I wrote a poem for episode 4, hope you guys like it
Even If We Were Even, Why Do I Still Belong to You
You saved me twice. And I saved you twice. We should be even, right?
Then why is it that no matter where I go, it is always you that stays in my mind.
Xia Liu Yi got everything he once fought for. Revenge tasted exactly how he imagined it would. Cold. Sharp. Empty.
He became the boss. He stood at the top. Yet the nights refused to let him rest.
Sleep never came easily, not until he stepped into that familiar house again.
He ChuSanās house. His room.
The moment he entered, the silence wrapped around him like something gentle, something known. Every corner whispered memories. Every breath felt like home.
It was there, on that quiet bed filled with the warmth he never admitted he missed, that Xia Liu Yi finally closed his eyes and slept without fear.
Days passed without seeing each other. But missing someone does not need words.
Just one moment was enough.
On a crowded bus, between strangers and passing streets, their eyes met.
Only for a second.
No smiles. No gestures.
But in that fleeting glance, they understood everything.
You are safe. You are here. I am still yours.
Graduation day arrived like a dream.
He ChuSan stood among the best, years of effort shining quietly behind his calm expression. His father was there, proud and present, watching the son who had made it to the top, who was about to leave for a future far away, across the ocean, into a new world.
Everyone important was there.
And yet, his eyes searched for only one person.
Time passed. The ceremony went on. Applause filled the air.
But his heart waited.
And then, just when it almost hurt too much to hope,
Xia Liu Yi appeared.
No grand entrance. No words to explain the distance between them.
Just him, standing there, holding a single bouquet of flowers.
Simple. Quiet.
But to He ChuSan, it was enough to make everything bloom again.
Because it was never about the flowers. It was about who brought them.
In that moment, crowds disappeared, time softened, and all the distance between them quietly dissolved.
Some loves do not arrive loudly. They return slowly, step by step, heartbeat by heartbeat, until one day you realize
they never truly left.
And maybe they were never meant to be even. Because some connections are not about balance.
Best BL airing right now in 2026 and so underrated. I really wish it had more episodes.
Itās always the hidden gems that end up being the best.
No offence to Duang With You, but how is that rated 9/10 compared to this? The plot, cinematography, chemistry, and attention to detail, especially the 80s setting, are on another level. This series is genuinely so good, yet it has a lower score and way less recognition than others.
Iām honestly so confused right now š The flashbacks and present timeline keep switching, and since they look the same, I canāt tell whatās going on.
Rewatching episode 18 was honestly so heartbreaking.
I get that they were following orders, but how can a group of strong men gang up on a helpless old woman? Donāt they have a mother or grandmother? How do you bring yourself to hurt and kill someone so innocent, someone who was just trying to protect her grandson?
The village massacre was so painful to watch. My blood was boiling the entire timeā¦ and honestly, thatās what makes this drama so powerful and addictive.
I agreed with you and I literally wrote below 100 times over and over again.
Please consider watching this on GagaOOLala, and if it doesnāt work then their YouTube channel instead of illegal platforms. YouTube is for FREE.
The actors, crew, and creators worked hard to bring this story to life. They deserve to be supported, not pirated.
If you donāt want to pay or canāt afford it, thatās your personal choice, but donāt come here and promote illegal websites like itās acceptable. Itās disrespectful to the people who made the series and to fans who choose to support it the right way.
Sharing illegal streaming links is not only unlawful but also deeply disrespectful to the entire production team. Promoting piracy doesnāt just harm the industry, it takes away opportunities from the very people who work so hard to create the content we love.
If you truly care about BL and want to see more quality shows in the future, support them through legal channels. Thatās how the industry grows and itās the least we can do.
I have not read the novel, but after watching episode 3, I felt something I could not keep to myself. I needed to write this.
Episode 3 broke something quiet inside me.
Liu Yi and his sister were born into a house where love never learned their names. Their mother disappeared like a fading echo, and their father, who should have held them close, drowned himself in gambling and drink. His hands did not protect, they struck. His voice did not comfort, it ordered. Steal, survive, endure.
They were only children, too small to understand why the world had already turned against them. They ran, again and again, chasing a freedom they could not keep. Every escape ended the same way, dragged back into the dark they feared most.
At twelve, the world grew even crueler. Their father tried to sell his own daughter, reducing her life to a price whispered in the shadows. So they ran once more, not for freedom this time, but for their lives.
An alley became their end, or so it seemed. Blood, fear, and fists falling without mercy. They would have died there, forgotten, if not for Qing Long, who stepped in like a hand reaching into the abyss. He gave them something they had never known. A home.
But even kindness carries its own quiet tragedies.
Liu Yi grew, carrying scars no one could see. At twenty, he gave his life to protect Qing Long, as if repaying a debt that love had never asked for. With his final wish, he asked Qing Long to become his brother in law, never knowing that Qing Longās heart had always belonged to him. Love stayed unspoken, buried beneath duty, forced into silence.
You think the pain would end there. That surviving childhood was the hardest part. But life was not finished with him.
