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I think he did not call police because he can't as he didn't had phone. Otherwise he would have. He already had one time in hospital and one more time it was not hard.

About non consensual sex yes it was rape. But the moment he thought that he also missed him. That logic doesn't work with forgiveness and all it took him is just few deep kisses and lu feng calling his name with yearning to break all walls. After that when he saw camera if any further intimacy would have happened it was again rape. But thankfully lunfeng also was shocked and stopped.

In my def rape means when one of the party is saying no and other is forcing them. Whether have feelings or not. Confusion or not. No consent yes it's rape. So coming to ur ques was it called rape? Yes majority but it was not when yichen also gave himself to lufeng.

About stockholm syndrome. Idk. But in that moment no it was not stockholm syndrome. For a moment they truly were in a moment of passion.

He showed his whole body full of marks and bruises that he got from graping. He later also mentioned that "when did I ever became so merciful to let other see ur whole body" when yichen was in coma.

He surpassed the level of toxicity of fan xiao for me. Atleast fan xiao never hurted his closed ones or raped him. He worshipped you shulang. It just that he wanted to destroy him because of his belief that no one is good or bodhisattva but for fan xiao he was. Also he did let go of him at one point. He did repent a lot that he don't deserve to be with you shulang. You shulang deserves heaven and he hell. He acknowledged his mistakes.

For 2 nd point. Ig he did realised that what actions of his hurted yichen and i remember he did said that I was just acting out with boys. So he was aware of his consequences. But as per the novel, he was trying to portray why he did such atrocities. It was not a forgiveness attempt but "understand me I did because of this" attempt.

For 3rd point. As per novel. Yichen was with the man who controls him. But it has been stated very beautifully yichen's feelings towards lu feng. That deep down he did like the fact that lu feng gave him money to set up his coffee shop. He liked that lufeng was always waiting for him outside his shop no matter the sun or rain. Every single day he was there. Yichen did liked that they are walking side by side and lufeng dropping him to home. Yichen did liked that instant noodles bowl with lu feng. Yichen did loved that lu feng cared or showed worry when he was trying to do anything physical. He loved those attention. But he was scared also with whatever happened. He was scared of his touch and his before coma past. He did loved when during valentine day he showed gesture of love. That's why even when his brother was saying to leave with him. He was supposed to be happy but he wasn't because deep down he was not able to understand the feeling what is that thing which is stopping him to go with his brother. Why he felt sadness. Why he remembered lu feng and his daily wait over his shop. Why?? Why he was not wanting to leave him. Why he thinks that his life is not so bad rn.

I suggest u read novel for this particular thing. And the fact that drama also showed lu feng's image when his brother was asking him to leave and yichen's decision it confirms what has been written in novel was adapted the same in series in this part.

4. He wanted to tell. But his brother said that he would definitely won't go after lufeng which he did. He was embarrassed what his brother will think that he still loved lu feng even after this. Also part of him don't want to reveal truth about his torture because he wanted to protect lufeng. And that thought also embarrassed yichen.

7. Like u said some series are indeed hard to watch. Tbh i get u. Years ago I was in a situation where I have always been blackmailed, chased out for coming in the contact. Basically........... There why series dealing with this much torture unsettles me if not handled properly. Years ago I was deeply invested in someone who always gave me unclarity, one sided efforts from my side, not letting go nor clean break. On and off situation. Even to the point that my panic attacks and anti depression pills on the recommendation of doctor, years of nightmare was said that i am just doing drama for the sake of getting attention. I have been always lowered down because I wanted to put efforts in saving relationship. And this whole situation of yichen being toxic towards lu feng reminded me that. That's why I understand both yichen and lufeng their both love and pain.The past that I never want to remember. The feeling that make me feel disgusted by myself. So i understand it situation. Please take some time and watch on ur pace if it gets too heavy or leave it altogether. Sorry I got too emotional and said things that i have buried down in my heart that people have forgotten what I have ever go e through.

Aah. How I missed this lu feng who is showing him love. Handling yichen with care. It's like school days relationship era.

And one thing u might disagree with me here. Lu feng was not playing game. He was just soo scared to again loose yichen if his brother will come. He knew yichen will leave and he knew that yichen will never choose him. He knew that he will again not be able to take the pain of separation and yearning. Letting go of yichen is impossible for him. So it's not a game but he is trying to hide the truth so that he can buy one more day with yichen. He is protecting himself from pain. Was he selfish? Yes .

🤣🤣 lufeng was so happy that he forgot and honestly even i forgot that until the sec I saw ur comment. 🤣

Correct but gist is same. That I said in previous comment. Sadness and sickness made them age that much. So it's intentional with that makeup.

I can't disagree. 😅

Ig now that black flag era and the most hurtful things are gone. I can finally breathe and wait for the finale week. By that time i seriously need to heal myself by watching lovey dovey drama. This drama has ruined my emotional health by always making me confused whether to love them, hate them, want HE or BE.

