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After watching double helix this drama is kinda healing. The trauma I got from that drama is make up by this drama.

It's a comforting drama for me. But even I started it today. So it's early to say. I am not at the point of chemistry but so far acting is good. U can watch if u like little bit slow paced drama.

I just started this drama. Gives me the nostalgia. Just pure childhood vibes. It throws me back to the time of my summer holidays. When I was sixteen. All that ice cream excitement, going out with friends, just sitting at the shade in the sunlight enjoying watermelon and litchis just like ko enjoying oranges from his neighbourhood. The times when life was slow and just normal summers of cycling around, playing and roaming around with friends.

The way the drama shows Ko to be carefree yet coming of the age of seriousness. Pure sixteen year old teen vibes. When you are inexperienced in love and unsure what career path u want to take. But all u want that time is ur friends to be together. Not parting with sections.

The way they portrayed Ko as someone proud and yet kind and naughty yet so lovable and innocent is how I also see myself as a teen during flashbacks.

The way Ko is hesitant to include Ko 2 to become his friend. But looks like Ko2 is already attracted to Ko since the first time he saw. Ko2 looks like someone who wants to be close to Ko starting from friends but he knew at starting Ko is not ready to. And tbh Ko2 don't know how to approach a person. He was all proudy and little bit rude while talking to Ko for the first time but can I blame him? He is just a teenager like us in the past.

So far I am loving this drama. Now Ko and Ko2 rooms can be seen across. I think it's time for Ko to experience his first love..

And the colour grading is so good.

I truly want to understand the hatred towards yichen's brother. Like really. So whatever i am going to say is not disagreement but a pov from a viewer.

1. When yichen's brother hid message from yichen. That's wrong and the fact that yichen was so unhappy about that..he waited for lufeng without knowing that lufeng msged him to...that he will come back. I get it that this story was set up in 1990-2000 in novel so it makes sense kinda for his brother to hide. But why he never confessed this to yichen later??? Is the only thing I hate about him. It's like he did something and he forgot. For the sake of "protecting".

2. When yichen's brother came into relationship with qin lang. His feelings were sorted. But idk about his earlier phase. The story never addressed the point that yichen's brother was aware of the fact that he is gay from the start. Or did he knew after falling for qin lang or its just a straight guy turned into gay because his love is a man trope? I am confused on that part.
If he was aware that he is gay from the start then whatever he did to yichen was soo wrong. But if not then in later stage after coming in relationship with qin lang I don't see him homophobic or a person who was against his brother being gay.

3. I don't blame him spending time with qin lang in new year. Because he also deserve happiness. Ig he supported his brother to go and meet lufeng during new year. So i don't see him a person who didn't considered his brother's feeling that time.

4. There was a phase when both couple were having best time of their life after them both having relationship. So it was not that yichen's brother hate lufeng.

5. After office rape when lufeng came to his house..who would not be angry if your brother was being raped? Would you ever want that person to meet your brother? No right? And yichen himself didn't wanted to meet him. Which was valid. Lufeng's bipolar disorder was not known to others and even if it was known rape is a heinous crime. So his brother did right in my opinion.

6. During confrontation with mother. He kept telling lufeng to go because he was concerned that the way things are going is not good and his mother needs to be calm down to be able to understand. So from a family pov he did correct.

7. When his relationship with qin lang surfaced I'm front of his mother. He never denied. So he is correct.

8. When yichen was saying to break up. And when lufeng was on the way to talk about the same that why he is the only one who is getting break up. Why not them and let's go and talk. That time he was wrong very wrong. The fact that he put the blame to lufeng for his mother's condition entirely was wrong. Plus him not understanding his brother's pain was also wrong. Him not able to understand that lufeng and yichen is also the same like them is wrong. Him provoking lufeng when qin lang told to keep his call and talk about this later was wrong. I get that yichen's brother family was in hospital so he was highly emotional that time and didn't understood the consequences but he was wrong.

9. When yichen's brother came back. He did asked yichen about his relationship with lufeng it was good. But then he said that he should not go to lufeng that was wrong. Because he still blame his mother's situation entirely on lufeng which is wrong. But his point was valid that lufeng confrontation did caused his mother's health to detoriate and his leg thing. For him this was a deal breaker for any kind of relationship. And he told yichen this because he thought after this much no one would ever go back to lufeng. But yes he didn't asked if yichen still loved lufeng. And the way they had to part ways.

10. Him taking away yichen from lufeng. Suppose u got to know that ur brother was being raped and tortured and prisoned to the point of death. Why would anyone as a family support this kind of person to be together with his brother? He was correct that time.

11. After yichen took decision that he want to be with lufeng firmly. Yichen's brother never stopped him instead supported his decisions.

So idk from where this hatred is coming. To me he is not good but he is not bad as well.

But i really want to understand why everyone hate him to the core.

Plus for me second cp don't even matter. This is the story of yichen and lufeng so when their screen time came i didn't paid any attention.

Also do u know any drama that is equally engaging and have character depth like this? Because mostly I have exhausted all the list. I am wanting to watch something but not able to since when double helix has started airing. Nothing feels as good as this.

Hmm. But lot of people who make bl are straight as well. Plus it's ayden that i am wanting to see. His acting touched me.whether he goes seprate ways of together as long as i am seeing him in future works that is ok with me.

Ikr. That's why the whole trope of "he fell first and he fell harder" is scary. The person who loves more suffers the most. That person gives more effort, more sacrifices and more pain whenever separation happens.

It hurted me so much when I saw lufeng just sitting in hospital wheelchair. Lost his spark and just remembering his xiao chen. All he life he just wanted his xiao chen beside him. Only that one person who always pushed him so hard. Always disappeared.

I want special ep for this seeing their happy life.

