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Actually imo in series also they didn't got their happy ending. Lufeng became a person who lost his spark. He has now love of his life beside him but his eyes were so sad. It's like he is happy but he is grieving the time he lost. The school days lufeng can never come back. It's gone. It scarred him for life. About anger issues yes realistically he can't make his partner happy but anger issues can be treated. My concern was more on bipolar disorder, constant on and off situation of yichen badly affected his mental health. And both yichen and lufeng has to live with it. There is no cure. On the other hand, yichen also didn't got the carefree lufeng back because of whatever reasons but he never chose lufeng. He avoided and run away. And yichen has also the problem idk how can I trust a person who run away the second something happens.

Lufeng miss the old times and want to go back and understand what happiness looks like because he don't know what is happiness now. He can now make new memories with yichen but then lufeng will always be in fear because of his disease. Yichen now has to deal with someone to whom he needs to reassure every time. Both of them needs to heal. In series, although they got together but the cost was heavy and damage was already done. So ik series also it's a very bittersweet ending. More of tragic ending for me because I don't think they can be happy now. Both are broken beyond repair.

I actually agree with what you said. This is the first drama that u hate both lufeng and yichen but u understand them as well. U don't want their happy ending but u want the happy ending because of how much the characters has suffered. U want to drop the drama but can't because story is bad but is very engaging surprisingly. It's very hard to have one opinion about the characters and drama itself.

U know that whatever happened in ep9 was not at all justified even with bipolar disorder. As a person who hate any trope with romanticising of rape and it's justification. I think even bipolar disorder can't make me understand that part.

Although I wish lufeng and yichen happy life. I hope this kind of love never finds me. This drama was pure torture and it was just wayyyy tooooo toxic for me. I don't think anyone can ever produce a toxic black flag like lufeng.

Slice of Life is not my cup of tea. But after netflix release. I am here at ep3. Ep1 made me cry because that's how much relatable it is..i was sobbing hard just like hongdou. Ep2 yes as a person who feels naturally relaxed and sense of healing i relate that with hongdou. She seems to be much smiling in village...that's how a person grieving for their loved ones and accepting the truth feels like. It's like a slow process. I am amazed that how much this is relatable to me. Feels like a part of my soul is also healing along with hongdou.

I truly don't want to drop this drama. But again slice of life has never worked out for me. So fingers crossed 🤞

He is a talented person. I mean it would have taken so much effort for him to ruin head2 head and making me feel nothing about SeaKeen when they are one of my fav cp.

After watching double helix this drama is kinda healing. The trauma I got from that drama is make up by this drama.

It's a comforting drama for me. But even I started it today. So it's early to say. I am not at the point of chemistry but so far acting is good. U can watch if u like little bit slow paced drama.

I just started this drama. Gives me the nostalgia. Just pure childhood vibes. It throws me back to the time of my summer holidays. When I was sixteen. All that ice cream excitement, going out with friends, just sitting at the shade in the sunlight enjoying watermelon and litchis just like ko enjoying oranges from his neighbourhood. The times when life was slow and just normal summers of cycling around, playing and roaming around with friends.

The way the drama shows Ko to be carefree yet coming of the age of seriousness. Pure sixteen year old teen vibes. When you are inexperienced in love and unsure what career path u want to take. But all u want that time is ur friends to be together. Not parting with sections.

The way they portrayed Ko as someone proud and yet kind and naughty yet so lovable and innocent is how I also see myself as a teen during flashbacks.

The way Ko is hesitant to include Ko 2 to become his friend. But looks like Ko2 is already attracted to Ko since the first time he saw. Ko2 looks like someone who wants to be close to Ko starting from friends but he knew at starting Ko is not ready to. And tbh Ko2 don't know how to approach a person. He was all proudy and little bit rude while talking to Ko for the first time but can I blame him? He is just a teenager like us in the past.

So far I am loving this drama. Now Ko and Ko2 rooms can be seen across. I think it's time for Ko to experience his first love..