Adulthood only sharpened the blade. His sister and Qing Long, the only pieces of home he had left, died before his eyes. The world did not just take them, it blamed him. Framed for a crime he never committed, a double murder that stained his name. A gunshot followed, as if fate itself wanted to make sure he would fall.
And yet, somehow, he lived.
In the wreckage of everything he lost, he found He ChuSan. Not as salvation, not as a miracle, but as a small, stubborn light.
The kind that flickers at the end of a long, endless tunnel the kind you almost do not believe in until it is the only thing left guiding you forward.
I agree with you, when it comes to China, no one really does BL better in terms of plot, acting, cinematography, and those non-cringey sound effects. Weāve honestly been spoiled with gems like Revenged Love, ABO Desire, Kill to Love, and To My Shore last year, and now this one this year, straight 10/10s for me. Sometimes I just imagine what it would be like if BL wasnāt restricted thereā¦ China could easily dominate the industry, even surpassing Thai and Korean productions.
Okay but can we TALK about that NC scene in ep 2?? š„š³ Likeā¦ Korean BLs usually play it safe, but THIS?? They really said āno limits.ā And the peach?? šš I was NOT ready. That was bold bold. You can totally see the Thai BL influence creeping in and honestlyā¦ Iām here for it.
Idk if you were focused but if you noticed, Solar run away and Pobmek just kept chasing after him. In the end…
All good, but you donāt necessarily have to leave the house. You could call the hospital and get advice first. If you explain that you canāt leave, they can arrange for a doctor to come and assess you at home.
Where Iām from, we have doctors who can visit your house and treat you, so you donāt always have to go out. Iām sure Thailand probably has a similar service as well.
I know itās just a series and itās not real, but if this were my boyfriend, I would be really scared and would want advice from a doctor on what to do next. I wouldnāt leave it untreated overnight, no matter how tired I was.
Idk if you were focused but if you noticed, Solar run away and Pobmek just kept chasing after him. In the end…
I did focus and watched every single scene in the episode. How did you know I wasnāt paying attention? Everyone interprets scenes differently, which is exactly why discussion boards like this exist.
If he was tired, he could have called the hospital, he didnāt necessarily need to leave the house. My point is that if you leave something untreated, it can get worse.
I understand your point and I do agree with it. I just donāt agree with being told to āfocus.ā
Great first episode! But a couple things frustrated me. If this happened in real life and your boyfriend got into a car accident, lost his memory, and started acting like a 7-year-old, that would clearly be a serious brain injury. Pobmek should be taking him straight back to the hospital for another check-up. Also, when Solarās mom called and he lied saying Solar was fineā¦ how is that āfineā? The guy literally lost his memory and sometimes mentally reverts to a seven-year-old. Not taking him back to the doctor and hiding it from his mom just made the situation feel a bit unrealistic to me.
The language is Cantonese. People in Hong Kong speak Cantonese, and Iāve watched Hong Kong dramas all my life,…
The story is set in Kowloon Walled City, which is in Hong Kong. Iāve also been to Hong Kong before, so a lot of the scenery really feels like it was filmed there. But if it was actually filmed in China and they just made it look like Hong Kong to avoid Chinese censorship, then thatās understandable.
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Even If We Were Even, Why Do I Still Belong to You
You saved me twice.
And I saved you twice.
We should be even, right?
Then why is it that no matter where I go,
it is always you that stays in my mind.
Xia Liu Yi got everything he once fought for.
Revenge tasted exactly how he imagined it would.
Cold. Sharp. Empty.
He became the boss.
He stood at the top.
Yet the nights refused to let him rest.
Sleep never came easily,
not until he stepped into that familiar house again.
He ChuSanās house.
His room.
The moment he entered,
the silence wrapped around him like something gentle, something known.
Every corner whispered memories.
Every breath felt like home.
It was there,
on that quiet bed filled with the warmth he never admitted he missed,
that Xia Liu Yi finally closed his eyes
and slept without fear.
Days passed without seeing each other.
But missing someone does not need words.
Just one moment was enough.
On a crowded bus,
between strangers and passing streets,
their eyes met.
Only for a second.
No smiles.
No gestures.
But in that fleeting glance,
they understood everything.
You are safe.
You are here.
I am still yours.
Graduation day arrived like a dream.
He ChuSan stood among the best,
years of effort shining quietly behind his calm expression.
His father was there, proud and present,
watching the son who had made it to the top,
who was about to leave for a future far away,
across the ocean, into a new world.
Everyone important was there.
And yet,
his eyes searched for only one person.
Time passed.
The ceremony went on.
Applause filled the air.
But his heart waited.
And then,
just when it almost hurt too much to hope,
Xia Liu Yi appeared.
No grand entrance.
No words to explain the distance between them.
Just him,
standing there,
holding a single bouquet of flowers.
Simple.
Quiet.
But to He ChuSan,
it was enough to make everything bloom again.
Because it was never about the flowers.
It was about who brought them.
In that moment,
crowds disappeared,
time softened,
and all the distance between them quietly dissolved.
