chase_kayden:
I meant, in general. Not the episodes today.
I had a virtual friend who read the novel and also is watching the drama. That's her interpretation of it after reading it.
in the novel, we never get to see XL perspective or voice, only the epilogue to show how much he heard her
from the beginning he has always listened to what she said, about loneliness, someone to company her at the end. He's the one who she's always had the deepest conversation with , the things she tells Xiang Liu, she's never told TSJ.
That part where he was FFB at her coronation , he smirked - he thought she lied to him about her identity that's why he was mad at her
The underwater kiss when she was a woman " she didnt allow him to give her breath, refusing to kiss" as she said to him "she didnt want him to be part of her dream because he would be a nightmare, she was keeping her boundaries logically"
The mind says one thing " I cannot love him because he's not the right man" but in her heart it already contradicts her.
her Xiyan Grandfather says she can have any man , she says "what about an engaged man (TSJ) , what about the enemy(Xiang Liu)"
she makes poison for him, because he ask and it looks like she's always been forced to do it, but then she starts making extremely elaborate and beautiful poisons , like a woman cooking for her man ._.
You will see later , when she's engaged to Feng Long she sends a msg to him and waits for him . Her actions always speak louder than words.
They say things to each other and then become flippant and changed topic because reality is harsher than a dream