kitty_momo:
" I feel like being with Jing also seems to drain her energy/vibe, and I don't like what XY is like when she is with Jing. She doesn't seem like herself at all, she turns into a generic sweet and silly FL."
Wow my thoughts exactly. To be fair I think she had a bit of an identity crisis, I think în a way she was torn between being herself (the way she was around xl/ffbei) and being how she herself and others expected her to be ever since her identity was revelead. I still remember that conversation she had with none other than Jing, regarding TianEr and Chuan Zi, about placing a bet and faking it untill it becomes real. I belive she did grow to love Jing, but her love for XL came naturally, as I said before, I feel like she loved XL despite him being CX's enemy, despite him pushing her away, despite them not having a future togheter, hence despite anything, she didn't even know exactly how XL feels about her, he never promised her anything.
"Xiao Liu leaned on his crutches and watched them from a distance with Shi Qi beside him. Xiao Liu started nattering “This is actually an interesting gamble. Tian Er doesn’t believe Chuan Zi will want to be with her forever so right now she’s giving him all fake affection. But the more Tian Er is nice to him, the more Chuan Zi is nicer to her. The fake affection will gradually be mixed with real feeling, and as a lifetime passes even the false becomes true. But during this process it’s not without risk."
This discussion she had with Jing I think it was also about her and Jing. Hence, I dare to say she had fallen first for XL, not Jing nor FFbei, FFbei persoana just allowed her to, maybe, dare for a bit of hope.