Xiang Liu and Xiao Yao’s Story and Romance

Missing part in Kaola translation in chapter 41. 

I don't know if the following part was not included in 2013 edition of LYF which Kaola used as resource of original text or she/he thought it was not so important so just made a small summary. 

the text was mainly about XY's motivation for studying medicine in proper way as well as editing the medical book.

Kaola translation just summarized is as following:

The Yellow Emperor summoned all the famed doctors and healers around the vast wilderness and together with Xiao Yao convinced them to write down all their knowledge to create medical texts for future generations much like the Flame Emperor did in creating the herb medicinal manuals.

Without any wars and conflicts, time and the seasons passed quickly when there was much to do, and in the blink of an eye fifteen years had passed.

Below is the missing part. Translation from 2017 edition resulted from auto-translation function of Microsoft Edge browser. I highlighted her direct reason (circumstance)  to start working with the medicine book in red text which I will discuss in another post (maybe some of you already had the answer for why she suffered from great pain and discouraged of everything at that time)

In the past, excellent doctors from various countries were afraid of spreading their medical skills and did not communicate with each other. Now, under the summons of the Yellow Emperor, they gathered at Xiaoyueding to discuss medical skills together.

At first, they still said five points and left five points, and when Xiao Yao gave them the sorted out "Shennong's Materia Medica" without concealment, they held the world's treasure, shocked to disbelief.

Xiao Yao said: "You are all the best doctors in the Great Wilderness, and you will naturally know whether this book is true or false after reading it." I don't want to explain why the lost Shennong's Materia Medica has reappeared, but I just want to tell you a little story about me. ”

Under the attentive gaze of all the doctors, Xiao Yao said: "I just started to get in touch with medical skills not to save people, but to kill people. I have killed far more people than I have saved. At that time, I never felt that the healer was worthy of respect, nor did I feel how precious the "Shennong Materia Medica" was, until one day, I suffered from pain, and I was discouraged about everything, and my grandfather, His Majesty the Yellow Emperor, led me into the house where the medical ancestor Emperor Yan once lived. In that room, there was half a box of Emperor Yan's codex. You must have all heard that Emperor Yan tried medicine and died of poisoning by tasting herbs, and those codexes recorded all the medications and physical reactions of Emperor Yan from the poison to his death. ”

Xiao Yao's expression was very solemn, and the expressions of all the doctors were also very solemn.

"It's talking about a hundred herbs, but a single "Shennong's Materia Medica" is not just a hundred herbs? As a physician, you should be able to imagine the pain of all kinds of poisons, but in the midst of such great pain, Emperor Yan not only had to deal with state affairs, but also insisted on recording every medicine he used. I have never met Emperor Yan, but when I read Emperor Yan's codex, I cried while reading it, and I cried all night after reading it. Before the pain that Emperor Yan endured, I can't say that my pain has become lighter, after all, Emperor Yan is Emperor Yan, and I am me. But because I felt the mind and feelings of a great emperor, my vision of things changed. I am ashamed that I once despised the Shennong Materia Medica, and I am even more ashamed that I have treasures that have not benefited others. From that moment on, I was determined to study medicine, I studied medicine and practiced medicine at the same time, the medical hall was not very famous, and the people who came to see the patients were ordinary people, but it was precisely because of contact with them that I began to understand what a doctor brings to others, not only the pain of contact with the body, but also the joy and peace of a person, even a family. Because I healed the father of a little girl, the little girl doesn't have to be sold anymore. Every day, she and her brother would leave the wild fruits they had picked at my door. That's when I really started learning the art of medicine with the heart of a healer. You are all well-known doctors, do you remember why you wanted to study medicine in the first place? ”

Xiao Yao's gaze was as clear as water, sweeping over them one by one.

"In order to learn medical skills, I asked His Majesty the Black Emperor to send a teacher to me, that is, His Majesty's imperial physician Yin, we often communicate together to learn medical skills, I have a little selfishness, I am just a person, no matter how good the medical skills are, my ability is limited, so I hope Yin's medical skills are better and can better take care of His Majesty's body. My grandfather, His Majesty the Yellow Emperor, saw that Yin and I were arguing over a herb and a prescription from time to time, and when my grandfather heard me say that the herbs recorded in the "Shennong Materia Medica" grew in the Central Plains, and many medicines in the sea were not recorded in the "Shennong's Materia Medica", my grandfather suddenly had an idea to gather the power of doctors all over the world to jointly sort out and compile a set of medical skills to make up for the shortcomings of the "Shennong's Materia Medica", so that more herbs and prescriptions can benefit the world. ”

All the doctors looked at Xiao Yao in shock, crazy, crazy! There are people who have done more than "Shennong's Materia Medica"?

