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I am the most sarcastic person ever but please, while watching it I was so taken aback and just terrified for him that there is really no space for sarcasm there. For what Boston knew in that moment, Mew was about to out him to his father by showing a sex video tape taken without his consent. The fact that he didn't in the end doesn't change how Boston must have felt in that momet. So yeah, sorry but in my opinion there is no room for any sarcasm here. Peace ✌🏼

Well, we have very different views on this, definitely. For instance, I genuinely read his "not being remorseful" as a further sign of how little sex means to him. He didn't think he was betraying his friend, he just wanted to fuck Top and then, as he said, he "let them carry on with whatever they had". It doesn't make what he did alright of course, but I don't understand how people don't realise this. To him, sex is just a fun hobbie, nothing more than that. And, also, I don't believe everything he says. Usually he is very calm and collected, he knows how to properly talk to people to get what he wants, but I have noticed that whenever he gets angry or feels attacked, he'd rather attack first, saying things that I don't think he really means. Or rather, that maybe he thinks, but wouldn't actually say out loud for everyone to hear. Like when he said to Mew that someone like him, without his help, wouldn't have had anything with Top in the first place. In that scene he was calm at first, cause again, he seriously doesn't think what he did is that bad. But then he felt everyone's hostility towards him (rightfully so) and attacked first, saying that to Mew. Again, I don't necessarily think he doesn't feel that way, but I don't think he would have said it out loud, he just loses his shit at times. He is indeed a shitty friend, but I don't see his behaviour as something worth of the "you deserve to die" from Mew. He most definitely doesn't deserve to die. He does deserve to be left alone, definitely. But die? It's a tiny little bit to much I would say. Another thing he doesn't deserve is being blackmailed with a sex video tape recorded without his freaking consent. Because that is illegal, and nasty on a whole new level. And right when I had kinda started to feel a tiny little bit of sympathy towards Nick, he goes on trying to be a psycho threat to Boston's privacy and safety, ONCE AGAIN. I didn't like Mew scaring Ton into thinking he was actually going to show the video to his father. Boston was (RIGHTFULLY SO) terrified. Trying to out someone to his father, who could also be homophobic for what we know, by showing him a gay sex video tape taken without that person's freaking consent is just insane. I was so taken aback. Thank god Mew is not a fool so he actually didn't (and also kinda pretty much "saved" Boston, cause I reckon he actually also deleted the video from Gap's computer), but what SHOOK me was Nick, once again. He didn't know what Mew was going to do with the information he PURPOSELY gave him, a very dangerous and illegal information. He is sick. And people still feel sympathy for that pathetic excuse of a man? After everything stalkish and illegal he did to Boston, he was ready to help Mew in his alleged "revenge plan" giving him this kind of information that he knew was going to literally be so dangerous for Boston's safety even in his OWN house. I get why Mew would want to get his revenge, again I don't condone what Boston did whatsoever. But Nick? What fucking revenge does he feel entitled to? For what exactly? For Boston not wanting him to be his partner? For Boston just wanting to mind his own freaking business and sleep with whoever he wants? Boston has ALWAYS been very very clear, he doesn't want to commit. The door for Nick to get the fuck out of there if that kind of "relationship" wasn't for him has always been freaking wide open. It is Nick who would always ask questions he already knew the answers to, and then would put up the "beaten doggo" face. It is Nick who created a fake narrative in his own mind just by himself. It is Nick who went through Ton's phone on multiple occasions, went through his pictures, eavesdropped at his conversations multiple times, freaking bugged his car and recorded him having sex with someone, without his consent. He says he is SO in love with him, but then he is so ready to put him in so much REAL danger, by sharing that kind of information with someone who is definitely mad at Boston and thus would most probably use it to hurt him bad. Again, hurting with something illegal, that could destroy his relationship with apparently the only person he has in his family, that would jeopardize his father's career, and would out him with the world in one of the most intimate moments one could be filmed in. It makes me puke. For real. Especially seeing how people are so gullible, it is enough to see Nick shed some tears and BOOM "my poor baby nick he deserves so much betterrrrrr he is soooo in loveeee but Boston is soooo cruel". Please, get a grip. Since you seem to despise Boston so much, then I would say that Boston and Nick MOST DEFINITELY deserve each other on every level.

then you definitely have some kind of problems. Yes of course, let's out a person (to his father, who could be homophobic for what we know) showing a sex video tape of him, taken without his consent. He was terrified. Rightfully so.