And the colour grading is so good.

I truly want to understand the hatred towards yichen's brother. Like really. So whatever i am going to say is not disagreement but a pov from a viewer.

1. When yichen's brother hid message from yichen. That's wrong and the fact that yichen was so unhappy about that..he waited for lufeng without knowing that lufeng msged him to...that he will come back. I get it that this story was set up in 1990-2000 in novel so it makes sense kinda for his brother to hide. But why he never confessed this to yichen later??? Is the only thing I hate about him. It's like he did something and he forgot. For the sake of "protecting".

2. When yichen's brother came into relationship with qin lang. His feelings were sorted. But idk about his earlier phase. The story never addressed the point that yichen's brother was aware of the fact that he is gay from the start. Or did he knew after falling for qin lang or its just a straight guy turned into gay because his love is a man trope? I am confused on that part.
If he was aware that he is gay from the start then whatever he did to yichen was soo wrong. But if not then in later stage after coming in relationship with qin lang I don't see him homophobic or a person who was against his brother being gay.

3. I don't blame him spending time with qin lang in new year. Because he also deserve happiness. Ig he supported his brother to go and meet lufeng during new year. So i don't see him a person who didn't considered his brother's feeling that time.

4. There was a phase when both couple were having best time of their life after them both having relationship. So it was not that yichen's brother hate lufeng.

5. After office rape when lufeng came to his house..who would not be angry if your brother was being raped? Would you ever want that person to meet your brother? No right? And yichen himself didn't wanted to meet him. Which was valid. Lufeng's bipolar disorder was not known to others and even if it was known rape is a heinous crime. So his brother did right in my opinion.

6. During confrontation with mother. He kept telling lufeng to go because he was concerned that the way things are going is not good and his mother needs to be calm down to be able to understand. So from a family pov he did correct.

7. When his relationship with qin lang surfaced I'm front of his mother. He never denied. So he is correct.

8. When yichen was saying to break up. And when lufeng was on the way to talk about the same that why he is the only one who is getting break up. Why not them and let's go and talk. That time he was wrong very wrong. The fact that he put the blame to lufeng for his mother's condition entirely was wrong. Plus him not understanding his brother's pain was also wrong. Him not able to understand that lufeng and yichen is also the same like them is wrong. Him provoking lufeng when qin lang told to keep his call and talk about this later was wrong. I get that yichen's brother family was in hospital so he was highly emotional that time and didn't understood the consequences but he was wrong.

9. When yichen's brother came back. He did asked yichen about his relationship with lufeng it was good. But then he said that he should not go to lufeng that was wrong. Because he still blame his mother's situation entirely on lufeng which is wrong. But his point was valid that lufeng confrontation did caused his mother's health to detoriate and his leg thing. For him this was a deal breaker for any kind of relationship. And he told yichen this because he thought after this much no one would ever go back to lufeng. But yes he didn't asked if yichen still loved lufeng. And the way they had to part ways.

10. Him taking away yichen from lufeng. Suppose u got to know that ur brother was being raped and tortured and prisoned to the point of death. Why would anyone as a family support this kind of person to be together with his brother? He was correct that time.

11. After yichen took decision that he want to be with lufeng firmly. Yichen's brother never stopped him instead supported his decisions.

So idk from where this hatred is coming. To me he is not good but he is not bad as well.

But i really want to understand why everyone hate him to the core.

Plus for me second cp don't even matter. This is the story of yichen and lufeng so when their screen time came i didn't paid any attention.

Also do u know any drama that is equally engaging and have character depth like this? Because mostly I have exhausted all the list. I am wanting to watch something but not able to since when double helix has started airing. Nothing feels as good as this.

Hmm. But lot of people who make bl are straight as well. Plus it's ayden that i am wanting to see. His acting touched me.whether he goes seprate ways of together as long as i am seeing him in future works that is ok with me.

