The latest episodes (9 and 10) are amazing, and things are really getting better and better (as expected!)Both…
Wow, I'm glad you said that XS reading YJ's diary was your favourite scene. That's exactly how I felt about it. Loved these latest two episodes. The only problem is that we have to wait another week for the next two!
making money off gay people? what? how? most of the writers are straight, most of the actors are straight, most…
Believe me, I realize that being 100% gay is a thing. However, according to research I've read (though I personally find some of the methods used to be flawed), it seems that het women are SO receptive to non-het sexual encounters and full-on relationships, that some researchers actually claim that they are without an orientation. Maybe that's one of the reasons why het women came up with BL in the first place, and are sometimes convinced that het men can successfully be shipped with one another. Maybe they imagined het men could be as receptive to relationships with other men as het women are to other women. For once, (het) women were assuming their experiences could be copied and pasted onto het men instead of it being the other way around.
Also, later-in-life-lesbians is actually a thing, but doesn't seem to occur in het men. It could be biological, or it could have some connection to the notion that masculinity in men is more strongly connected to their sexual orientation than femininity is in women. I mean, if a man is sexually or romantically involved with another man, societies tend to ascribe some sort of "unmanly" or even partially "girly" identity to him. I have seen this happen time and time again. However, if a woman is involved sexually or romantically with another woman, this fact alone will not make (Western) societies automatically consider her to be "manly". So, when a person's identity is on the line, this may greatly affect their behaviour, but to what extent remains to be seen.
Anyway, I'm looking forward to the day that non-100%-gay women's sexuality is studied seriously and in earnest, especially the phenomenon of later-in-life-lesbians.
making money off gay people? what? how? most of the writers are straight, most of the actors are straight, most…
I loved Cheat, too. I also saw the ending coming from a mile off. I remember asking on Twitter if that character was perhaps a cambion, partly because the nun was acting so weird.
making money off gay people? what? how? most of the writers are straight, most of the actors are straight, most…
I feel the same way about hyper-femininity in women. But, rather than being bored by it, I guess I would say I feel a slight disdain for it. The same for hyper-masculinity in men.
Unfortunately, "butchness" and "androgyny" are hard to find in lesbian storylines, well, in BOTH women . If one woman is "butch", the writers tend to pair her with some highly feminized woman to kind of make it appear somewhat more pseudo-hetero.
As far as "GL" is concerned, I think it exists. I think the films "Yes or No" and "Girls Love" were examples of that. In both, hetero girls fell in love with lesbians. Unfortunately, the hyper-feminized women always come off as annoying because, what woman in her right mind would say "no" to Vespa Miller or Tina Suppanad Jitaleela? So, the het women watching it always hate the het women on the screen who take ages to decide for the gorgeous lesbian, who the audience members would date in a heartbeat themselves.
making money off gay people? what? how? most of the writers are straight, most of the actors are straight, most…
@Tsuliwaensis: I agree with some of the points you made about the differences between BL and gay dramas.
I think that one of the reasons that BLs appeal to women is that we have been thoroughly indoctrinated to believe in the idea of "true love". "True love" in the sense that it is a love that survives and thrives against all odds.
Romeo and Juliet used to be the standard, because opposing your parents in order to be with your beloved used to be a very difficult decision with serious consequences. What BL does, is it makes the characters go against not only social sexual norms, their family and possibly their peers, but also against their own sexual orientation. It's a love where two people love each other DESPITE their orientation, not because of it (as in hetero and gay storylines). I think that's what adds to its romantic appeal.
And, yes, in a world where hetero men are not supposed to show "too much" tenderness and affection towards each other and are just running after women all the time (who, I would argue they might be attracted to, but don't seem to like or respect very much), it is nice to see depictions of men who are actually able to love so deeply that they can REALLY see past gender.
I agree with your thought that depicting worlds where people fall in love with each other in a way perfectly aligned with the orientation can be very boring, because that's everywhere (though, I believe there still aren't NEARLY enough gay male storylines and even FEWER lesbian ones).
Since BL is basically fantasy (I have yet to have seen any studies which suggest that het men are anywhere as sexually/romantically flexible as het women) and often does not reflect the REAL struggles of gay men, I can imagine that a lot of gay men would reject/oppose the genre.
