blabla100:I am not sure how the chinese translation for it is exactly
The lyrics do not imply that Chi Chen has to be "the one" in A Heng's eyes and heart. What the song asks is that he can exist in her eyes and heart. There is no allusion to exclusivity.
哦也罗依哟 哦也罗依哟 兄弟们 | O ye luo yi yo O ye luo yi yo My brothers |
But that being said, Chi Chen, as you said, asks, only for a sincere, true love from A Heng. It did not matter to Chi Chen if she was married to Shao Hao and had a child with him. For his love for her, he learnt forbearance, respected her choices and curbed his love for 400 years, waiting only for the day when she would openly acknowledge her love for him.
AH :Through both the repeated words and the use of WXL/XY's poison, Mao Qiu's last appearance echoes his first appearance.
Yes. It is painfully poetic that they came full circle - ending with similar words as the ones that were uttered when they first met Wen Xiao Liu, and Mao Qiu once again being felled by poison prepared by her. Except this time, when Mao Qiu comes to, it is already "After I am gone...", and he is well and truly alone, with no trace left behind of his master and companion of 300 years.
AH :I remembered that FFYY did not know that TSH was TSH when she first met him, so I checked the novel to refresh my memory of the details and I realized when TSH and FFYY first met, TSJ's mother was still alive, TSH did not know the truth about his birth, and TSJ and TSH were still on good terms. Which made it seem unlikely that when TSH fist met FFYY, he was intentionally trying to seduce her in order to hurt TSJ. It also made me wonder if, despite the fact that he later used and betrayed her, he might have had real romantic feelings for her, at least in the beginning.
Jing's mother was already ill when she arranged Jing and Yi Ying's betrothal, and Hou's marriage to the maid Lan Mu which Hou agreed to despite the blatantly unfair arrangement, because he still desperately craved her love and approval. At the time, Jing and Hou's relationship were still very close. Still, he would have felt keenly the unfairness of the treatment, so my take is that when he snuck off to Gao Xin to catch a glimpse of his brother's fiancée at the Fifth Month Festival, it was not just out of curiosity, but also an unconscious comparison of the two wives chosen for the two brothers.
We can see glimpses of it from what he told Jing when he came back when he praised Yi Ying to Jing, which hints of envy:
By then Mother was already ill and I did not want her to worry about my marriage any longer, so I immediately agreed. After the engagement, I had to take care of Mother and handle clan affairs, so I was extremely busy and couldn’t spare much thought on the matter. However, Eldest Brother secretly sneaked away to see Fangfeng Yi Ying. When he came back, he grinned and said to me, ‘Congratulations, she is indeed a great beauty, intelligent and witty.’
-- Vol 1 Ch14
just as we can see his reaction when it first dawned on him who Yi Ying was during their first meeting. At the time, he did not realise who she was until after he helped reunite her with her companions, upon which he left straight after that. so their encounter and interactions earlier should not have been out of a deliberate intent to seduce his brother's fiancée. Rather, I believe he was genuinely attracted to her at the time, hence the meaning behind the words he said to Jing about her.
Yi Ying staggered towards Hou. “But it so happened that the one I met first was you! That year, during the Fifth Month Festival (Dragon Boat Festival), I was out playing with my female companions in Gao Xin, watching the people of Gao Xin release lanterns. Unexpectedly, an accident happened and I fell into the water, but I could not swim, and was entangled by a water weeds demon. It was you who saved me. You rowed a small boat and took me to see the lanterns while helping me search for my companions. I could tell it was not your first visit to Gao Xin, so I asked you what brought you here, and you said, ‘I came specifically to see a woman. I heard she had come to see the lanterns.’ Even though I was well aware that I was already betrothed, I actually felt a little disappointed. Later, after we found my companions, you heard them call me ‘Yi Ying’, and you suddenly asked, ‘Are you Miss Fangfeng?’ I replied ‘Yes’, and you stared at me for a moment, then smiled and said, ‘So it’s you!’ Having said that, you rowed your boat into the sea of lanterns. I heard someone in the distance call out ‘Young Master Tushan’, and you answered. My female companions all looked at me and started laughing. We all thought you were the Young Master Tushan who was engaged to me and had come specifically to see me. I looked at the direction that you left, both surprised and happy, and the words ‘So it’s you’ echoed in my heart!"
