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On Double Helix 2 hours ago
Title Double Helix
I can understand YC somewhat, when I was younger (17 I’m now 35) I loved somebody my family didn’t approve of. I ended up going no contact with my siblings for years and almost with my parents until they realized that by trying to separate us, they would end up losing me too.

But I live in a western country where there aren’t that many social expectations when it comes to families. YC has the pressure of all that, being a good son, being a good sibling. He doesn’t want his family to be a pariah, doesnt want to bring shame to the family. Not to mention the entire country being homophobic. Him coming out and choosing to be with another man would make all that even worse, you need to be very strong mentally to get through all that. And for a people pleaser like YC that is practically impossible.

But having said all that, it was LF that had to deal with knowing YC would choose him last always, knowing he just wasn’t ever important enough, knowing he was being abandoned by the one he loved and would give everything for time and time again. It was LF who had to deal with promises and trust being broken. That does change a person fundamentally.

Do I agree with LF’s treatment of YC, no I absolutely don’t, but I do understand some of it. I think if I had abandoned my loved one back then and came back after years and years, he wouldn’t have even given me the time of day. And if he had done I don’t think his behavior would’ve been all accepting of me without anger. I probably would’ve been doing a lot of apologizing, groveling and showing it in my actions I was sincere.

Both characters are stubborn and unwilling to communicate about their issues. Both want each other, but can’t let go of the past. Both are hurt and hurt people, hurt people. I can’t help but see part of their relationship as Sadist/Masochist, Dom/sub. It does explain or give reason why YC decided to go back to LF and decided to stay (until the brother arrived).

Time will tell if they can heal together.

Personally I don’t know how they could heal, I think they both deserve somebody else. LF needs therapy and somebody who will put him first and gives that security. Who will accept the possessiveness and jealousy LF has, who can handle his aggression better. And YC deserves somebody who will treat him gentle, who can accept that for YC the responsibilities towards his family will always have his highest priority.

They both are toxic together, both want and expect different things from the other, either one has to compromise or theyll keep hurting each other.
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Replying to Fariza 2 hours ago
Title Double Helix
No one in this series mentally well 😅😅
Bringing a gun to a conversation is not normal, wanting to shoot a person is not normal, then shooting a person because you are angry (without any physical provocation, so no self defense) is not normal!
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Replying to 15948622 4 days ago
Title The Untamed
Are you sure it’s Chinese ? Maybe from Taiwan, because I believe China has a ban for BL romance…
try Revenged Love (pretty hyped up for good reasons), Desire (Omegaverse), Blue Canvas Of Youthful Days (trigger warning physical abuse by parent), To My Shore (including the special episode), Journey With You (period drama, ongoing), Double Helix (ongoing, remake of A Round Trip to Love), Meet You At The Blossom (period), Kill to Love (period), Sammy’s Children Day (season 2 is supposed to be made this year, apparently season one is only 1/3 of the novel), those were all great to excellent series.

Just don’t expect Thai BL when it comes to the NC scenes, except for maybe Revenged Love because those two did not hold back, I would recommend watching the behind the scenes of that show on YT. The NC are still a bit censored.

I will say, Chinese BL seems to have taken on a challenge for every new series, there is a greater red flag character. Most of these series are either on Viki and/or Gaga. There are so many more series to mention and are still new ones being made, but those I mentioned did stand out to me.
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Replying to 15948622 6 days ago
Title The Untamed
Are you sure it’s Chinese ? Maybe from Taiwan, because I believe China has a ban for BL romance…
It is Chinese BL, it just only gets aired internationally, that way they don’t go through the censorship. Sometimes the series are made between countries, but usually the actors are mostly all Chinese.
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Replying to ShortCircuit 6 days ago
Title The Untamed
Journey With You isn't half-bad. It's a rebirth story, unfinished yet. While not the same emotional hit as TU,…
As somebody who watched FoF, the romance is barely present, yes they added a female lead but after episode 17 she has less and less scenes. I personally think they only added a FL because otherwise it would’ve been a very strong bromance, and would’ve been banned from airing. It’s a very strong Bromance between the two male leads, kind of an enemies to lovers vibe. But I’ve seen people say there are multiple ships in this show, you have the great bromance between the two ML’s, you have a sismance beteeen the FL and 2FL and you have a bromance-ish between the two younger 2ML’s. And then you have the failed romance between ML and FL (they don’t even have a kiss scene). For me I got so annoyed with the FL, because like you I like strong female leads. Thats why I was so glad that her scenes were less and less. It is a very beautiful story, as a Bromance you’ll love it.
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On Sammy's Children's Day 11 days ago
Going to be honest, this series started out really great, loved the moments between the ML’s. But for me it went down hill fast around episode 7, when the support couple was introduced. To many plotholes, to many random storylines start without finishing one first. The whole premise of who killed the Azura dragon (XLY’s boss) and XLY’s sister never gets solved, which personally I thought the series was going to end on. XLY getting arrested and the storyline of the two ML’s just ends there, like seriously? I get they are building on making a season 2, but with it being a CBL there is so much doubt if there is ever going to be another season. Onl1y for You also did this, banking on there being a season 2 and it never happened. Besides that, the cinematography was beautiful, the using of light and colors was well executed throughout the series. I loved both ML’s acting, a lot of micro-expressions, which was needed at certain scenes. I think i would’ve liked it more if, the series was longer, with decent introductions of the support couple, storylines that actually make sense and don’t start random.

