Reviews

When Potential Isn't Enough: A Romance That Forgot to Romance

Kind of frustrating, potential was there.
Lets talk about the characters a little because I need to vent.

The only scene where Dr Jiu does something for the female lead in all of 7 episodes: 1) Helped her in the hospital in dealing with her
2) get jealous whenever Hari talked to the second ML.
3) Gave up his bed for Hari to stay in.

This man needs to speak up. Being weak physically doesn't make you any less of a man. Being scared of insects doesn't make you a loser.

But you being bad at communication and not making an effort to make it better however does make you look pathetic. Sure he is a good doctor. But there are other more important things that define your character.

My patience dried out in that one scene where the annoying contractor comes and pushes the female lead and he does nothing but stand there while the second male lead immediately jumps in to stop him.

The other thing however he does do is fix her leaking house in ep 8 which I guess is the turning point of the entire relationship. But I mean what about the previous 7 episodes I had to suffer through? Now suddenly he can't help but "see" her. I'm sorry this story is not building up properly.

I'd say the second male lead did a lot more than the main Male lead himself. He got hurt for her and also defended her on many occasions.

Anyways, this show started off quite strong, but it became annoying at some point. The romance looked forced and there isn't any chemistry. The actors did their best with the material, but...that's it.

The second couple did it better in terms of chemistry. They atleast had their sparks.

I might end up dropping it at some point. Lee Jae Wook is such a good actor, why would you do this 😭😭. Shin Ye-eun was very good, as you'd expect. She nailed the acting. Especially that scene where her grandmother passed away :(

Anyways. I'll be updating this in case I continue watching it and eventually finish it, who knows.

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The kiss is everything

I realize many folks watch BL just for the kissing. And I'm not gonna pretend like I don't enjoy that as well. The big kiss here is everything; I mean, damn. It is the most polished, intense, emotive scene in the entire series. It says so much without any words. Its sexy, but it's WAY more than just a sexy kiss. It's the culmination of every emotion contained in this drama. And it was brilliantly acted! I felt all the feels. Just a really well executed moment that perfectly captured everything it was supposed to.

There are a lot of good and not as good moments throughout this series, but overall I think its a satisfying watch. And it is actually trying to say something beyond the love story. I find Pinoy BL to be less polished than Thai and other countries with a more developed industry, but this was a very respectable contribution to the canon. And the music is also really good and fits the drama.

Tune into this one. I think you'll enjoy it.

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actually really good?

(personal review - all thoughts, opinions, and biases are mine only)

started this drama on a whim after hearing many mixed reviews. it was three episodes in that i realized i...am a complete sucker for this couple's dynamic. i just looove a ML who's completely devoted to his FL to the point of wanting to kill for her. so i was hooked immediately and i was willing to watch the whole way through just to see their development. i'm largely satisfied in that department - contrary to others' opinions, i don't think their first kiss at ep10 is too fast tbh. for a 24ep drama that's really fair because i happen to enjoy watching what happens after they're "together" more than the journey there.

for the story, i find it quite enjoyable. ehh it's a typical revenge-rebirth plot so i didn't have much expectations to begin with, but yeah i think it's pretty good. what it suffers from is just the typical cdrama disease of being halfway done and the plot & pacing goes completely bonkers. it's quite fast paced in the first half then gets kinda draggy in the second half, but i also expected that. maybe sometimes the plot was deceptively predictable too. there were some plot holes and missing scenes but i don't think they were inexcusable. at least to me, if i can still follow along and figure out what's going on that's fine. (the issue surrounding wei village and a-xiang and also the xie clan's elixir were kinda glossed over when i thought they would discuss them in more detail, and that did bother me. but again, all in all it's fine.) but gosh i just love the drama. i like that you can't figure out who really has the upperhand because there could always be someone pulling the strings, i like that you can't trust anyone, i like that characters could be working together at one point and then backstabbing one another. ...which might be the base standard for a political-military drama of this sort, but whatever! it's worthy of praise.

