Juniko

Thanks a lot...
But actually, Hiro is a classmate in college. We are still friends and he cheered me up this Monday. The man that I love, and who got married 2 days ago, is called Kota. Both are japanese.

Thanks a lot !

Shocking things ? Like what ?

I completely agree. Sometimes people are just soo afraid of saying the wrong thing they end up saying nothing at all, which can be worse.

Hi ! So, How was China ?

Thanks, it means a lot. You know that's why I love MDL's community. In those hard times those who really comforted me the most are my MDL friends.

I've told my best friend about this, and even though she knew the wedding was yesterday, I've got nothing. Not even a text message. I'm glad I wasn't alone. I had Hiro in real life to cheer me up and you guys back home to support me.

thanks for accepting ! Don't worry I also take time to reply sometimes...

You're right. Let's not worry about things that have yet to happen.

You even got your husband into it ? Darn you're good...

Thanks ! I hope I won't sink when his sister sends me the pictures of the wedding, but right now, I somehow feel okay !

All this thanks to my good friend Hiro. This night could have ended up much worse !

I had no idea he was going to come back ! I'm so happy !

I'm completely depressed.

But yeah hot Japanese guy helps a lot. His texting me really helps my self-esteem. Like : "okay the man I love married another, but it doesn't mean I'm a disgusting pathetic ugly boring piece of ****... it just means that THAT particular guy doesn't want me. If I was that bad I probaly wouldn't recieve so many texts messages from Hiro-kun "

And trust me he is REALLY hot, kind of reminding me of Mizushima Hiro in a way.OMG I just realized they also share the same first name!

So right now not being loved by the one I fell for may seem like the end of the world, but I'm sure it won't always feel this way.

Also, I've found a nice bar that stays open on Monday (most bars are closed on Mondays in France)so I'm going to drown my sorrow tonight. I feel really lonely and I'm afraid if I invite Hiro to join me I'll end up doing something I'll regret later...

Oh that so cool ! You are raising her in the love of dramas!

thanks for your recommendation !

I didn't know this expression "cry a river, build a bridge and get over it" cause I'm french and the pond doesn't apply. But I'll keep it in mind, it's actually beautiful.

I'm drinking a lot like you said. Only right now it's not water that I want. I have the feeling I want to do something bad. I've been googling the nightclubs and bars of my city to find out where exactly I sould celebrate his wedding on Monday. And I'm seriously considering throwing myself in the arms of that hot japanese guy who's studying French in my university and who's been texting me day and night since I've met him.

I think I need a friend to keep me sane. I've talked to my best friend, but she's married and even though we've been friends for years I always has the feeling she judges me when she tries to give me advices. And even though I am close to my mother there is NO WAY I can tell her that...

Thanks bimba. Right now I don't know where I am or what I'm doing I'm completely numb and I have the impression that reality is going to hit me hard when his sister will send me the pictures of the wedding.

Do you know what drama to watch in this kind of situations ? I need distraction.

OMG Faith was actually supposed to be awesome !

Oh, I'm 22. I'm your Unnie but not by far lol.

Thanks, I'll remmeber what you said about extra water and sleep. My subconscious does need some extra time to process all those new and painful informations...

thanks Unnie ! I'm still in the 7stade_of_Grief stuff right now but I think I'm like in purgatory right now. Hell will be the day of the wedding (please, someone give me a hot asian guy to be my drinking buddy on Monday the 4th!), then a few days later I'll start getting better. I know I will. Right now is just not the time. I'm facing the pain without avoiding it, this way I've heard it goes away faster...

You're welcome.

i won't lie to you, but if you red my profile you know I'm not so good these days. But I find my solace in our beloved dramas.

And you ? How are you ?