100% that is exactly what I was thinking. I slowly but surely get very pissed off at every single one of them 😅😅

Ray has always been my "ride or die", my absolute favourite character. I have always wanted to protect him (from himself especially) and shower him with all the love that was never given to him. BUT lately (and also from next episode's preview) I am starting to literally despise him. Everyone is hating on Boston, and I get that, especially when it comes to what he did to Mew. But when it comes to Nick, Boston was never manipulative, has never told Nick stuff like "please give me a bath, don't go" or "stay with me tonight" and so on and so forth. He has ALWAYS been very clear about their non-relationship. Ray, however, is really starting to PISS ME OFF. Because if, at first, I thought it was a mixture of him being unhealthily attached to Mew, of not knowing how to let Mew go, of maybe starting to feel something for Sand but not realising it fully, now I just feel like he is being a TOTAL jerk. I would say the worst of the worst, definitely worse than Boston when it comes to "relationships". The "I can have feelings for as many people as I like" from the preview just made me want to puke. The way he is always trying to keep Sand close, very close, saying and DOING romantic shit with him, the way he blatantly admits that he kinda has feelings for him but Mew will always come first, and that he feels entitled to have feelings for as many people as he pleases, without caring about how THOSE PEOPLE feel. And apparently he also has the right to be jealous and freaking stop Sand from kissing whoever he freaking wants. That is next level manipulation. Not Boston with Nick.
Despite how much love I felt (and still feel) for Ray, he is just destruction and will bring destruction wherever he goes. Sand is smart, he is not Nick (whom I find very pathetic) but he is still human, and thus has feelings. He is in love with Ray, as much as he wants to fight it, but this love will never bring anything good to him. Sand, baby, get out of that situation. Please. You will go down with him, if not end up even worse than him. You don't deserve to be repeatedly treated like that, and manipulated. Just awful.

P.S. This is the first show that, slowly but surely, is making me get so ANNOYED at every single character, almost hate them. I despise Boston for being a shitty friend, I definitely despise Nick for being a pathetic excuse of a man, for his awful stalkish and illegal behaviours, I despise Top for being so easy to manipulate and just overall a very dumb person (and for choosing his boyfriend's friend to cheat with), I despise Ray for everything mentioned above. The only two I don't totally despise are Mew and Sand, although they also did some shitty things here and there.

yes he could have! He had been stalking them, eavesdropping on their conversations, he saw their picture together, he knew they were going to meet and that there were high chances that that would happen. Even if it was not full blown sex, the possibility was very much present. And again, we are talking about two complete strangers almost (especially one of them). Crazy. Yeah, what matters is the actions afterwards, and Nick is in fact proving the shitty and pathetic person he is. He showed it to Sand (even played it for him! wasn't just telling him in words more than enough?), and he keeps repeatedly victim blaming Boston because he can't find another way to feel a bit better about himself, he is almost trying to convince himself that Boston deserves it so it is not that bad. Sorry but I cannot stand victim blaming for the life of me. To me, using a video of your best friends kissing (that you recorded with no ill intentions) to persuade someone to sleep with you is shitty behaviour (and Ton is a shitty friend, we all know it), but recording two people that are almost strangers, showing it to your friend, saying awful things about that person and blaming that person just because you cannot accept that he doesn't wanna be lovely dovey with you when he told you a million times, is just on another level. And again, I am probably biased because I am 99,9% sure that recording is going to play an even bigger role going forwad. Whether nick is going to do it on purpose or not, doesn't really matters at this point.

