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Ep7, For a moment I felt bad for both miao jing and her mother. Her mother all she wanted is to have a good and wealthy life with her daughter. Not for once she thought to leave her behind. But the problem is that considering old times she is too dependent on men to provide for her. Ofcourse she is aspiring to have a good job but she has to choose a rich man here to pay off her debts...and in that process since she never even communicated with miao jing about her arrest situation makes situation worse between them. Miao jing think that she is abandoned by her own mother. Which is not 100percent true....her mother do regret her life choices but she has already lost her daughter's trust.Coming to miao jing. She was already in dilemma but looks like she already has ans in her heart about that and whole "i need to go first to talk then i will take u back" confirmed her that she cannot get a home with her mother that she is wanting. She chose to let go of her mother to be happy without her with a sense of abandonment that she has been carrying since childhood. Although she don't know that her mother was arrested leading to whole no contact situation. But it's a fact that she was left alone in difficult situation and that feeling is painful specially for a child.So, when she saw chen yi outside of bus stand she don't see him only. She saw him as the only person whom she return to, a person who is giving his all to have her a place called home. Her only family. The only person who despite not having blood relation with her is truly the only person who has not left her side during difficult time when her own blood relation had left her side...she saw him as the only person whom she can find and is waiting for her when everyone left her waiting.I found it little bit funny and adorable how they have started liking each other but they are not aware of it. And how they are equally jealous when they see other with boy/ girl. Also, the way chen yi just started believing her beliefs like asking for wish and questions and the way he lift her to touch dragon head to let her have all the good luck was so touching. Never he has once thought of his own wishes because she is his wish. He is not aware of that but his actions speak. He accepted to keep the good luck charm he don't believe in but made sure she gets peace and safety she desires. It's like he is unknowingly taking responsibility upon himself to make sure she gets what she wants just in exchange of her presence and care for him in his life...i see he is healing. He found a connection that make his tuff life bearable. A reason to live. A connection that is medicine to his wounds and light in his darkness. Although he is going deep in darkness like working for dangerous people so as she keeps having light in her life. When he made her wear age of coming bracelet he looks so proud of her and the sense of her only guardian. His heart warms when he see her growing up and he is part of that growth. It's like " we made it till here despite challenges together. Because we are walking together in this road". Her teacher said a very imp thing not all parents think about emotion exhaustion that comes with dealing diff people. It's dangerous also. It's like he cares for her emotional well being which comes very late even in romantic relationship. And can we talk about how he adorably looked at her photo in school board and fixed it just because it was little bit tilted. My boy has fallen hard.This ep was the highlight of how ur actions speak even when u urself don't know that u are falling in love with someone...it's beautiful.
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The way chen yi was holding onto the money even when people are beating him up so that he can afford to pay miao jing fees shows how much she mean to him. The way when he came home and saw the warm food and her waiting for him to have dinner just bring him comfort and smile. The way he just said that eat fish as he knew it was her fav and she is growing but the very moment when miao jing said to let her handle all electric work and how she treat his wounds...it's something so beautiful for him. He had never thought that he can experience a person's care like this..and heal him despite struggling to fulfill basic needs. The whole incident of miao jing health was so hard to both her and chen yi. Sometimes we forget that he is also a kid just 2 years older than her...he don't know what a girl is going through because sometimes as a girl we also don't know what's wrong with us. And he felt guilty of making her eat outside food and neglecting her care which he was clueless about. Not to mention the hospital bills. It's hard on him. Plus jiao ming being a girl she also don't know what's wrong with her. I mean she just hit puberty. No one helped her. Generally a mother helps in this case to differentiate what's normal and what's not or any female elder. But she had none. Also she can't go to him and tell him these issues..not to mention she already thinks that she is burden to him by letting him take up all the responsibilities and all she can do is to bear the pain and study to apply for scholarship. Until things gets escalated and both felt guilty about whatever happened. But in reality this couldn't be handled in any way. The entry of cop and his fiancee was like God sending an angel to help these young teenage people and assuring that they are allowed to make mistakes afterall they are still learning. One thing