A concrete example of the difference between BL and gay storylines is that in BL a guy can fall in love with his best friend (with one or both being het) and they can end up together and live happily ever after, while the same situation in a gay film or drama would end up in heartache, because that's in line with reality. BL is not reality. That's why "Call Me By Your Name" is not BL. It's a realistic gay male film.
One final point: I also think that BL is a safe space for women because, for once, they are off the menu.
He is so handsome, why he doesn't have more roles?
Yeah, honestly, in Saitankyori wa Mawari Kudokute, he was the best looking guy by far! Actually, he was the best looking guy of all of the guys in all three films, but he only got a part in the first one.
I was really hoping that somehow the character of Ryoma would reappear, but no such luck.
Unfortunately, the last two episodes were very disappointing to me. The pacing was slower than a snail's and the writing seemed to have no real purpose or direction.
I would love for them to do a third season, but only if all of the couples (they could have done a LOT more with Pei Shou Yi and Yu Zhen Xuan's storyline) are featured more equally and there is real drama, more obvious sexual attraction and romantic interest. Having couples who are newly in relationships get all buddy-buddy seems extremely unrealistic to me.
Hoping the writers get it together and take advantage of having such great talent to work with.
Also hoping that YU and Sam get to sing and Richard gets to play the violin on the OST.
i didn't understand the last scene of episode 8...can someone explain it to me?
I think Xing Si cried because he was deeply moved by what Yong Jie said to him.
The part where Yong Jie tells Xing Si: "I am going to let you go home. Did you hear that? I said I'll let you come home. You don't need to be scared of anything." and then XS breaks down and cries, puts me in mind of HIStory 3: MODC when Sun Bo Xiang says to Lu Zhi Gang: "I want to take you home. He let you leave home. I will let you go home. Go back to your own home. I want to let your parents accept you and believe in our love." LZG was also deeply moved by SBX's words.
Further proof is when XS was talking to his friend Frank about his ideal future partner, he said that he wants someone who is "thick-skinned", who can accompany him when he confesses (comes out) to his dad; someone to stand by his side and face all his difficulties with him. Frank replies that this requirement is too difficult, but XS still hopes that there will be such a person. This is why I believe XS was moved to tears. I think he is finally beginning to realize and admit that YJ is that person.
After years of XS loving YJ (not as a brother, since he said it was "great" that YJ was in love with him and that he loved him back and XS even tried to kiss YJ on the lips), I think this will be the beginning of XS finally owning up to his feelings for YJ.
I find MR to be facially stunning as well. And that long neck! And that thick, gorgeous hair! :D As for the rest…
I must admit, I was pretty shocked at how thin Mu Ren is, but that aside, I agree with everything you said about his aesthetic. His face sort of reminds me of a combination of Leo from VIXX and Lee Min Ho.
That link to the conversation with Frank in the earlier episode is also amazing, and which then leads me to the…
Great observation! I hadn't considered that.
That's really making me look forward to future episodes (as if I wasn't impatient enough already! Where can one go to order a month of Sundays?).
I was only panicking, thinking, "Why is Xing Si getting up on that narrow ledge beside Yong Jie?!" (Especially with THOSE dress shoes on. They looked pretty slippery to me! And XS's step onto the ledge looked a tad shaky. LOL
Just a little note on one aspect of Fu Yong Jie's character:
I think since one of the reasons Xing Si actually left home is because he's gay, but seems to want to come back home, Yong Jie isn't selfishly forcing him to come out, as has been suggested by some commenters.
In his conversation with Frank, XS said that he wants someone who will stand by his side when he comes out to his father. He hopes that there is someone like this. Frank says that it's a lot to expect from someone.
So, I think that just like YJ picked up XS's feelings for him, he's also picked up on the fact that XS wants to come out to his father, but wants someone who will support him while doing so.
Say what you will about YJ, but I think that his close observance of XS has made him aware of what's really going on with him and how XS actually feels about things (things he refuses to openly admit or discuss), instead of what he wants to portray to others as his thoughts and feelings, because he wants peace and harmony and doesn't like the thought of rocking the boat, especially within his family, and specifically when it comes to his relationship with his dad.
Remember in ep. 4, when YJ said to himself that he knows that Mu Ren likes Li Cheng because he has more experience when it comes to liking a guy? Whether viewers like him or not, I think that was a clue into how observant YJ is and how accurate some of his conclusions are.
