Xiang Liu and Xiao Yao’s Story and Romance

Sauvignon Blanc｜Under what circumstances did Xiaoyao make the ice crystal ball?

"Sauvignon Blanc" 2-12 <The smoke and water are vast, the meaning is unforgettable>

Chapter 12 of the second book of "Sauvignon Blanc", "Smoke and water, unforgettable thoughts", hits me every time.

Where is the old friend? The smoke and water are vast. I miss you so much, but I don’t know who to tell.

It's unforgettable, but everything in the past is too profound for me to forget.

"Xiao Yao was silent for more and more time, and Xinyue and An Nian didn't pay attention. In their impression, Xiao Yao was a lazy, unsociable, and aloof person. They didn't know that Xiao Yao was actually the most cold-blooded person. I'm afraid of loneliness and like to talk."

When I went out to buy something, I met Jing and felt uncomfortable:

"She has always told herself that losing a man is nothing, and she can still live a good life. She has always relied on her will to control everything very well, but at this moment, the emotions accumulated in her chest and abdomen suddenly lost control. .”

"When he sat down in front of the gaming table and revealed his emotions, anger and sadness without concealing it, Xiaoyao suddenly admired the person who opened this casino. He put on a mask and dared to express emotions that he usually did not dare to expose. "

Are those accumulated emotions just caused by Jing? no.

The emotions caused by Jing were already revealed when she didn't put on the mask. Her eyes were sore and she just wanted to stay away.

After putting on the mask, the emotions that you dare not expose can be revealed, only the emotions towards Xiang Liu.

"Xiaoyao has been winning money non-stop, betting bigger and bigger, and there is no limit. She is looking forward to causing some trouble . In Huangdi's words, she will indulge herself. But the casino is also strange, Xiaoyao has been No one tried to stop her from winning money. Later, people who gambled around gathered around Xiaoyao, followed her to place bets, and won money with Xiaoyao."

What does Xiaoyao expect to cause trouble? The clearest connection between Xiaoyao and the underground casino is Xiang Liu. Her actions are very much like she hopes to make a big fuss, see if Xiang Liu is there, and attract Xiang Liu.

Sure enough, Xiang Liu came, Xiao Yao stared at him, a little angry, you just came, stopped playing, and lost all the money.

" Xiaoyao said: "You know I'm engaged? "

"It's hard not to know about such a sensational thing! Oh, I forgot to say congratulations. Congratulations!"

Xiaoyao looked at Fangfeng Bei quietly for a moment , then shook his head and smiled: "There are two things I want to discuss with you."

Fangfeng Bei Tou played with his mask: "Say."

"The first is to make poison for you. I can still do it for you now, but... after I get married, I will no longer help you make poison. "

Fangfeng Bei caught the mask and looked at Xiaoyao with a smile: "What about the second thing?"

"I want to get rid of the voodoo between you and me. The Tushan family's wife had a witch doctor from the Jiuli tribe when she was alive. The witch doctor said... our vood seems to be the legendary lover's voodoo. As the name suggests, this voodoo is a lover . It's just time... you and I really... don't get along! " Xiaoyao laughed self-deprecatingly, "You were very tired of this Gu last time, so I thought... when you are free, could you please go to Jiujiu with me? Li, ask the Witch King to get rid of the poison."

Fangfeng Bei stared at Xiaoyao. Under the dim lights of the casino, the smile on his lips showed a hint of coldness.

Xiao Yao said: "Even if the poison is removed, my previous promise is still valid."

Fangfeng Bei said calmly: "Okay, wait until I have time."

The two walked out of the corridor in silence . Xiaoyao returned the mask to the waiter, and walked out of the dark room with Fangfeng Bei one after another. "

This is one of my three favorite descriptions in the whole book, but Xiaoyao’s self-deprecation, questioning and sadness are everywhere in the words:

You know that I'm going to marry Honglong, but you still congratulate me. Don't you have the heart?