i enjoy chu zhao's scheming, and unlike what others say, i do believe that she is that smart because even in her first life she did show her smarts in governing when helping xiao xun, it was just that she was blinded by love and couldn't foresee his betrayal. speaking of, xiao xun pissed me off in every opportunity available despite his charming face, deng yi pissed me off sometimes (ever since the betrayal at the dock at least) but i like that he is somewhat maybe schizophrenic based on the fact that he constantly talks to a younger version of himself. gosh i wish xie yanfang didn't end up evil because i did want to like him but i just can't not root for chu zhao and xie yanlai. it's sort of weird that he kinda maybe has some feelings for chu zhao too and is posed as a threat for her relationship with xie yanlai but oh well, all that matters for me is that there's no love triangle BS.

the characters were surprisingly complex in my opinion. again, i just didn't expect much getting into this, but i think both main characters and the side characters were well-developed in the sense that their backgrounds, thoughts, actions, and relationships with other characters were fleshed out. there was a point where chu zhao was crying almost every scene for 6? 7? 8? episodes straight? and it kinda bothered me because damn this girl does NOT get a break but then again things *were* hard for her then. xie yanlai is also a good character. his thoughts and feelings toward the xie clan, his birth mother, and the chu family were interesting to learn and follow. even the interests of xie yanfang and deng yi were fascinating. the only character i don't sympathize with is xiao xun because despite everything he is almost fully completely evil.

hmm i personally wasn't too sad watching this, i was only almost driven to tears in the scene where chu zhao talks to a-jiu about wanting her dad to just be her dad. that did move me. but other than that it was fine. i literally couldn't stop watching because the story kept me on my toes til it was 4am. i loveeee this couple i really do, and every scene where they weren't together was painful because they truly shine the most with each other. i don't like that xie yanlai barely appeared on screen after becoming the new general and then he gets a victory killing the northern desert king's son like where? how? can we see???
(chu zhao & xie yanlai shared 3 kisses over the entire thing and 10 hugs or something that at some point i went "you guys aren't gonna kiss? seriously not gonna kiss?" but i also love their hugs. they're just so loving and i love how they support each other.)

i like the main/opening theme, it's somber-sounding at the beginning but gains power over time which really embodies the story i think. other than that i can't think of a very praise-worthy soundtrack. maybe the one at the final scene. that one's also good. the rest are okay, just not that memorable.

...given all of that, i probably won't be rewatching, not for any reason other than that i would be too stressed watching xiao xun win and my girl a-zhao get fucked over all over again.

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loved it!

loved it!

The Glory is dark, gripping, and emotionally intense. Song Hye-kyo is excellent as a woman methodically pursuing revenge against the classmates who destroyed her childhood. The show is brutal at times, but smartly written, beautifully acted, and hard to stop watching. The villains are almost cartoonishly awful, yet compelling. Not light entertainment, but very satisfying if you can handle the heaviness.

The Glory is dark, gripping, and emotionally intense. Song Hye-kyo is excellent as a woman methodically pursuing revenge against the classmates who destroyed her childhood. The show is brutal at times, but smartly written, beautifully acted, and hard to stop watching. The villains are almost cartoonishly awful, yet compelling. Not light entertainment, but very satisfying if you can handle the heaviness. The supporting cast is outstanding, and every payoff feels well earned.

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I was NOT ready for this Pairing!! Insane chemistry

This time I am writing a review not to rant about the drama or complain about wasted potential. I'm writing because I genuinely had so much fun watching this. This is what a rom-com is supposed to feel like. Episodes flew by soo fast before I even realised it.

I laughed so hard throughout the drama that I genuinely choked multiple times. The comedy was effortlessly funny, and for me it's an easy 10/10.

A little late to the party, but I always thought Kim Ji-won had her best on-screen chemistry with Kim Soo-hyun in Queen of Tears, and that no other co-star could top it. Well... I was so wrong. Park Seo-joon and Kim Ji-won completely blew my mind in Fight for My Way. They bicker, tease, comfort, and love each other in such a natural way that you forget you're watching actors. I couldn't get enough of them.

Watching Kim Ji-won again reminded me why she's one of my favorite actresses. Whether she's playing a rich, elegant heiress or a loud, messy, tomboyish girl-next-door like Aera, she makes it feel completely believable.

And Park Seo-joon took me by surprise ? I was convinced he looked his best in What's Wrong with Secretary Kim, but I have officially changed my mind. He looked both ridiculously handsome and adorably cute in this drama, and I was not prepared for that.

What made me love this drama even more was how simple the story was. It didn't try to shock me every few episodes with ridiculous twists or unnecessary drama. It's just a classic friends-to-lovers story that stays true to itself from beginning to end. Sometimes that's all you need.

