The way this drama is making me lose my patience. I really liked the first episodes of the drama, where we could clearly see the hurt that Song Yan felt and the courage that the fl displayed. I binge-watched the drama last night and it made me so stressed and annoyed by the development of the FL. I get the fact that she didn't have the courage to stand up against her mother when she was a teenager, but at least she could've explained the situation to him, instead of just leaving like that. But i'm going to let that slide because they were just kids, but now I can't stand her as a grown up.

She comes back and disturbs the life that Song Yan created for himself, and expected for him to let her root herself back into his life, knowing fully that the reasons for why she couldn't be with him still existed i.e her mother and brother. She yells at him and asks why he isn't fighting for her, when she hasn't yet to apologise for leaving like she did, and take fault in her actions (frankly i don't know why Song Yan felt sorry for her). When he gives her an ultimatum, she goes back to being the coward that she is, and doesn't chose him. She wants it all but doesn't realise that she wasn't able to have it back when she was young and she isn't going to have it now. All that she does is cry, cry and cry.

She blames everything on her family, and whines about not being able to be herself and with Song Yan. She wants to show herself as an independent woman, yet doesn't take any steps to show it. She has no boundaries set for herself towards her family and allows her family dictate every inch. Frankly, i'm accepting towards the trauma that she has towards her mother that doesn't allow to stand up to her but her brother?? she is going to let him talk about SY like that and not say anything against it??? She keep saying stay out of my business, yet runs back to them despite the disrespect that they have shown towards her decisions and SY. This girl annoys me to the core.

SY deserves more, and I hate dramas that create the lousiest character as lead and have them end up with the other lead when in reality, they would've chosen a much more better person.

And I hate the lack of development of their relationship, i'm going to give the benefit of the doubt because we are half way towards the show, but I feel like the writers haven't given them a reason to choose each other in the present, much of their relationship relays on their past. The writers keep using their work lives to get them in scenes together, like she magically happens to be at the accident that he is working at, or the whole "task force" thingy which was so unbearable to watch. I don't like dramas that use these kind of plots to further the characters relationship. Like okay, so they work well together, that's good for a firefighter and a doctor, but what about them out of it??

Frankly, i don't even like her as a doctor, she is weird with the way she acts towards her collegues, and what does "i don't lose the job" mean as a motivation for being a doctor? (I honestly fast-forward every scene of her being a doctor, which doesn't leave me much of her scenes, which also shows how much this show relays on their titles)

I feel like for me to want them together, i need to see them outside of their work, having a real dinner, or a talk. I need to see her own up to her mistakes and apologise, and i need SY to hold her accountable.

I'm going to quit watching it for a while and watch it when it has finished, just so i don't waste my time anymore.