When I say honest I mean more "direct". But no one is honest all the time in life. Ton is direct, he speaks his mind and while at times he definitely manipulates reality to gain something from people, other times, especially when he gets angry, he just spits out whatever comes to his mind. He definitely lied about the recording and used it to manipulate people, but I believed him when he said he "wanted to record that moment for his friends". We even saw it playing out. Nothing was staged. He went away with drunk Chueam, cause he wanted to get his camera and take some pictures. Then he came back and saw Mew and Ray kissing, and recorded it. How could he know Mew was gonna reject Ray? How could he know things were going to play out the way they did? Problem is, during the party at Sand's he was angry and high (apparently this "excuse" is valid for some characters but not for him) and the way he told Ray made it look like plain mockery. Of course, we are still not condoning how he used it two years later. But I still think the premise is different. Nick recorded two almost strangers having sex for what apprent reason? What was his reason? To cry over it? Or to have a weapon he could use, when the time comes, against Boston, who is so so so bad towards him? Again, to me he is just a pathetic and obsessive human being.

hey! you are more than welcome to add your touch to the discussion ☺️ so if you don't mind, I will take some time to reply properly. 1) I don't see Boston recording Mew and Ray and Nick recording Boston and Top as the same thing. Ton recorded two of his closest friends KISSING for like 10 seconds in front of a bonfire. He then used it to manipulate people? 100%. But still, I don't view the two instances as the same. Nick recorded two people having full blown sex, two people that he doesn't even know (Top especially, but Ton also). He was there playing the part of the heart broken boyfriend when THEY ARE NOTHING and they have never been (at that moment even more so). He showed it to Sand knowing that it could get leaked very easily, since Sand is getting involved with Ray and everyone. And on top of all of this, he is even victim blaming Boston, saying all the things he has been saying in the last two episodes, because he can't find a better excuse for the pathetic human being he is. 2) Boston doesn't give a shit about his privacy? People seem to take in only what they want, as if Boston didn't DIRECTLY addressed what Drake's character did and how he feels about it. Drake recorded him in a sexual (not a freaking virgin kiss) setting without his consent and was probably using it against him. He said it is DISGUSTING, and that he doesn't want someone like that close to him. And what did Nick reply? "You have made many enemies". Like for real, can someone get even more pathetic than that? Boston didn't think much of it when Nick left that picture on his phone because he just thought it was Nick's way to spicy things up and let him now he was interested. He DOESN'T know Nick has his passcode, he doesn't know Nick has gone through his pictures, his things, hacked his phone, spied on his conversations, on top of recording him having full blown sex. Are you that sure Ton doesn't care about his privacy, when he keeps repeating that he doesn't even want to take pictures because he is aware people could leak them and ruin his dad's campaign? I think he has been very clear about everything. But people choose to listen to only what they want apparently. And I am sure that you will DEFINITELY see how much he cares about his freaking privacy when he comes to know about everything Nick did. It's not gonna be pleasant, he will definitely treat Nick accordingly (we have already seen how furious he can get).

I agree with some of it, but I literally don't think Boston is toxic with Nick. He is toxic and manipulative with many people, but not with Nick. Nick is doing everything by himself, and creating a whole ass narrative on his own head, when the door to get the hell out of that relationship has ALWAYS been wide open. Another thing I most definitely don't agree on is Nick supposedly "understanding" that what he did was wrong. He didn't. He might know what he did was wrong, from a general moral point of view, but he hasn't really acknowledged it. Because if he had, he wouldn't keep shifting the blame to Boston, who in THIS particular instance is the victim. I hate it to a whole different level. I despise victim blaming and him saying "it serves you right for being slutty" and things like that just proves how a pathetic excuse of a man he is. Again, he is even worse than the man he is supposedly so infatuated with. I would have understood more if he really understood what he did was wrong, and shut up about it at least. Boston did use the recording of Mew and Ray to manipulate his friends, to his advantage, but at least he doesn't go around faking to be this angel in disguise, at least he is direct about everything. Even with Ray, I am not condoning what Boston did to Mew, of course I am on Ray's side when he told Boston he is just shitty, but yet again Boston is ALWAYS honest, that is why he gets so much hate sometimes. Because Ray (and I reiterate once again that he is my favourite character) can lie to himself all he wants, but he is not mad just because of what Boston did to Mew, as a good friend would. When Boston said that "Ray was waiting for an opportunity like this to have a heart-broken Mew all for himself" Ray didn't know what to say because it is PARTIALLY true! And Ray is thus not really able to respond to that. That is just another example of how this show is portraying every little good thing/bad thing, good thought/bad thought of every single character. Because that is life. And last but not least, do you really REALLY think Nick is not gonna use that recording (or even something else) against Boston? I can bet my house on it.