Score; 8,5/10
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On Lost You Forever 19 days ago
Title Lost You Forever Spoiler
Im half way through episode 16 and I don’t know if I want to continue. I loved the first 13 or so episodes. But after FL returned to the palace everythihg changed for me. I loved her free in that village with the family she build, in the palace it feels like she is locked up in a golden cage. Not to mention the fact that she just jumps back into being the daughter and sister of the king and cousin. I don’t like how they overwhelmed her with memories, to the point where it felt like she was reliving traumas at every corner. I don’t like how she not even there for like two days and both father and cousin are already pushing her to acknowledge them. Like let the girl breathe.

But what I most of all don’t like is the fact that FL doesnt have any chemistry with her cousin or with Shiqi. FL doesnt seem to love Shiqi even though she is saying she’ll wait 15 years.

The only one I truly like for FL is Xiang Liu. Even though their start was very rough, he willingly changed for her, wants to be better for her. Everybody is scared of him, except for FL who teases and pushes him. Their banter is beautiful and hilarious, they get each other by their shared experiences and trauma. But ever since she went to the palace and he took the love poisoness bug in for her, his scenes seemed to have dwindled drastically. FL clearly loved him otherwise the bug wouldnt have gone to him.

He’s the only character that is exciting to watch. Cousin became to vicious and Shiqi to soft, I just wish he would have a bit more backbone.

So far I’m just keep hoping that FL will chose Xiang Lui, but sadly I’ve already been spoiled by the comment section under viki. I think they could be great and I think XL is the only one who would fit with FL and her messed up passed.

I feel like the writers couldve written an epic love story, an enemies to lovers kind of thing. And they blew it, there were numerous moments already where FL and XL sparkled together, where they shared something special and romantic, what could’ve been them dating. So many chances yet FL never took any of them, I felt like with XL, she truly could be herself, especially after he becomes softer towards her. With the others I always feel like they want her to be a certain way.

I just don’t really know if I should even finish it.

