Symbolika1:
For me this the most accurate word! :) I think this word can relate to her feelings of attraction/ reactions to the seduction, sexual desire . But as "confused" as XY have been => Jing is undeniably the one she freely choose to touch, caress, kiss etc. Temptation and toying with a man was never enough from XiaoYao pov to rip her from Jing !- to whom she once again , acted will full womanly desires and love :).
You can come to desire someone, but what I think is important, is how you deal with it when you are already deeply in love with someone, someone who is sexualy attractive to you too, as you always touch him with pleasure. And I'm glad of Xiao Yao's reactivity/objectivity , because she just know what she want most :).
(bb some stuff in my atelier to do :p)
I agree with you, when you’re attracted & in love with someone, there’re soo many things you do unconsciously even if you’re the most stubborn person on earth,but with just that ONE person all your guards are dropped & become a pouty,needy person. With the confusion part, it’s her longing of how her life would be, she still said she wants to marry YSQ, but is confused if that’ll ever happen which puts her heart on strained. If she wanted to say the other guy, she would’ve so why didn’t she?lol cos that’s not who she wants,, YSQ is the one she’s been longing for.You can like someone, but be madly in love with another. Jing was the one who completely broke the tough shell around XY’s heart, even tho she already had a soft spot for him, but her coming to find that Jing was in a coma ready to die & be with her so that she’s not lonely is what really made her heart soften completely for him.