The scene at the end of ep. 8 where Yongjie tells XingSi: "I am going to let you go home. Did you hear that? I said I'll let you come home. You don't need to be scared of anything." and then XS breaks down and cries, puts me in mind of HIStory 3: MODC when Sun Bo Xiang says to Lu Zhi Gang: "I want to take you home. He let you leave home. I will let you go home. Go back to your own home. I want to let your parents accept you and believe in our love."
Also, when XS was talking to his friend Frank about his ideal future partner, he said that he wants someone who is "thick-skinned", who can accompany him when he confesses (comes out) to his dad; someone to stand by his side and face all his difficulties with him. Frank replies that this requirement is too difficult, but XS still hopes that there will be such a person.
I guess YJ is going to be that person.
Now that Li Cheng isn't such a joke character, I really like the way that his storyline with Mu Ren is developing.
I cannot wait until next Sunday! This series has got me hooked!
I think XingSi felt deeply moved when Yongjie said: "I am going to let you go home. Did you hear that? I said I'll let you come home. You don't need to be scared of anything." This scene put me in mind of HIStory 3: MODC when Sun Bo Xiang says to Lu Zhi Gang: "I want to take you home. He let you leave home. I will let you go home. Go back to your own home. I want to let your parents accept you and believe in our love."
Also, when XS was talking to his friend Frank about his ideal future partner, he said that he wants someone who is "thick-skinned", who can accompany him when he confesses (comes out) to his dad; someone to stand by his side and face all his difficulties with him. Frank replies that this requirement is too difficult, but XS still hopes that there will be such a person.
The scene at the end of ep. 8 where Yongjie tells XingSi: "I am going to let you go home. Did you hear that? I said I'll let you come home. You don't need to be scared of anything." and then XS breaks down and cries, puts me in mind of HIStory 3: MODC when Sun Bo Xiang says to Lu Zhi Gang: "I want to take you home. He let you leave home. I will let you go home. Go back to your own home. I want to let your parents accept you and believe in our love."
Also, when XS was talking to his friend Frank about his ideal future partner, he said that he wants someone who is "thick-skinned", who can accompany him when he confesses (comes out) to his dad; someone to stand by his side and face all his difficulties with him. Frank replies that this requirement is too difficult, but XS still hopes that there will be such a person.
I guess YJ is going to be that person.
Now that Li Cheng isn't such a joke character, I really like the way that his storyline with Mu Ren is developing.
I cannot wait until next Sunday! This series has got me hooked!
I chose to analyze the words used by XS (albeit in translation) in order to get some clarity regarding the situation between him and YJ.
First, they actually had a conversation. XS's fully formed sentences, recognizing of YJ, saying that it was "great" that YJ was in love with him and admitting that he also loved him, putting his arms around YJ's neck the way a lover would, and then trying to kiss him on the lips, suggested a few things to me.
YJ was 10 ten years ago when they met. As far as I recall, XS is around 28, which means he must have been 18 when they met. Because of the situation, XS cared for YJ like a brother, but I believe his feelings for YJ started to change around 2 years ago, or whenever he decided to leave home. I don't think he left because he's gay, but rather because he felt shame and guilt regarding his feelings for YJ.
That would explain why he responded the way he did when YJ confessed to him. The alcohol had lowered XS's inhibitions (which I believe was part of YS's plan) and he was able to admit the way he really felt about YJ. Something that his guilt and shame would not allow him to do when he was stone cold sober.
I think he regretted the situation in the morning because that's when the overwhelming guilt and shame regarding his 'un-brotherly' love for YJ returned.
When he went home, he was devastated because he'd "SLEPT WITH" YJ (his words), which meant he did what he had gone out of his way to avoid doing. That meant leaving home had availed him nothing: YJ loved him and XS ended up involved in what he'd left home to desperately get away from.
I think he was upset because he felt that he had 'corrupted' YJ somehow. His chief worry was not (unlike what many of the posters here and on other forums keep arguing) having been "assaulted" but rather what he would tell YJ's mother. More evidence of his feelings of guilt and shame and potentially having 'ruined' her son. Here, we can see XS's strong feelings of responsibility (especially towards YJ's mother) that probably drove him from home.