-- Vol 3 Ch9 (Chapter 42)
Still, it is noteworthy that it would be more than 4 years before they met again, during which time we have no indication that he tried to see her again. I can understand that the devastating revelation of his birth and the hatred that twisted his psyche would have also relegated any budding romantic feelings to a place of insignificance. Until the preparation of Jing's wedding, which would have reminded him of her again. The real question is what he was reminded of.
Another telling point is the timing of Jing's incarceration, before the wedding could take place. Could it be due to the fact that he could not bear the thought of Jing marrying the woman he had some romantic feelings for, even though he himself was already married by then? While it is a possibility, I still believe that Jing's imminent appointment as clan leader remained the primary reason for his actions.
Later, he surely could not be unaware of her momentous flight to Qing Qiu in her wedding finery. Yet he continued to stay away until the Lantern Festival (15th day of the first month), before he introduced himself to her once more in that dramatic way. At that point in time, Jing's fate was in his hands, and he had given himself fully over to his hatred. As such, I am not certain that when he started his affair with Yi Ying, it was driven out of genuine feelings for her, and not a twisted sense of dominance over Jing. Still, surprisingly they started a sexual relationship only in the 4th year, after Jing had been discarded and left for dead. Why not before? If the affair was meant to be humiliate Jing, why abstain from physical intimacy before then? Was it because he fully expected Jing not to survive, and Yi Ying was finally free to be his woman in all but name? Or with Jing's certain death, his hatred was assuaged, and he could allow himself to act on his feelings for her? I can't really answer with certainty.
Still, going forward, he had no qualms in having Yi Ying entrap and marry Jing, and he certainly continued to seduce other women in the meantime. Was it because he had tired of her by then? Or he never truly loved her - and whatever romantic feelings he might have harboured for her paled in comparison with his ambitions and grudges, and at the end of the day, she was relegated to merely another of Jing's possessions that he was determined to snatch away. Certainly his actions down the road affirms that she (and even young Tian) meant little to him and was dispensable when push comes to shove.
liddi:Except this time, when Mao Qiu comes to, it is already "After I am gone...", and he is well and truly alone, with no trace left behind of his master and companion of 300 years.
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liddi:Jing's mother was already ill when she arranged Jing and Yi Ying's betrothal, and Hou's marriage to the maid Lan Mu which Hou agreed to despite the blatantly unfair arrangement, because he still desperately craved her love and approval. At the time, Jing and Hou's relationship were still very close. Still, he would have felt keenly the unfairness of the treatment
This is aligned with how I was thinking. ^^
liddi:so my take is that when he snuck off to Gao Xin to catch a glimpse of his brother's fiancée at the Fifth Month Festival, it was not just out of curiosity, but also an unconscious comparison of the two wives chosen for the two brothers.
We can see glimpses of it from what he told Jing when he came back when he praised Yi Ying to Jing, which hints of envy:By then Mother was already ill and I did not want her to worry about my marriage any longer, so I immediately agreed. After the engagement, I had to take care of Mother and handle clan affairs, so I was extremely busy and couldn’t spare much thought on the matter. However, Eldest Brother secretly sneaked away to see Fangfeng Yi Ying. When he came back, he grinned and said to me, ‘Congratulations, she is indeed a great beauty, intelligent and witty.’-- Vol 1 Ch14
Interesting. It sounds like you interpret TSH going off to see FFYY as something he did entirely of his own volition (out of curiosity and a subconscious desire to compare the wife-to-be that TSJ's mother chose for TSJ with the wife she chose for TSH) without TSJ having any input or perhaps any prior knowledge that he was going to go? Is that right?
