I have a question. Actually, it’s a series of related questions. If XL didn’t know he was going to die, would he have gone out of his way to do extraordinary things for XY? Probably not, right? Theoretically, he wouldn’t have had to go there. He could have let life progress in a more normal manner. What if, instead, it were TSJ (or CX), not XL, who knew he was going to die? Would TSJ (or CX) have gone out of his way to do extraordinary things for XY? I think there is a very good chance he would have too.
So, is
XL minus extraordinary things plus a long life with XY
greater than
TSJ (or CX) plus extraordinary things minus a long life with XY?
Is
XL minus extraordinary things plus a long life with XY
greater than
TSJ (or CX) with no extraordinary things and with a long life with XY?
For most people in this tread, the answer to the last question is yes. The answer to the second to last question is harder. But, my answer is that it may not matter as much as it may seem to matter. The depth of love XL has for XY is there, even if he never has to fully draw on it during a long life with her.
Somehow, I thought this thought exercise might help me feel better. But, now I’m not sure, lol. So, I suddenly thought of another thought exercise. I’m brainstorming here on my own and chuckling at myself. (HeadInTheClouds, you aren’t the only one, lol.)
I’ve never been religious, but I have been influenced by religion and believe in reincarnation and Heaven. I believe that most good people reincarnate a lot, before finally making it to Heaven. Those who think and act more like a god go to Heaven sooner rather than later. TSJ is the only one close (example: his approach towards his brother). Although he’s probably not quite there yet either, let’s just say that he goes to Heaven after this lifetime, where he is no longer interested in things like carnal desires.
Let’s say everyone else reincarnates. Let’s say XL is a human, has left almost all of the bad parts of his demon nature behind him, and is able to live a life more like his FFB self with no need to womanize. Let’s say XY and CX are still close blood relations. XL and XY continue to have a soulmates-type connection. They meet at a good time for them to have a long-term “in love” relationship. They repeat this over and over through lifetime after lifetime.
This actually puts me back in my own real-life paradigm. If Tong Hua can create three great love rivals at the same time, which I don’t really believe in, I can still find a happy ending for XL myself. There. I feel a lot better!