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I agree, I recall it was mentioned that he refused to leave the formation because if he would, she would burn to ashes as she couldn't leave it, even not alive anymore. He did the best thing he could think of at this moment, which was preserving her body from being completely gone.

He chose his path and he will do everything to make it work. I think it's also kind of a mutual understanding between XL and TSJ. It's not something they were forced to do or a real transaction. They're helping each other (again, in a twisted way) knowing they both want XY to live well.

I don't even understand what's wrong with people wanting a simple life. Is not having so-called aspirations supposed to be something to be ashamed of?

TSJ already lived a life of a "golden child". He had it all that many people dream of and at the end of the day that was the reason his own brother was envious to the level of making him almost dead. His whole family was driven by aspirations and they all were just toxic, hurting each other repeatedly. Nobody noticed him as him, only as this perfect TSJ, future leader of Tushan clan.

He may be a "puppy slave" when it comes to XY, but with his good nature he finally found in his life someone who he can be fully himself with. He doesn't care what others think of him. He only cares what she thinks. After years of living to be perfectly viewed by everyone else, I think he deserves it. He wants to be a puppy, she likes him being puppy and what is wrong with it really? He does exactly what they agreed on. He trusts and gives first so XY can also open herself. Also, when needed he can show his protective side.

XY has feelings for TSJ exactly because of his good nature. He's doing everything to not hurt anyone. What you call an act of stupidity because he refused to kill his own brother is also something that XY respects about him. And it's not even about compassion - TSJ just refused to continue this cycle of violence and hatred. Unlike TSH, he didn't forget that they are brothers. He gave him a pass hoping that after venting his frustration and anger, TSH will let the past go. It was not long time ago when he realized what's really going on.

In the episodes 7&8 it was clearly stated why he didn't fight: he thought he didn't stand a chance anymore. I would not blame him for letting her go, if it only would make her happy. How comes something people praise XL about is at the same time something TSJ is being hated for?

[Trigger warning for content below: Sui**de]

I do not support the romanticization of sui**de in the media but at the same time I try to understand the reason behind his decision at that moment. He was deeply disturbed. If not for her, he would be dead long time ago. She literally gave him a reason to live by finally seeing and cherishing the real him.

Additionally, as I recall, she was already dead and what he did, he literally preserved her from being burnt to dust with his own body. All three of them saved her. If any of them would not show on time, she would not survive. We don't know how much of his power he had to use to preserve her from becoming ashes.

And he didn't die back then, he lost his will to live (meaning, he was deeply depressed what made him slowly dying for years).

Thank you, that's what I'm also thinking. TSJ is the most misunderstood character of this drama. The mutual respect between XL and TSJ, even if they're rivals (in a twisted way, but still) is also something people forget about when judging TSJ.

XL is not stupid, he would never root for a man who would make XY unhappy. He also wanted to stop this wedding and TSJ gave him a good opportunity to do it without showing his real feelings for XY. He just did in in his own way, as it would be expected of nine-headed-demon.

Yeah, I also have a soft spot for a two-headed-dog guy

This is going to be a very long weekend...

Well said! 👏👏👏

That’s why not limiting myself to just one ship is the best option ❤️

That’s true, the moment he realized who she is and what he’s done to her was so heartbreaking. For me it was kinda scary how brutal he can be and yeah breaking her legs wasn’t necessary at all, he had milion different ways to stop her from escaping. But I also understand it was because of his protective nature towards people close to him.
He made efforts to get along with them because he had his own agenda but it was also noticeable how he’s been having a good time with Wen Xiaoliu. He just had other priorities at his plate back then.

I like your point of view, you’re up to something with it. When I think about it there was a chance if they would meet again earlier or were never apart.

The separation made a great damage to their relationship, especially hurting XY and leaving her with attachment issues. She repeated it many times, she’s used to being left by people close to her and unfortunately CX was also one of them. What doesn’t sit right with me too is how badly he treated her before finding out her true identity. There were many signs that she may be XY but he chose to ignore them all and that brought her ever more pain. Both XL and TSJ quite quickly realized she’s a woman despite meeting her for the first time. It’s like she was right in front of him but he couldn’t see her.

He first asked about TSJ and she was hesitant, then asked about Shiqi and she said yes.

Just checked to be sure:
S2, Episode 6, 30:49
XL: Are you willing to marry Chishui Fenglong?
XY: No, I’m not.
XL: Are you willing to marry Tushan Jing?
XY: …
XL: Are you willing to marry Ye Shiqi?
XY: Yes, I am.
XL: Who do you want to spend your life with?
XY: …

I’m still during my rewatch of season 1 (last few episodes left) and just got to the scene which perfectly describes what you mentioned about XY.

Episode 34, 00:33:16, dialogue between XY and TSJ
XY: “For me, I am selfish and heartless. My first reaction is always self-preservation and I’m unwilling to trust others. I always think that people’s heart are changeable. It’s not easy for you to tolerate me.”
TSJ: “I told you, I’m willing to trust and make efforts first.”

I still consider it a miracle that he managed to be the way he is after all of his experiences and the horrible family he came from.

Even his mother was a cruel person, it’s her fault TSJ and TSH parted their ways and be the way she treated TSH, he’s venting all of his anger and remorse on TSJ. The memories of them being good brothers were ruined so fast when she showed up.

I think that as long as he (and his evil grandmother, too!) believes he spent the night with a women without his consent it may be considered SA. He was drugged, he was made to believe he will have a son with that woman. Even if they “didn’t make it” it’s still emotionally disturbing.

I was heartbroken when I saw him drinking and being all emotionally wrecked after he woke up the next morning.

That’s a really good point you made about XY’s character. She’s either avoiding or pushing people away to make sure she wouldn’t suffer. That makes it harder for her to really engage in relationships.

They made me cry so hard with the ending of ep6. The memories of the old good times they all spend together as family, living simple life, sometimes struggling for money. But all of them were so happy. And the fact that TSJ was still considered as a part of family, coming back every few years was my last straw, I bawled my eyes out 😢

Every time I think about it how his own grandmother literally helped that piece of trash FFYY to literally SA him my blood boils. TSJ has the worst family.

Let’s say she’s not at her best moment in her life and she became kinda toxic recently. The prolonged depression and feeling of loneliness made her acting like that, it’s a self preservation. She chooses to reject him first to not be hurt again.

I guess that’s why she wasn’t able to answer when XL asked who she wants to spend her life with. Because she wants to spend her life with all three of them and that an impossible choice.

She even hesitated when asked if she would like to marry TSJ. Deep down she knows that TSJ is more like a title, person bounded by the family responsibilities. She gave her heart away to Shiqi, who was the most genuine and free. TSJ himself considers Shiqi as his true self.

I was ugly crying at the end of ep6. I watched this episode during my break at work. I had a call on camera after that 🤡