When I heard that what we were growing was lover's poison, I laughed at myself and said it was irrelevant, but you just acquiesced?

I propose not to use poison and remove the poison, and to cut off the connection between us. Do you accept this?

"On the street, the moon has already shone on the willow branches and the lanterns have begun to shine.

Xiao Yaoqiang smiled and said to Fangfeng Bei: "I will deliver the poison every three months. I'm leaving."

Fangfeng Bei grabbed Xiaoyao's arm. Xiaoyao didn't look back, nor did she break away from his hand. She just tensed her body and waited quietly.

After a while, Fangfeng Bei said, "Come have dinner with me."

Xiaoyao's body collapsed , she shook her head with a smile and refused: "I don't have time!"

Xiang Liu subconsciously held on to her and didn't want her to leave, but rationally told him that he couldn't keep her and could only strive for more time for the two of them to spend time together. But Xiaoyao felt sad in her heart: I was waiting for you to keep me, waiting for you to tell me not to marry, but you just asked me to accompany you to dinner.

In old man Li Rong’s tavern:

"Li Rongchang said: "If you don't like the mother and son in Qingqiu, the worst possible outcome is to settle down in Zhiyi and let Jing live with you in Zhiyi forever. Let me tell you the truth, Fangfeng Bei's days are like today and tomorrow , even if Jing made a mistake, he is better than Fang Feng Bei..."

Xiaoyao banged the wine bowl heavily on the table, stared at Li Rongchang and said, "I'm engaged, and my fiancé is not him, so - please, please, please, don't keep stepping on others! "

Xiaoyao was angry because of what Li Rongchang said about Xiang Liu, but Xiang Liu reminded her that "he is not a man suitable for women to be with" and said, "don't you know that too?" - A man who is not suitable for women is never a man. Not Fangfengbei, but Xiangliu.

One sentence left Xiaoyao speechless. This was what she had in mind when she refused to kiss Xiang Liu Duqi. It was precisely because she knew it that she kept telling herself not to love him or expect to be with him. But why do you still unconsciously look forward to and get closer when you know it clearly?

"Li Rongchang felt relieved and listened to the murmurs coming from the house. He looked a little sad and sighed: "My uncle is not a bad person, but a very good person, so...he can't forget it . "

Xiaoyao suddenly realized that what Li Rongchang had been talking about just now was actually Xiangliu. Did he know that Fangfengbei was Xiangliu? !

Na Jing must now know that Bei is Xiang Liu.

Xiaoyao looked at Jing, then at Bei , and said to Bei, "Have you finished eating? Let's go after eating!"

Bei put down the wine bowl, stood up, and said politely to Jing and Chang: "Let's go first, you two can use it slowly."

Even the punctuation in this passage is full of emotion.

"He knows Fangfeng Bei is Xiang Liu ?! " ? ! Xiaoyao was shocked and her next reaction was:

"Now Jing must know that Bei is Xiang Liu." The dash serves as a turning point and an emphasis, directly expressing Xiaoyao's concern: Bei's identity will be exposed in front of Jing.

Contrast "Na Jing must have known that Bei is Xiang Liu now", a very calm statement.

""I dare to swear on Li Rongchang's life that Jing has a deep affection for you, and you are the only one in his eyes and heart. "

Xiaoyao turned around and left . The night was quiet and the road was long. Where was her path?

…

Xiang Liu looked at the end of the dark long street and remained silent. "

Does Xiaoyao want to discuss Jing with Xiang Liu at this time? Li Rongchang said so many things about Jing in front of him, but Xiaoyao ignored him, but got angry when he stepped on Fangfeng Bei. Listening to old man Li Rong singing, he realized that Xiang Liu's identity was exposed and left with him quickly. Li Rongchang, what if Jing was very affectionate towards him? If I didn't write " Xiaoyao turned around and left ", I could still imagine her lonely heart when she heard Chang's words: It turns out that he always had me in his heart, we were just destined to have no destiny.

But he turned around and left, making it clear that he didn't want to hear it. What did he do to me now?