Xiao Yao said calmly: "At that time, I also thought it was impossible! This idea is very crazy, and it is estimated that only His Majesty the Emperor dares to think and do it. I don't have the courage of my grandfather, and I don't believe that I can compile a set of medical skills that record the prescriptions and medical skills of the whole Great Wilderness, but I just think that I can collect a little bit is a little, although I can't compare to Emperor Yan's sentiment of trying medicine by himself, but as long as I do my best, at least I have a clear conscience. But I didn't expect that there would really be this day, the excellent medical skills of the whole Great Wilderness gathered in Xiaoyueding, and there were still little doctors sent by my grandfather to go deep into the people and collect and sort out prescriptions from all over the Great Wilderness, I think my grandfather's wish is hopefully fulfilled! ”

Xiao Yao said sincerely: "The reasons for each of us to study medicine are different, all of you here are great doctors, medical skills have brought you fame and fortune, but fame and fortune are not enough to die, countless people in this world have come and gone, but Feihong is fluttering, claw shadow is not left, how many people can leave something for future generations?" How many people can leave something for generations to come? My grandfather gave you not only an opportunity to communicate with each other and improve your medical skills, but also an opportunity for you to influence the generations to come. A long, long time later, the majestic city has collapsed, generations of emperors have died, and countless heroic legends have been annihilated, but I firmly believe that the medical books you have compiled will still circulate in the world, and will still make countless fathers recover and countless daughters laugh. ”

Xiao Yao stood up and bowed to all the doctors: "I implore you to share a school with the world, so that the great wilderness and thousands of generations of people can regain their health and happiness because of you!" ”

She did not know when the Yellow Emperor stood aside and listened, at this moment he said slowly: "You can learn and succeed, you are all wise people, please understand, while sharing what you have learned, it is not to lose, but to gain." ”

All the doctors looked at the "Shennong's Materia Medica" in their hands, then looked at the Yellow Emperor, and finally looked at Xiaoyao, some were shocked, some were thoughtful, and some were full of eagerness, and then they gradually became firm. began to salute Xiao Yao in twos and threes, and finally all saluted Xiao Yao: "We are willing to follow the example of Emperor Yan, the ancestor of medicine, and do what we have learned all our lives to compile medical books." ”

The Yellow Emperor looked at Xiao Yao and the doctor who were bowing to the ground, and smiled slightly.

Sorry about digging up days-old posts, but I finally have time to go through older posts and reply to them.

This is not a "rebuttal" - we all have our own opinions and that's all good. I just would like to use your post to share some of my thoughts on this matter of who was ultimately responsible for the outcome of YaoLiu's relationship. 

 H19279:

Oh, it seems that you blame XL for their tragic ending of their relationship.

I don't blame XL for how their relationship ended. In general, I don't traffic in blame because I think when you blame other people, you are not taking responsibility for your part in the outcome. So, I don't blame XL, XY or Jing for the outcome of YaoLiu's relationship. 

Both Xiang Liu and Xiao Yao have their reasons for making the choices that they did, and they have every right to choose their path. A relationship is a two-person business; you need two people to agree to the relationship for it to happen. It's like a tango, you have to be in sync for it to be sustainable. Xiang Liu and Xiao Yao were probably never in sync. When one of them stepped into the relationship, the other was either not ready or already stepping away. 

I noticed a lot of debates about who ultimately was the final decision-maker in the outcome of their relationship. Personally, between XL and XY, I would choose XL as the one who may (noticed the word may) have had the ability to exert a stronger influence on the outcome. My reason is that Xiang Liu is the one who shows clarity of thought, unimpeded by fear and he also has the decisiveness to act on his decision. Unlike Xiao Yao who operates out of fear and engaged in willful ignorance and self-deception. However, his action alone would not amount to anything unless XY responded accordingly. Like I said, it's a tango, not a solo performance.

