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I love that ❤️ Thank you!

The gods would be too cruel to kill them on a bridge twice haha

I’m glad the jury has spoken! I thought I was going crazy there for a second lol I’m still recovering from Returned Master…

Omg same! I’m legit so traumatized 😫Cdramas were cheaper than therapy… now they’re a cause to go to therapy lol
The time skip + the streets were totally empty set off my alarm bells. There’s always a time skip, a series of flashbacks, looking out over a familiar scenery, amid falling blossoms and/or snow… it was perfectly set up to leave Pei Yanzhi’s fate in Japan open ended… but I’ve decided the reactions are too legit to be a dream lol (gotta keep telling myself that haha)

I hate that I've watched so many Chinese dramas that my first thought when Pei Yanzhi showed up at the bridge was: Is Yin Qi experiencing an illusion?
After watching the ending twice, I choose to believe that they're reunited and he was cured of his illness and Yin Qi was surprised and crying tears of joy. But I genuinely hate that my mind is trained by the trauma of watching Cdrama open endings to assume the worst...

I’m so glad I waited to binge… I feel like I’m already going crazy and it’s only 2 more days left lol

Hahaha thanks! I just caught up to Ep. 7 and it struck me that Pei Yanzhi and Yin Qi must’ve been so dumb in their first lives to get fooled. It’s only because Yin Qi literally already lived through this that they could finally win… but now I’m getting worried because Yin Qi’s not smarter, just more experienced. And now that he’s outlived the past time line, how is he going to navigate this new future and will he spot Pei Yanzhi’s noble sacrifice BS in time before it’s too late 😥

I've been binging the show and I'm finally at Ep. 5 now I understand why Pei Yanzhi's plan blew up in their faces... it kinda sucks 😭
Like yes, Yanzhi... let's help join two slimy, powerful, conniving mass murderers who thirst for power and both your and Yin Qi's heads on a silver platter and hope that they'll spare y'all and the emperor and not stab y'all all in the back...
I finally understand what his servant meant when he said his love for Yin Qi makes him stupid...
But the Ep.5 finale makes it all worth it 🤭

"“Do you want me to become a monk for you? How long do you want me to stay ordained?!”
“Even if you stayed ordained until you reached nirvana, I still wouldn’t forgive you.”
"Does yoga not teach you to forgive at all?"
"It’s yoga. Not Dharma. Besides, my motto is that if you keep forgiving, you’ll never get your revenge.”
"But… forgiveness is the highest form of giving!””
This entire convo had my dying! I haven't laughed this hard in a long time~

Fr 😭 He is the strongest one 😭 When I was his age, I was stressed over what the uni cafeteria was serving that day...
When Wayu was kiss-distracting Ice after being kidnapped for the nth time, I literally had a movie reel flashback of all the times Wayu had been sexually harassed and/or assaulted, drugged, etc. Job or not, he's just a college student trying to support his family.
Yes, and in the next lifetime too! I need him to have that happy ending or I'm going to riot!!!

Wayu is an angel. Drugged, bound, gagged, SA'ed, fighting for his life and the first thing he asks Krit--a trained office strapped and wearing a bullet proof vest, "Are you okay?" (not just once, but twice) Wayu sweetie, respectfully, the question is: are you okay 😭 I know they don't prepare you for this at architect school....
I love how even in the face of the most frightening adversity, he puts his loved ones first.
And Krit... I'm never going to get over him doing police work in those perfectly fitted clothes... thank you 🙇‍♀️
Honestly, I'm enjoying how high the stakes are; they're up against a man wanted for murder, snuff porn, human/organ trafficking etc. Today's episode actually had me sweating!

