Omg emotional ride

I think I cried through most this episode. 😭Gang-Tae being specifically born to be a built in caretaker of his Older Brother Sang-Tae, just broke me. I know sometimes parents have a second child when their first has special needs (sn) one to take care of the one with sn in future but at least lot of parents like that at least show love to both children. Gang-Tae’s mother was constantly treating him like the help. Moon Young is messed up, it was nice to get an idea why she is way she is. It seems her mother might’ve suffered from mental illness and there was no one there to stop her from hurting her daughter cause of it. 😭

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Ko Moon-young = Ko, Moon Gang-tae = Moon, Moon Sang-tae = Sang, Nam Ju-ri = Juri, Lee Sang-in = CEO, Yoo Seung-jae = ArtD, Jo Jae-soo = Friend, Oh Ji-wang = President, Kang Soon-deok = LandladyStarting from the time the patient’s mom yelled, it is so true that that’s how some parents yell and mostly because they can’t control their own emotions and they just dump it on children not knowing what else to do.Ko’s dialogues are always hitting the bull’s eye haha. This time it was like how we humans are like products with expire date is to true. Most of us treat other people the same way. There is nothing like unconditional love. There is always expectation and you want something out of another person and when they don’t meet it, you discard them. It is hard to find people who will not do that like it’s either person is super close to you and be there for you all the time and expect the same from them or it’s a superficial relationship. But the Gang’s dialogue of why children need to be useful and the way politician responded was such a trigger for Gang because his mom told him that he was born to take care of his brother. Man.. this shows will surely bring up lots of emotions to lot of people..We can see that even though the Juri is a nurse, she dislikes Ko because of her ASPD. She knows it’s not her fault but the contrast between Juri and Gang in terms of accepting Ko for who she is even though both work in the mental health profession depicts how in real-life too, when personal emotions gets mixed up, we end up seeing black and white rather than grey and forget the spectrum of human emotions and feelings and just box people into good and bad.It’s also so clear that coz of her personality, Ko can’t feel emotions and how Gang challenges her to think and make her tap into and look inwards to see if she feels any emotions/ understands but calling her empty can. That really hurt her! We could all see that, isnt’ it?Even though Ko said just to manipulate Gang that she loves him and he is pretty and pats his head, because no one did those to him before, he automatically gets drawn to it. His inner child craves those because he never got those before from his mother or friends or family. Like how all of us have inner child desires which we never got, and crave for, they depict it so well by showing his younger self.Is Ko’s mom a psychopath (can’t wait for the big reveal of suspense)? If Ko was in better environment which was more nourished and loved, maybe she wouldn’t be like this but it’s sad reality that if parents have mental illnesses then children are more prone and unless parents are aware and ready to give them supportive care, children can’t get better and the cycle continues. The scene where Ko’s dad tries kill her and she just lays down on floor laughing but tears roll down her eyes, but everyone is with her dad and no one with her, is such a gut-wrenching scene. Just because she isn’t incapacitated in a way people understand, everyone just ignores her completely. Imagine growing up when all you hear from your own dad is that you are a monster and you need to die, and dad tries to kill her when she is young! No wonder she doesn’t want to be associated with him or take him for walks. But no one wants to understand her perspective and blames her.Her dialogue of even “you won’t be able to understand me till the day you die”, sitting on side of empty road while diverting the ant which is coming close to her instead of killing the ant, is most beautiful but also most painful scene. And the hidden message from the book that zombie kid isn’t supposed to feel anything, but he felt warmth of his mom that means even the kid who isn’t supposed to feel anything, felt the warmth. So, I guess instead of just assuming that you know everything about what one feels, one should ask. Like how she asked, does the kid wanted to satisfy hunger or kid needed mothers warmth

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