I also appreciated that both characters had lives outside of each other. Aera dated other guys, chased her dream career, and never felt like a character who only existed for the romance. Dong-man had his own ambitions, struggles, and journey too. I love when romances remember that the characters are individuals first and a couple second. Plus their struggles were soo relatable and real.

One of the funniest surprises was Choi Woo-shik's as Moon-bin. Watching him try so hard to look cool while being unbelievably cringey had me in tears. And that open-air cinema scene? Comedy perfection.

This year has been disappointing for me when it comes to rom-coms, so stumbling across this drama felt like finding a hidden treasure. It reminded me why older K-dramas have such a loyal fanbase.

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A Gentle Masterpiece

This drama is more than just revenge.

I actually finished The First Jasmine last Monday, but I didn't have the time to write a review. Maybe that's a good thing because I'm no longer writing with fresh emotions. I can finally look back at the drama as a whole.

When I first heard about Mo Li, I had no expectations. I never read the novel or even the synopsis. I only knew it was Bai Lu and Cheng Lei's upcoming drama (I think this was around the time Legend of the Female General finished airing). Going in, I honestly thought it would just be another historical revenge story with a touch of romance. And I was perfectly fine with that.

But as the episodes went on, I found myself becoming more fascinated with the characters than the plot itself. I think this is also why some viewers felt the pacing was slow. To me, the drama leans more toward a slice-of-life approach than a fast-paced revenge drama. It takes its time to let every major character breathe, giving each of them their own story, flaws, and complexities.

That's probably why the divorce arc sparked so much discussion. I still stand by my opinion regarding that storyline, since I also learned to understand both of the leads. I haven't cried this much for any drama this 2026. Also, as viewers, we often forget that we're watching from a 3rd person perspective. That very advantage allows us to see both sides instead of choosing one over the other. I appreciate that the drama explored this kind of topic and story, especially in a historical setting.

Another thing I loved was how cohesive the story felt. It never became messy or overcomplicated. It didn't need for us to explain the story to the other viewers. The storytelling was straightforward, reminding me of older C-dramas where the narrative was allowed to unfold naturally, with both climactic moments and quieter, anti-climactic ones.

I also appreciated that the ending gave us enough time to simply watch the leads live in peace. I know some viewers may have wanted more action, but I personally loved it. Although the drama blends politics and romance, the romance itself never felt flashy or overly sweet. It was healing. It was gentle. It was a love built on sacrifice, forgiveness, understanding, and finding comfort in one another. That's something we don't often get to see.

As for the political storyline, I do think Mo Jingli's rebellion could have been developed further. The conflict and war between the factions deserved more time instead of being shown through brief sequences. Even so, I'm glad the spotlight remained on him during the rebellion. I've also seen people say they felt sorry for Mo Jingli. Personally, I didn't. Having the rightful claim to the throne doesn't automatically make someone worthy of it. He pursued power with the same cruelty as the Empress Dowager, and to me, he never deserved to rule.

As for Guo Jin, I know many viewers wanted her to suffer longer. But I actually think her ending was fitting. Despite everything she did, dying because of something she could no longer control felt poetic. In the end, time is the one thing that even power cannot control.

Overall, I genuinely enjoyed this drama. I loved the main characters, their friends, the seniors, and even the Han brothers. The only storyline I wish had been explored more was Princess Lingyun story. It had so much potential.

For me, The First Jasmine is one of the best dramas I've watched in 2026, and I've recommended to some friends.

If I could leave one piece of advice before you watch it, it would be this: keep an open mind. This isn't a drama about picking sides. It's a story that asks you to understand people, their choices, and the burdens they carry. And I think that's what makes it so memorable.

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So I really liked this drama at first. It was promising, cute, with an innovative story and OMG the chemistry. But then, in the second half, unfortunately, the story became repetitive, with no depth and no character development. The villain was very plain, with no intrigue. I felt like the story was just there to fill time and add some “suspense,” which it ultimately failed to achieve.
The FL was overly naive and emotional. She acted more like a teenager than a 30-something woman going back in time.
Hopefully, the chemistry and comedy made it bearable enough for me to continue watching.
Overall, I recommend it, but without high expectations. I do think it is somewhat overrated.