I thought that since TSH reported his thoughts to TSJ when he returned, TSJ probably knew that TSH was going to go before he left and didn't object or maybe he even casually mentioned the possibility of TSH going in his place (since TSH could get away while TSJ was too busy to go himself). I agree that TSH probably had his own curiosity that he wanted to satisfy, but I felt like he also went (either genuinely or ostensibly) with the intention of doing TSJ a favour by going to see what kind of person TSJ's fiancee was. And that was why he reported his thoughts to TSJ as soon as he returned to Qing Qiu.
TSJ says that he didn't spare much thought about FFYY at that point and I think that's probably mostly true, but I'm also aware that he's speaking to XY in this scene and trying to convince her how much he isn't (and has never been) interested in FFYY. So it would make sense for him to phrase things in a way that made it seem to XY like TSH going to Gao Xing to see FFYY was something that TSH did entirely of his own accord, even if the reality was that TSJ was at least a little bit curious about his fiancee and asked TSH to go or did something else that contributed to TSH going.
Also, Koala's translation just said that TSH "went off" instead of "secretly sneaked away" to see FFYY. Looking into the Mandarin text, it looks like "悄悄溜去" could also be translated as "quietly slipped away" rather than "secretly sneaked away"? My impression was that this line isn't so much an indication that TSJ didn't know that TSH was going to go on this trip (i.e., that TSH kept it a secret from him) as much as it indicates that while TSJ was focused on his mother and the family business, the fact that TSJ's mother rejected TSH and made sure that control over the family business was kept out of TSH's hands, TSH had the ability to quietly leave and go to Gao Xing without anyone else (e.g., TSJ's mother, their grandmother, or other members of the clan) really noticing or caring that he had gone.
liddi:Still, it is noteworthy that it would be more than 4 years before they met again, during which time we have no indication that he tried to see her again. I can understand that the devastating revelation of his birth and the hatred that twisted his psyche would have also relegated any budding romantic feelings to a place of insignificance. Until the preparation of Jing's wedding, which would have reminded him of her again. The real question is what he was reminded of.
Another telling point is the timing of Jing's incarceration, before the wedding could take place. Could it be due to the fact that he could not bear the thought of Jing marrying the woman he had some romantic feelings for, even though he himself was already married by then? While it is a possibility, I still believe that Jing's imminent appointment as clan leader remained the primary reason for his actions.
Seems like our interpretations are pretty similar here.
I agree that if TSH did have some romantic feelings for FFYY after their first meeting, they were sidelined for four years after TSH found out about his birth secret and was consumed by that revelation.
I also agree that even if TSH having some romantic feelings for FFYY played some role in motivating TSH to kidnap TSJ when he did (so that the wedding could not take place), it would only account for a portion of his motivation, while preventing their grandmother from announcing TSJ as the next clan leader was probably his main priority. Preventing TSJ from having the opportunity to marry a woman with world-famous archery skills who could act as his ally and protector (and potentially give him an heir) and preventing TSJ from getting to benefit, once again, from his mother's unfair treatment of the brothers might also have been contributing factors.
liddi:Later, he surely could not be unaware of her momentous flight to Qing Qiu in her wedding finery. Yet he continued to stay away until the Lantern Festival (15th day of the first month), before he introduced himself to her once more in that dramatic way. At that point in time, Jing's fate was in his hands, and he had given himself fully over to his hatred. As such, I am not certain that when he started his affair with Yi Ying, it was driven out of genuine feelings for her, and not a twisted sense of dominance over Jing. Still, surprisingly they started a sexual relationship only in the 4th year, after Jing had been discarded and left for dead. Why not before? If the affair was meant to be humiliate Jing, why abstain from physical intimacy before then? Was it because he fully expected Jing not to survive, and Yi Ying was finally free to be his woman in all but name? Or with Jing's certain death, his hatred was assuaged, and he could allow himself to act on his feelings for her? I can't really answer with certainty.