 H19279:

Her selfish criteria and her characteristics of "scare of having and losing"

 H19279:

XL didn't meet her prerequisite requirement. Therefore, in her mind she had never considered XL as candidate for her lifetime companion. She was afraid of letting him in her dream. Jing/YSQ was always beside her. Thank to her rational mind, she knew Jing/YSQ is a safer choice.

I agree that XY is selfish. Not because she has certain criteria for a mate (which one of us doesn't?), but because she asked for things that she isn't willing to give. 

Right from the beginning, XY wasn't looking for love. Love never came up as a criterion for choosing a partner; the focus for XY has always been a companion that won't leave her. So Jing is the safe/obvious choice. What she didn't expect was to fall in love with Xiang Liu; a man who didn't/wouldn't/couldn't meet the essential criteria that she was looking for. This creates a dilemma for Xiao Yao - between her mind and her heart. A dilemma that she tries to mitigate by engaging in willful ignorance and self-deception. 

A clear example of her willful ignorance is the whole 37 years in exchange for a mountain deal. Xiao Yao knows how Xiang Liu treated her in those 37 years, she even suspects that he used one of his life to save hers, and yet, she was quick to dismiss the implications of his behaviour and chose to "believe" that it was all transactional. Is she really stupid? No, it's just a convenient excuse. Because if she acknowledges that Xiang Liu loves her, then she cannot place the responsibility on him. She can't just say, "he doesn't love me, so there's no point even contemplating". Acknowledgement removed one obstacle, but it requires her to deal with the actual dilemma. It requires her to make a choice and take action - do I step in and take a chance, or do I play it safe?? (that is if she even admits to her feelings for him)

People said that Xiao Yao didn't choose Xiang Liu; that she chose Jing because she was rational. Frankly, she didn't choose anything. She was too scared to even examine her feelings or even to acknowledge his. She never fully stepped in and took clear action; she waited passively for other people to make their intentions known and then respond/react to them. Jing picked her, so she said yes to him. If Xiang Liu had confessed would she have chosen him? Who knows, since the two of them never sync up.

Xiao Yao is rational and courageous in many ways, except when it comes to the matter of the heart. Here, her modus operandus is to play it safe, too afraid of losing to take the risks. But this means putting herself into a passive/reactive position and her options are limited by  default to other people choices.  

The bottom line is that both Xiang Liu and Xiao Yao could have taken action independently of each other and seen where it led. They didn't have to wait for the other person to give them the all-clear before confessing etc. If they don't take action, then why are they blaming the other person for their failure to act? All of this, "I didn't do X because you didn't do Y" is a cop-out. You can't control others behaviour, but you can control your own. Take action and deal with the consequences. If you don't, you only have yourself to blame.

 luv2bafangurl:

New question: what do you ladies think, why XL never told TSJ/XY about FFYY and TSH affair?

He did try to tell XY, but she didn't want to hear it, so he shrugged his shoulders and did as she wanted.

It was in the scene where everybody was at the party and XL was sitting with FFYY and TSH and noticed them making moon eyes at each other.  Then XY came in and called him out for a walk in the garden.  He tried to get her to go see what FFYY was doing in the garden with Tushan ... and she cut him off.  The woman does NOT want to hear what she doesn't want to hear.

 luv2bafangurl:

He surely can save XY heartbreak if TSJ pesky engagement problem is solved earlier and not escalated that way.

First, in the novel it was not as clear as in the drama that FFB knew something between FFYY and TSH. 

Xiao Yao stopped and looked around, this maze really was amazing, no wonder it could trap Feng Long and Xing Yue for an entire day.

Xiao Yao looked at Fang Feng Bei “How to get out?”

Fang Feng Bei smiled “This maze has many interesting areas, you don’t want to go check it out?”

“No!”

Fang Feng Bei led Xiao Yao to the exit “Don’t regret it in the future.”

Xiao Yao coldly huffed.

This event was on FL and Xing Yue's birthday, XY just went to Middle Plain for short time. XY at that time didn't have clear feeling with Jing. FFB and XY after that event still enjoy time together for several years. He taught her archery and they traveled, discovered Zhiyi, Zhe Province together. During that time, Jing should have solved his problem of canceling the engagment himself. I don't see any reason that XL need to tell XY about FFYY might have love affair with TSH. He probably didn't know how serious is the affair. And FFYY is officially his sister who had quite good relationship with him (She drew XY's attention to FFB in the event).