When he found out that YJ had planned the entire thing and actually loved him, based on his actions and word choice, it doesn't seem to me that he was upset because he thought he had been sexually assaulted, but rather because YJ was returning feelings that XS had been trying so hard to rid himself of. I think he couldn't handle that. I think this because XS slaps YJ each time that he claims not to have had 'brotherly feelings' towards him, wanting him to be 'his' (romantically). I think this would be understandable because how disturbing would a person find it, if they thought of someone they have been told they should take care of like a brother, in a romantic way. So, this, I believe is more evidence that XS was telling the truth when he admitted to loving YJ when he was drunk.
Anyway, we're only at episode 6 of 20, so, I'm sure that a lot will be revealed regarding these two characters. This is just my take on it so far.
I can only hope that those viewers who are upset and disturbed by this BL will, for their own peace of mind, commit to not watching another episode, and instead will find contentment in watching BLs that will make them feel happy and comfortable.
I personally think it would be horrible to be made to watch something that makes me feel sick or disgusted. How much worse to do that to oneself voluntarily, and then continue to dwell on it.
I, myself, am looking forward to all of the upcoming episodes to see how the characters develop and how the story unfolds.
If you look back there are quite a few viewers trying to argue - with reasonably valid points - why it was not…
I chose to analyze the words used by XS (albeit in translation) in order to get some clarity regarding the situation between him and YJ.
First, they actually had a conversation. XS's fully formed sentences, recognizing of YJ, saying that it was "great" that YJ was in love with him and admitting that he also loved him, putting his arms around YJ's neck the way a lover would, and then trying to kiss him on the lips, suggested a few things to me.
YJ was 10 ten years ago when they met. As far as I recall, XS is around 28, which means he must have been 18 when they met. Because of the situation, XS cared for YJ like a brother, but I believe his feelings for YJ started to change around 2 years ago, or whenever he decided to leave home. I don't think he left because he's gay, but rather because he felt shame and guilt regarding his feelings for YJ.
That would explain why he responded the way he did when YJ confessed to him. The alcohol had lowered XS's inhibitions (which I believe was part of YS's plan) and he was able to admit the way he really felt about YJ. Something that his guilt and shame would not allow him to do when he was stone cold sober.
I think he regretted the situation in the morning because that's when the overwhelming guilt and shame regarding his 'un-brotherly' love for YJ returned.
When he went home, he was devastated because he'd "SLEPT WITH" YJ (his words), which meant he did what he had gone out of his way to avoid doing. That meant leaving home had availed him nothing: YJ loved him and XS ended up involved in what he'd left home to desperately get away from.
I think he was upset because he felt that he had 'corrupted' YJ somehow. His chief worry was not (unlike what many of the posters here and on other forums keep arguing) having been "assaulted" but rather what he would tell YJ's mother. More evidence of his feelings of guilt and shame and potentially having 'ruined' her son. Here, we can see XS's strong feelings of responsibility (especially towards YJ's mother) that probably drove him from home.
When he found out that YJ had planned the entire thing and actually loved him, based on his actions and word choice, it doesn't seem to me that he was upset because he thought he had been sexually assaulted, but rather because YJ was returning feelings that XS had been trying so hard to rid himself of. I think he couldn't handle that. I think this because XS slaps YJ each time that he claims not to have had 'brotherly feelings' towards him, wanting him to be 'his' (romantically). I think this would be understandable because how disturbing would a person find it, if they thought of someone they have been told they should take care of like a brother, in a romantic way. So, this, I believe is more evidence that XS was telling the truth when he admitted to loving YJ when he was drunk.
Anyway, we're only at episode 6 of 20, so, I'm sure that a lot will be revealed regarding these two characters. This is just my take on it so far.
I can only hope that those viewers who are upset and disturbed by this BL will, for their own peace of mind, commit to not watching another episode, and instead will find contentment in watching BLs that will make them feel happy and comfortable.
I personally think it would be horrible to be made to watch something that makes me feel sick or disgusted. How much worse to do that to oneself voluntarily, and then continue to dwell on it.
I, myself, am looking forward to all of the upcoming episodes to see how the characters develop and how the story unfolds.
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Loved these latest two episodes. The only problem is that we have to wait another week for the next two!