I had assumed that TSH was a bit busy torturing TSJ during that period. ^^"
I'm glad you mentioned that he timed his return to coincide with the lantern festival. I hadn't realized he did that since Koala's translation only indicated that TSH walked to FFYY "under the lit lanterns" and didn't indicate that it was during the Lantern Festival. I see that the original Mandarin text was much clearer about the connection: he returned on the day of the Lantern Festival to a house that was filled with lanterns and he was even holding a lantern himself.
I don't view those two potential motives (having genuine feelings for FFYY and wanting to hurt TSJ because of how much TSH hated him at that point) as necessarily being mutually exclusive. I definitely think that hurting TSJ was either his entire reason or at least a very significant part of his reason for starting the affair with FFYY that first year in Qing Qiu. But I also think it's no coincidence that he didn't sleep with FFYY until after he thought TSJ was dead. That feels like an intentional hint from Tong Hua that TSH's motives weren't only tied to TSJ. And if he did, at some point, have real romantic feelings for FFYY, that would contribute towards making TSH a more layered, complex, and tragic character - Tong Hua's speciality!
liddi:Still, going forward, he had no qualms in having Yi Ying entrap and marry Jing, and he certainly continued to seduce other women in the meantime. Was it because he had tired of her by then? Or he never truly loved her - and whatever romantic feelings he might have harboured for her paled in comparison with his ambitions and grudges, and at the end of the day, she was relegated to merely another of Jing's possessions that he was determined to snatch away. Certainly his actions down the road affirms that she (and even young Tian) meant little to him and was dispensable when push comes to shove.
The fact that TSH had no qualms about having FFYY entrap and marry TSJ... I feel like that isn't necessarily a clear indication of whether he did or didn't have feelings for FFYY. On the one hand, it shows that he was willing to use her to further his own interests even if it meant that she would marry and potentially even sleep with the person he hated the most. But it also showed that he clearly trusted FFYY to not betray him. And if TSH did have some romantic feelings for FFYY, I feel like her willingness to carry out a plan like that that was designed to benefit TSH in the long run might even strengthen those feelings for her? FFYY seemed to genuinely have feelings for TSH, and she didn't seem to have qualms about using herself to trap TSJ in marriage. And that plan didn't seem to make FFYY question whether TSH's feelings for her were genuine.
It's ironic that what TSH desperately wanted and needed was someone who would be on entirely on his side, who thought he was better than TSJ and would always choose him over TSJ, and he had that with FFYY... up until the point where he squandered that relationship through his own actions.
It seems like there could have been a different version of the story where TSH, TSJ, FFYY and XY could have worked together to get past the Grand Madame for a mutually beneficial outcome. If they had been able to come to an agreement together instead of having FFYY force TSJ into marriage, then TSJ could have done something (or pretended to do something) that would be a good enough excuse for him to resign as clan leader and being FFYY's husband, so the engagement could be broken without shaming FFYY. Or maybe TSJ could even fake his own death. Either way, that would have allowed TSH to divorce his own wife and set her free, marry FFYY, and become clan leader. TSJ and FFYY would each get everything they wanted. And TSJ would be free to fulfill his promise (belatedly) to XY. If the price of the exchange would be that TSH agreed to support CX and then XY chose to leave her title behind so she could be with YSQ once CX gained the throne, then it could have been a win-win all around, more or less. It wouldn't have been perfect (at the very least, it would have left some hard feelings between these characters not fully resolved), but it could have saved quite a bit of heartache and pain and would mean that there wouldn't be a parentless Tushan Tian left in Qing Qiu in the end.
I agree that, after TSJ returned, TSH was clearly willing to attempt to seduce other women in further attempts to hurt TSJ and that he didn't seem to care all that much about FFYY's happiness by that point. And when his own neck was at risk, he was clearly very willing to throw her under the bus to save his own neck. And to use her and Tian to get to TSJ. So his own interests, including his ambitions and his grudge against TSJ, were definitely more important to him than any feelings he might have had for FFYY.
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