hey, no worries, I understand what you mean, but I do get quite sensitive because this show is not your usual cutesy lovely show, there are many urgent things that need to be addressed properly and with the right mindset, because they happen in real life all the time. And all characters are finally portrayed as not always good an not always bad, but people fail to recognise it, Boston has been chosen as the shitty person from the very beginning and people can't fathom the idea of him not being the toxic one in his relationship with Nick. The same applies to many other characters. Most people can't watch a show were there aren't clear roles when it comes to heroes and villains. because in order to do that, they would need some critical thinking abilities.

Of course people criticise Nick for recording Boston, it would be VERY concerning if they didn't 😅 however, I think both the show and the audience are really downplaying the whole thing, to a dangerous degree, because they are biased and cannot really fathom the idea that in the world there are not just bad people and good people, and that people are not just always bad or always good. The same with Boston and Nick. Since Boston has been portrayed as a liar, manipulator and shitty person in general, then he must be like that all the time, with everyone. Then he must be doing the same to Nick. So they fail to recognise that between Nick and Boston (not other people, just the two of them) the TOXIC one is Nick! And has always been from the get go. Nick not only recorded him, bul also stalked him multiple times, kept his phone passcode without consent, went through his things, his pictures, spied on him, on his conversations. But again, if on the one hand I understand characters like Nick tend to get the most sympathy, I still hate how biased people are towards Ton when it comes to their relationship. And also, we all know what Nick did is illegal, and that Ton also recorded Mew and Ray. But the context is different. Ton recorded two of his friends kissing in front of a fire. A kiss that lasted approximately 10 seconds. What he did with it was of course wrong, but I don't think that recording two of your best friends kissing holds the same weight as recording two people having full blown sex, two people that you barely know and that you have no connection with. I mean I hate Top's guts but his face when Mew played the recording was just terrified. The first thing he said was "where did you get it?" and people had the audacity to say "see, he's a player, he doesn't apologise immediately but asks where Mew got it". At times I wonder if people have some kind of cognitive difficulties. Top was taken extremely aback, was scared, because Mew was playing a tape of him freaking having sex with another person, a tape he didn't know even existed, and definitely didn't give his consent to. Just. I can't. Might as well not read any comments anymore cause I just get mad.

When did Boston EVER say he wants Nick? He keeps saying they are friends, he keeps saying he likes spending time with Nick (and they, in fact, do spend time together as friends), he keeps saying Nick is his favourite (which is another way to directly highlight ONCE AGAIN that there are OTHER people he is seeing, and that AMONG those people Nick is his favourite). Even in the last episode, Boston was very clear. It was obvious he was aware of how Nick feels about him, it's just crystal clear. And he said "I know you like me" not in a possessive manner, but as a way to say "stop saying I am not that important to you, in words, when clearly your face and your actions always scream otherwise". Cause even that is 100% true. Nick is continuously saying "I don't like you that much" but then whenever he asks Boston things HE ALREADY KNOWS THE ANSWERS TO and get an answer he doesn't like (again, honesty) there he goes with his usual beaten doggo face. It's obvious Boston noticed that Nick likes him. And he said what he honestly thinks about the whole situation. He clearly said that usually he would always push away someone who shows any romantic intentions with him, cause he freaking doesn't want a relationship. People just can't fathom this, it is my conclusion, because otherwise I really don't understand how you all analyse Boston. But going back to Boston, he then said that HOWEVER he likes spending time with Nick and thus WONT PUSH HIM AWAY. The freaking door is still wide open and has always been open! Nick can get the fuck out of it whenever he wants, Boston wouldn't even flinch. I don't understand why people think he is manipulating Nick when he CLEARLY doesn't give a damn s*** about him. He likes spending time with him, that is why he won't push him away first even tho he knows Nick likes him, but that doesn't mean that he would even lift a single finger if Nick decided to leave (at last!).