Why? Are they not going to do any projects together anymore?

Me too. The way they used to be together has just struck in my head. They were each other's world that time. So much warmth and I can actually not forget the way lufeng feng smiled and looked at yichen during that time....so innocent.

Ayden's acting was top notch.

I am still not ready to part with this drama. Although flawed this drama is perfect in its own way. I will miss Ayden's acting till his future project.

How china always produces a drama that stays with u either in traumatic way or in healthier way. This drama is my fav drama of the year.

I hope listening to "My love" and "Love songs that nobody cares about" and rewatching their sweet moments heal me...

Also u are not alone. I was also the victim of depression and constant panic attacks. Yichen was there for lufeng. But in my case people used to make fun of me that i am acting.There were days when I just wanted to die and tried lot of ways....I had to go through treatment and medicine. But more than that my body stopped working it's normal functioning. I didn't felt like getting up. Always feeling empty and drained no matter how much i sleep. After lot of care and treatment i surpassed that stage. But yeah whenever I still think about that phase of my life I feel like my whole body is trembling to harm myself...i still have to control myself a lot.

Much love and support to u. I hope u get better.
Also i am so grateful that people are coming out with their issues. Earlier mental health was regarded as nothing and going or seeking help means u are mad...glad that our generation and upcoming generation is healing this thing. We genz are glad that we are able to get series like this now in our times and prioritise our mental health as well. Because in our previous generation just suffered with no one to understand and ultimately most of them just took their life...

In drama as well they showed this part. Where yichen dreamt of lufeng commiting suicide if he didn't get cured or not go after treatment.

Although i don't know how it feels but ig these kind of situation requires so much love from family...

It's tragic....I wish no one gets separated from their love because of society.

I love this drama adaptation more. Novel lufeng was crazy....i can't imagine happy ending of him. Drama made some serious changes for which i am grateful. Because it helped me love lufeng even a bit..

Anyways it's very hard to live with a person who has bipolar disorder. I don't know how it works and what cause this. But definitely it's not easy for both the patient and their family.

It's hard to understand if their actions are coming out of aggression or it actually is coming from mental problems. Getting diagnosed is hard and for patient to accept the truth also is hard.
It need constant effort from patient, family, doctors to be understand the root cause, heal, how and what to do when episode triggers. It's painful. Idk if bipolar disorder can be cured or not. But it's definitely not an easy task.

Also the way in series, doctor stopped yichen to go towards lufeng when he was having episode, when lufeng was dying to see his xiao chen, when he was just sitting in the garden and remembering his xiao chen...if i as s viewer got so much pain by watching i can't imagine about yichen or the people who actually see their loved ones like this.....

This series dealt a lot of issues homophobia, bipolar disorder, deep love causing deep pain due to society, societal pressure of marrying to a women when u are gay, rape, torture and unsupportive parents, on and off situation tiredness from ur partner....to be able to write and show this much in 12 ep series must be hard.

I just have one doubt. Lufeng bipolar disorder came because of yichen constant on and off situation with him? Because no matter what his relationship with yichen was sooo good in school days. I guess their constant separation caused this.

Plus, i just wish nothing but them a happy life ahead in fictional world. Making good and happy memories only. Staying together for a lifetime. Just give me extra or special ep for that. Because after these much torture we deserve one. I just want to see lufeng smiling and giving the lovely eyes to yichen like in school days to heal me. Because even now in ep12 till the end I was missing that.

Watching and rewatching ep1-2 and 11-12 for therapy

I guess he was trying to control his obsession and in order to avoid hurting yichen. He just bite his own hand to control it.

I am crying.....love can really make a person bipolar and it can cure it as well. The way I was crying ugly because of lufeng....the way he showed restraint. He realised his sickness and the way he was scared that yichen will leave him again. It's all about lufeng in my head. This story never existed if lufeng never loved yichen this much.

The way it was hurting lufeng and yichen both during treatment. I was hurting too as an audience. The way after release from hospital lufeng said "i wanted to give u happiest smile in the world.but i don't know how happiness looks like" my heart wrenched. The way yichen also took effort to dress up like school days, plugging one earphone in his ear and other in lufeng like school days, the way lufeng was missing yichen like crazy during his treatment, the way yichen reassured him that he will not leave him and give him kisses.

When yichen asked " what u want to do most rn" and lufeng ans " i want to go back to past" and the way yichen took him to school and met fortune teller....their love found the round trip. It came to the same point after circling...trust me I cried a lot..... because as a viewer i got attached and I was constantly seeking the good lovey dovey vibes of ep1 and 2. And lufeng and yichen missed those moments exactly and want to go again and again there is something that proves how much they loved each other during that time.

Lufeng looked like he is soo unhappy and he is dying each second despite yichen being with him after hospital release. I was not able to see him sad...but yichen's video recording gesture made him feel happy. The way this time lufeng prioritised his yichen's wish to be in top I loved it. The way he just said I wish u were small so that I can take u everywhere with me and yichen said the same...showed they are still obsessed with each other but now in healthier way....

The way story got changed from novel about bipolar disorder from novel and they seek treatment is life changing.....

I get it why ayden said his fav ep is 11 and 12...and trust me for me as a viewer after ep1-2, ep 11-12 is the best.

Thank you all the crew members, ayden and si tong to give this story to us...

Now who all want to hate here...can hate...go ahead.

Omg the words that user used. It's totally unacceptable. That user asked for ans while sharing opinion and when we responded. This is how a person reply back if u don't have a valid point to support ur point? Did that user forgot that this is no instagram? And here while sharing opinion we should use a proper language. Calling names, using abusive language?

Hypocrisy at its limit. Let it be. If a person don't know how to respect a person's privacy and what counts as crossing boundaries then that person need proper schooling. As simple as that.