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This drama hasn't even started airing. 😑

Hmm. That's more of the reason to dislike. I loved till ep10 because pacing and plot makes sense. Suddenly i actually was very much confused with Shen zi not picking up his call. It was out of character and they didn't even explained. Was Lu Tao only his rival? Idk.

Plus i was tired of listening his mother was villian because in series i never felt or never showed. Even I don't understand why he broke up with his ex what exactly did happened so as much as to protect xiaofan from radar. To show protection one needs to show danger which i never felt.

It's always been clear that we don't agree in case of DH. But apart from that are u referring Deep In? Because I see no other toxic BL from China atleast.

ep19, this yanke idk what's her problem with everyone. Just because her husband like orchids doesn't mean every girl who also like orchids or wear orchids are seducing her husband. Yes Wu is pretty so what? She without having evidence still thought her to be entertaining trained coursetan? Does she think that world revolves around her? Seriously?

And YJX 😑 even after having child and after 5 years still trying to please Tingyun....i want him off my screen. Also initially i thought that madam yu will be one who love Tingyun to the end. But looks like their relationship went from respect and admiration to pity to sharing same case investigation to support to still wanting to be daughter in law to enemies.

Also this Wu is having too much screen time. Is she imp? Earlier in painting she didn't painted Tingyun as she saw that yanke and Tingyun are not in good terms and she wanted favour of yanke. Later she painted Tingyun in colour and everyone in white means she considered and saw that she is imp that even madam yu greeted her so she decided to switch sides. She suddenly started liking ( not liking exactly) her.

Keeping tissues beside me while watching now that u mentioned it.

I see. He needs to understand that life itself is a battle and no matter what this will be his life. So quickly marry her.

Ep18, why zhao ling is saying he has no wife. Technically it's correct but aren't they already promised to each other that they are their husband wife? Is it because he is investigating military embezzlement case and it's risky so he don't want to name. But still aren't all officials carry some risk with their work. He should have met her once afterall for 5 years thats the only hope that keep both of them keep going in life. I don't understand this behaviour of zhao ling.

Thanks

Ep18, is commander Mo dead? Because his wife was little sad when she saw Tingyun bringing her gifts. Or is that they are also in borders fighting war and they share same fear of death of their loved ones?

Did they mentioned in drama? Because idk twinflames scare me. It looks all good in books " single soul split in two". But their journey is defined to be very difficult.

Twinflames are defined as the people who are opposite or mirroring each other. They bring out diff sides of each other and they challenge each other. They force each other to grow but the growth often comes through pain. It takes a lot to be together. When not met ur soul search the missing part and once u cross path u just can't live without them.

I remember one song dedicated to the divine twinflame in my country.
" If one is explaination then the other is subject (of that explaination)
If one is word then other is the meaning( of that word),
If one is not there then the survival of the other is also not there" .

That's how I see twinflame connection. And since they are divine couple still they lived whole life in separation. So given that context i don't use twinflame word for any one. I can't bear the thought of separation of those souls. 😅

Yes. Whatever happened i wonder if that could be helped in anyway. Because I do get one will not want to see his own family killed and in other way I do understand that one will not want to see his own lover getting killed and do nothing about it in front of ur eyes. Plus enemy territory is also something u can't help. As one simply can't decide where they are going to be born. They both at one point wanted to be living in seclusion which never happened. And they can't even leave kingdom because it's their responsibility. So whatever happened idk if that could be helped in any way. I have long learned through movies and dramas that sometimes the only way to unite with ur loved one is death. And kill to love is among those.

😑 see no hate to any ABO world lover. But let me say it again, i being a girl will take a sprint to watch a drama as long as I see fated lovers. I mean i am a xianxia lover so that itself is explainatory. But Knot is a drama which made me ques how it's possible to even make a drama without any story. It requires a talent in opposite meter bar of zeila. 🤷

Trust me I didn't process a single word u said as I am missing context here. Maybe later i can understand ur words better. 😊

Writing third part of the first 15 min of ep3 of most heart touching moments( of mine).