I get your point but I don't think it is entirely true. Nick didn't just record it and cry over it. He showed it to Sand. He distributed it, not intentionally because Sand didn't ask him to have it, but he still spread it by showing it. Then if someone records his bf/gf without consent, and then shows it to a friend, and then that friend spreads it on the internet, it is only the friend the one to blame? Not at all. It is mostly the one who recorded it in the first place, and then showed it to other people, the primary culprit. And do you really think Nick is not gonna do anything with it in the future? He has shown stalkish tendencies multiple times and he is someone very good with technology, we have already seen how he KEPT Boston's passcode to hack his phone, he KEPT AND USED A CLIENT'S PASSCODE AND HACKED HIS PHONE. I bet he's gonna do way more in the future.

Nick does no wrong? Get a grip. From the very beginning he went through a client's pictures without consent, jerked off to one of the pictures, left his own shirtless picture, kept the passcode to unlock said phone, kept going through the phone multiple times, went through Boston's things and pictures, FREAKING BUGGED HIS CAR AND RECORDED HIM HAVING SEX WITHOUT CONSENT. Are you on your right mind? Having favourites and biases is fine, but logical thinking is very needed. Ray for example is my absolute favourite character and I love him, but I don't care how much people "defend" him saying he was drunk and high. Yes, he was. And we know now that Mew already knew everything from the bathroom scene and wanted his own revenge, but STILL what he did at the club was a shit show, he should be ashamed of himself. Him being high and drunk he is NO EXCUSE as to how he spoke to everyone, and particularly to Sand. He told him "do I have to pay you, you whore?!". That is disgusting and just unforgivable in my opinion. Ray is still my favourite character, and I take into consideration his struggles, and everything he has been through, but they are NO JUSTIFICATION whatsoever. But again, people judge Boston, Ray, Top, but not Nick 😂 it is laughable really.

I know this week's episode has been very drama packed, with Ray, and Mew, and Top and everyone.
But can we please, PLEASE, take a minute to address the elephant in the room, which would come to be how everyone seems to be giving absolutely zero shit about the whole Nick recording Ton without consent? Up until now the show had directly addressed just SOME instances, partially due to the overall plot, so it's understandable. Like, for example, Ton recording Mew and Ray, it's been addressed from the very beginning and shown as it is, something stupid, manipulative and disturbing. Well, now that the show is FINALLY addressing what Nick did, and from Boston's point of view in a way, I felt like everyone was going to give it more importance. But I guess not 😅 I just can't wrap my head around it, how everyone is treating this like "ohhhh my poor Nick, you shouldn't have done that my boy, you little misbehaved child". What the actual f***. An no one is addressing how freaking CONCERNING it is what Nick is continuously doing and especially saying. "You have made a lot of enemies", or last episode's "it serves you right for being slutty". He is CONTINUOUSLY shifting the blame towards the victim, saying that it is Boston who ultimately called it upon himself. He shouldn't sleep around, he shouldn't be a "slut", he shouldn't make "enemies". What are you, Nick? What did Boston do to you to make you his enemy? Because he doesn't want to be exclusive? Because he doesn't want you as his boyfriend? Because he likes to sleep around? Nick's just so pathetic, and disturbed. Boston has always been pretty crystal clear about them, if Nick didn't like that kind of relationship it is HIM who should have got on his ass and freaking left. No one is forcing him to see Boston, Boston doesn't give a shit. And he is free to do so, as long as he is honest and direct about it. AND HE HAS BEEN FROM THE VERY BEGINNING. No one deserve to be spied on, and especially RECORDED in a private and sexual setting without their consent. It is illegal, disgusting and disturbed. And for the life of me I literally CANT WAIT for Ton to find out and treat Nick accordingly. You go Ton. It is not only Nick, but almost every single person who watches this show. They are BIASED and unable to judge matters separately, everyone is not giving much attention to this whole thing because deep down they too low-key think Boston deserves it. They also think it is not that big of a deal, seeing how "shitty" Ton is as a friend, or how he has been portrayed in a bad light. He kinda deserves it, right? I mean, yeah Nick kinda fucked up there, but he did what he did to Boston, and not someone else, so it is not that bad overall. Right? I wish people would get a grip and realise how awful it is. Just like when, IN REAL LIFE, girls sleep around, maybe drink a bit, and they get raped. And the media are always indirectly portraying it as if, in a way, they kinda called it upon themselves. They "shouldn't have drunk that much", they "shouldn't have hung out with a male group of friends" they "shouldn't have dressed like that". THE VICTIM IS NEVER EVER THE PERSON TO BLAME. We girls (especially) should know this too well. The fact that Boston is a guy doesnt change a thing. He is NOT the one to blame, and people should start realising that, and treat Nick accordingly.