If Fangfengbei is just Fangfengbei, just a playmate of hers, then discussing your views on love and life with Fangfengbei is a real discussion. But Fangfeng Bei is Xiang Liu , the person she called after waking up in the thirty-seventh year, the person she hinted that she wanted to spend her life wandering on the island, and the person she still wanted to test out even though she was engaged. Discussing "companions" with him is a clear hint. This logic is like Xiaoyao singing "We will never be separated" in the big whirlpool on the sea, but if it is sung to someone other than Xiang Liu, it will have a completely different meaning.

The road is long, where is her path?

Xiaoyao asked softly: "Bei, tell me...why is it so difficult to find someone to go with you?" ""

Although I am engaged to Fenglong, Fenglong is not the person I want to be with, do you understand? The person I want to travel with is you.

"Fangfeng Bei said: "It is not difficult to find someone to go with you, but it is difficult to find someone who has the same interests, loves you, and can make the journey interesting. ""

Of course you can marry Fenglong, but do you really want to? Will he make you happy?

"Xiao Yao asked: "Is it true that you will never forget someone for the rest of your life? ""

The person you are talking about is yourself! But you are clearly by my side, and you clearly know what I am thinking, but you avoid talking about it. You are so close and so far away. If you are not willing to be this companion, how can I forget you in the future? Old man Li Rong can't forget it, and I know I can't forget it either.

""It depends on who it is. If the person you are talking about is Jing, I think it is very possible. ""

Don't look at me, there is no hope between us.

""Are you saying that he can't forget me, or that I can't forget him? ""

Are you saying that Jing will never forget me? I know that Jing has deep feelings for me. Maybe to him, I am the person who travels with me. If I leave, he will never forget me. But you said I can't forget him? I'm talking about you, what are you talking about?

If Xiaoyao's previous question "I can never forget someone in my life" really meant "Will I never forget Jing in my life?", then there is no question of what Xiang Liu meant by asking "is..." Or” is no longer true. Once a person has preset an answer in his mind and is right, he will naturally follow this line of thought instead of clarifying the question.

"Fangfeng Bei smiled: "It's up to you. ""

You know what I mean.

"Xiao Yao frowned and said angrily: "There are many good men in the wilderness! ""

Marrying Hong Leong is no big deal.

""There are many good men, but I'm afraid there are not many men who can truly put you into my heart. ""

Fenglong doesn’t take you seriously.

""What do you mean? Shouldn't I marry Honglong? ""

I know Honglong doesn’t take me seriously, but what about you? If I don’t marry Fenglong, who should I marry?

""I don't mean anything, you asked me, I just told my opinion truthfully. ""

I'm just telling you, don't be impulsive and think carefully if you want to marry Fenglong.

""Xiang Liu, I really don't understand what you are thinking about? ""

Since you think I shouldn't marry Fenglong, you also know that the person I want to go with you is you. You clearly know the affection between you and me, but you don't want to give me a little hope?

""You and I are just passers-by in this mortal world, just keeping each other company when we meet, just looking for fun! Why should you care what I think? ""

Now I can only be with you for a short time, and I can't give you any promises about the future.

Xiaoyao laughed self-deprecatingly: "I'm overthinking it!" No matter what you are thinking in your heart, it has nothing to do with me anyway! ""

I understand, you won't choose me.

In this conversation, both people are playing tricks on each other. Xiaoyao's crazy output hints, Xiang Liu moved flexibly to dodge. It's even more confusing than the conversation on the island behind the sea, and it's extremely heart-wrenching to watch.

Let me cry for a while before writing this...

Xiaoyao was silent for a while and said calmly : "Jing already knows that you are Xiang Liu. He will definitely not tell my brother, but if Fenglong knows, my brother will definitely know." You...be careful. "

Xiang Liu glanced at , but Xiao Yao avoided his gaze and asked, "Who is that old man selling donkey meat?"

