I am getting such a kick out of the fact that I suddenly like Ray now and more people seem to hate him, haha.
Like idk I was impressed with how honest he was this ep. Yeah he's fucked up but good for you for using your words for once and not being an angry shit at everyone.
Maybe it's just that I'm so happy the RayMew stupidity is finally over, haha. And that my Mew is back, a little less prone to being judgmental and maybe a little less naive, but still my old, communicative, boundary setting Mew. I missed him a bit.
Also really impressed by the acting of both Book and Khao in their last scene together. For once Ray wasn't looking at Mew like someone to be worshipped, and Mew was so easy and relaxed with Ray knowing that bit was all over. Good for them.
The only couple I would really love to see together is NickBoston, which might not happen due to their story development.…
Okay I can't believe I am going to do this but...I get Ray here.
Even I have to admit that it was clear all episode he was pretty much done with the whole Mew loving thing, but he was also fighting it pretty hard because how is it that the love of his life (or so he thought) suddenly isn't after just a few short months of knowing someone else (yes he ranted at Mew about this very thing but it also applies to him)? And I think a part of him was worried he'd lose Mew completely if he let him go because he pushed so damn hard for what he had, how could he just turn back and say no it's not right? He knows Mew doesn't want him but he pushed for this so he feels he has to keep pushing even if he no longer wants it either. And I'm very glad that both Mew and Sand called him out on his bullshit, even if it was gentle. And he might not feel particularly sorry lol but he does know it was wrong. He seemed sorrier with Sand which again, makes some sense because Sand is actually the basket his emotional eggs are invested in.
I think that it would have been harder had Mew actually cared about him, but the truth was he never did and never would. So in the end Mew let him off because it didn't actually cause him any harm. And Sand let him off because he was also actively and willfully participating, haha. It wasn't like Sand was gonna stop sleeping with him.
I like Top and Mew and I will not apologize for it. They really started doing it for me after episode 6 and now I want them to be endgame. I think Boeing will be a roadblock but I don't think that it'll be that big, personally.
And I root for Boston and Nick always. Have since the beginning, will always. I'm in too deep to stop now.
I feel this in my soul lol. I am terribly worried it's still going to be about Mew somehow and if it is I'm going…
I am just tired of the same old merry go round. It's always Ray running back to Mew and okay I know that's realistic but it's also both annoying and kind of boring.
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Like idk I was impressed with how honest he was this ep. Yeah he's fucked up but good for you for using your words for once and not being an angry shit at everyone.
Maybe it's just that I'm so happy the RayMew stupidity is finally over, haha. And that my Mew is back, a little less prone to being judgmental and maybe a little less naive, but still my old, communicative, boundary setting Mew. I missed him a bit.
Also really impressed by the acting of both Book and Khao in their last scene together. For once Ray wasn't looking at Mew like someone to be worshipped, and Mew was so easy and relaxed with Ray knowing that bit was all over. Good for them.
Even I have to admit that it was clear all episode he was pretty much done with the whole Mew loving thing, but he was also fighting it pretty hard because how is it that the love of his life (or so he thought) suddenly isn't after just a few short months of knowing someone else (yes he ranted at Mew about this very thing but it also applies to him)? And I think a part of him was worried he'd lose Mew completely if he let him go because he pushed so damn hard for what he had, how could he just turn back and say no it's not right? He knows Mew doesn't want him but he pushed for this so he feels he has to keep pushing even if he no longer wants it either. And I'm very glad that both Mew and Sand called him out on his bullshit, even if it was gentle. And he might not feel particularly sorry lol but he does know it was wrong. He seemed sorrier with Sand which again, makes some sense because Sand is actually the basket his emotional eggs are invested in.
I think that it would have been harder had Mew actually cared about him, but the truth was he never did and never would. So in the end Mew let him off because it didn't actually cause him any harm. And Sand let him off because he was also actively and willfully participating, haha. It wasn't like Sand was gonna stop sleeping with him.
I like Top and Mew and I will not apologize for it. They really started doing it for me after episode 6 and now I want them to be endgame. I think Boeing will be a roadblock but I don't think that it'll be that big, personally.
And I root for Boston and Nick always. Have since the beginning, will always. I'm in too deep to stop now.
I have never been so happy to be wrong ever.
I am terribly worried it's still going to be about Mew somehow and if it is I'm going to be so tired.
I just know Ray's gonna do something man. If he doesn't I will come back and admit to my wrongs but I am confident I won't have to.
I do not trust that man. Not at all.