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Must watch S1 and S2 for Zhou Keyu! Addictive competition and hilarious personalities

If you’re even remotely curious about We Are the Champions Season 2 (战至巅峰2), I genuinely recommend giving it a shot. I knew NOTHING about eSports or Honor of Kings, and just was curious because Into1 was in season one and Zhou keyu is in both seasons. I liked Zhou Keyu after Sniper Butterfly and started watching his variety shows. His personality is sooo funny and cute, and he's super good at this game!! It's so cool to watch him compete, lead a team, interact with friends etc. if you're a fan of Zhou Keyu or want to learn more about his personality, definitely watch this show!! But I would start with season one as the beginning of his arc and introduction in this show as a Jungle King. For Season one, I only watched his parts and his team's matches. They are amazing.

Season 2 is really addictive!! It’s way more gripping than “a celebrity esports show” has any right to be. What makes this season so fun is that it doesn’t just show matches; it shows the whole process of building a team: the drafting, the training, the clashes in personality, the pressure, the strategy, and the emotional meltdowns and breakthroughs along the way. We also get to know the coaches from season 1. Gemini was Into1 (Keyu's team from season 1)'s coach and Keyu and him became close. The Gemini vs Jiuzhe camp format is especially addictive because you get to watch two completely different coaching styles shape their teams in real time. I absolutely love both coaches and their friendly, hilarious rivalry lol!
Even if you know nothing about Honor of Kings, it’s still incredibly watchable because the real hook is the teamwork and growth arc. You see players go from awkward strangers and chaotic solo plays to slowly learning communication, trust, leadership, and how to fight as a unit. And if you like underdog stories, emotional highs and lows, and watching someone gradually grow into a leader under pressure, Season 2 is such a satisfying watch. I started it for Zhou keyu only and ended up fully stressed over drafts, team fights, and whether they were about to throw a huge lead, which is how you know the show got me. I even download Honor of Kings to play with friends! Now I'm watching season one to four, one after the other.

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REST IN PEACE SHRIMPIE TT

This drama is everything. The cinematography, plot, acting, cast, costumes—everything deserves a full 10/10. Even though the OST isn't particularly memorable, it's still good enough and doesn't take away from the experience.

The plot is the biggest highlight. Every episode has its own purpose and never feels empty. There isn't a single boring episode. The story constantly surprises you, making it almost impossible to predict what will happen next. About half of the episodes are absolute tearjerkers.

I love everything about this drama—the relationships between the characters, the character development, and the emotional depth of every single one of them. There honestly isn't much to criticize because it's just that good.

The only thing that gave me the ick was the CGI used for the monsters. They looked a little too cartoonish and unrealistic. Thankfully, the incredible storyline completely makes up for it.

Now, let's talk about Ding Yuxi (Shrimpie).

His acting was phenomenal. One moment he's Zhang Haixia with the softest, most innocent baby face, and the next he's a terrifying, dark, and completely unhinged psycho. The switch between personalities was so convincing. I honestly felt the most sympathy for Zhang Haixia because living with a split personality is such a heartbreaking fate.

Zhang Hailou was such a fun character. He brought a lot of humour to the drama, but at the same time, I felt sorry for him because he was always kept in the dark. Zhang Haiqi, his mentor, and Zhang Haixia never told him the truth about the bigger secrets. Everyone saw him as carefree and careless, so they assumed he didn't need to know, which made his character surprisingly tragic.

Zhang Haiqi is another heartbreaking character. She carried every responsibility on her shoulders and kept all her pain bottled up inside. As the mother figure to her two children, I can understand why she chose to bear everything alone, but it was still painful to watch.

Last but not least, rest in peace, Zhang Haixia.

You were my favourite character from beginning to end. Even after becoming the villain halfway through the story, I couldn't bring myself to hate you. You deserved so much better.

