I had such mixed feelings about this. I despise infidelity. It's is so overdone in BL's. You also continuously worry that they will cheat again.

I mean, Otomo was just the worst. He cheated on his wife because he apparently couldn't refuse. As if it was the other woman's fault he cheated. Ehm, no. He made that choice. His wife wasn't great either, but at least she didn't lie till the very end as he did. Then he completely disregarded the other woman's feelings and ghosted her until he needed her again. Then there was the whole thing with Natsuo. Even if he didn't actually sleep with her, he was planning on it. Lastly, there was poor Okamura. He took that one way too far. He only got together with her because he no longer had Imagase. She was the nicest of all the women, and I hated how he just cast her aside when the possibility of getting back together with Imagase arose.

About Imagase, he seemed borderline obsessed with Otomo at some points. He blackmailed Otomo into kissing him/getting sexual with him at the beginning of the movie. Otomo did treat him horribly many times, but I honestly didn't feel that bad for Imagase. He should have let go of Otomo when he found out that he was indeed a cheater. Otomo never cheated on Imagase. He did, however, cheat on others with Imagase. So maybe they did deserve each other to some degree.

I'm just so very tired of the "straight guy" being in denial. The scene with Natsou showed just how insecure Otomo was. Choosing Imagase (a man) over Natsou (a woman) didn't necessarily make him gay. He obviously enjoyed sleeping with women, so at most, he'd be bi or pan, right? Whatever he was, it definitely wasn't straight. He did go to a gay bar at one point, but I wish there had been more indication of him coming to terms with his sexuality. He never told anyone about Imagase being a man.

I think he needed to be at peace with himself. That was at least what I took away from the ending. For once, he was the one waiting for Imagase. Beforehand Imagase was the one always seeking him. We could assume Otomo loved Imagase, considering he actually left Okimura when Imagase told him to. It was probably also his first time truly loving and needing someone, which was why he was willing to do it.

The last scene of Imagase made me slightly more sympathetic. He looked so broken. And that scene of Otomo sitting in the chair Imagase always sat in, waiting for him to come back, was so beautiful in a way.

Although it was a rollercoaster of emotions, I did enjoy it. We don't know how their story ended, but I honestly would feel fine with either outcome.