I love how chang yang was shown so adorable. When qing lang said my neck hurts when chang yang was applying ointment. Chang yang sits besides him. When chang yang saw qing lang running around( as he is one curious and never sit at one place adorable cute person), chang yang decided him to tie him with rope but the moment qing lang said it looks like dog carried on. Chang yang tied rope on himself. Sounds romantic right? Again what's imp is the thing that follows afterwards for me.

When after coming out of meditation. Qing lang said it looked like you are going farther away. Chang yang immediately tried to tie the same rope upon himself to him to assure his lover that he is not leaving qing lang. But qing lang holds his hands signalling not to do that. Because it's not his physical presence that is troubling him but his emotional absence is troubling him. What if chang yang is going farther not in physical level but on soul level. That scares qing lang and that's why his eyes unknowingly escaped a tear. One can bind the body but not soul.

And they are already in connection with each other on 5D.

Now, here is the my frustration with myself. I totally underestimated this drama. I regret not watching it earlier. Because it's my feeling that zeila is not saying the story of two people in love. She is telling the story of two souls deeply in love with each other. And to write that kind of story and bring the emotion like that even if she is not intended to do so on my screen, i think this drama is a work of art. And i as a appreciator of art can't help but to cry seeing it's beauty. I am genuinely not lying when I am saying that I am crying while watching this drama. When this drama is healing in nature. And i hate it. It delays me to watch as I have to sit down with my emotions and feelings after each scene and overcome it's impact then move on to next scene. But i know deep down this is kind of story I want to see.

Writing second part of the 15 min ep3 most heart touching moments.

So my fav scene. When qing lang was meditating he saw glimpses of him and chang yang and him going farther away from him. And then he shed a tear in the sadness and agony of separation. Seeing him chang yang moved towards him with the intention of wiping the tear from his lover's eyes. Sounds romantic right?

But I found this scene romantic as well as much deeper. Again allow me to explain. ( I know I am in my delulu world and all of things i am going to say now is coming from a delulu mind).

For me what's imp is not that scene itself it's the line Qing lang says after which goes by " when I was meditating, it's as if I have lived a century. And in both the beginning and ending of century there was u." Then he tries to touch his lover chang yang face as if he is trying to touch deep into his soul and then they hold hands. Like their soul interwined.

Which makes me think are they fated lovers? Do they share past and present life? Are they soulmates? ( And please don't come to me saying oh they love each other so obviously are soulmates. No!!!!! Soulmates means ur soul recognises other soul as the mate, the partner in every life. They can or cannot be lovers. But soul recognition is what defines soulmates for me). Now whats interesting is that according to both qing lang and chang yang, qing lang was dreaming. And my perception says no. Qing lang was not simply dreaming. He was connecting to his higher subconscious himself or soul. Who was telling him that he share deep connection with chang yang. ( I know I am delulu). But that's how I can explain those glimpses qing lang saw.

Plus i in my delulu world support this with the fact that if not spiritual connection between them then how come this fast they just fell so much connected and deeply in love. It's like ur soul finally found ur other half. Ur fated love. Thats why I see in ep2, qing lang laying his head in the arm of chang yang and quietly shedding his tears so vulnerable yet so comforting. It's like he knows he is emotionally safe with him. That sort of connection is not possible with someone u have recently met. Unless u are soulmates.

Now, another point is that in show qing lang healed through meditation. And that's what I was saying. Nature( Prakriti) has healing effects.


Edit:- Knot writers please take a note. This is how u show FATED BOND!!!!!

HE i can't say. Am also watching. But worth watching yes!!! Yes!!!! Yes!!!!

Let me first appreciate the most heart touching moment of the first 15 minutes of episode 3. I officially announce myself as a fangirl of Zeila.

Allow me to explain why?

