I am trying to be subjective…besides telling XL thst she was afraid of him coming into her dreams ..and tears after not seeing him when she awakes from death …there was no other real love considerations she gave him? Even when she make poison for him ..putting him in mirror ..thinking about him at times .hurt that he was using her as ammunition…because he never really expressed his love (unlike Jing) …I don’t think she would know she had feelings for him besides friendship …at least in season 1…
When she was wenxialiu as a man in the season 1 she was actually looking forward to Xl coming to bite her neck talking to him etc..but more I feel itseemed like more like loneliness…and from being afraid of this 9 headed demon it did gradually in her mind become companionship…
..I felt she really she just showed her jealousy for Jing more of of the other maids and ffyingying ..asking who Jing think prettier….and when Jing expressed his love she took up to it ..
probably the novel better in conveying her feelings than the drama for development of any hidden feelings for XL theough the year that she didn’t even realize …maybe in season 2 it will show more?
as for lovers bug I don’t get it either..well she did die..and Xl was in the chenrong army when he felt it…he immediately went off::.did he feel her heartbeat dead then? He flew with furball and then did some magic …didn’t even know what it meant then he striked into the barrier …:so the answer to her question that if she died what happens to him? He doesn’t die. Not even lose one of his life…:the only reason he would want to remove bug kill huh is because he felt the chenrong army will all be dead including him and if he died .would she die too? Or just if he died she would feel the eternal pain of his death?