"I was once a subordinate of Chi You, a survivor of the decisive battle in Jizhou. It is better to live with all the deaths on my back than to die." Xiang Liu smiled, "Actually, for a general, the best ending is to die in On the battlefield.”

It was obviously a warm summer night, but Xiaoyao felt chilly.

Having arrived at Xiaozhurong Mansion, Xiang Liu and Xiao Yao stopped at the same time, but neither left nor entered. They both just stood silently.

In the past, I felt that there were more opportunities to meet, but I don’t know since when, Xiaoyao always felt that meeting each other was less than once. Tonight, this feeling became more and more obvious.

After a while, Xiang Liu said, "Go in!"

Xiaoyao always felt that there was something she wanted to say, but when she thought about it carefully, she couldn't think of anything. She said, "Now is no better than before, so you'd better come to the Central Plains less often."

Xiaoyao originally thought that Xiang Liu would ridicule her, whether she was worried that Zhuan Xu would kill him or that he would kill Zhuan Xu, but she didn't expect that Xiang Liu said nothing and just looked at her.

Xiaoyao waited quietly , but didn't know what she was waiting for.

Xiang Liu's cold voice sounded: "Go in!"

Xiaoyao smiled and saluted Liu Lianren , then turned around and knocked on the door. The door creaked open, and Xiao Yao stepped in. When he turned around, Xiang Liu was still standing outside. He was dressed in white and had black hair. He was very handsome, but he was like the white water and black mountains in the north. Even when the wild flowers were everywhere, there was still a lingering desolation.

Xiaoyao couldn't take another step and looked at Xiang Liu steadily . The door slowly closed and Xiang Liu's figure disappeared. "

"Actually, for a general, the best outcome is to die on the battlefield."

Xiaoyao completely understood what Xiang Liu meant - it's not that I don't understand your feelings, it's not that I don't want to go with you, I have chosen my own path, and you have your own path to walk.

"You go in!"

That is your world, where are your relatives and friends. We have all gone too far on our own paths.

At this time, Xiaoyao really realized that he was going to lose Xiang Liu.

On Lantern Festival last year, the lights in the flower market were as bright as day. On the top of the willow tree in the moonlight, people meet at dusk.

On Yuan Ye this year, the moon and lights are still there. I can't see anyone from last year, and my spring shirt sleeves are filled with tears.

Every time I read the scene where the moon shines on the willow trees, the lanterns come on, and Yao Bei bids farewell in the long night, I will think of this poem, with tears streaming down my face and a loss of consciousness.

When were the ice crystal balls made? I think that's after this.

Xiaoyao had already felt that it would be difficult to see each other again in the future, and understood the reason why Xiangliu had feelings for her but could not go with her. After saying goodbye solemnly with "a bow and a bow" , Xiaoyao looked at Xiangliu steadily, as if to make him Engraved in my mind and in my heart.

"When Xiaoyao returned to her residence, Xinyue and Anian were both there. They were drawing on the clothes they bought during the day and talking lively. Seeing her coming back, they smiled and complained: "Good sister, next time you Could you please say hello to us before you suddenly disappear? Fortunately, the guy at the spice shop said you left with your friends and told us not to worry. "

Xiaoyao smiled but didn't answer.

The two of them continued to discuss what kind of dress they should make. They talked about a dress worn by a certain noble woman and wasted a good piece of fabric, laughing together.

Xiaoyao huddled on the couch, feeling confused. These people were her relatives and friends. Why did she feel so lonely? "

When Xiang Liu's figure disappeared, when she returned to her relatives and friends, Xiao Yao finally understood deeply how much she couldn't bear to leave him, how much she wanted to be with him, and how lonely she felt without him by her side. Just like Xiang Liu only understood what she was afraid of when Mei Lin tortured and killed Xiao Yao once, Xiao Yao only understood what losing Xian Liu meant to her when it seemed that they would never see each other again in this life.

"Although she likes the company of others, she is very picky about who she keeps company with. If she doesn't like it, she would rather stay alone and enjoy herself."

