands. It means that fuji has forced sei. At first when hagi saw hickey on sei's neck he just thought that they had had sex but when he saw the mark on his wrist he got to know that sei was forced but even though he wanted to know more he knew sei won't say it cause they way sei was being so sarcastic. And yes I felt really dissatisfied with this ep too.

I actually don't feel sorry for her and instead more angry with her cause the way she was talking as if what sei and hagi has done is the most disgusting thing in this world. Since the start of their conversation her expressions, her words everything was infuriating as if if hagi had slept with a woman then she would have thought that it is her fault but because hagi slept with a guy it's his fault and also the way hagi apologised first then kaori started speaking her gibberish as if she was never in the wrong. Yes she did apologised later but I somehow feel like she felt superior and that her actions were justifiable. She actually herself wanted to breakup with hagi too after knowing that he slept with a man so actually there's no sense of satisfaction to watch their scene cause she didn't look like she regretted much (I said much cause she did regret it a little) about what she did to hagi and also their breakup.

I'm starting to feel angry with sei. I know it's hard for him to break away from fuji but he could even forgive him when fuji forced him and went rough on him. I think fuji knew that he is a rough man on bed so he didn't want to have sex with sei and now that they had had sex fuji is probably feeling guilty and angry with himself and is avoiding him, never going to touch him again that's why sei had not wanted to have sex with him cause he knew that the things between them would change and even looking at eachother in eyes would be difficult for them in the future. I think sei had already guessed a bit of fuji's sadistic tendencies but wasn't sure so he was curious about the secret fuji was hiding but didn't want to know what it was. I think he feared his guess to be true.
Also the way both the protagonists apologised💀. I don't think they needed to apologise after what their partners have done. When sei apologised I felt so angry with him but when hagi apologised I felt sorry for him. The way kaori spoke was infuriating but he still apologised for being dishonest in their relationship. Hagi is a big green flag😭. In terms of character I only like hagi now. I'm starting to hate sei's nonchalant front.

You said all the things I wanted to say and said it beautifully! I really don't understand how people don't think of fuji as abuser and sei as victim even after watching the whole series. It makes me question if they are watching the same series as us. Also I think fuji shows his economic power when he gifts sei the things he design and also when he bought such a big tv for sei. People might say that it shows his care for sei but I feel like it always makes sei conscious of their economy due to fuji being a big designer. (But maybe it's just my opinion)

I think fuji is a dominant sadist who likes everything he possesses to be under his control

Yeah actually I read your comments down here later and I respect your opinion too.

After reading your unpopular opinion I wasn't able to calm down somewhat as well cause it really is unpopular. Not just physical abuse but fuji is also mentally abusing sei, hurting him by not communicating, controlling sei's life in all aspects, isolating him. Lets not forget that exactly due to the lack of communication sei collapsed in the bathroom and had breakdown. Plus Fuji not knowing how to communicate is out of question cause even sei has clearly said that Fuji is hiding something from him so he too wanted to have secret for himself. Its just a series but with fuji's character it shouldn't be first time he behaved the way he pressed sei's toenail and he really turns into abusive in the next ep clearly hurting sei so how can still someone want sei to be with him in the end? If we take the reason of him taking care of sei then there are so many couples in this world who in one moment abuses their partner mentally and physically and next moment they care for them as if they are their precious treasure and as if they can't live without the person they abused (if you want to see such example in drama then I recommend you to watch big mouse and the judge from hell kdrama. Fuji taking care of sei doesn't excuse his such behavior toward sei. Yeah you have your own opinion and I too felt like sharing mine.

Ikr. I specifically remember sei's gift cause I kept rewatching the ending of 4th ep multiple times in the week and in the end of 4th ep hagi is reminded of sei due to his gift so yeah. I can't wait to see how hagi deals with kaori next week.

By guilty I mean that sei wanted it to be a secret but he revealed that secret unknowingly and also he knew that sei had feelings for fuji so feeling guilty for exposing their affair to fuji. Also hagi's character is just too good. He is kind and considerate and even tho it's not his fault a person like him would feel guilty even then, that's what I actually meant. Also I hope for a happy ending for both sei and hagi in the 7th ep too! I really want both of them to end up together. If they don't show their daily life as couple in 7th ep then I want an extra special ep to see their day to day life😭

I instead liked the way they didn't kiss while having sex but kissed the next morning when hagi didn't want to let sei go. They both are romantic people and romantic people has this belief that they should kiss only their lovers lips and since the start sei and hagi just wanted to vent their sexual frustration with the one time thing and weren't actually keen on breaking up with their partner so they didn't kiss at that time but later in the morning when hagi realised that he don't want to let sei go much like he is unable to let sei go and won't be able to in the future as well is when he kissed him and the way sei said that both of them have gone crazy is when he too let go the restraint of romantic person. (Actually I feel like both of them were confused as to where they wants their relationship to head)
As for the lack of spice in this ep, I'm actually glad we atleast got to see the bed scene and their small conversation in between cause so many bls don't even show a kiss scene properly * cough * cherry magic * cough * (I mean mainly cherry magic cause the chemistry between them was insane. But there are many others too) so I have no complains about lack of spice.

I liked it a lot when he said that in the preview cause how does her conscience not hurt while using hagi and showing everyone that they are perfect couple when he is clearly in so much pain? How come she doesn't realise it? Or she is ignoring it purposely? This is a kind of another level of selfishness.