Overall Rating: 10/10

One of the best Chinese dramas I have watched this year, and definitely one that I'll never forget. 🤍

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To Jiang Lifei—The Sanest Xianxia FL and the One Most Let Down by the Adaptation

Here are my thoughts on this drama so far.
As a massive heroine-stan, this show has been an absolute blast to watch! Even though it’s not labeled as a typical "female-centric" drama, the female lead’s actions, words, and choices give off major boss-lady energy. It completely breaks away from those tired old Xianxia tropes. She is incredibly realistic, completely immune to guilt-trips and gaslighting, and has rock-solid morals. She knows how to show gratitude but also stands firmly for justice. Honestly, it’s been ages since we’ve had a Xianxia female lead with this level of clarity and sanity. I don't mean to shade other Xianxia heroines, but Jiang Lifei is just built different. She doesn't just instantly forgive the male lead just because he "had his reasons" or played the pity card. A betrayal is a betrayal, a lie is a lie, and trust isn't something you just hand back easily. This is literally how a normal person would react! Like, sure, she gets that he wants to save his older brother, but since when does that give him the right to sacrifice an innocent person’s (Riyan's) life in a "one life for another" trade? Especially when Riyan actually saved their lives before. That's just fundamentally wrong.
Another thing I absolutely love about her is that she actually has a mouth and uses it! Seriously, in most dramas, the leads refuse to communicate, causing endless misunderstandings that make the audience lose their minds. But whenever Lifei has an issue, she confronts people directly to get things straight. She’s straightforward, doesn’t play mind games, and claps back on the spot. No internal conflict, no self-blame—if something is unfair, she will call it out right then and there. Her character writing is just top-tier. Every line out of her mouth is an absolute mic-drop quote:

"I know you want to save your family, your brother. And while I do sympathize with you, I am not going to help you. Everyone is busy; handle your own business yourself."

"Compensate me? If I had actually been killed by you, what were you going to do—cry at my grave?"

I am so obsessed with Jiang Lifei!!! Ju Jingyi completely brought this character to life. Honestly, she has so many more green flags, but I’ll talk about them as I keep watching. Haha! 😁

So, again.
I have finally finished the entire drama! Honestly, while I am actually a little bit satisfied with how the ending wrapped up, looking back at the whole show, my biggest disappointment and regret remains the way the female lead’s strength and high-light moments were completely nerfed by the adaptation.
Looking back, Lifei’s character design is a total game-changer, setting a whole new god-tier standard for Xianxia female leads:

1. Putting Herself First with Zero Self-Blame: She never blindly simps or chooses romance over friends. In her world, she is always her own top priority—loving herself always comes before loving others.

2. The Ultimate Reality Check: She is completely immune to emotional manipulation, guilt-trips, and moral kidnapping. When presented with tragic fate and the twisted logic of trading an innocent life for another, she shuts it down instantly with epic counter-gaslighting.

3. Rock-Solid Morals & No Free Passes: A betrayal is a betrayal—she doesn't just hand out easy forgiveness. The moment she notices someone using her, she cuts ties without looking back. Even when she’s mad at the male lead, she remains fair and righteous, clearing his name when needed. She is also deeply grateful, always confronting things face-to-face to repay any kindness she receives.

4. A Mouth She Actually Uses & Consistent High IQ: Whenever there's an issue, she confronts people directly to get things straight—no mind games, no dragging out misunderstandings. Most importantly, her IQ remains consistently high throughout the entire show, completely unlike other heroines who suffer massive intelligence drops in the later stages just to move the plot.

But honestly, as both a fan of the novel and the actress, I am so done with the screenwriters and directors! Is it really that hard to give the female lead her own ultimate, badass high-light moment?
In the drama, Lifei is either getting injured or on her way to getting injured; she’s either trapped or on her way to getting trapped. Almost every single time she is in danger, the plot forces the male lead to come to her rescue in a cliché "damsel in distress" setup.
This is a massive, frustrating downgrade from the original novel! In the book, when the female lead is imprisoned or faces danger, she relies on her own sheer competence and the awakening power of Jianmu to break out and crush the villains. She has absolute agency. Yet, the drama chose to nerf this incredibly powerful, badass heroine just to feed into the tired old "hero saves the beauty" trope. Of course I love it but the changes are so much . Sure, she still uses her wits to suppress antagonists and expose conspiracies during public trials in the drama, but these intellectual moments simply cannot make up for the fact that her combat power was stripped away.
She is literally the Fruit of Jianmu! Although I am somewhat satisfied with the ending because it wrapped up decently, the fact that the drama took a brilliant, clear-headed queen who should have been obliterating villains, and nerfed her into a weak, vulnerable plot-device being protected all the time, remains the absolute biggest failure of this adaptation

Honestly, watching this show, I find Jianmu to be the most tragic and pitiable existence. The Yaksha clan committed the sins and got cursed, yet they have to devour Jianmu just to survive. It honestly confuses me—was the curse meant for the Yaksha, or was it secretly targeting the innocent Jianmu?! On top of that, all those hypocritical sect cultivators are just as bad; every single one of them wants to seize and devour Jianmu's pure power. What did our Jianmu ever do wrong to deserve such a cruel and unfair destiny?!