——2-4 <Depend on each other in life, follow each other in death>

Therefore, Xiaoyao actually made the ice crystal ball after Xiang Liu almost explicitly rejected her again. After spending four years trying to let go of him without success, she gave up the perseverance that she had always thought was very important. For a slim hope, she gave up the most courage she could to let her heart be with him. There is nothing to hide from. Of course she understood that Xiang Liu could not give up the Shennong Rebel Army. She had fully understood it as early as on Eagle Back, in the rebel barracks, and at the bottom of the sea. At the cost of her willingness to give up everything, leave Zhuanxu, and betray Xuanyuan and Gao Xin, she asked Xiang Liu if he would take her away.

Although, the result was that Xiang Liu completely cut off any possibility between them, and he let Bei die without saying goodbye.

But anyway, before Bei died, he took Xiaoyao away from the wedding. This should be something Xiang Liu has always wanted to do. He took Xiaoyao away as Bei, which was his inner response to the ice crystal ball, "I am willing to take you away." But he let Bei die out of reason. To Xiaoyao's response, "I'm sorry, we can't do it anymore."

Xiaoyao said from the beginning that she was very passive and would not take the initiative to fight for it. She once said to Xiang Liu:

""In the relationship between people, one person must take the first step. Needless to say, it goes without saying between men and women. This is also true for parents and children. When the children are unaware, parents will start to pay. I have always been selfish and would never be the one to take the first step, but between Anian and I, I decided to be the one to take the first step. It's not because of how good or worthy she is, but because of my father and Zhuanxu. I am willing to pay for A-Nian first for my father and Zhuanxu. ""

——1-13 <The peach blossoms shine brightly>

However, between Yao and Liu, after thirty-seven years under the sea, it was Xiaoyao who took the first step. When Xiang Liu had not given her any promise and the possibility of choosing her was very small, she first gave verbal hints. , and finally the ice crystal ball confessed. Don't say that Xiaoyao should be more obvious and straightforward. This is the biggest and bravest step that a person like her who extremely suppresses her true feelings, attaches great importance to her family's position, and is extremely unwilling to give trust and expectations can take. step.

We understand it, and so does Xiang Liu.

But what would happen if you took her away? He will not give up the morality in his heart, will not let Xiaoyao endure the pain of fighting with her relatives, and he does not want Xiaoyao to lose her after falling deeply in love. He can make her "strong enough to protect herself and have somewhere to go" , but he himself is not the right person for her to have "someone to rely on" . It's not about ability or willingness, it's about suitability. The problem between them has been in this "fit" from the beginning, not in feelings.

Xiaoyao's confession to Xiang Liu's ice crystal ball is her only fight against fate, bloodline, position, and her only fight for love in the book.

When a person constantly promises you and tells you that he likes you, you will naturally have expectations for him, and any efforts you make will seem to give you a positive result.

But when a person keeps rejecting you and hints that he can't be with you for the rest of his life, you obviously can't see a glimmer of light, but you still want to bet everything on yourself for that little bit of hope.

Tell me, why is this?

So, should we still blame Xiaoyao for not being brave enough?

In this almost hopeless state of mind, the Mermaid's tentative hand was already the limit of what she could do. If she really asked Xiang Liu about his feelings clearly and put everything on the table, asking him to give her a clear answer or promise, then I would think that she doesn't love Xiang Liu that much.

Because the basic tendency of love is dedication, which comes from the heart and helps the loved one do everything they expect. If she knew that Xiang Liu already had the loyalty of Shennong Yijun, and still forced him to choose between loyalty and love, then in my heart, her love for Xiang Liu is not that deep, and it is nothing more than that of Zhuan Xu or Zhuan Xu. The extent to which Jing likes her and wants to possess her.

Just because of deep love, Xiaoyao will not force Xiangliu; just because of deep love, Xiangliu will respect Xiaoyao. Both sides live up to themselves and fulfill each other within their own capabilities.