Also, later-in-life-lesbians is actually a thing, but doesn't seem to occur in het men. It could be biological, or it could have some connection to the notion that masculinity in men is more strongly connected to their sexual orientation than femininity is in women. I mean, if a man is sexually or romantically involved with another man, societies tend to ascribe some sort of "unmanly" or even partially "girly" identity to him. I have seen this happen time and time again. However, if a woman is involved sexually or romantically with another woman, this fact alone will not make (Western) societies automatically consider her to be "manly". So, when a person's identity is on the line, this may greatly affect their behaviour, but to what extent remains to be seen.
Anyway, I'm looking forward to the day that non-100%-gay women's sexuality is studied seriously and in earnest, especially the phenomenon of later-in-life-lesbians.
Unfortunately, "butchness" and "androgyny" are hard to find in lesbian storylines, well, in BOTH women . If one woman is "butch", the writers tend to pair her with some highly feminized woman to kind of make it appear somewhat more pseudo-hetero.
As far as "GL" is concerned, I think it exists. I think the films "Yes or No" and "Girls Love" were examples of that. In both, hetero girls fell in love with lesbians. Unfortunately, the hyper-feminized women always come off as annoying because, what woman in her right mind would say "no" to Vespa Miller or Tina Suppanad Jitaleela? So, the het women watching it always hate the het women on the screen who take ages to decide for the gorgeous lesbian, who the audience members would date in a heartbeat themselves.
I think that one of the reasons that BLs appeal to women is that we have been thoroughly indoctrinated to believe in the idea of "true love". "True love" in the sense that it is a love that survives and thrives against all odds.
Romeo and Juliet used to be the standard, because opposing your parents in order to be with your beloved used to be a very difficult decision with serious consequences. What BL does, is it makes the characters go against not only social sexual norms, their family and possibly their peers, but also against their own sexual orientation. It's a love where two people love each other DESPITE their orientation, not because of it (as in hetero and gay storylines). I think that's what adds to its romantic appeal.
And, yes, in a world where hetero men are not supposed to show "too much" tenderness and affection towards each other and are just running after women all the time (who, I would argue they might be attracted to, but don't seem to like or respect very much), it is nice to see depictions of men who are actually able to love so deeply that they can REALLY see past gender.
I agree with your thought that depicting worlds where people fall in love with each other in a way perfectly aligned with the orientation can be very boring, because that's everywhere (though, I believe there still aren't NEARLY enough gay male storylines and even FEWER lesbian ones).
Since BL is basically fantasy (I have yet to have seen any studies which suggest that het men are anywhere as sexually/romantically flexible as het women) and often does not reflect the REAL struggles of gay men, I can imagine that a lot of gay men would reject/oppose the genre.
A concrete example of the difference between BL and gay storylines is that in BL a guy can fall in love with his best friend (with one or both being het) and they can end up together and live happily ever after, while the same situation in a gay film or drama would end up in heartache, because that's in line with reality. BL is not reality. That's why "Call Me By Your Name" is not BL. It's a realistic gay male film.
One final point: I also think that BL is a safe space for women because, for once, they are off the menu.
I was really hoping that somehow the character of Ryoma would reappear, but no such luck.
I would love for them to do a third season, but only if all of the couples (they could have done a LOT more with Pei Shou Yi and Yu Zhen Xuan's storyline) are featured more equally and there is real drama, more obvious sexual attraction and romantic interest. Having couples who are newly in relationships get all buddy-buddy seems extremely unrealistic to me.
Hoping the writers get it together and take advantage of having such great talent to work with.
Also hoping that YU and Sam get to sing and Richard gets to play the violin on the OST.
The part where Yong Jie tells Xing Si: "I am going to let you go home. Did you hear that? I said I'll let you come home. You don't need to be scared of anything." and then XS breaks down and cries, puts me in mind of HIStory 3: MODC when Sun Bo Xiang says to Lu Zhi Gang: "I want to take you home. He let you leave home. I will let you go home. Go back to your own home. I want to let your parents accept you and believe in our love." LZG was also deeply moved by SBX's words.
Further proof is when XS was talking to his friend Frank about his ideal future partner, he said that he wants someone who is "thick-skinned", who can accompany him when he confesses (comes out) to his dad; someone to stand by his side and face all his difficulties with him. Frank replies that this requirement is too difficult, but XS still hopes that there will be such a person. This is why I believe XS was moved to tears. I think he is finally beginning to realize and admit that YJ is that person.