Back in the ancient war, the Yaksha clan committed massive slaughters and disrupted the cosmic order, angering the ancient gods. As a result, they were slapped with a brutal bloodline curse: every generation of the Yaksha Demon Lord, despite owning terrifying powers, faces an inevitable backlash. They slowly turn feral, lose their minds, fall into a bloodthirsty madness, and eventually die of sheer physical exhaustion in extreme pain.
The only antidote in the universe to suppress this violent curse is the purest spiritual energy of the sacred Jianmu tree (our female lead, Jiang Lifei). In all their past lives, to save the dying and agonizing Demon Lord, the Jianmu tree—deeply in love with him—would willingly sacrifice and sacrifice herself. But this "one life for another" trick only treats the symptoms, not the cause. The Demon Lord left behind is always left living a life worse than death, while Jianmu goes into the next reincarnation, trapping them both in a toxic loop of "love, sacrifice, and painful survival."

Novel Canon: A Genuine Two-Way Street & Deep Mutual Understanding
This is exactly why the romance in the original novel is top-tier. It’s never about one person blindly taking while the other blindly self-sacrifices. It’s 100% a two-way street:
The Heroine’s Clear-Headed Fight: Jiang Lifei loves him with high self-esteem and self-love, knowing full well that "her life matters just as much." She refuses to do the cliché self-sacrifice thing because she deeply understands Xiu Yuan—she knows that if she trades her life for his, the fiercely loyal Xiu Yuan would live in absolute agony and guilt. She refuses to burden him with that kind of lifelong trauma.
The Male Lead’s Restraint & Protection: Xiu Yuan loves and understands Lifei just as deeply. Even when the Yaksha curse is tearing him apart in agonizing pain, he absolutely refuses to drain Lifei’s energy to prolong his own life. He’d rather suffer through the feral madness all by himself, and is fully prepared to die rather than hurt her or drag her down.

And I’m actually feeling so mad at the adaptation to be honest. They change all the sweet moments。 To be honest, the most unbearable thing about the drama is how the production team forced so many misunderstandings between Jiang Lifei and Lei Xiuyuan, even pitting them against each other.
In the novel, they knew each other since childhood as fellow foreign outcasts. Growing up, they were always each other’s rock and soul protectors. Once you’ve read the novel and immersed yourself in their pure, beautiful bond, it’s impossible to sit through the drama's endless, cliché "love-hate tug-of-war."

In the book's canon, their only real conflict is that the Yaksha clan naturally craves to devour the Fruit of Jianmu (which, if we are being real, was a tragedy caused entirely by human cultivators in the first place).
However, Lei Xiuyuan literally fought with his life to suppress this feral instinct. When they fled overseas, he broke his own horn just to protect Jiang Lifei. With that broken horn, the Yaksha curse was completely lifted from him. It might sound like a simple trope on paper, but under the book's setup, it is incredibly moving and emotional.

If it weren’t for Immortal Qingcheng’s "Senluo Magic" turning back time, and if Qingcheng hadn't taken Jiang Lifei away from overseas—which allowed the Fruit of Jianmu to build up its protective camouflage—Lifei would have been torn apart and killed in a struggle between Hu Jiaping and Lei Xiuyuan the very moment she matured.
It is all because of Qingcheng that they got a second chance at life. This second chance allowed them to develop human emotions and rationality, giving them the dignity to resist and refuse to yield to their feral beast instincts.

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Teen Masterpiece

I started watching with very low expectations because I had just finished a lot of heavier dramas and wanted something silly and coming-of-age.

What I didn't expect was a character study disguised as a cheesy teen romantic dramedy.

For me, this was also the first love triangle that made sense psychologically, not simply because of fate, pheromones, plot armor, or "the script says so."

First there were three friends. Then there were two estranged people. Then somehow they became three again. The triangle felt deeply tied to grief, guilt, abandonment, friendship, and reconciliation.