So coming from a country which emphasise in spirituality, where Buddhism originated, where the concept of meditation was never to calm down. It's deeper than that. According to the ancient texts and school of philosophy, there is Yoga school of philosophy whose founder is Patanjali.Yoga is a disciplined spiritual path toward liberation, salvation involving the refinement and mastery of the body, senses and mind and ultimately discriminative knowledge between Purusa(pure consciousness) and Prakriti (nature, matter and the creative principle). It contains ८ astanga( 8 stages) to achieve this. Dhyana (meditation) is one of the later stages of this path with samadhi representing a deeper state of concentration/absorption.( Deeper form of meditation).

What I love is that meditation here isn't portrayed simply as “sit down, empty your mind and relax.” ( which unfortunately is all meditation has reduced to in today's modern era) .Nature(Prakriti) itself becomes part of the spiritual experience. And that is exactly where I appreciate Zeila. She understood the core essence of the Yoga school of philosophy.

When Qing Yang enters dhyana( meditation), she doesn't isolate him from nature. She places him within it. Nature becomes part of the visual language of his meditation—a manifestation of Prakriti surrounding his higher conscious self.

Perhaps this is why the scene affected me so deeply. It reminded me of a much older understanding of meditation which is not merely calming the mind, but entering into a deeper relationship with consciousness, nature and the conditions of existence.

I am writing in parts as my old phone hangs a lot and this is third time I am rewriting this. As my other two versions got lost because my so called modern communication device phone just hangs a lot. 😑😑😑😑😑

Why this drama is so hard to watch? Not saying in bad way but in a very good way. Idk i am in ep3 and after every scene. Each scene makes me think something deep within my own soul. It's like I am reflecting my own actions somewhere or connecting real world happenings through this series. It's so real life rich, yet so grounded, so away from daily life but still a daily life things shown, so aloof from culture yet so cultural rich. Is it possible to feel these many emotions at one go?

If anyone dared propose to me with anything resembling the words 'will you cook for me forever', I will immediately smack them upside the head with a cast iron pan.--this made me laugh. 😂 I felt the same.

Am actually glad that i am not alone in the people who hated finale and even xiaofan at the end.

And the lickback I'd powered through 11 episodes for was not only rushed through and poorly explained in the finale, but the person seeking revenge went straight back to subservience as soon as the husband showed up🤦🏾‍♀️.--- girl, i feel u in this line.

It was fun reading ur review.

Idk how to feel about this drama. Unlike others the last two eps are not upto my liking. Not because xiaofan took revenge. He never wanted revenge. He wanted his gege to remember him out of hatred for a lifetime. I dont understand why he wanted to hate bei lu qing? Yes he did treated him so bad. But then I don't understand why to play along? Why not stop indulging with him? Oh I see it's because he wanted to give money to his family as well. But then he said that he stood with bei lu qing all those years is because lu qing cared for him. Then idk why all these drama happened? I wanted xiaofan to grow but not in this way. He cut ties from Lu family it's the only good thing that happened. But why shen zin( his friend) was not speaking to him but xiaofan was wiring money to him? I mean i don't get it. Then i get it in stock market lu qing rival was trying to bring him down but it's not out of company rival I think. The hatred to destroy seems come from a diff resentment which was not shown in drama. I don't understand how even after all these they can get married? Is it possible to get married given their past? Clearly they had lots of issues. One is miscommunication they don't talk. Then xiao fan ruined lu qing. Yes who will forgive to that? Then lu qing also treated him very coldly. Yes no matter reason those are diff days for xiaofan. I don't know how this works. Is their marriage supposed to be working later? I don't think so. Even their marriage didn't gave me happiness. It's very bittersweet in which i am trying to see sweetness. But i am unable to see. It's more bitter for me. There are moments where I wanted to watch this and rewatch this drama. But ending didn't worked for me. So i don't know if i ever rewatch this drama. What could be earlier a good 7.5-8 for me. Sadly after finale for me it got reduced to 7/10.