Some loves do not arrive loudly.
They return slowly,
step by step,
heartbeat by heartbeat,
until one day you realize
they never truly left.
And maybe they were never meant to be even.
Because some connections are not about balance.
They are about belonging.
Itās always the hidden gems that end up being the best.
No offence to Duang With You, but how is that rated 9/10 compared to this? The plot, cinematography, chemistry, and attention to detail, especially the 80s setting, are on another level. This series is genuinely so good, yet it has a lower score and way less recognition than others.
The series was shot in Thailand and dubbed in Cantonese, but the original language is Mandarin and all the actors are from China.
But I agreed with you Sammyās Children's Day is the best airing BL at the movement
I get that they were following orders, but how can a group of strong men gang up on a helpless old woman? Donāt they have a mother or grandmother? How do you bring yourself to hurt and kill someone so innocent, someone who was just trying to protect her grandson?
The village massacre was so painful to watch. My blood was boiling the entire timeā¦ and honestly, thatās what makes this drama so powerful and addictive.
Please consider watching this on GagaOOLala, and if it doesnāt work then their YouTube channel instead of illegal platforms. YouTube is for FREE.
The actors, crew, and creators worked hard to bring this story to life. They deserve to be supported, not pirated.
If you donāt want to pay or canāt afford it, thatās your personal choice, but donāt come here and promote illegal websites like itās acceptable. Itās disrespectful to the people who made the series and to fans who choose to support it the right way.
Sharing illegal streaming links is not only unlawful but also deeply disrespectful to the entire production team. Promoting piracy doesnāt just harm the industry, it takes away opportunities from the very people who work so hard to create the content we love.
If you truly care about BL and want to see more quality shows in the future, support them through legal channels. Thatās how the industry grows and itās the least we can do.
Ep 3 at 18:54 mark
Episode 3 broke something quiet inside me.
Liu Yi and his sister were born into a house where love never learned their names. Their mother disappeared like a fading echo, and their father, who should have held them close, drowned himself in gambling and drink. His hands did not protect, they struck. His voice did not comfort, it ordered. Steal, survive, endure.
They were only children, too small to understand why the world had already turned against them. They ran, again and again, chasing a freedom they could not keep. Every escape ended the same way, dragged back into the dark they feared most.
At twelve, the world grew even crueler. Their father tried to sell his own daughter, reducing her life to a price whispered in the shadows. So they ran once more, not for freedom this time, but for their lives.
An alley became their end, or so it seemed. Blood, fear, and fists falling without mercy. They would have died there, forgotten, if not for Qing Long, who stepped in like a hand reaching into the abyss. He gave them something they had never known. A home.
But even kindness carries its own quiet tragedies.
Liu Yi grew, carrying scars no one could see. At twenty, he gave his life to protect Qing Long, as if repaying a debt that love had never asked for. With his final wish, he asked Qing Long to become his brother in law, never knowing that Qing Longās heart had always belonged to him. Love stayed unspoken, buried beneath duty, forced into silence.
You think the pain would end there. That surviving childhood was the hardest part.
But life was not finished with him.
Adulthood only sharpened the blade. His sister and Qing Long, the only pieces of home he had left, died before his eyes. The world did not just take them, it blamed him. Framed for a crime he never committed, a double murder that stained his name. A gunshot followed, as if fate itself wanted to make sure he would fall.
And yet, somehow, he lived.
In the wreckage of everything he lost, he found He ChuSan. Not as salvation, not as a miracle, but as a small, stubborn light.
The kind that flickers at the end of a long, endless tunnel
the kind you almost do not believe in
until it is the only thing left guiding you forward.
Sometimes I just imagine what it would be like if BL wasnāt restricted thereā¦ China could easily dominate the industry, even surpassing Thai and Korean productions.
Likeā¦ Korean BLs usually play it safe, but THIS?? They really said āno limits.ā
And the peach?? šš I was NOT ready. That was bold bold.
You can totally see the Thai BL influence creeping in and honestlyā¦ Iām here for it.
Where Iām from, we have doctors who can visit your house and treat you, so you donāt always have to go out. Iām sure Thailand probably has a similar service as well.
I know itās just a series and itās not real, but if this were my boyfriend, I would be really scared and would want advice from a doctor on what to do next. I wouldnāt leave it untreated overnight, no matter how tired I was.
If he was tired, he could have called the hospital, he didnāt necessarily need to leave the house. My point is that if you leave something untreated, it can get worse.
I understand your point and I do agree with it. I just donāt agree with being told to āfocus.ā
If this happened in real life and your boyfriend got into a car accident, lost his memory, and started acting like a 7-year-old, that would clearly be a serious brain injury. Pobmek should be taking him straight back to the hospital for another check-up.
Also, when Solarās mom called and he lied saying Solar was fineā¦ how is that āfineā? The guy literally lost his memory and sometimes mentally reverts to a seven-year-old.
Not taking him back to the doctor and hiding it from his mom just made the situation feel a bit unrealistic to me.