This was a very odd experience for me. I think I was crying most of episode 4 and into the start of 5, and it's one of the only times I can remember being okay if the mains didn't end up with each other. I actually was hoping for most of the last half that it would go a different way, and I'm not used to that.

So let's talk about it. First off, I have to give immense credit to the writers and actors. The way they made you feel the emotions was absolutely insane, to the point where I often wanted to smack Teh and felt like he was breaking my heart. Oh-aew's facial expressions in particularly are etched in my mind now, and the hammock scene in episode two is stuck firmly as its next door neighbor. The middle episodes in particular had you feeling a sense of desperation and the desire they held for each other. It was like you felt a piece of thread being pulled tighter and tighter, and when you didn't think it could be tighter, it did.

I think of it as episode 3 was the crescendo and episode 4 was the crash. Simple intimacies were heavily integrated in the story in a way I think most BL misses, and that made this really special. Pair that with a sensational cast of characters, from Bas and Tarn to Hoon, and finally (my favorite) Tuty

I usually could care less about music in a drama, but this music was really integral and beautiful. It made sense and added to the story. There was always a purpose for everything in this drama I found, even some of the items of clothing provided statements.

If I can give one big takeaway for this, it's that the drama defines coming of age. The delicate exploration, the anxious trials of boundaries, the self-discovery... It's an experience.