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But speaking of an inferiority complex about being a demon, I think XL does feel this on many visible occasions. One, during that "I'm scared of you," by XY after XL learned she's the princess of Haoling and tried to kinda drown her, where he misunderstood it as scared of him coz he's a demon, at first.
Two, (this is more evident in Ep. 37), XL says, "All villains start out like ordinary young men" and XY answered back, "You are not a villain." And the subtle mix look of surprise/shock/relief on his face. Then he grabbed her hand and they jump into the sea. While they were underwater with the almost-kiss scene and when XY finally realized she can breathe in the water, she yelled at him, "XL, you did it on purpose. Why are you doing this to me? I hate you." You can see XL's change in expression and he angrily says, "This is the price you pay to survive, becoming a monster." AGAIN, here, he's misunderstanding what XY actually meant as she was talking about how she's mad at him for playing her again, not the part where she is now able to breathe underwater like him.
So, yes, XL sees himself as bad just coz he's a demon, and people regard him as such. Until, ofc, he met XY who sees the goodness in him ~
Yes, after Left Ear wins his freedom. So much heartbreak. SOB.
I have only seen the raw Episode 37+ I'll have to track down an english sub tonight. I do remember loving the underwater scenes in there. But yes, even when he was healing her in the clam shell, he was worried she was going to hate him for making her like him, which was an earlier hint. But it goes back to him telling her why he was sensitive about the 9 heads thing being mentioned, and it was because of the contempt he felt from most about it.
But yes, the "I'm scared of you ... in my dreams" scene on the beach, is where it seemed he accepted it was because he was a demon.