After years of XS loving YJ (not as a brother, since he said it was "great" that YJ was in love with him and that he loved him back and XS even tried to kiss YJ on the lips), I think this will be the beginning of XS finally owning up to his feelings for YJ.
That's really making me look forward to future episodes (as if I wasn't impatient enough already! Where can one go to order a month of Sundays?).
I was only panicking, thinking, "Why is Xing Si getting up on that narrow ledge beside Yong Jie?!" (Especially with THOSE dress shoes on. They looked pretty slippery to me! And XS's step onto the ledge looked a tad shaky. LOL
I think since one of the reasons Xing Si actually left home is because he's gay, but seems to want to come back home, Yong Jie isn't selfishly forcing him to come out, as has been suggested by some commenters.
In his conversation with Frank, XS said that he wants someone who will stand by his side when he comes out to his father. He hopes that there is someone like this. Frank says that it's a lot to expect from someone.
So, I think that just like YJ picked up XS's feelings for him, he's also picked up on the fact that XS wants to come out to his father, but wants someone who will support him while doing so.
Say what you will about YJ, but I think that his close observance of XS has made him aware of what's really going on with him and how XS actually feels about things (things he refuses to openly admit or discuss), instead of what he wants to portray to others as his thoughts and feelings, because he wants peace and harmony and doesn't like the thought of rocking the boat, especially within his family, and specifically when it comes to his relationship with his dad.
Remember in ep. 4, when YJ said to himself that he knows that Mu Ren likes Li Cheng because he has more experience when it comes to liking a guy? Whether viewers like him or not, I think that was a clue into how observant YJ is and how accurate some of his conclusions are.
Also, when XS was talking to his friend Frank about his ideal future partner, he said that he wants someone who is "thick-skinned", who can accompany him when he confesses (comes out) to his dad; someone to stand by his side and face all his difficulties with him. Frank replies that this requirement is too difficult, but XS still hopes that there will be such a person.
I guess YJ is going to be that person.
Now that Li Cheng isn't such a joke character, I really like the way that his storyline with Mu Ren is developing.
I cannot wait until next Sunday! This series has got me hooked!
Also, when XS was talking to his friend Frank about his ideal future partner, he said that he wants someone who is "thick-skinned", who can accompany him when he confesses (comes out) to his dad; someone to stand by his side and face all his difficulties with him. Frank replies that this requirement is too difficult, but XS still hopes that there will be such a person.
I guess YJ is going to be that person.
Also, when XS was talking to his friend Frank about his ideal future partner, he said that he wants someone who is "thick-skinned", who can accompany him when he confesses (comes out) to his dad; someone to stand by his side and face all his difficulties with him. Frank replies that this requirement is too difficult, but XS still hopes that there will be such a person.
I guess YJ is going to be that person.
Now that Li Cheng isn't such a joke character, I really like the way that his storyline with Mu Ren is developing.
I cannot wait until next Sunday! This series has got me hooked!
First, they actually had a conversation. XS's fully formed sentences, recognizing of YJ, saying that it was "great" that YJ was in love with him and admitting that he also loved him, putting his arms around YJ's neck the way a lover would, and then trying to kiss him on the lips, suggested a few things to me.
YJ was 10 ten years ago when they met. As far as I recall, XS is around 28, which means he must have been 18 when they met. Because of the situation, XS cared for YJ like a brother, but I believe his feelings for YJ started to change around 2 years ago, or whenever he decided to leave home. I don't think he left because he's gay, but rather because he felt shame and guilt regarding his feelings for YJ.
That would explain why he responded the way he did when YJ confessed to him. The alcohol had lowered XS's inhibitions (which I believe was part of YS's plan) and he was able to admit the way he really felt about YJ. Something that his guilt and shame would not allow him to do when he was stone cold sober.
I think he regretted the situation in the morning because that's when the overwhelming guilt and shame regarding his 'un-brotherly' love for YJ returned.
When he went home, he was devastated because he'd "SLEPT WITH" YJ (his words), which meant he did what he had gone out of his way to avoid doing. That meant leaving home had availed him nothing: YJ loved him and XS ended up involved in what he'd left home to desperately get away from.
