Does it truly bother you?

The first time I laid my eye's on this movie, I was probably 21, no experience with this kind of world, just a     person watching what was supposed to be a love story about dominance and submission and I was like hmmm this is different indeed, but I kind of like the way it sounds appealing. Like a moth to a flame I inched and in doing so I felt weird, the movie didn't make sense in a way, I was like okay so they are a couple now but all that pain that happened between them, was it needed, how does the main character feel now?

So the first time I watched it, no english subtitles were provided, so I re-watched it about 3 times, and through me rewatching, i went past it being sexual content (which I grew up in a strict household, my mother made us not speak about such things, any inapropriate scenes like sex, or even kissing came on, we had to turn our head or close our eyes, or we would be looked down upon, it really messed me up into the adult hood, to the point I dont like sexual content, it bothers me), so by this being so sexual I thought it would bother me, but it enticed to me to look even further, beyond that and I saw the love underneath the crave, I saw passion burning in his eyes, before he stood on the balcony on the roof to take his life, I saw pain, he was in pain and a lot of it and although I've never had a parents loss in pain I knew what pain was and how I wanted to sleep and never wake up and/ or have someone take me away from it, now I never have wished for someone to kidnap me and sadistally pleasure me to being adamnt on being addicted to them, no, but I needed a distraction. 

I am writing this because i fell in love with this movie, it showed me something I was craving in my own life, and yes I mentioned a moth to a flame because I am still the mouth and I feel like its a dangerous place for me but despite me growing up and lack of life experience, this film filled a whole and allowed me to hide inside. I see this as one of my favorites, almost greatest love stories. Their love for each other, and the more he yearned for him through every movement is what we should look at. I hope you all enjoy it and would love to hear your opinions on how you perceived this film.

 qtshelz:

I wish I'd seen your comments earlier. I watched this about a year ago and then recently watched again. For me, the first time felt as close to a porno as you can get. But this second time was definitely more about the story and how that drives the characters. I actually wish I'd had your experience of no subs the first time, because I would have paid more attention to those details of expressions and how they interact, rather that it just being about the sex. 

I think this movie was actually, and probably still is, ahead of its time. It addresses a lot of issues and confronts a lot of taboos, but in the end, it comes down to connection. I hope that makes sense. I don't know that a lot of viewers go that far to see that much. But this last watch really changed my perspective. 

Thanks for sharing your take on the film! I hope you find someone that can connect with you in the way you need. 

You are welcome, I've come along way now, I'll be 25 next year and this film was and still is a great awakening for me.