Completely understand your point, but going back to the same old concept of grey, I think every single character on this show will sooner or later show signs of instability and toxicity. Sand has already shown some signs when it comes to communication for instance, he shuts down at lightning speed when he needs to deal with feelings he can't really handle, or people he can't really handle. But I guess I agree with you on the fact that he is probably gonna be more self-destructive rather than extremely toxic with Ray. But who knows, there are still many many things we don't know, he could also come out as the most toxic character of all hahahah. I also agree when it comes to Nick and Ton, I can't wait for them to implode 😅 when it comes to Mew and Top, I don't really feel their chemistry and their plotline is just... weird. Kinda makes me feel uncomfortable for some reason. But who knows, maybe Mew screaming at Top will make me experience a different kind of reaction

I don't know, Ray is hard to read sometimes, for me too. I mean, for everyone really. There's a part of me which really thinks that Sand is just a convenient distraction for Ray, as I previously mentioned. Ray likes Sand cause he's fun to be around, with him he's experiencing a lot of new and exciting things, not to mention Sand's hot, and Ray doesn't mind that AT ALL. And Sand likes alcohol, so Ray can just drink as much as he pleases without having to deal with someone like Mew, who on the contrary would constantly remind him how bad it is and that he should stop. That is also a plus for Sand in Ray's little shiny eyes.

But then there is another part of me that thinks Ray is really starting to feel something more for Sand. I mean, he opened up about his mum with him (let's remember than when they first met and the topic was first brought up Ray refused to say much about it, and Sand apologised for being too nosy), they had long conversations about life, dreams, overall positive things. Ray smiles a lot when he is with Sand, they both do. He sings, he laughs, he jokes around. I don't think the entire series will consist of Sand being constantly hurt and screamed at by Ray, who will keep pushing him away time after time, because he doesn't see Sand as more than a friend and still likes Mew for all eternity. I think Ray will DEFINITELY fall in love with Sand (he is starting already), but then a million problems will arise, because he still isn't free from the unhealthy attachment towards Mew, from his alcohol addiction, from thinking he ruined his mum's life and thus deserve to die, from anger issues (which I think are going to be explored way more in the next episodes). Anger + a lot of booze is never a good combination.

So in conclusion, it's going to be messy, definitely, but maybe it can get better. I mean, more than half of the scenes in the trailer already happened, the toxic scenes with screams and things being shattered are about to air in the next two episodes probably, and then what? There must be something else, and maybe that something else will be something good, or at least not as toxic and tragic. I really hope they can find a way to be together. Maybe Sand, at some point, will get fed up and just leave Ray, who will maybe finally see things more clearly when it comes to his feelings for Sand. Let's pray 🙏🏼

Guys, DON'T. 😭 I don't wanna even think about that. Not even for a split second.

