I put off watching this for a while because…

I put off watching this for a while because I was worried they would incorrectly represent an autistic person, but this was actually really good. The episode was heartwarming and I love how the ML was nice to her and accepting of her "quirks" even before he knew she was autistic and he didn't change how he treated her after he found out. Also, I loved when he told her it was ok to talk about whales with him, I would be so happy if someone told me it was ok to talk about my special interests/hyperfixations with them. The case was interesting and I loved the twist at the end. The music, plot, and characters are all fantastic and fun to watch.

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Introduction to Characters

I enjoyed this first episode for demonstrating the beginnings of Young Woo and how she becomes an attorney. This first episode gives us scenes about her home life growing up, the prejudice she faces at work, and her capabilities of being an amazing attorney. She is not "ordinary" to the other characters and tbh she isn't! She pushes to find the truth, is very observant of her surroundings, and always tries to do what's right by her clients. The others seem to be stuck looking at what's already there, where Young Woo is set on looking beyond. People treat her like a kid or see her as stupid at times and this is upsetting. I'm glad that Young Woo has a best friend (Ra Mi) who understands her and doesn't treat her as lesser than. I'm really enjoying this show and look forward to future episodes.

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The hype is real

Just basing from the first four episodes, the drama already has so much potential with the theme. The casting is amazing, and I especially love the choices for the female and male lead (who is such a green flag by the way). While it could be said that there were some instances of exaggeration and pacing issues, it still remained as a positive and honest depiction of how autism really is for many who are on the spectrum. Another thing I like about this drama is the honesty. Instead of depicting her as some sort of detached white male savant, her intelligence seems very realistic and according to how human intelligence really does function in real life, unlike some certain depictions of autism in western media. In other words, she's smart and tops her class, but she isn't unrealistically smart.I really hope the creators do this drama much more justice in the rest of the episodes, especially since this drama has so much potential to be on the hall of good K-dramas, especially with the Netflix promo, but with the quality we've seen in the first two episodes, I don't doubt it.

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Good start of the show

I finished watching the first four episodes and WOW! WHAT A GREAT SHOW! Park Eun bin puts on a masterful performance as expected. The scene where she's in the courtroom for the first time and she gets nervous so she decides to approach the situation by taking courage and confronting the people who are there telling them to be patient with her because she has autism spectrum disorder but still will. Her, and she will do her best because she loves the law. That scene really moved me! And we are only at the beginning! I also really liked that they included a case with LGBT, which is hard to happen in Korean series. Little by little the characters are winning my heart. I can't wait for next Wednesday. This will give something to talk about, and for good.

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Episode 1 feedback from an autistic

Summary: So far, the writer and director got everything correctly and there were no exaggerated/sensationalized scenes re: autistic and autism, in general or otherwise.

My hopes are high they will maintain this "pureness" instead of adding things that does not represent us autistics.

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EDIT:
Apologies for the "feeling normal and superior". I just hate the word "normal" when it comes to autism discussion because "normal" is relative (and in this subject, the majority). But I have to explain what "neurotypical" is without implying that "normal" is "normal".

It has no other meaning other than being the "majority". Think of it this way, if the situation is reversed wherein autistics are the majority of the population, "normal" would mean the autistics.
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Detailed feedback:
1. The kid moving (or hopping a little) left and right at a stationary position.

Accurate. I do that myself. Other autistics do it differently, like swaying forward and backward (which I sometimes do myself).

This is the first time I saw this depicted in a show. Usually they use "murmurs", when an autistic talks to himself/herself; or scratches their arms. While there are autistics who do that, it is not always the case.

Kudos to episode 1 for showing a different one.

2. Having a lot of pillows (or anything soft) at bed.

Yet another trait rarely seen in shows. The most common depiction is having a lot of toys or a thick blanket (and they even use the wrong type of blanket!) In episode 1, they decided to depict the less seen in a show, lots of pillows.

While many autistics prefer weighted blankets or sensory blankets, not everyone does. Some simply prefer to have a lot of soft things around them.

Again, kudos for choosing to show this instead of the overly used toys and incorrect blankets.

3. Sensory overload or sensory sensitivity

They did well in expressing sensory overload or sensory sensitivity in a simple, natural way. These are:
- wearing of ear plugs (waking up scene)
- taste sensitivity (breakfast scene)
- too much awareness of one's surroundings (train scene)

Most of us autistics have varying degrees of sensory sensitivity, and when there is simply too much, we enter into sensory overload situation.

For example, in the train scene, the crowd and the nearness of people creates a sensory overload. There are different ways that we autistics cope with it and if we fail at that … we need to run as far away from the crowd, the noise, and everything else, otherwise we're going to have a meltdown -- by that it means, our energy will be completely drained.

In the train scene, the character's way of coping with it is to listen to whale sounds. This is actually a common coping mechanism: draining one's senses of something to help tune out everything else. For example, one of my coping mechanism is to fill my thoughts with a particular problem that is not easy to solve. Or, if I am with someone, I will keep on talking about "senseless" things to help me drown out everything else.

