nathsketch:
This is one big tragedy, from beginning to end. I see no happiness whatsoever, too blind in my sunk ship ?
No there is happiness! In the novel, all those scenes in the drama where XL/FFB walks away sadly and slowly with the OST playing? It only happens once in the novel and it's not nearly so dramatic. It's just:
Xiao Yao couldn’t help it and sighed loudly and murmured, “If only you can forever be Fang Feng Bei, that would be so great.” Bei appeared not to have heard her as he set down his wine cup and got up to leave, his form disappearing in the layers of curtains.
And the drama skips over all the mundane fun times that XY has with XL and FFB. The novel mostly summarizes those times, but they're there!
And there are plenty of instances of happiness and joy.
Their swimming race? Unfettered happiness!
Xiang Liu slowly took off his robe and jumped into the water. Xiao Liu swam towards the shore with all his might with Xiang Liu right beside him. The water in the lake was icy cold and Xiao Liu warmed up with each valiant push forward. He could forget everything and return to childhood when it was all so free, so relaxing, so happy. His only goal was to return to shore, so very simple.
After an hour Xiao Liu finally reached shore. Xiang Liu was sitting next to a roaring fire and his clothes were already dried. Xiao Liu climbed on land... Xiang Liu said “You grew up somewhere with a lot of water... swimming brings you unfettered happiness...”
XL appears when XY's lonely, even before the bug transfer.
A white snowflake descended from the sky and Xiao Liu was so surprised and happy, but he quietly tamped down his smile and closed his eyes. Xiang Liu looked down at him from up high. “Stop pretending to be asleep.”
When the bug is transferred to XL? Joy!
Xiao Liu tightly clasped the walnut to his chest and started chanting, summoning the bug in his own body. After some time, Xiao Liu felt his own heart start to beat wildly, and incredibly he felt another heart beating as well. The two hearts were like friends who had not seen each other in a long time, beating wildly in joy to be together. Xiao Liu reached out his hand and pressed it on Xiang Liu’s chest, and it was indeed the sound of Xiang Liu’s heart.
Xiao Liu couldn’t believe it. “The bug is planted into your body? That fast?”
When they have their first underwater date? And after? Happiness!
Xiang Liu grabbed Xiao Liu and sank into the ocean and started swimming away from Five Gods Mountain... Xiang Liu held Xiao Liu’s hand and swam in the silent eerie bottom of the ocean. Every time Xiao Liu ran out of oxygen, Xiang Liu would pass a breath of air to him.
... Xiao Liu stared at everything with wonder and Xiang Liu did not rush him along...
Xiao Liu knew they were being chased by Gao Xing soldiers but never felt in danger. Because Xiang Liu was so calm that it didn’t feel like they were on the run, it felt rather like Xiang Liu was taking him on a stroll through the ocean. They swam for so long underwater but Xiao Liu was really happy and the time didn’t feel long. It wasn’t until they were completely free of the chasing Gao Xing soldiers that Xiang Liu took Xiao Liu up to the surface.
The gold crowned white condor Furball flew over and Xiang Liu carried Xiao Liu and vaulted on its back. They rode the condor back to Qing Shui Town and ... Xiao Liu promptly fell fast asleep.
Xiang Liu... looked down at Xiao Liu in blissful slumber and his hand slowly pressed on his own heart. A smile appeared on the corner of his lips before it swiftly passed.
When XL enjoys XY's poisons? Her heart soars!
Bei ate the final bite and put down his chopstick. He took a sip of wine and casually said, “Not bad.”
Xiao Yao stared at the empty plate and her heart soared. “The only person who can make poisons this tasty in the entire world is me!”
Bei laughed back, “And the only person in the entire world who can appreciate your great “cooking” talents is me!”
So many times when XY feels lonely, XL appears and lifts her spirits:
Xiao Yao smiled – she hated loneliness and never liked walking alone, but life was naturally the journey of an individual and perhaps she was destined to walk her road by herself.
The sound of footsteps reached her and Xiao Yao turned around and saw Fang Feng Bei.
In a split second her heart soared and beat wildly. She had the urge to run away but forced herself to calm down and casually asked, “I didn’t see you at the ceremony.”
...
Fang Feng Bei softly chuckled. “Your personality isn’t all that, no matter how happy you always brace for the pain to come.”
Xiao Yao laughed. “That is why I treasure the happiness right before me, because that is the only thing that is real.”
Fang Feng Bei stopped and asked with a smile. “Princess, want to go find happiness?”
“Why not?”
...
Xiao Yao laughed out loud in joy and turned around and hugged Bei and excitedly exclaimed, “Did you see that? He won! He’s free!”
Bei stared at the slave staggering forward and smiled. “Yes, he won!”
Those are just a handful of moments from the first half of the novel.