2nd, even XY herself didn't tell Jing that FFYY was a dangerous one who tried to kill CX several times so that Jing could have prepared, and alerted more with YY. So why should XL do so? He basically didn't have any evidence about YY and TJH after 37 years. They didn't have any encounter all together perhaps only in CX's wedding. And that one was way after Jing was framed by YY. The pregnancy before marriage was kind of "forbiden subject" that should be kept secretly. Did Fang Feng family all know about that before her wedding? And FFB was not at home all the time. Moreover, after Jing became clan leader, he knew that YY more determined to be clan leader's wife. YY and TJH even pretended to dislike each other (if I remmember correctly). So, no clear evidence. 

Last, it's his character. He was a general, he was ruthless on battle. He was also an assasin if someone hire him. However, he had a crystal heart. He would not harm any other for his benefit. It can be seen that he helped XY with his own resources and effort. When he helped her, he didn't want her to know that. The only time he gave XY analysis about Jing's death. He did it for the sake of her benefit mainly. But he didn't tell her directly that was CX. 

To conclude. It is not justified for him to require him to help XY/Jing about YY and TSH's affair. 

Bonus: Some people also complained why he didn't let XY know about Jing was in coma. He kept that secret for 6 year even though he knew XY was depressed and heartache during that time

 H19279:

@Liddi, and others

I found a free 2017 internet version of LYF in Chinese. I heard that the major changed took place in 2019. So I don't expect much significant difference between 2013 and 2017 edition.

For those who are interested in the original text in Chinese (for curious reason) you can take a look the following link

长相思 桐华, 长相思小说, 长相思小说全文免费在线阅读 - 落霞读书 (luoxiadushu.com) 

I also find the translation tool such as google translate or bing translation is quite ok in certain cases. For simple text, they can do very well. Of course, user should double check with dictionary or play arount with the sentense which doesn't make so much sense. for example the long text that I shared, I just had to fix only 1 sentence (from I didn't to she didn't). The literature level may not be optimal but informative enough. 

That’s awesome! Thanks for the link. I want to start giving it a try!

 liddi:

@windiaaa041293

The text in Vol 1 Ch14 is as follows:

却看璟一边站起，一边随手解开了束发的发冠，满头青丝如银河泻九天，披落在他背上，飘散在海风中。他侧倚着船栏，几分慵懒、几分随意地看着东边天空初露的晨曦。

小夭一瞬间看得心如鹿撞，怦怦直跳。玱玹叫了她好几声，她都没有听到，惹得所有人都看着她。

玱玹推了她一把，“你在想什么？”

小夭忙道：“啊，你们回来了。” 脸刹那涨得通红，幸亏有面纱遮住，没有人能看到。

璟却似乎明白了，眼中飞溅着喜悦。

However, she saw Jing undo the coronet that held his hair as he stood up, sending a head full of black hair down his back like the Milky Way falling from the sky, flying in the sea breeze. He leaned against the railing of the ship, gazing lazily and casually at the first light of dawn in the eastern sky.

@Liddi

I found the text about XL's hair

"相柳白衣白发，优雅自如地游弋着，白色的长发 在他的身后飘舞，" (Chapter 13)

Regardless the color different, do you find the  hair forms of the two are similar (especially observing from the back)

I have checked all the previous chapters about YQS's hair but there is no mention about his hair style. The XY's memory about YSQ's hair is she cleaned his hair while he was patient. Later YSQ sometimes help WXL drying his hair. She didn't have any impression of flying hair connecting to YSQ.

Xiang Liu and Xiao Yao’s Story and Romance - Page 282 #2841223 - Lost You Forever - MyDramaList 

Yes, she can link that memory on boat to Jing when later she recalled. What I means why at that moment  his free hair drew her attention (in chapter 14).

XL's hair: 飘舞 in water, (this is XL's hair recorded in her mirror. She just looked at it a few days before)

Jing's hair: Like Milky Way & 飘散 in breeze 

I don't know how to say but sth like she was impressed/ hooked by the dancing hair style which first came from XL. She loved his hair for sure. Because in the novel, TH always describled XL's hair whenever he appeared (only XL, not FFB). That generally reflects  XY's view. Similar example when she was drawn by FFB the first time she saw him in the dancing place just because he looked like XL. Jing at that moment became special in her eyes because of his flying hair which is similar to XL's dancing hair 

Now I remember one detail. When XL brought XY to the sea after CX wedding. She asked him why he didn't changed his hair back. Why? He had to bring her back to Shen-nong later. It would be illogical if he changed his hair back to white. She paid a lot of attention on his hair. 