Ikr. That's why the whole trope of "he fell first and he fell harder" is scary. The person who loves more suffers the most. That person gives more effort, more sacrifices and more pain whenever separation happens.

It hurted me so much when I saw lufeng just sitting in hospital wheelchair. Lost his spark and just remembering his xiao chen. All he life he just wanted his xiao chen beside him. Only that one person who always pushed him so hard. Always disappeared.

I want special ep for this seeing their happy life.

Why? Are they not going to do any projects together anymore?

Me too. The way they used to be together has just struck in my head. They were each other's world that time. So much warmth and I can actually not forget the way lufeng feng smiled and looked at yichen during that time....so innocent.

Ayden's acting was top notch.

I am still not ready to part with this drama. Although flawed this drama is perfect in its own way. I will miss Ayden's acting till his future project.

How china always produces a drama that stays with u either in traumatic way or in healthier way. This drama is my fav drama of the year.

I hope listening to "My love" and "Love songs that nobody cares about" and rewatching their sweet moments heal me...

Also u are not alone. I was also the victim of depression and constant panic attacks. Yichen was there for lufeng. But in my case people used to make fun of me that i am acting.There were days when I just wanted to die and tried lot of ways....I had to go through treatment and medicine. But more than that my body stopped working it's normal functioning. I didn't felt like getting up. Always feeling empty and drained no matter how much i sleep. After lot of care and treatment i surpassed that stage. But yeah whenever I still think about that phase of my life I feel like my whole body is trembling to harm myself...i still have to control myself a lot.

Much love and support to u. I hope u get better.
Also i am so grateful that people are coming out with their issues. Earlier mental health was regarded as nothing and going or seeking help means u are mad...glad that our generation and upcoming generation is healing this thing. We genz are glad that we are able to get series like this now in our times and prioritise our mental health as well. Because in our previous generation just suffered with no one to understand and ultimately most of them just took their life...

In drama as well they showed this part. Where yichen dreamt of lufeng commiting suicide if he didn't get cured or not go after treatment.

Although i don't know how it feels but ig these kind of situation requires so much love from family...

It's tragic....I wish no one gets separated from their love because of society.

I love this drama adaptation more. Novel lufeng was crazy....i can't imagine happy ending of him. Drama made some serious changes for which i am grateful. Because it helped me love lufeng even a bit..

Anyways it's very hard to live with a person who has bipolar disorder. I don't know how it works and what cause this. But definitely it's not easy for both the patient and their family.

It's hard to understand if their actions are coming out of aggression or it actually is coming from mental problems. Getting diagnosed is hard and for patient to accept the truth also is hard.
It need constant effort from patient, family, doctors to be understand the root cause, heal, how and what to do when episode triggers. It's painful. Idk if bipolar disorder can be cured or not. But it's definitely not an easy task.

Also the way in series, doctor stopped yichen to go towards lufeng when he was having episode, when lufeng was dying to see his xiao chen, when he was just sitting in the garden and remembering his xiao chen...if i as s viewer got so much pain by watching i can't imagine about yichen or the people who actually see their loved ones like this.....

This series dealt a lot of issues homophobia, bipolar disorder, deep love causing deep pain due to society, societal pressure of marrying to a women when u are gay, rape, torture and unsupportive parents, on and off situation tiredness from ur partner....to be able to write and show this much in 12 ep series must be hard.

I just have one doubt. Lufeng bipolar disorder came because of yichen constant on and off situation with him? Because no matter what his relationship with yichen was sooo good in school days. I guess their constant separation caused this.

Plus, i just wish nothing but them a happy life ahead in fictional world. Making good and happy memories only. Staying together for a lifetime. Just give me extra or special ep for that. Because after these much torture we deserve one. I just want to see lufeng smiling and giving the lovely eyes to yichen like in school days to heal me. Because even now in ep12 till the end I was missing that.

Watching and rewatching ep1-2 and 11-12 for therapy