I wouldn't say yichen didn't loved lufeng. More like he never spoke and took stand. And with all due respect please allow me to use the word "coward" for yichen because he is. Just want good relationship without doing anything. Never taking stand neveeer. Ne er choosing lufeng. I just hate him.

Fr 🤣

They are supposed to look like that. It was explained in the book. Yichen after recovering lost so much weight and always look sickly. And lufeng loneliness, pain, yearning and longing bas made them look much older. Aren't we also the same? When he got through stress and something bad ok our life we also look depressed, old, sickly. Plus in the novel they actually were in 40s.

Let me first complete the black flag era thing.
Yichen what right did u have to feel jealous about ke lo? Lufeng what right u have to say " what right yichen has to negotiate with u" it's his life lu feng. Lu feng did u actually thought that yichen considers u as family? If he would ever had he would have taken stand atleast once in his life. And if u have then lufeng family doesn't hurt each other and imprison and rape. They don't put their loved one down. They don't make them feel ashamed in front of others.i get it that u were so hurt that again someone was trying to snatch yichen from u. But for god sake lufeng he don't want to stay with u. Get over with it. And lufeng blaming only yichen about the condition u both are is completely wrong even u were responsible. Yichen u agreed that ur mind was mess. Then why did u took decision that fast? Is marriage joke to u? That if mind is messy, situation is messy, mother is dying but let's do marriage why? Because ur mind is mess and u can't take decision by communicating not that lu feng would have listened calmly but if that's the case why u just don't let lufeng go completely? What's with this on and off situation? Do u think that people's emotions and love is something that can stay and go as per ur wishes? As per ur life situation? And if someone just don't want to let that relationship go then u provoke them by not explaining rationale behind that instead say words that u know ur partner will not like. Why yichen?

See yichen loved lufeng that's why he took bullet without thinking. U are ready to die. Even in death you were remembering the school relationship days that it was soo beautiful. Why yichen why???? We viewers also were dying and suffering exactly because of those stupid loving and adorable school relationship days. The kind of love where you both were enough for each other. Where u both were willing to stay and work in the relationship. If u can't let it go then how can lufeng?? Because he loved you more than u loved him..it's a fact. U think dying will set u free but what about lufeng? He would have to see his hands full of blood of his own life. The person with whom he and u both wanted to spend lifetime together, be together. The one who has to see u everyday with the fear of loosing u to death and him also being dead while being alive in human form. Aren't u selfish to think that?

All both of u wanted is just a life with each other. Why it was so hard for u to speak up? Although ur brother was pushed he still now have a very happy life with qin lang. Wbu? Wbu yichen and lufeng? Are you happy yichen?tell me u became a good son, good brother, husband, good friend but a very bad lover. U can think of everyone except lufeng and all go about that u love him the most. Sorry u don't. U love him with ur conditions . If conditions are in favour of u then u will come back with him if not then just let go without explanation. But lufeng loved u unconditionally except the only rule is that u don't leave him. Which i know it's toxic but he just want to hold on the person who have him soo much healing and whol he loved the most in the world.

All lufeng ever wanted is to share a same space and a bowl of ramen to eat and just look at you admiring. Touch u, make love with u. Aren't u the same yichen? U also wanted lifetime and valentine with him.but why u always left him? Why u always ran?

And why in the world i am getting soo much upset and crying over and over just because of drama? I am also stupid to feel these level of frustration, pain, love, anger. I hate everyone in this drama but still can't hate lufeng and yichen. Aahh.

I wish they truly get their happiness just not with each other. Lu feng has now learned or still learning patience, calm. But trust me both needs therapy. Specially lu feng. Because he really was not a bad person the love for yichen made him. He needs therapy. And then both needs to go separate ways. Or if happy ending then it can only be being friends till the end if letting go is not possible. Ik for lufeng it's better that he die than letting go of yichen. It's impossible. But what to do? I can't see both of their pain.

Please tell me if today's ep is any better than yesterday. Because i genuinely need time to get over the sadness and toxicity yesterday's ep gave me. But i really want to watch todays ep.

True but lu feng deep down desires yichen's love and him being beside him always. But by these actions even if lu feng make yichen loose everyone he still will not be able to give the comfort lu feng is seeking. Lu feng is seeking comfort from the pain he has suffered, acknowledgement from yichen that he still love and miss him. And he never had Zhou lan touched. Lu feng is seeking the reassurance that yichen will stay with him. He is seeking yichen's love and warmth. He wants explanation why time and over again he chose to run than better communicate. Which is also the sad part because whenever they talked they always provoked each other never telling specially yichen that why he is running away and not choosing him. There are lot of emotions portrayed in drama and each emotion is currently at its peak. This time neither can take a good decision or communicate. All they can do is to just suffer with each other. Oh god!! Like this drama even I am entangled. 😅

U are not alone.