P/S: if I included the content of the poem for the chapter title, then it's likely she thought of him when she was on boat (full moon on the sea can remind her about him,she cursed him because she had to swim the whole night thank to him; she got exhausted and could not enjoy the water then she drank wine until got drunk and nausea). The poem is about a woman missing her husband who parted her in autum; she was on boat, relieving her longing, looking at the moon...

Leaked script Ep8 scenes 15-19   (Vol 2 Ch16 - Chapter 33)

This covers Xiao Yao's return to Gao Xin after the wedding uproar, and her departure to give the live-saving pills to Jing. The scene where A Nian asked her why she ran away on her wedding, about her relationship with Fangfeng Bei and the rumours that abound about them were omitted.  Again, highlighted texts are additional lines/scenes not in the novel.

[Jing pretended to drink the poisoned medicine by Fangfeng Yi Ying, but actually poured it away, drinking the real medicines Hu Zhen prepared instead. Frustrated that he was still not dead, Fangfeng Yi Ying instructed that they increase the poison dosage without Hou's approval]

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Xiao Yao returned to Five Deities Mountain at Gao Xin, and was surprised to see the courteous way she was welcomed by the courtiers, as if nothing ever happened.

XY (bowing): Royal Father.
Gao Xin Shao Hao smiled, and his tone was normal, as if Xiao Yao just returned from a regular trip.
GXSH: It's good that you have come home. Are you tired?
XY: No.

Xiao Yao looked at A Nian and Ru Shou. A Nian made a face at her, while Ru Shou's smile was perfectly cordial.

XY (confused): This time I caused so much trouble for Royal Father and Gao Xin. How is it... everyone acts as if nothing had happened?
GXSH (gentle and warm): Have you forgotten what I once told you? You can be reckless and behave outrageously, because your Royal Father is a powerful ruler. I have the capability to allow my daughter to be outrageous.

Xiao Yao felt guilty and happy at the same time, and could not find the words to speak.

AN (smugly): Royal Father, now you realise that I am more obedient than Older Sister? She only appears well-behaved normally and does not cause any trouble, but once she does cause trouble, it is earth-shattering.
XY: So... don't you imitate me.
RS: Your Highness, I wish to ask about Fangfeng Bei...

Before Ru Shou could finish his words, Gao Xin Shao Hao coughed lightly and Ru Shou immediately caught the hint.

RS: Oh... actually I have nothing to ask about Fangfeng Bei. I just remembered... there are some tasks from His Majesty that I have not completed. I will take my leave first.
GXSH: Yes.

Ru Shou bowed, then gave A Nian a meaningful look, indicating she should follow him. A Nian pretended that she did not notice, so Ru Shou dragged her off without another word.

RS: I have some things that I need to consult Second Princess.

A Nian struggled against Ru Shou and kicked him.
Gao Xin Shao Hao acted as if he had not noticed the squabbling two, got up and walked over to Xiao Yao.

GXSH (gently): I heard that you went to the Tushan residence.
XY: Yes, I went to Qingqiu to see Tushan Jing.
GXSH: Do you need me to do anything? Back then, I said I could send an army to destroy the Fangfeng clan, and help you snatch the young Tushan fox. That was not a joke.

Xiao Yao was extremely moved, but shook her head.

XY: Thank you, Royal Father. However, this time, I wish to handle this myself. I want to face it... I no longer wish to avoid it passively.
GXSH (gratified): Very well. However, you must remember that you have a Royal Father, one who is extremely capable, whom you can always approach if you have any need.
XY: I do have something I need your help with.
GXSH: Oh?
XY (wheedling): Royal Father, can you give me the keys to the private treasury? I wish to go through the treasures in your private collection.
GXSH (sounding out): You want to create pills* again?

Xiao Yao looked squarely at Gao Xin Shao Hao in the eye.

XY: Yes, I want to create pills again, but unlike previous times, what I want to create are not poisons, but medicines that can heal.

[She went on to create live-saving pills mixed with her blood, which she would later pass to Tushan Jing]

*the word 药 does not specifically mean "pill" but a substance (solid/liquid) which can either be poisonous or beneficial.