Having a brother who committed suicide, this hurts to read SO much. As a family member surviver who also struggles…
I am so happy that you shared this because this message needs to be heard. Just because some medications don’t work it doesn’t mean that none will. You just need to find the right one and the right dose. Meds can sometimes give the feeling of a false happiness, like your sorrows are still there yet you’re suddenly able to smile. But even that passes because suddenly the smile becomes real and all the things that seemed so damn important and overwhelmingly painful start to seem trivial. False happiness or not the meds give you a CHANCE to find something you enjoy. When you do, hang on to that until you find another and another. The meds will eventually have time to work and you’ll realize how absolutely unimportant those things that have been troubling you so deeply truly were and that they pass! Yes, more hardship will come, that’s literally just a part of life. But they always pass too and in between them you can find beauty and happiness in life. The kind that makes you feel like - I’m glad I lived and am able to experience this happiness.
Therapy WHILE taking the meds is a MUST. They key is changing the way you think and the way you handle life’s challenges and adversities. It’s even possible to be taken off the meds eventually once your mind becomes strong enough. Note that I said TAKEN OFF, not just that you chose to stop. But in most cases this is a lifelong battle. Even if you’re taken off you may realize you need to go back on the meds again years later. But there’s NOTHING wrong with that! Many people can’t be taken off but, again, there’s nothing wrong with that! If you had to take heart meds or seizure meds to live would you keep trying to stop having to take it? What about diabetic who have to take insulin? Do you look down on them because they need those meds to live? Depression is just an illness you can’t see but it’s just as physical as it is mental. So why feel badly for needing to be treated for your illness. When someone has a stomach bug do you look down on them for being sick? No. Then why look down on yourself for being unwell too? Stop it!
I can go on and on but I wanted to share this because after reading her letter many people will want to accept giving up, because they can relate to her and what she says in it makes them feel like it’s okay to make that choice too.
I want to say, even if you’re no longer willing to consider those around you - which I get is difficult to do when you feel like hell anyway - please remember that you CAN be happy. You CAN find your happiness. What if the day you decided to leave was mere days before your life took that turn? How would you feel if you realized after what you gave up on. You can’t then change your mind.
Also, you may have it set in your mind what you want that can make you happy. Without it you feel like life is pointless. What if what can really make you happy isn’t what you think it is? What if there’s something you never even thought of that can actually make you 1,000 times happier, but you never knew because you just hadn’t experienced it yet? It almost always is the case that the things we want so badly but don’t get when and how we wanted, are actually given to us later on but in a way that’s completely different from what we’d been so focused on, and it’s ALWAYS way better than what we’d hoped for in the first place. People just don’t pay attention, so they don’t realize it. But if you look back you can often see that things happened that way but you were so fixated on what YOU wanted and the way YOU wanted it that you completely failed to see when you finally got it. What usually comes with that realization too is that had you gotten it the way and the time you’d been fixated on, things actually wouldn’t have worked out the way you planned. That it was for the best that it didn’t turn out that way.
Anyway, I’ll stop here. I hope this helps someone.
Out of all the C-drama modern romances I've watched, this one is definitely in the upper quartile. It has some…
I agree with everything you said except for You Are My Glory. I loved that one too. Not saying you should too. Just that literally everything else you said was a perfect match for me.
I’m on here trying to figure that out! I was fine until they showed the car being empty. Now I’m starting to think they both died at the building. That she shot herself. Him waking up and saying all that stuff was just a final fantasy as they died. It would also explain why they put so much focus on their fantasies before that.
Can u tell me the ending?Did the main leads end together 🤔
Exactly. I was fine until they panned around and showed that the car was empty. I’m literally on here trying to figure out what the heck that meant. I thought they’d both be slumped over. Was that just another one of their fantasies as they were dying? I’m starting to think that she did kill herself and they both died back at that place but him saying they should live and getting out of there was just another one of their fantasies.
Stumbled on this drama without any expectation ... probably the best way to watch this ... binge watched in one…
At one point when he was being tortured I thought ML could be Joker. She’d be his Harley Quinn. The way he laughs deliriously in response to the pain there was totally Joker-like.
Right! Why was the car empty? What was that supposed to infer? Do you know? When it pulled off the road I assumed they both dead from blood loss from their wounds but when the panned around to show inside the car no one was there. Why?? It’s not like they were hunched over either. I’m confused.
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Untreated ANYTHING can be terminal.
Therapy WHILE taking the meds is a MUST. They key is changing the way you think and the way you handle life’s challenges and adversities. It’s even possible to be taken off the meds eventually once your mind becomes strong enough. Note that I said TAKEN OFF, not just that you chose to stop. But in most cases this is a lifelong battle. Even if you’re taken off you may realize you need to go back on the meds again years later. But there’s NOTHING wrong with that! Many people can’t be taken off but, again, there’s nothing wrong with that! If you had to take heart meds or seizure meds to live would you keep trying to stop having to take it? What about diabetic who have to take insulin? Do you look down on them because they need those meds to live? Depression is just an illness you can’t see but it’s just as physical as it is mental. So why feel badly for needing to be treated for your illness. When someone has a stomach bug do you look down on them for being sick? No. Then why look down on yourself for being unwell too? Stop it!
I can go on and on but I wanted to share this because after reading her letter many people will want to accept giving up, because they can relate to her and what she says in it makes them feel like it’s okay to make that choice too.
I want to say, even if you’re no longer willing to consider those around you - which I get is difficult to do when you feel like hell anyway - please remember that you CAN be happy. You CAN find your happiness. What if the day you decided to leave was mere days before your life took that turn? How would you feel if you realized after what you gave up on. You can’t then change your mind.
Also, you may have it set in your mind what you want that can make you happy. Without it you feel like life is pointless. What if what can really make you happy isn’t what you think it is? What if there’s something you never even thought of that can actually make you 1,000 times happier, but you never knew because you just hadn’t experienced it yet? It almost always is the case that the things we want so badly but don’t get when and how we wanted, are actually given to us later on but in a way that’s completely different from what we’d been so focused on, and it’s ALWAYS way better than what we’d hoped for in the first place. People just don’t pay attention, so they don’t realize it. But if you look back you can often see that things happened that way but you were so fixated on what YOU wanted and the way YOU wanted it that you completely failed to see when you finally got it. What usually comes with that realization too is that had you gotten it the way and the time you’d been fixated on, things actually wouldn’t have worked out the way you planned. That it was for the best that it didn’t turn out that way.
Anyway, I’ll stop here. I hope this helps someone.
Just a thought.
Either way I loved it!
I LOVE IT!