We even get irritated at small sounds most non-autistics can not hear. I hate those small sounds myself, it can wake me up too, but most people don't hear it.

4. Seeing things non-autistic people doesn't see/hear

Ooh, I love this one. Almost all neurotypicals (a.k.a. "feeling normal and superior") fail to see things already right in front of their faces. Almost all austistics see what you can not see.

This was perfectly exemplified with that iron that does look like a whale. At first it was meaningless but later in the case, it was a stepping stone which led to the solution.

That is accurate. And because we see (and hear) a lot of things, it is one reason why we experience sensory overload. (Yeah it's interconnected.)

5. Ways to brace oneself before doing something a person doesn't normally do; or something challenging

In the show, this was depicted as counting down before entering her supervisor's office. It's like preparing herself for something. Taking a deep breath. Getting her nerves ready.

This is a common trait amongst us autistics, although in varying degrees. If an autistic can not find a way to cope up with this, it practically paralyzes us from doing anything.

For example. Neurotypicals (a.k.a. "feeling normal and superior") gets nervous when going in interviews.

Many autistics don't just get nervous. It's like pushing a huge rock uphill for many of us. It usually starts with applying. It's too hard to send our CV because we already know (1) they are going to call us (which many of us hates); (2) we have to shake hands (which many of us hates); (3) we have to make eye contact (which again many of us hates); (4) when we arrive at the interview schedule, they'll make us wait (which we hate big time); and the list goes on. So, if we can't push ourselves to do it, it paralyzes us.

In the show, the character also observed (hospital scene) first before meeting them. It helps in preparing herself and to anticipate things, then took a deep breath. For non-autistics, they'll dismiss it as "she's bracing herself because she knew the husband and was afraid of him". Maybe, maybe not. Personally, I'm more inclined that she was not afraid of him … at all. She knew she might lose it once the husband starts his tirade.

6. Echolalia

Whenever this is depicted in a show, it usually is presented as something annoying, bad, evil, and rude. In this particular show, I like how they did not do that. They turned it into something light, something people noticed but did not make a huge fuss about it.

In the court scene, they even made it a little comedic scene because the judge answered back after she repeated what he said. In other shows, they'll probably have the judge reprimand her and probably ask for her dismissal for making his court a monkey court.

7. Doesn't want to be touched and hugged

This is very true with almost all autistics, and often this is depicted wrongly and in a very bad way in shows where there is an autistic character.

It is not so much about personal space, as neurotypicals (a.k.a. "feeling normal and superior") argue about, it is about sensitivities. Yes, we do care about personal spaces but that isn't our primary concern why we don't want to be touched and hugged without our permission. Again, take note, without our permission.

For some autistics, they have touch sensitivities and if you do not inform them beforehand, it may (or may not) cause a serious spike or energy drain.

For some autistics, they have sensitivities on bacteria and germs. Take note: not because you have this sensitivity does it mean you are autistic; no not all. However, this is also a common trait for some autistics.

For some autistics, they highly value boundaries. Usually at work and at home, you'll see this trait reflected as well … there are literal and non-literal boundaries.

So, if you know a person is autistic, do not touch them nor hug them without their permission. If they say no, don't take it personally, it has nothing to do with you, it has to do with them.

If you do not know if a person is autistic and they reacted in a way that YOU think was rude or YOU think you offended them, again do not take it personally. They probably are autistic and doesn't feel comfortable in disclosing it. Again, it is NOT about you.

8. Disclosing that one is in the Autism Spectrum

Now, many neurotypicals (a.k.a. "feeling normal and superior") whine about "it's not our fault, if they disclosed they are autistic then we would not have acted that way". F**king seriously?

What this tells us is that you'll give us a fake you just because you know we are autistic. And then later, when you get tired, you will still blame us and hope we disappear from your life -- or if you decide to move/resign, you'll blame us and speak about us to people we do not know.

This is one of the many reasons why many of us do not disclose that we are autistic. Many people starts to act fake just because. It is as if we have an infectious disease.

There is prejudice against autistics. In the show, I was afraid they'll turn the court into something against autistics, with the challenges the autistic attorney is facing, the judge could have said, "replace her, she's turning my court into a joke and she's taking too much time". (I'm they did not do that.)

9. Autistics doesn't have feelings, emotions, sympathy, and empathy.

A common false misconception thanks to psychologists. This is NOT true.

We do have feelings, emotions, sympathy, and empathy, we just process and express it in a different way neurotypicals (a.k.a. "feeling normal and superior") does not understand or refuses to acknowledge.

In the show, this was expressed in the hospital scene where the autistic attorney dissected "love". That short talk enabled her to stand firmly on the case for her client because she understood her client loves her husband. That is how we usually process and express it.

10. Fascination with one particular subject. In the show, it's whales.

This is true. If someone you know is autistic (diagnosed; not diagnosed; unknown) fascination with one particular subject is a very common trait. We know almost everything about a subject we focus on. In the show, the autistic attorney's favourite subject are whales.

So … if you are non-autistic, understand this trait.

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I'll end with #10, there are more but it's too long now.

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