Exactly! U put my thoughts in words by saying " u can't live with them but u can't live without them" . So tragic. Plus I am glad that someone else also has noticed these little details. Each screen reflects their relationship.

In early days. Lu feng and yichen wore light and bright clothes and cinematography was also graded to give spring/summer vibes kind of blooming love and radiant love. If u remember in camera recording phase sunflowers were shown. I think it was yichen's fav flower. Sun flower always face sun which is also a ray of hope.

Then after 4 years of separation. The clothes that they wear also changes along with cinematography. Lu feng now don't wear light and bright clothes. They both wear plain and neutral coloured. The screen also shifted to normal grading rather than summer grading as shown in their first phase of relationship.

Coming to dark era. This one omg. While lu feng wore black clothes to show his emptiness and death of soul yichen wore white denoting that he desire peace and freedom but he is not able to get it. After all the atrocities and inflicting pain, yichen is always sitting and lying down in cozy manner seeking protection which he is not getting. He was also shown sitting at just one corner in that white big house with bird cage kept alongside table depicting the state of both yichen and lu feng. Yichen being caged devoid hope and freedom. Lu feng being constantly monitoring him through cctv as if he is watching a caged Bird each action and afraid that given the bird he is, yichen will just fly away only to be never found again unless yichen himself decide it to come. Just like their previous and current situation. Then white rooms..it's being said that if white/ light is constantly coming in room it serves more of depression than being a comfort. Which exactly is their life and relationship is depressing. Then u had at one conversation where sunflower petals were dried and his petals were falling. That exactly states yichen's fav flower and his own personality and his current state. His soul is crushing and he is not finding ray of hope. Then u have yichen smiling at sunlight as if he wants to embrace it but when darkness come sunlight goes away so as his expression. Then the chains over the bed depicting how their relationship has been caged with love, pain, anger, they want to ease the pain by getting free but they are not able to instead they are getting deeper into the abyss. It's suffocating soo suffocating. Then when this time they got intimate/ non consensual sex/ rape they were intense with each other as if their intensity of relationship is destroying them. Lu feng was using black threads to grip and bind yichen just like his fear of loosing yichen, like their own relationship can't let go, it's hurtful, but can't even give and show love because of pain and suffering piled up and anger. There are just lots of more and more. Even camera lighting went to yellowish orange depicting madness, obsession.

After a very long time I am seeing a drama being so attentive to minute details to add on the story. Hats off to the screenwriter, costume designer, director, cameraman, editors. Seriously i am truly amazed by this drama.

Plot is one thing but this is whole diff level.

I want to. But i can't bring myself to do that. This show is already too much for me. The level of toxicity is just making me go insane. I am scared of happy ending here. Because imagine giving happy ending after what lu feng has done to yichen in ep9 and previous rape and his brother thing. Rape and imprisonment is a very very very serious and sensitive topic. No one should ever go through that. Never. I know it's a fiction but if a rape is mentioned then even fiction needs to address that properly. Otherwise imagine living with someone who did all these to u. Death is better than that.

But idk I also feel for lu feng. His loneliness, his suffering, his care i get it. But still can't defend those actions. Part of the problem with this series is that lu feng was not shown as bad person. He was shown who was warm in his relationship. That's why the opinions are divided. Those first two ep set the foundation of image of lu feng and viewers including me don't want him to suffer just because of that.

That being said yichen is also toxic.

I will try to read complete novel to understand their relationship era and the followed suffering. But having heard and read in pieces that lu feng did always used have violence i fear i will see lu feng as a complete criminal despite having love. A part of me is afraid of reading complete novel and a part of me is also afraid of judging the drama based on novel. Because drama has some changes from novel i want to judge drama based on drama only.

Having said that i am just surprised that definitely author and director and crew members knew some kind of magic spell because they just took a gist of toxic love story and made the characters show so morally grey and twisted that it keeps viewers on edge.

Dream ig. But it was too real. Like universe is giving yichen signal that lu feng is going to make him suffer emotionally, physically and mentally.

Or maybe he don't want to even talk? Because whenever and whatever yichen has ever said he has never kept his words. Or maybe this time lufeng don't want to give yichen choice to choose. From today's ep lu feng just want to let yichen know that he was dying everyday while searching and waiting for him. And he was living like a dead person. Because afterall yichen didn't gave lu feng closure or clarity that he will or have any thoughts about marrying Zhou lan.

Btw from what i have noticed u have always commented that lu feng is rapist which he is. But idk I have always seen u commenting from yichen's pov and his pain and not lufeng pov. His actions are different thing but never even saw u taking side with lu feng when he was good in relationship like in school days apart from that non consensual sex.

That made me curious to know:-
1. do u even like toxic romance dramas? And if yes then what drama according to u have handled toxicity in mature way.
2. Do u consider yichen pov because u find him more relatable or u don't want to see lu feng pov or is it that after thinking from both pov u still relate more with yichen.

Ik these questions are not something u are bound to ans me. But if u are ok then please let me know