I think Mew has made it very very clear this time. I don't think Ray will really try again with him, cause Mew made it clear, he will cut all ties if Ray keeps seeing him as something more than a friend. While I do think he is still very much dependent from him, I think he has given up on him. But as you said, old habits are hard to break, and Ray can't bear to see Mew with Top knowing that Top slept with Ton. And to be honest, I think any good friend would spill the tea too. Ray, however, will spill it while being drunk, with a bunch of people around, at a pub, and shouting his lungs off. Ray, oh Ray 🥲 no wonder Mew won't believe him, and will punch him. With everything that happened between them, and that kiss without consent. Just a mess.
I am trying to really convince myself that Ray won't hurt Sand that bad, but I can't shake off the trailer sequences that pop off in the back of my head, those loud screams, things being shattered all over the place. A lot of drama is awaiting us and I am not ready.

Still, to this day my favourite line will always be one of Mew's lines (even if he is definitely not among my favourite characters) "Your name is Ray, you should not be this sad, my friend". I almost lost it in that moment. I so wish Ray hadn't experienced everything he went through. But that is life for many people. And I still applaud him for not giving up, for trying his best every day, even if he is also hurting people. But how can you not hurt people when you yourself are hurting so much. I am truly sorry for Sand, and I know I will be even more in the future. He doesn't deserve anything that is going to happen. But I can't stop wishing for Ray to have a happy ending, an easier life, and love. Just a lot of love. He will always be my ride or die.

Same, I guess I could really talk about this show for days straight 😅 I feel the same about Ray. I don't think he is particularly interested in having Sand as his boyfriend. He likes spending time with him, he finds him fun to be around, he likes having sex with him, but I believed him when he told Mew that he is not looking for a relationship. And thank god, I would add. Someone as broken as him should first get the help that he needs, work on himself a bit, and then maybe think about dragging someone else into all the mess. Problem is, as you said, he is very emotionally needy. I completely believed him, again, when he asked Sand to be his "drinking buddy", I don't think he was actually thinking they would end up having sex. Ray just feels utterly alone, desperate, so he ends up grabbing onto anything (alcohol) or anyone (Sand) that can make him forget about everything else (Mew, his mother, his life in general). That is the main issue. That is why I am saying someone as problematic as my Ray shouldn't get into any romantic relationship. Cause you end up clinging onto someone more for emotional support and dependence rather than true feelings of love and care. The same thing happened with Mew, who was a loving friend, the only person Ray could lean on and he just fell in love with him, or rather became unhealthily obsessed and attached to him. Ray is desperately looking for love and company and he would unconsciously do anything to get it, no matter what. So I do think that, maybe not intentionally, but still, he is indeed leading Sand on. But as you said, Sand is not helping himself either. Again *no one is entirely good and positive*, everything goes back to the same old concept. Sand is basically tricking himself into thinking he actually doesn't feel anything, thus his words follow the orders his brain is giving, in a conscious attemp not to fall in love with Ray, which is understandable. But then everything comes back to him as a boomerang, cause there are times where his face doesn't react the way it is supposed to be reacting, and his actions completely contradict the boundaries he himself created. He keeps crossing them, and then he retracts into his shell, trying to convince others and himself that what is happening is none of his business. Communication is not his forte. He is definitely a big part of his own misery, along with Ray that we have already covered.

People keep pitying Nick when *actually* Sand is the one who is having it worse 🥲 cause Ray just grabs onto any living thing that can give him love and attention, and Sand is not able to shoo him off, neither he is able to redraw those boundaries again, and admit that he has already crossed them too many times for them to be still effective. Angry Boston just... did something to me 😅 I can't really explain it. But as you said Nick will unfortunately go through all the stages of Boston's rage in the next episodes, and I don't think he is ready for that. Now we know just how utterly furious he can become, and if I were Nick I would reconsider many things. At this point I do not dare to imagine how Boston would react if only he knew that it was Nick who recorded him and spilled the tea about him and Top, or that Nick has kept his passcode and hackered his phone multiple times, or that he went through his stuff multiple times... what a mess. Cause anger is not a good thing, but discovering that someone you have always been very clear with has stalked you, gone through your things, recorded you having sex, without having any right whatsoever to even think about doing such things, well... I also don't know how I would react.