Honestly, I’m enjoying the drama for what it is (although, I admit it hasn’t quite drawn me in the way Kill to Love did, there are aspects I can find myself admiring if the story breathes a little more), but thank you for speaking my shallow thoughts out loud 🙈
I didn’t know if it was just the styling that I didn’t like or if it was something even more shallow on my part… ig it’s the latter 😂
I’m used to CBLs hitting it out of the park in terms of the visual category that it took me almost through the 2nd episode to adapt 😅
(I feel the same way about Double Helix, if I’m being honest… I guess I’m just that vain and particular…)

Also, I agree about the NC scene. I can compliment it for being bold for a costume CBL (haven’t seen anything quite that spicy since Mermaid’s Jade, which was already not much to write home about), and yet I personally felt nothing as I find the secondary couple so detestable. It was pretty to look at, but since I find both characters to be so loathsome, it didn’t stir my heart in the slightest. It pounded more during Yanzhi and Yin Qi’s tense interactions tbh
Unlike the crown prince in KTL, this one and his servant boy toy seem to be much more one note and evil for the sake of being evil. I found myself asking multiple times how does the crown prince have so much free time to keep harassing Yin Qi—doesn’t he have any day time hobbies outside the bedroom?

Thanks for keeping me updated! I’m so excited :)

Thank you! You get me haha Sometimes we just say things into the lonely ether, wondering if there's a kindred spirit!
I love how you call Haneul a victim. Because he is. Surviving a car accident is very traumatic. And he's survived 2! Lots of people have PTSD post car accident, and while the show is leaning towards the dissociative amnesia as a result of him wishing to forget his romantic relationship entirely, having trauma from a car accident is not unusual either.
He knows deep down something is not right, and it's definitely going to manifest in Ep. 3/4.

I feel like it's really asking too much for a person to jump immediately into assuming such an unfamiliar life. It really struck me when they were on the beach, and he was musing about what he thought their futures would be like, how much even I've changed in 10 years. I wonder if my 19 year old self would recognize me or the life I'm living. I appreciate the show for stirring these kinds of questions within me.

I realize the MC isn't as close to his family as I am. His mom admitted after his dad died, she worked too much to pay much attention to him. And even when his sister is about to come back to the cafe, he escapes rather than waits to see her.
So how he feels about his family is likely very different. But wow, it's a little sad to see how his support system is really just his partner, his sister's employee, and his ex-girlfriend 🤣

I feel like the show does a pretty good job exploring how Hanuel feels at all about his experiences. But the other characters do a poor job understanding or empathizing with the Haneul's complicated, difficult circumstances.
Seobyeok's just straight up withholding valuable information from Haneul and then sleeps with him when he's in such a vulnerable state. He's not exactly winning me over...

That being said, I have to highlight Love You Teacher if you'd like to watch a show where the character is well taken care of by his loved ones.
After the ML is hit by a car, he continually regresses back to his 7 year old self.
The MC and the school staff are also so kind and genuinely try to help ML maintain normalcy as they balance his tenuous situation.
The show does such a good job establishing their loving relationship.
And the BEST PART is when the ML calls his mom (who lives far away from the ML-which the show establishes early on to explain why she can't be there immediately post his accident), and she explains that the MC is a good person and there to help him, but if he wants to, SHE WILL COME PICK HIM UP IMMEDIATELY. -- She wants him to try with his current, but also lets him know she will be there ASAP for him.
It's like the writers have actually considered... how normal people react.
None of Haneul's mom's weird fortune cookie speak... just normal people responding to and putting their injured/disoriented loved one first.

Me too 😭 I just hope Chusan is the light that saves Liuyi from his inner darkness that’s threatening to consume him atm. He was genuinely terrifying when he described his revenge, his face lit by lightning…
I also hope that Liuyi’s darkness doesn’t overtake Chusan… I’d hate for either one to be sacrificed for the benefit of the other. Just going to stay positive and assume they are able to leave unscathed when all of this is over!

The greatest torture in my life right now is having to wait an entire week to see what happens... not even a preview until the day before 😭
Chusan's hornier than ever, but also his crush is manifesting into something serious and I could see how Liuyi's resolve to turn Qinglong's gang into the biggest, strongest gang in the city ripped his heart in two. He looked like he'd been sucker punched, knowing that the two are walking towards two opposite futures. Hopefully, those futures chart a path towards the two of them ending up together, because I'm getting so anxious while watching this series. As the saying goes: to live by the sword, die by the sword 😰

This is one of the worst BL moms ever. No, she's not verbally or physically abusing her son, as we've seen in other BLs, but it's just as bad! It's abandonment!
I can't imagine my mom ever leaving my side after I wake up from a coma with dissociative amnesia. This show really made me want to call my mom and tell her I love her.
Because, without a doubt, if I looked at my mom with desperate eyes and said: I don't want to go with this strange man, I want to go home with you! she would've taken me back in a heartbeat-no questions asked! Back to the safety of my childhood bedroom, which is ACTUALLY a familiar place, where I could slowly acclimate to these changes under her care.

