asphyxia

ep29 is reconcile , ill get rid of the toxicity in my heart and watch the show with an open mind, im tired 😭

😭 lord if he actively watches her type “ill explain everything” and doesn’t respond who would see that and decide it’s within his will to see her

on bilibili i only saw chinese versions, idk if other platforms would have it since it's iqiyi vip content

yk how he sent qinshiyue to work at the same company as her? it's seen as a romantic gesture like oo i wanna see you every day but they both act without informing each other and they keep each other on thin ice. it wasn't just lies when she said that qinshiyue did make her jealous at one point when she saw them together. if any mistake can result in a misunderstanding, the other side should be there to listen. she approached him for an interview and didn't throw herself on him just to get it. he was already captivated by her talent prior to that. every single second they spent on dates were just thrown in the trash once he decided "she stuck with me as a revenge tactic" even though they spend so much time together. he chose to ignore all of the memories just for the conclusion of "yep she likes ye xingzhou" after hearing how shitty of a person he was from the driver guy, and witnessing it himself at that hotpot restaurant

c*ck-block is vulgar -- now it's become slang for "preventing something from doing anything". ep28 ends with qinshiyue telling him "shouldnt the guy take the initiative sometimes?" and his eyes light up as if he's arrived upon a revelation. if he blocks her on wechat and refuses to see her how tf does she have an opportunity to come clean, in the couch scene she shouldnt always avoid the elephant in the room but she didnt ghost him (meaning completely ignoring messages)

atm she's tryna make her intentions clear and he's cockblocking her from all sides and in all ways possible, he has every right to feel hurt but he jumped to the conclusion that "oh it must be for revenge" and didn't try to give a second thought to it or hold on hope that her explanation would ease the pain at least somewhat

during a livestream on november 10th, each cast member (wxy zlh bl lxn) all made up dares to do when the drama broke 10k heat index. bailu needs to dance to the song 好运来 at the entrance of her hotel, wang xingyue mentioned skydiving iirc, liu xiening will jump into a pool, i can't remember what zlh said

dark horse and le'an are competing within the same industry so if he went "im not working with financial introduce anymore" does he expect shuyi to give up her job? ofc she shouldnt, if he cuts off business connections she's obviously just gonna interview another representative for another company

also theres no way they walked past each other fully blind wtf

but like the show is so infuriating that i need to quell my anger by continuing to watch how they redeem shitty characters :)

the zz arc was definitely shortened from original novel plot, their true happy arc was like one episode 🫠

cave scene is potentially ep32 and "i want you" scene is potentially ep35, you didnt hear it from me tho

i adore any drama that has BL in it regardless of script (ex The Legends, even though plot seemed a bit dragged out it was watchable and id rewatch it w/o hesitation) but OFL has changed my entire view. im willing to sit through the first watch just to not miss the ending, but 10/10 cast on a shit script is like painting a trash bag gold. it's still trash. the "angsty" moments are meant to make you frustrated like i so wish they were together, but my frustration is like "god damn how do grown adults have such low EQ". i love to rant about how much i appreciate a drama, but OFL is an exception. i could type a full 5 page essay about how shit the script is <3

"it turns out im not that special to you" my girl shuyi is literally working on her career, she posted an interactive website for yiyang not a romantic confession to him, how does a 27 year old ceo act so childish? ik in romance dramas it may appeal to make powerful figures seem helpless in love (classic rich guy trope) but he's so lost he might end up on mars in a week.

yea i feel captivated by every second of the story, although many were impatient during zz arc saying "ugh when can it be over i want weining"

also shiyan depresses himself every time she posts on wechat moments (oh how dare she have a life) while ignoring messages. even a 10/10 cast cannot save this god awful script

qinshiyue x yuyou development is shit, he tells her theyre not fit and it's not appropriate mainly bc of the teacher-student relation, then she gets a booboo and all fo a sudden he cares?? guanji x ruoshan is so toxic cause the minute she's with another guy (not even romantically) he tries to pull her away. he was offended when she said "you only see me as a toy to possess" but actions speak louder than words. doesn't matter that he truly loves her if his jealousy makes him possessive. shuyi x shiyan just makes me speechless. he was so admanat about hearing her confess her true reasons for approaching him, then jumps to that conclusion as if all his hope was diminished within one second. he mentally prepared himself for all types of possibilities then doesnt even give her a chance to say anything even though he's like "oh no matter what i still love her". in response to his hot-cold behavior shiyi will obviously not realize when or why she has to distance herself from other men. she doesnt see it romantically even if shiyan is fuming with jealousy. they fuel each other's toxicity essentially

i remember when drama broke 9900 heat index people worried it couldn’t break 10000 since the rate slowed down, but so glad the drama hit such an important milestone ♥️

where do I see new schedule

the spinning cameras and the light peering through the window 🤣dw cause complaints are common, many people find it odd