I think he was upset because he felt that he had 'corrupted' YJ somehow. His chief worry was not (unlike what many of the posters here and on other forums keep arguing) having been "assaulted" but rather what he would tell YJ's mother. More evidence of his feelings of guilt and shame and potentially having 'ruined' her son. Here, we can see XS's strong feelings of responsibility (especially towards YJ's mother) that probably drove him from home.
When he found out that YJ had planned the entire thing and actually loved him, based on his actions and word choice, it doesn't seem to me that he was upset because he thought he had been sexually assaulted, but rather because YJ was returning feelings that XS had been trying so hard to rid himself of. I think he couldn't handle that. I think this because XS slaps YJ each time that he claims not to have had 'brotherly feelings' towards him, wanting him to be 'his' (romantically). I think this would be understandable because how disturbing would a person find it, if they thought of someone they have been told they should take care of like a brother, in a romantic way. So, this, I believe is more evidence that XS was telling the truth when he admitted to loving YJ when he was drunk.
Anyway, we're only at episode 6 of 20, so, I'm sure that a lot will be revealed regarding these two characters. This is just my take on it so far.
I can only hope that those viewers who are upset and disturbed by this BL will, for their own peace of mind, commit to not watching another episode, and instead will find contentment in watching BLs that will make them feel happy and comfortable.
I personally think it would be horrible to be made to watch something that makes me feel sick or disgusted. How much worse to do that to oneself voluntarily, and then continue to dwell on it.
I, myself, am looking forward to all of the upcoming episodes to see how the characters develop and how the story unfolds.
First, they actually had a conversation. XS's fully formed sentences, recognizing of YJ, saying that it was "great" that YJ was in love with him and admitting that he also loved him, putting his arms around YJ's neck the way a lover would, and then trying to kiss him on the lips, suggested a few things to me.
YJ was 10 ten years ago when they met. As far as I recall, XS is around 28, which means he must have been 18 when they met. Because of the situation, XS cared for YJ like a brother, but I believe his feelings for YJ started to change around 2 years ago, or whenever he decided to leave home. I don't think he left because he's gay, but rather because he felt shame and guilt regarding his feelings for YJ.
That would explain why he responded the way he did when YJ confessed to him. The alcohol had lowered XS's inhibitions (which I believe was part of YS's plan) and he was able to admit the way he really felt about YJ. Something that his guilt and shame would not allow him to do when he was stone cold sober.
I think he regretted the situation in the morning because that's when the overwhelming guilt and shame regarding his 'un-brotherly' love for YJ returned.
When he went home, he was devastated because he'd "SLEPT WITH" YJ (his words), which meant he did what he had gone out of his way to avoid doing. That meant leaving home had availed him nothing: YJ loved him and XS ended up involved in what he'd left home to desperately get away from.
I think he was upset because he felt that he had 'corrupted' YJ somehow. His chief worry was not (unlike what many of the posters here and on other forums keep arguing) having been "assaulted" but rather what he would tell YJ's mother. More evidence of his feelings of guilt and shame and potentially having 'ruined' her son. Here, we can see XS's strong feelings of responsibility (especially towards YJ's mother) that probably drove him from home.
When he found out that YJ had planned the entire thing and actually loved him, based on his actions and word choice, it doesn't seem to me that he was upset because he thought he had been sexually assaulted, but rather because YJ was returning feelings that XS had been trying so hard to rid himself of. I think he couldn't handle that. I think this because XS slaps YJ each time that he claims not to have had 'brotherly feelings' towards him, wanting him to be 'his' (romantically). I think this would be understandable because how disturbing would a person find it, if they thought of someone they have been told they should take care of like a brother, in a romantic way. So, this, I believe is more evidence that XS was telling the truth when he admitted to loving YJ when he was drunk.
Anyway, we're only at episode 6 of 20, so, I'm sure that a lot will be revealed regarding these two characters. This is just my take on it so far.
I can only hope that those viewers who are upset and disturbed by this BL will, for their own peace of mind, commit to not watching another episode, and instead will find contentment in watching BLs that will make them feel happy and comfortable.
I personally think it would be horrible to be made to watch something that makes me feel sick or disgusted. How much worse to do that to oneself voluntarily, and then continue to dwell on it.
I, myself, am looking forward to all of the upcoming episodes to see how the characters develop and how the story unfolds.