that stucked in my heart was how chen yi was looking at jing miao when she was sleeping at hospital after surgery...it's as if he is looking at a girl who is his entire world which she is. The whole mention of "i want to eat hot pot" , "u know what i want to eat" and chen yi just brought something he thought will make her feel good is his way to show care. He didn't knew that it's not recommended after surgery. The way he get her hot pot like she said...these small gestures are what makes their relationship so beautiful. It's nothing grand but the impact that leave to them was grand. Coming to miao jing's mother. We got to know she never abandoned her daughter. She was arrested for the crimes she intentionally or unintentionally made. That's why calls were not going through. But as soon as she gets her life and in a position to take her daughter to have a stable life she immediately came back. I think the problem between them is communication. Miao jing's mother maybe don't want to talk to her about what she went through but it's adding distance in their relationship. Now, coming to the choices of sacrifices to be made. Miao jing knew that somewhere in a way chen yi is bearing the responsibility of her tution and living expenses and all that loan debt thing that her mother caused him. So when she heard that her mother will pay off his money all she was thinking so be it. If her going can help him then so be it. She don't want to leave him but so be it if it means he can live a normal life carefree after her. She is making sacrifice to choose a stable life with her mother where she can have food education promise but no emotional satisfaction over a connection which they built in ruins, which serves them emotional satisfaction and genuine care but a struggling life where they have to put lot of efforts to meet their ends. Same goes with chen yi...he admires and values miao jing's presence and he don't want to let it go but at the same time he know that it's her mother and she has all right to go and that she can give her good life where she don't need to think about two yuan soda bottle. He just wanted to make sure that she will have that life in abroad and he didn't even thought for a second and sacrificed by letting go of the only person he holds dear and the only connection that brings comfort and peace in his cruel and harsh world just for her betterment.Another last thing i loved in this ep was how miao jing communicate with chen yi. She was honest that she has problems with school fees and how her mother approached her. But what touched me is how jing miao just let the door open enough to make her feel that chen yi is listening and understanding her pov of dilemma of making a decision whether to go or not with her mother but not enough open to let them see each other as she truly don't know how she could have said this to chen yi by looking at him. At last all she can say after tuff and emotional talk is to make her egg pancakes next morning...Now, it's upto miao jing what she chooses and what she makes sacrifices for?
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Ep5, Loved everything. This ep made me smile so much. The way miao jing didn't wanted to go to home as she didn't wanted to be burden to him. And the way chen yi's friend just quietly understood and investigated the situation and told him says a lot that how good a friend he is. The moment chen yi just heard and the way he cleaned house so that when she comes she feel good.What i loved in this ep was two things. The way chen yi just went to her and followed her till she express her grievances. That she is also a family then why he kicked her out? She felt so hurt. And out of sadness and anger and frustration as a teenager does she just cried and the way chen yi just hugged her was sooo comforting. Pure family vibe.I just loved the way jing miao quietly and unknowingly was stepping into his world...from collecting cans to collecting scraps and understanding that his life was so hard...despite having a father a child was not able to have a proper meal was so heartbreaking both to her and me as an audience. The way they share ramen and pay electricity bills as if they are now each other's everything. They were in so much poverty struggling hard to sustain themselves and lead a life where atleast they can afford basic needs but what they had during that time was genuine care that both never got from their parents. In struggle they found their genuine smile. So comforting.Chen yi has taken her as his only person and family whom he care about and that's why he is so responsible for her. He thinks of paying tution fees which he himself don't know but he is ready to take that responsibility. The way after he got to know that her school life can come to an end if he don't get money..all he can do was to take diff path just to afford that. He is slowly going into darkness just to be the light in her life and have a good bond that they are sharing..Even jing miao was not indifferent. She immediately said that she just want to talk to her mother so that she can take responsibility and don't want to leave him...the way she throwed the electric wire that haunts chen yi shows that they have stepped into each other's world.This was their journey from "u are not my family" to " u are my only family". And the sweet beginning of their relationship from family to emotional codependency and love in the backdrop of loneliness, anondo ment, ruins and trauma.
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