PS: only thing I really need to know is if viewers ever get to see XL in his 9 head serpent form?
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Replying to Frani Apr 22, 2026
Title Blossom Spoiler
Could you tell me when they started dating? 😅
They get together in episode 19 and episode 20 was I believe the wedding. Even after the wedding it’s kind of a slow burn, so be warned.
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On New Life Begins Apr 16, 2026
Im up to episode 4, does the FL ever grow up and be more mature? She is so naive and ignorant, I know it’s probably because of how she was raised, her parents kept her uninformed about everything it seems. I feel so frustrated with her, only thing she can think of is food and leaving. And like I said, I get it, but she isn’t even trying to get along with ML. ML seems to be having the patience of the world with her, but FL doesnt reach out ever. She constantly avoids him. Same with those lessons they are getting, why not use it as an opportunity and a learning experience, it could help her down the road. FL has no idea how good she has it with ML as an husband, especially with the standards of those days. And parts of me gets it, you are forced to marry a complete stranger. Maybe it’s me just being in a different mindset, but I would at least try and get along, be civil with my husband.
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On Si Jin Apr 16, 2026
Title Si Jin
I hate the fact that China is censoring even the slightest passionate kiss, but they have no problem showing the most deprived and inhumane abusive up close, for scenes upon scenes. And they don’t even bother with a trigger warning, I came after Are You The One, but was not prepared to witness that. I’m doubting to even watch it further, I’m half way episode 6.
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Replying to gongyoothirdleg Apr 6, 2026
*would've happened *they had
you can edit your first comment by clicking on those 3 dots on the right side, it should’ve edit in there.
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Replying to Kai Xu Min Mar 31, 2026
Just the same as some, I placed this drama on hold for quite awhile and decided to pick it up back. Aside from…
Yeah I’m at ep 20 and geel the same. Though the brother and the girl with the two brothers, I at least saw there mutual respect and kindness towards each other. With the ML and FL it feels more one sided.
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On Fight for Love Mar 31, 2026
I’m just halfway through episode 20, and the FL is kind of pissing me off. At this point I absolutely believe ML fell head over heels in love with FL, his emotions were sometimes so painful to see, but with this FL I don’t really see it. She at times is so stiff, maybe it’s the chemistry between FL and ML that I find lacking, maybe it’s because I feel only the ML is really trying. I’m only half way and I’m wondering what more is coming, I’m not looking forwards seeing 20 episodes of this FL trying to push the ML away and her being a bit selfish towards ML. Hopefully this break up period will be short, because I can’t stand couples who do this (speaking for in series).
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On For My Dearest Feb 16, 2026
Finished it, it was okay. At some point it gets a bit boring. Wish the FL would actually open her mouth during kissing or show some kind of enthusiasm while kissing the ML. Most of the time she had those lips locket and looked like she didn’t want to be kissed at all, it’s fine during the moments where she actually doesnt want to be kissed. But at some point they are kissing each other for consent, etc, and she is still giving off that she doesn’t want to be kissed. It made it hard to watch and it didn’t make the love between the two characters convincing at all.
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On Divorce Mission Feb 3, 2026
Honesyly I hated the ending of this one. FL was selfish and only cared for herself and her “mission” meanwhile ML was devoted to her. He went through a lot to make her happy, he hurt himself for her time and time again. To the point of actually dying. FL couldve been happy in the other world, so many people liked her, and after SFL was dealt with, she could’ve lived happily, carefree with ML. Instead she died or faked her death, ML died because of that and left his mother alone. So FL gets her mother back but ML goes to a world where he has and knows absolutely nobody except FL. I helt out hope that FL realizing she actually loved ML, she would change her mind and stay there. For me they kind of ruined the series with those last 2 episodes.
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On To My Shore Jan 17, 2026
Title To My Shore
[Jan.17.26]

To My Shore's Director new RedNote update!

- The artist have been working non-stop to clear their schedule, to the point where their eyes are bloodshot, just to have time to come out for this shoot. To shake off sasaeng (ss) followers, they took a "red-eye" flight, heading to the airport at 2:30 AM, but they were still followed!

The entire team of over 20 people has been moving between locations non-stop, carrying large bags, small bags, and equipment.

Everywhere we go, we are followed. This has resulted in us being unable to complete the filming. If we truly have no way to finish this shoot, we would like to apologize in advance.
At the same time, we sincerely request that everyone across all platforms refrain from paying attention to or spreading any photos and videos of us abroad! I want to ask for the help of all our fan friends; we very much hope to complete this shoot, so we hope everyone will join us in protecting the artist and the work.

🔗http://xhslink.com/o/7ovdI4O8nlE

So if we don’t get the those extra episodes, we can all blame those crazy sasaengs.
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Replying to Arthenha Jan 7, 2026
Title ABO Desire
I get it, I just Fast Forward when I rewatch, they don’t have many scenes.
😉
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Replying to fangyuan XINGQIU Jan 2, 2026
Title ABO Desire
Is there a version with out second cp scenes ? i don't want to be interruppted by them 😂
I get it, I just Fast Forward when I rewatch, they don’t have many scenes.
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Replying to Momo Dec 30, 2025
Title To My Shore
Yun Qi or Fan Xiao 🤔
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On To My Shore Dec 15, 2025
Title To My Shore
Just wondering, how many people actually listened to the warning others gave before this series started airing, those who read the novel and said this series is not for the faint of hearts. Did you took a moment to think maybe I shouldn’t start this series?
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