Everything that's happening to Haneul is literally a nightmare. I know it's just a show, but I can't shake off the unease I get from watching this.
I'm Haneul's age, so maybe this hits closer to home, but I was almost an entirely different person when I was 19 vs. today. It would be terrifying to be inside an aged body, forced into a life I've never known, made to reconcile that I've lost the last 10 years of my life....all my dreams, aspirations, memories--GONE.

Everyone's yanking my chain around, poorly explaining things to me, ordering me where to go/what to do etc., I'm forced to move into an unfamiliar home, by myself (even though, Saebyeok comes back at night, the scene of Haneul standing in the house by himself was haunting to me). It's just awful. I wake up in a shock, convincing myself that I didn't sleep with my childhood friend turned betrayer (I mean, is it even fully consensual if Haneul isn't exactly in his right mind?)
Even Saebyeok, a person Haneul has known for his entire life, is unfamiliar. It's been 10 years AND there's so much 19 year old Saebyeok never properly communicated to Haneul before the first accident.
He doesn't know this loving, mature, romantic Saebyeok. It would be less scary if Saebyeok acted more like his 19 year old self, but he can't. Because too much time has passed for both of them.
Romance aside, I feel like I'm watching a horror drama. I'm trying to remind myself this is a BL and to throw away the logic, but something about the mom abandoning Haneul to Saebyeok really set me off...

Can’t say I blame him! Chusan has good taste. Since the first scene where he’s smoking beneath a streetlight, Liuyi has been the definition of sex on a stick!

Wow, Ep. 2 was intense. The only road left to take is one paved with blood and I'm getting nervous for the leads. The love triangle between the Boss Chengqing, Older Sis Xiaoman, and Liuyi could've been a show on its own! I had a sense the Boss had feelings for Liuyi when he okayed the film being based on the story of Liuyi famously saving him from the rival gang, but the reveal at the creepy antique Christmas shop turned fancy Western dining room still caught me off guard.

Whatever medicine they've been giving the older sis was definitely tampered with to make her even crazier. I'm sure her anxiety and paranoia wasn't helping, but the moment she started popping unidentified meds, I started getting suspicious. I feel like things would've gone different if she had been taking the medication Chusan had been trying to give her.

So far so good though. There is so much lust and potential for this pair, coupled with the Wong Kar-wai aesthetics, that I know their love will set the screen on fire once it's allowed to blossom (we definitely know Chusan likes ripe 🍑)
But for now, I'm enjoying this Greek tragedy named Liuyi's life unfold before me. Can't wait for next week. 9 episodes feels too short, and 1 week feels too long!

Lmaooo thank you; I wasn’t sure because I was rambling so much!
Exactly, THANK YOU. You’re first and second pass at the show were the ame as mine! I also assumed they’d never been in a relationship and his repressed feelings/colorblindness drove him away and then he died. And he decided rather than complicate everything again and resurface painful feelings, it’d be best to stay away from Woojin.
But Ep. 4’s recent set of flashbacks have completely upended that theory and shown that at the very least, they were in a fledgling relationship that Hyeseong killed before it could become serious. And 1.0 Hyeseong’s treatment of Woojin, while painful, is completely understandable.
But Hyeseong’s 2.0 attitude towards Woojin makes progressively less sense when you think about it for more than 20 seconds in the context of the older sister’s relationship.
I 100% agree with your rationale- because I think that’s how a normal person would react if they thought their first love died in an unconnected freak accident. You’d be even more motivated to form a connection with that person!
It would definitely make more sense if he genuinely thought the accident in 1.0 was his fault.. it feels like him distancing himself was more for the sake of intrigue and the chase rather than the screenwriters considering it from a logical angle now.
Which is why I’m just going to delete his return to the future from my brain, enjoy the ride, and not think about it too hard haha

I still think the chemistry is hard carrying a lot of this drama, but I’m seated and interested. I don’t need it to make much sense as long as it ends on a bang and the pair keeps up their electric chemistry! It’s still the first KBL that’s caught my interest in a while and I love the characters’ relationship.