What I find interesting about Seo-jun's feelings is that I don't think they can be reduced to "first love" or "not being able to get over someone because you never confessed." I believe that, just as he initially coped with his pain by blaming Soo-ho, he also coped by holding on to this connection. This isn't meant to undermine his feelings at all. They're clearly real. We watch him grow tremendously throughout the show, especially after Soo-ho leaves. I just think both things can be true at the same time.

I understand why so many people preferred Seo-jun. He was generally less flawed and easier to love because he wasn't carrying the same amount of emotional baggage as Soo-ho. But the aspects of Seo-jun that make him so attractive to the general public are of no concern to her. Actually now that I think about it, after her heartbreak with Hyun Bin (the cafeteria worker guy from first school) I could see her at least subconsciously developing an ick to cool guys.

Soo-ho and Ju-kyung's relationship felt purer to me.

Yes, Soo-ho made questionable choices. But most of them were completely understandable for someone who had experienced that level of abandonment and who had spent years pouring himself into everything except intimate relationships. What mattered more to me was his willingness to grow.

I can understand why some viewers feel Seo-jun never got the chance he deserved. Honestly, if I were Ju-kyung I probably would have given him a chance too lol. But I'm neither Ju-kyung nor monogamous, so looking at it through the lens of the characters themselves, I found the strength of Soo-ho and Ju-kyung's connection very believable.

She was the first person to truly enter his secluded world, while he was the first person to read the book "regardless" of the cover.

Seo-jun, meanwhile, is presented as someone who is more experienced and emotionally sheltered. He has a loving mother, a bigger support network, loyal friends, and eventually a clear path toward success. I never got the feeling that Ju-kyung felt as needed in Seo-jun's world as she did in Soo-ho's.

The abandoned child and the middle child whose mother later grieved not having raised as a princess but almost as an adopted child. Their wounds reflected and complemented each other.

In less words: Soo-ho's abandonment wound mirrors Ju-kyung's need to be needed.

I also loved how the show visualizes this. Ju-kyung's house is full of people, color, texture, noise, and life. Soo-ho's house is empty, cold, flat, and sterile. Her keepsakes often need close-ups because affection is already overflowing in her environment. His keepsakes stand out immediately because there is so little emotional warmth surrounding them.

The locked music room is probably the best example. To me, it's a visual representation of Soo-ho's heart. We only really discover that room through Ju-kyung entering his life, and by opening that room, she is effectively opening him.

One thing I rarely see mentioned is how much support Ju-kyung actually had throughout the series. Sure, she was bullied, but later she also recognizes that she often kept her pain to herself instead of seeking support, opening up, or fighting back. Her mother was awful at first, but she grows and repents once she knows about the bullying. Even that dynamic is an interesting gender-role reversal, since the harsh breadwinner parent is often the father in these stories.

As someone who had to deal with the death of a parent in a foreign country with almost no family and very few friends, I deeply related to Soo-ho's actions after his father became ill. He was stuck. He was exhausted. As heartbreaking as it was for Ju-kyung, I'm convinced it was even worse for him as both a grieving child and a caretaker. The fact that he never changed her contact name says everything.

Because of that, I never felt Seo-jun was the one who got "done dirty." If anything, I felt that Soo-ho was simply incredibly unlucky.

You can survive heartbreak.

Heartbreak combined with the looming death of the only parent you were finally beginning to reconnect with can push someone to the edge.

In the end, I think Ju-kyung's decision comes down to something very simple.

She didn't want Soo-ho to live with regrets.

The same way she didn't want to live with her own.

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I just couldn't.....

No matter how I tried, I just couldn't get past how choppy, nonsensical and boring this was. 12 episodes that basically lived on a loop for 10. The ending, the tatooed butt thong and the father being gay. Make it make sense and maybe my opinion would change. I struggled through the last 3 episodes ending with a headache because of nothing having any impact to warrant this.

Were there any moments that were endearing? I can only think of one - When they were in the hospital room and he weepingly begged him to live for him.

I was blindly rooting for the second cp until they allowed an older ex teacher to kiss a younger student on the school compound infront of the entire school. Now, where is this acceptable? All sanity left the script at this point coupled with the revelation of the thong. Another thing that felt very unrealistic: older brother is gay, younger brother is gay, sister is a lesbian, father is gay. I was waiting to see if they'd make the mother surprise us, too.

Their acting skills were passible. The older brother's face had one emotion. Dead. The script existed just for shock value. In entirety, it was not horrible but it was too much for me to care that much about. Easily forgotten.

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